Happy Life [Rebirth]

Gu Tingsheng was silent for a while, and he said, "Brother thinks you are still young..."

"Then is it okay if I grow up?" I asked Gu Tingsheng.

Gu Tingsheng propped himself up and raised his head to meet my gaze. I saw him looking at me with a complicated expression, and then asked me slowly, "What do you want to do to your elder brother when you grow up?"

I looked at him: "Do you want to say it? I would be embarrassed to say it so bluntly."

"..." Gu Tingsheng took a deep breath, and he rolled over and lay beside me. I lay on my side to look at him, and I heard him say, "When you grow up, you can do whatever you want, and my brother is willing."

Gu Tingsheng said: "As long as it's you, Big Brother is willing."

After he finished speaking, I just said those words to him teasingly and jokingly, but I didn't expect to hear such an answer. After hearing it, I wanted to laugh, but suddenly I also wanted to cry, so I lay on my side Looking at his side face there, she reached out to hold his hand.

Gu Tingsheng held my hand back, and he also lay down on his side. We faced each other, and I heard him sigh. Xiaolu, if you look at big brother like this, big brother will feel sore."

"You are so kind." I said to Gu Tingsheng, I leaned my head in his arms with nostalgia, "Brother, you are so kind, I..." I paused, I wanted to say, you are so kind, You deserve better people, you deserve a better and smoother life.

But I held back, Gu Tingsheng lowered his head and kissed the top of my hair, and it was at this time that Lin Shuzhen opened the door and came in.

But because the kiss was Fading, and fortunately Lin Shuzhen didn't come in a minute earlier, she came in and asked in surprise, "Why are you two hugging each other?"

If I calm down at this time, even if I don’t do anything, I don’t think Lin Shuzhen will think of anything at this time, but I hate homosexuality-I am afraid of being found out that Gu Tingsheng is with me. This life has always been engraved in my bones, so after Lin Shuzhen asked, my first reaction was that I quickly sat up from Gu Tingsheng's arms.

I looked at the door in a panic. Lin Shuzhen was standing there, holding a transparent glass bowl filled with cleaned tomatoes. She lowered her head and said, "You two are hugging each other with the air conditioner on. Ah, it's still cold—"

"Yang Lu?" Lin Shuzhen raised her head, and the expression on her face was instantly puzzled and surprised.

I took a breath, and the temperature on my body dropped instantly. I quickly understood that the expression and movements on my face were like a thief, and it must be a panic and fear expression.

Lin Shuzhen came over, she looked at me very puzzled, Gu Tingsheng's hand pulled down the hem of my clothes behind my back, Lin Shuzhen looked at me very puzzled: "What's wrong with you?"

Gu Tingsheng also sat up, and he said to Lin Shuzhen, "We just watched a ghost movie, it was too scary."

"...Read less in the future." Lin Shuzhen put the bowl on the bedside table, and she kept looking at Gu Tingsheng and me. Gu Tingsheng leaned over and hugged the computer back to his lap, then lowered his head and began to tap.

"Little tomato, wash it clean." Lin Shuzhen said, she looked at me again, "Yang Lu, your face is pale, if you are afraid, stop watching horror movies in the future."

I lowered my head, brought the bowl over, stuffed a small tomato into my mouth, and nodded indiscriminately. Lin Shuzhen didn't stop, she just came to deliver something, but when she came to the door, she opened the door to close it, and she couldn't stop. He looked at me and Gu Tingsheng several times.

When the door was closed, Gu Tingsheng reached out to touch my forehead, I broke out in a cold sweat, I also rubbed my face in a panic, and I muttered: "I'm too flustered, I shouldn't be like this."

Gu Tingsheng let out a short but sad sigh, I hurried to look at him, and saw my elder brother's dark eyes fixed on me.

I subconsciously wanted to ask you what's wrong, but soon I subconsciously knew what he was sighing, so I said to Gu Tingsheng: "It's my fault, I'm too flustered, and my mental quality is too bad."

"Don't always say that you are not good." Gu Tingsheng lowered his eyes, I couldn't see the expression in his eyes, but I felt that he seemed to be angry.

Gu Tingsheng said to me very calmly: "Xiao Lu, it's always been my elder brother's fault."

"I'm not fine at all." Gu Tingsheng stopped looking at me, he looked at the computer, and said to me, "You are so stupid."

I thought that what Gu Tingsheng said was stupid meant that I liked him. I had a lot to say to him. I wanted to say that you don't know anything, you don't even know how good you used to be to me. Without you, What kind of person I will become, I suspect that I may become a loser with anti-social personality.

——I know what kind of person I am. After losing my biological parents in my previous life, I was originally introverted. I became an orphan and was adopted by others. My heart was full of anger and great unwillingness. I felt that no one was sorry for me. , I feel that fate is unfair, I feel wronged, I feel angry, and I feel that my life is meaningless.

I looked at Gu Tingsheng with his head down, typing on the keyboard with his fingers, looking at his drooping eyes and eyebrows, I think Gu Tingsheng really didn't know anything, if it wasn't for you to take care of me growing up, it wasn't for you to tell me many truths, it wasn't for you Treating me so well - Yang Lu, who has no ambitions and only complains about others every day, how could I be admitted to Jincheng University.Everything I have, the seemingly glamorous academic qualifications, resume, and grades in the future, all of this is to stand by your side and work hard.

At the opening ceremony of Jincheng University in my previous life, the president’s speech mentioned that Jincheng University is the starting point rather than the end point of every Jincheng University student’s dream.

But for me, my dream is only Gu Tingsheng.I never thought about a glorious future, and I never longed for money and rights. All I ever wanted was Gu Tingsheng.

Gu Tingsheng typed on the keyboard for a long time before he turned his eyes from the computer to me. He looked at me and sighed again. I think Gu Tingsheng probably finished his sighs all these years tonight.The way he sighed and looked old-fashioned, reminded me of my previous life, Gu Tingsheng. After he started his business, he had tossed around in the society and came back after hitting the south wall. Sometimes he looked at me and said, " You—"—

It is the old-fashioned appearance now.

I couldn't help laughing when I thought of this, Gu Tingsheng glanced at me a few times, kept typing on the keyboard, he asked me puzzled, "What are you laughing at?"

"It's nothing." I asked Gu Tingsheng, "What are you doing, brother?"

"There is a final payment to be collected." Gu Tingsheng said, "I met a few people on the forum before and helped them with outsourcing. It's time to settle the final payment."

"You are amazing." I praised Gu Tingsheng sincerely. I remember that in my previous life, Gu Tingsheng could only program independently when he was a junior. "You are still so young, big brother. You will be brilliant in the future."

"How brilliant?" Gu Tingsheng's tone suddenly became interested.

I thought about my previous life. When I died, Gu Tingsheng already had a company with about 100 employees. He was already 29 years old at the time, so he couldn’t be called a genius entrepreneur, but he didn’t rely on Gu Xingsong and Yuan Mengyu.In fact, Yuan Mengyu has been quietly suppressing him, claiming that he wanted his only son to return to the family business, and he didn't want him to work so hard.Of course I understand the truth, in fact, it was Yuan Mengyu who wanted to tie Gu Tingsheng to those businesses that could lead to death.

But Gu Tingsheng probably resembles his name, he is like a tree, no matter how violent the storm is, as long as his root system has not rotted, he will be able to grow new shoots in the spring of the coming year, he is like a poplar, and he is like a tree. It is a sycamore tree.He is my big brother and the place of my life's dream.

"Brother, you will definitely be rich in the future." I crossed my legs and thought about what my predecessor Gu Tingsheng would look like after he became rich. and tie clips with drills."

"..." Gu Tingsheng looked at me delicately, and he said, "Is the whole body still shining biubiubiu?"

I thought for a while and then nodded, "Well, the whole body is covered with light, as if it will glow."

"Do you think I'm Masked Rider--Dynamic Light Wave?" Gu Tingsheng said helplessly. When I heard it, I felt that what I said was too funny. Sadness came quickly just now--now it's gone so fast, I Holding his stomach, he suddenly laughed.

Gu Tingsheng was still saying: "Isn't it time to eat a bowl of porridge and a bowl of Hu spicy soup, drink a bowl and pour a bowl, and the whole body will be covered with gold, and the teeth will also be inlaid with gold. People will know it at a glance, oh, Mr. Gu is really rich."

"Stop talking—" I covered my stomach and laughed until tears came out, "Looks like a nouveau riche."

"It's good to be an upstart." Gu Tingsheng also smiled, "Make a lot of money, buy a small western-style building with a garden, hide you in it, and no one can see you. In the garden, you need to plant plane trees or banyan trees. When the flowers are blooming, you can sit on the swing, and the elder brother will push the swing for you."

I asked Gu Tingsheng: "What kind of flowers do you want to plant in the garden? Roses?"

Gu Tingsheng said: "Planting four-leaf clover is alfalfa, and it will bloom small white pompoms."

"It's so beautiful." I looked at Gu Tingsheng, "But I've grown up, I don't sit on the swing anymore."

Gu Tingsheng just looked at me and didn't speak for a while, he looked at me very carefully, I sat on the bed and let him watch calmly, Gu Tingsheng said to me: "Sometimes I think you are too young, big brother has to wait for you to grow up It will take a long time to grow up."

"Sometimes I wonder why you are so big?" Across the computer on his lap, Gu Tingsheng leaned over and stroked my face, and then stroked the skin around my eyebrows and eyes.

"Why didn't I meet you sooner?" Gu Tingsheng said, "I missed the feeling for many years, and you are so old in a blink of an eye. How can I make up for the past time?"

I looked at him, and suddenly I moved my mouth, wanting to ask Gu Tingsheng why he had such eyes again, I am right in front of you, but who are you looking through me?I was very surprised, and panicked in my heart. I saw Gu Tingsheng looking at me with distant nostalgia. It was like looking at another person through me, and it seemed that we had known each other for a long time.Although many years have passed, old friends meet again.One possibility occurred to me, but I dared not ask.

After all, the ending of that life was too bad, so let it pass after the bad life has passed.

In that life, Yang Lu, who complained all day long and believed that she was walking forward with suffering, had long since changed.

In this life, I realized that the life I have experienced is not only suffering, but my sister and elder brother have given me many very precious things-their love for me.There are also those passers-by who have passed away in a hurry from my life. Some of them just passed by me and we didn’t know each other. Some smiled at me, and some said cheer and goodbye to me.

There will be suffering in life, but happiness is always at hand.

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Gu Tingsheng and I went back to school on the [-]th. The atmosphere of studying at home was always not as good as that at school. Both of us are "computer enthusiasts". It is a temptation to be able to surf the Internet at home at any time. Gu Tingsheng said he could not bear it. Stop itching, seeing a computer is like typing a keyboard.I also want to type on the keyboard, and I want to quickly end the novel serialized on the Internet.

This time, Lin Shuzhen drove me and Gu Tingsheng to school. Wanwan went out to go shopping with her new friends. The car stopped at the intersection of traffic lights. Gu Tingsheng and I put our schoolbags aside, and we sat in the back seat leaning on our shoulders. Listening to music with headphones on.

At first we planned to use MP4 to listen to English, but neither of us could calm down listening to English with our shoulders next to each other. I also understood why it is easy to drop grades when falling in love.

When you think about falling in love, you have a good relationship. If you have a good relationship, you always want to be together all the time. For students, learning is the most important thing, and you have to learn when you stay together.But the person I like is by my side, so I can't help but look at him for a while, pull his hand for a while, and pull his hair for a while, after all, I can't help liking this kind of thing.

In this way, the learning efficiency is very low-no wonder students are prone to learning decline when they fall in love. I think it is all the fault of the feeling of "like".

Obviously, Gu Tingsheng and I can also apply this principle. After listening to few English words, the two of us changed to listen to current pop songs.This year, Ah Jay became popular all over the country. He has a lot of songs on MP4. After listening to Ah Jay's Qilixiang, the next song is the love of his life in Westward Journey.

Westward Journey is also a movie that became popular a few years ago. I watched it a long time ago. There is a line in it, "Add a deadline to love, then I hope it will be 1 years." There are a lot of people who make button signatures.

Wanwan also found this movie and dragged me to watch it with Gu Tingsheng. I watched it again. In my previous life, I watched it when I was young, so I watched it for no reason. In this life, the most impressive thing about the ending is the sentence " Look at him like a dog."

It turns out that forgetting is forgetting. Things like feelings can come and go freely, and it is actually very easy to write them off.

At that time, I thought, is the Gu Tingsheng in this life still the Gu Tingsheng I like? The Gu Tingsheng I know in this life is an indifferent and paranoid boy in junior high school. He has no experience of growing up with Yang Lu, but I pulled him into into my world.

Sometimes I feel deeply sorry. After Gu Tingsheng said he liked me too, I went through the initial joy. I always thought he was innocent. He didn’t have those memories and experiences. Now this Gu Tingsheng is a brand new Yes, young Gu Tingsheng.But now he's messing with you.

I think I like him, but he is innocent.

I also wondered if He Mingjie's profile picture meant that.Look at him like a dog.

Lin Shuzhen's car stopped at the first place at the intersection of traffic lights, there were many pedestrians on the left, and the traffic ahead was endless. Gu Tingsheng and I were wearing earphones on one side, and Lin Shuzhen asked us suddenly: "Yang Lu, Tingsheng, do you two have someone you like?" ?"

The earphones were not loud, and Gu Tingsheng and I both heard Lin Shuzhen's sudden questioning, so I said to Lin Shuzhen, "Mom, you asked me yesterday, my brother and I don't have a favorite girl."

Lin Shuzhen said: "I'm asking about the person I like...forget it, I'm just asking."

I swallowed my saliva, because I realized that my flustered behavior yesterday seemed to remind Lin Shuzhen of something, maybe she still didn't know it - after all, for ordinary people, homosexuality and men like men are a distant and distant thing. Novelty.

Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei are hard-working, hard-working, good at talking and doing things, and they are willing to treat adopted/adopted/children as their own. They seem to be much more open-minded and kind than ordinary people, but they are still the most common in China. parents, what would happen if they knew their son was gay.

I dare not look at Lin Shuzhen, nor Gu Tingsheng anymore, I looked out the car window, pedestrians are constantly flowing, high-rise buildings are rising on the ground, Jincheng is developing extremely fast, as a first-tier provincial capital city, it looks the same for a year, in the 90s By the beginning of the [-]th century, Jincheng had not changed much in the past century, but in this short period of ten years, new bungalows were eradicated every day, and dozens of high-rise apartments were erected.This is a steel city, and people are ants walking through the steel forest.

At this time, there were water droplets sliding down the car window, I blinked, and the water droplets on the car window became more and more dense, the wind suddenly blew on the street, pedestrians shouted and ran wildly, and the sky suddenly turned dark , The street lights on the street were all lit up.

The rain that fell on the car windows slid down densely, forming a water curtain, which also reflected the light from street lamps and shops on the road. Looking from the inside of the car to the outside of the car, it seemed like a world full of colorful colors.Jincheng instantly changed from a gray steel city to a city with color and real temperature.

"Come on, there is no umbrella in the car." Lin Shuzhen said, "What will you do when you get to school?"

"It's raining heavily."

Lin Shuzhen turned on the windshield wipers as she spoke, and I looked away, only to realize that Gu Tingsheng was looking at me again, and he pointed out the car window: "What are you looking at, Xiaolu?"

"I suddenly thought of a story." My mind moved, and I said to Gu Tingsheng, "A story that happened on a rainy day."

Gu Tingsheng said, "Inspiration? Are you writing a new book?"

"Just think about it." I said to Gu Tingsheng, "In October when it suddenly rained, a girl was walking on the road, but she didn't bring an umbrella, and when it rained suddenly, she was only wearing a white dress. It was very thin, and it would soak through when it rained, so she ran into a restaurant in a hurry to hide from the rain, but the owner told her to go out without ordering food. The girl didn’t bring any money.”

"And then?" Lin Shuzhen rested her chin, "There's a traffic jam, it's really... Maybe it will stop until the rain stops."

"Then there is a boy." I thought for a while, "A boy who was eating in a small restaurant gave his umbrella to the girl and asked her to go home with the umbrella. The girl asked the boy what should you do, and the girl thought the boy should be We can wait for the rain to stop before we go.”

"But the boy just broke up with his girlfriend that day, and he gave the girl an umbrella just because he wanted to get in the rain."

Both Lin Shuzhen and Gu Tingsheng looked over, and I continued: "The boy rushed into the heavy rain. The girl felt that she seemed to be moved by holding the umbrella. Then she went to find the boy, but the boy said that the umbrella was from his ex-girlfriend. I bought it for me, I broke up with her, so I don’t even want this umbrella anymore, don’t think too much about it.”

"The girl knew that he was going to rain and gave her an umbrella that day, but all this had nothing to do with her. The boy was one of the protagonists in the girl's story that day, but in the boy's story on that rainy day, she was just a passerby. If it was another passer-by, the boy would give the umbrella to others, and then rush into the heavy rain by himself."

"And then?" Lin Shuzhen asked again.

"It's gone." I took the mineral water that Gu Tingsheng handed over and took a sip, "It just suddenly occurred to me that such a story could happen in such a rainy day."

"I'm too busy, I haven't read any books for a long time." Lin Shuzhen looked at me, and she said to me, "I've been trying to find time to read your published novel. The day I get it, I will read it tomorrow. But there are a lot of things to help the next day, so I wanted to watch it when I was free, but I was very busy every day, so I didn’t watch it now.”

"So you are in this style, son." Lin Shuzhen laughed, "I thought you were a boy, you wrote martial arts or fantasy novels, so it's this kind of romantic novels?"

"Well, not all of them, most of them are because they are easier to write." I thought about it and told Lin Shuzhen the truth, "The editors of publishing houses and magazines said that this kind of novels are called youth pain novels."

Lin Shuzhen: "Youth pain? The name is quite appropriate."

"Yes." I thought about the descriptions of editors Squid and Chen Langli, as well as the comments on the Internet, "It's commonly known as moaning/groaning without illness, and the 45-degree angle of youth is bright and sad."

Lin Shuzhen: "Don't say that, everyone's youth is like this."

I think what Lin Shuzhen said at the crossroads today is also very reasonable, just like Gu Tingsheng said that Boss Li is a philosopher, at this moment I feel that my mother is also a philosopher.

Lin Shuzhen said: "Moaning without illness is youth, and my mother was young too."

After being stuck in traffic for more than ten minutes, Lin Shuzhen asked me to continue telling the story, so I told her the contents of the book "To Angel". You can write, Xiao Lu, you are born to write novels."

I feel a little embarrassed, I'm kind of talented, I just know how to write, but I'm not close to writing well, those sentences that moan without illness are very easy to write, I caught up with the good times again, in fact In the past three to five years, online novels have largely replaced physical publishing—or physical publishing likes to find popular novels on the Internet to publish books.

Those who once wrote a 20-word novel in half a year are just instant products completed in two and a half months by an author who updates [-] words a day.I want to make money from youth pain novels, and it's only been a year or two now.

Gu Tingsheng also asked me: "Do you like writing novels?"

I thought about it for a long time: "I know very few things, and I don't write well, but I don't have any skills, which is barely enough. So I should like it."

"Then keep writing." Gu Tingsheng looked at me, "Xiaolu, brother wants you to always do what you like, and never do what you don't like in this life."

When we arrived at the gate of the school, the gate guard refused to let the car in. The rain hadn't stopped, but it had turned into a continuous drizzle. Gu Tingsheng and I took a look, and were about to open the car door and run to the dormitory building in one breath.

Before getting out of the car, Lin Shuzhen suddenly called me "Xiaolu".

I asked her, "Mom?"

Lin Shuzhen said to me: "Xiaolu, although you are young, you know a lot, even your mother knows."

I nodded, Lin Shuzhen obviously wanted to say something else, she looked at Gu Tingsheng again, but in the end she didn't say anything, let us two run quickly.Gu Tingsheng and I rushed into the rain and ran all the way to the school. When I turned around, Lin Shuzhen was still in the car. I couldn't see her face clearly, but I knew she must be looking at me.

The author has something to say: Mom is skeptical, not sure yet, but I have that feeling and doubts...(___)ノ｜