Happy Life [Rebirth]

"I do not know."

Gu Tingsheng turned to look at me with some doubts on his face.

"I really don't know." I lay on the bed, rolled to Gu Tingsheng's side, and stood next to him, my tone full of apology, apology to my parents.

"I was eight years old when the car accident happened." I held Gu Tingsheng's hand. The only thing I remember now is that sad feeling, but it was also very light.

"It has been 26 years since my last life and this life, and I can't remember the faces of my father and mother for a long time."

Gu Tingsheng stretched out his hand, he hugged my body, Gu Tingsheng patted my back lightly, he treated me like a child and coaxed me.

"Sometimes I even forget what my grandma looks like." Gu Tingsheng told me, "I understand you, Xiaolu, my dearest relative also passed away when I was young."

"But when she died, I cried out heartbreakingly." Gu Tingsheng hugged me into his arms, and he whispered into my ear, "I thought that I would never die in my life." Forget about my grandma, after I lost her, I always thought, I am alone, I am so weak, how will I live alone without my grandma.”

"But after so many years, the only thing I remember is that I was sad at the time, so sad that I thought for the rest of my life that I would never feel happy again."

Gu Tingsheng said: "But many times, when I was growing up, I found that I rarely think of my grandma anymore."

Time is a terrible existence, I was lying in Gu Tingsheng's arms, I suddenly thought, after I passed away for many years in my previous life, Gu Tingsheng should gradually get out of the sadness of my death.

Although every time I think of him hugging me at that time, his howling is so painful and real, it makes me deeply doubt that this person is really in pain and can't live anymore when he makes such a sound.

But when I thought about it, luckily he didn't. Gu Tingsheng lived his last life well. Although he didn't have a wife, he had a career and children. I thought he was such a good person, and he must have educated his children well.As he said, he lived a life of more than 70 years, and then died with his children.

I think elder brother's previous life was a very good life, even without me, but it was also very good.

At seven o'clock the next morning, Gu Tingsheng and I put our schoolbags on our backs, and the two of us were fully dressed and ready to go out. Xia Wanwan went out earlier than me, and she left home after six o'clock to climb the mountain.

There is a direct bus on the way to the suburban cemetery. This bus is very interesting. One terminal is the cemetery, and the other terminal is the Tram Headquarters Station of the Municipal Maternal and Children’s Hospital. A bus just happened to take a person from birth to The road of death, this line is also called the road of life by the people living in Jincheng.

Gu Tingsheng and I went to the copy shop to print out the admission notice, and Gu Tingsheng also made a copy. I asked him strangely, "Why do you want to make a copy?"

After leaving the printing shop, Gu Tingsheng told me: "Burn mine too. Aunt and uncle may not see that I went to Jincheng University like you, so I think, yo, this guy at least deserves his academic qualifications." Come to my baby."

Me: "..." I found that Gu Tingsheng is sometimes real, quite humorous, really...

Gu Tingsheng went to the flower shop to buy flowers again. He asked my aunt and uncle what kind of flowers they like. I thought about it for a long time and still had no impression. The only impression I have of my parents is that when I think of them, my heart is full of light. And lingering sorrow.

In the end, Gu Tingsheng had no choice but to buy a bunch of yellow chrysanthemums and a bunch of carnations, and wrapped them with black ribbons and white flower paper. Gu Tingsheng asked if he wanted to buy some fruits and paper money. After deliberation, I suddenly remembered that I should buy wine .

Gu Tingsheng and I went to the cemetery. We had to take the subway to Beishan Park, and then take the bus from there. I checked the time after getting on the bus. It was already 08:30. The two of us sat in the double seat at the back of the bus.

I leaned on his shoulder and didn't say anything unnecessary along the way. Many people in the car saw the two of us holding the flowers wrapped in white paper and black ribbons, and they all knew what was going on.

It took two hours for this bus ride all the way to the terminal, and the scenery outside the bus window became more and more desolate, and then a large wheat field appeared in front of my eyes.

Holding the bouquet, I couldn't help but put my head close to the car window. In the northern summer at ten o'clock, the sun was as strong as gold and slanted down. Those wheats hung their heads, and the long and full ears of wheat were illuminated by the strong sunlight into a piece of gold. .

At this time, there were not many people in the car, and I felt Gu Tingsheng's chest pressed against my back, he hugged me from behind, and buried his head in the hollow of my shoulder.

I felt his breath, the warm breath of life, I pointed out the window and said to him, "Tingsheng, look outside."

Gu Tingsheng raised his head. He looked out the window for a long time and didn't speak. I also felt a little embarrassed. I really haven't been to places outside the city.When I was a child, I was used to high-rise buildings made of concrete and steel bars. The sunlight poured down from the gaps between the high-rise buildings. I stayed in the city of steel for too long, and it was the first time I saw a vast wheat field with no end in sight. There is actually a feeling that life is like this in my heart.

Life is a vigorous, upward, and powerful existence. It is fragile in my cognition, but at the same time it is also stronger than I thought.

When the bus arrived at the stop, the female voice said, Dear passengers, you have arrived at the terminal Beishan Cemetery Station.At this moment, Gu Tingsheng, I and three middle-aged men in black and white trousers were left in the car.

After getting off the bus, it was obvious that the five of us were all the same way. We had nothing to say all the way. After entering the cemetery, we walked to different places. I searched for my memory and turned left in the ninth row. Gu Tingsheng followed quietly with flowers in his arms. behind me.

At this time, the sun was already very hot. I walked to the tombstone, and the tombstones of my father and mother were next to each other. In the photo, their faces were still very young. Gu Tingsheng and I stood in front of the tombstone and bowed to the tombstone. placed in front of the tombstone.

I knelt down and took out the wine from my school bag. It was very cheap white wine. I remembered some trivial memories about my father. It was about a quarrel. My father liked to drink when he was alive. Had a fight over the issue.

In fact, it was just cheap white wine. I have forgotten the introduction of the quarrel, but when I think about it now, I can’t help but think, if I know that the next day is the last day of life, maybe my father should drink to his heart’s content the day before, and my mother should too. Do what you have always wanted to do.

But no one knows that his life will end the next day, and no one knows whether he can reach the day when he grows old in his destiny.

I looked at my father on the tombstone for a long time, unscrewed the wine cap, Gu Tingsheng took out a wet towel and wiped the photo on the tombstone, and then started to pull the weeds around.

I poured wine in front of my father's tombstone. In the photo, he smiled mechanically, with a deliberate smile that people face the camera. In the photo, he is also very young, he looks only in his 20s. I heard this This photo is a photo of his ID when he took the exam when he was in college.

After spilling the wine, I put the cap on the wine bottle and put it in front of the tombstone, and went to see my mother. The photo of my mother is also very young. Like my father, I used photos when I was in my 20s. In the black and white photo, my mother has a picture A delicate and beautiful face.

Gu Tingsheng said, "Xiao Lu, you look like Auntie."

"Auntie is very beautiful." Gu Tingsheng said again, he took two steps back from the tombstone, and bowed to the tombstone again.

I took out the lighter and lit the copy of the admission notice. Gu Tingsheng said, "Don't you say something?"

"say what?"

Facing the photo on the tombstone, I was embarrassed to tell Gu Tingsheng, but I actually felt very strange looking at these two people, and more emotions in my heart were emptiness and nowhere to go, but it was not the remembrance and grief for relatives.

I was a little at a loss, looking at the burning flames, the sun was too hot, and my forehead was sweating, I thought a lot, said that I am living a good life now, and that the person next to me is Gu Tingsheng, the person I want to live my whole life with, Said that the adoptive parents I met later were very good parents, so you don't have to worry about me underneath.

But it is strange and amazing that when I looked at the photo of my mother again, I suddenly found that I really look like this woman, the eyebrows, eyes and mouth are very similar to those on the tombstone, this one in the photo woman.

Suddenly at this moment, I thought of the last hug she gave me when she left this world. This woman used her body to hold the young me in her arms, so I survived.

Suddenly at this moment, I looked at the surrounding scenery blankly, and remembered that when I woke up, I went to the orphanage, and I realized that my mother and father were gone.Standing here, I suddenly became that eight-year-old Yang Lu again.

I felt a lot of tears pouring out of my eyes, because I was thinking, I don't have a father and a mother.

Gu Tingsheng kept silent, just handed me the napkin, I took it, but stupidly wiped my tears with the back of my hand.

In the end, I didn’t say the words I thought in my heart. I bowed deeply to the tombstone. After a long time, sweat and tears mixed together, and there were a few round watermarks on the ground.

I straightened my back and said hoarsely to Gu Tingsheng, "Brother, let's go."

The school starts on September [-]st, and I am applying for the Jincheng University major in history, and the head teacher specially called me to persuade me.

He said on the phone: "With your grades, why not study computer science or management. Law is also good. These majors are more promising."

I declined a lot, saying that this is my hobby, but the head teacher kept saying: "Hobbies are for amateur use, Yang Lu, you haven't got a job yet, and you haven't entered the society, so you don't understand. Knowing how heavy the burden is on your shoulders, what you can do after you major in history is to be a teacher at most, but you have studied so well for so many years, not because you just want to be a teacher in the future.”

I was silent for a while, and asked the head teacher: "Do you know that Jiang Shaoning is my head teacher in the first year of high school? Have you heard her story?"

This time, the head teacher on the opposite side was silent for a long time, and he suddenly said: "You and Li Moxun are both young and mature, and both feel that we know more than adults, have more ideas than adults, and feel that the path we are walking is the right one. The teacher can't persuade you, and you will understand when you go out into the society in the future."

I know the class teacher is also kind. He really feels that after working so hard for so many years, applying for a major with no future is tantamount to wasting his life.But does the future determine life? Some people just want to be safe and secure for a lifetime, and don’t seek wealth and rights, while others seek power and money all their lives. I don’t think the former is wrong, nor do I think the latter is wrong.

Everyone is just asking for benevolence and benevolence, and do what you ask for. I am a carnivorous cat. If you insist on giving me vegetables, you say it is for my own good, but this is never what I ask for. How can I do it? Said it was for my own good.

Li Moxun also called and said that the head teacher was very angry. Li Moxun applied for Beishan University, which is named after Jincheng University, and his major was philosophy. There is no future for majors at all, and only teachers can go this way in the future.

In the past, the number one student in the liberal arts in the college entrance examination, he was reduced to a teacher in the next year.

Li Moxun said that the homeroom teacher felt pain in his heart.

That night, Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei also called. It turned out that the homeroom teacher called them on their mobile phones, trying to persuade my parents to let me change my major.

Lin Shuzhen said: "Are you sure you want to study history? Do you like this major?"

"I'm very interested." I told Lin Shuzhen, "Mom, I want to study this major, and I want to write a novel about ancient times recently."

"Just apply for this if you like it." Lin Shuzhen smiled over there, "I originally thought that if you applied for accounting or management majors, it would be easier for the company to take over in the future."

"I... I'm sorry." I said to Lin Shuzhen.

"What are you apologizing for?" Lin Shuzhen laughed over there, and she said to me, "You don't need to apologize to mom, I feel like a dream, my son was admitted to Jincheng University, that is Jincheng University , I think you are one of the best gifts God gave me, you have already been admitted to Jincheng University, so you can learn whatever you don't want to learn!"

Xia Chaobei snatched the phone and said: "Our family is not short of money now, Yang Lu, you can learn whatever you want, anyway, I don't expect you to make money, the family can earn enough for you, so much money Isn't it just to let you little bastards live freely, you don't have to care about your teacher's words, I think the problems she said ignore the current situation of our family, our family has plenty of money!"

I was sore and happy when I heard these words, Lin Shuzhen snatched the phone again, told me a few words, and greeted Xia Wanwan and Gu Tingsheng, she suddenly said: "Tingsheng has been admitted to Jincheng University , His parents...don't come to see him either?"

I was taken aback at the time, but I didn't tell my elder brother this sentence.

As a result, one week before the start of school, Gu Tingsheng received a call from Gu Xingsong's assistant, informing him that Mr. Gu and Mr. Yuan would return to Jincheng on Friday, and then Gu Tingsheng spared no time in the morning to go back to the villa in the southern suburbs to meet them.

It takes more than an hour's drive from where we live now to the villa in the southern suburbs.

I said to Gu Tingsheng: "Never mind them, if they want to see you, they will come to see you by themselves, why do you have to run so far, you are not their pet, you have to listen to them."

Gu Tingsheng also obviously didn't want to see them, he said to me: "It's better not to meet them."

Gu Tingsheng said: "I am facing them now, and it is difficult to control my emotions."

I don't know how to answer Gu Tingsheng, I can feel that I never really hated Gu Xingsong and Yuan Mengyu. There will be no Big Brother.

No matter how many things they did wrong, I can't erase them. They brought the person in front of me and whom I love deeply into this world.

Gu Tingsheng's reply to his assistant was very simple, I don't want to see them.

On Friday, the two of us came out of home at [-] o'clock in the morning and were about to go for a run in the park. As soon as we walked downstairs, I saw a black Cayenne parked downstairs. My first reaction was, Assistant Gu Xingsong The car I drive most often is the Cayenne.

Then I realized that the driver in the Cayenne also got out of the car and walked towards me and Gu Tingsheng—or towards Gu Tingsheng. A pale face.

I took a step back, my heart beating uncontrollably faster, Gu Xingsong's assistant took a look at me, and said to Gu Tingsheng very politely and even respectfully: "Master, Mr. Gu and Mr. Yuan want to see you."

Gu Tingsheng frowned, he didn't even look at Assistant Gu Xingsong, he turned to me and said, "Let's go."

I followed Gu Tingsheng for two steps, bypassing the assistant, but Gu Xingsong opened the car door and came down. He leaned on a cane. I looked over and found that he was walking a little bit. I wondered what happened to him. Lame.

Assistant Gu Xingsong turned back quickly, stretched out his hand respectfully to help Gu Xingsong, Gu Xingsong waved his hand, and I saw Yuan Mengyu get down from the car, the assistant returned to the car, Yuan Mengyu helped Gu Xingsong and came over.

The expressions of the two looked very calm, with a little kindness, like a harmonious couple who are relatively friendly to each other. They can't see that their relationship is not good, nor can they see how good their relationship is.

Gu Tingsheng still lowered his head, he took my hand and walked two steps, Gu Xingsong called him: "Tingsheng."

He and Yuan Mengyu have already walked in front of us.

Only then did Gu Tingsheng stop in his tracks. I glanced at Gu Xingsong and Yuan Mengyu. They were the same two faces in my memory, but much younger.

I went to see Gu Tingsheng again, and saw him raise his head and look at the two people in front of him. I was stunned for a moment, and I subconsciously went to see Gu Xingsong and Yuan Mengyu, and they were also stunned for a moment.

Because Gu Tingsheng's eyes were really too fierce, with a very deep hatred in them.