Finding Love After Divorce

After Ling Ye recovered, he grabbed Ren Zixuan's arm again. He was afraid that Ren Zixuan would run away if he opened his mouth.

He took a deep breath, then exhaled slowly, and said: "Zixuan, I can explain that, but it may be a bit difficult to understand. Can you listen to me first? After I finish speaking, you can beat or scold me .”

Ren Zixuan raised his eyes and glanced at Ling Ye: "Let's talk." If he wants to beat or scold, he still has to wait now?

Ling Ye swallowed, and chose his words carefully: "Actually, I used to be very contradictory. I couldn't see through it, and I couldn't get out. On the one hand, I thought you and Xiao Chen were the ones I should protect, and on the other hand, I couldn't bear to part with those things. It’s like having a hearty chat with Zhao Nina. I feel guilty for you, but I’m not sure how I feel about Zhao Nina. So, I uselessly choose to escape. I avoid you and her, and dare not face you. I don't want to face her either."

After listening to this paragraph, Ren Zixuan turned his head to look at a street lamp in the distance, and let his eyes go blank, wondering what he was thinking.

"The time you saw me and Zhao Nina, I know which time it was, because I hadn't had any contact with Zhao Nina outside of business for more than two months. But, you know, emotions can't be suppressed for too long. My conflict My emotions have been suppressed all the time, and I don’t know who to confide in. Therefore, when Zhao Nina asked me out for dinner, I agreed. I thought, maybe this trip will solve the problem.”

"After getting off the car that day, Zhao Nina came over and wanted to hold my hand, but I refused. I thought, what kind of hand should I hold if I wasn't attending a banquet. But what I didn't expect was that when I was about to walk to the door of the restaurant, she came up to me again. I, I think it's too ugly for a woman to be pushed away in public because she has a thin face, and I can't ignore the gentleman's demeanor and think of it as attending a banquet, so I didn't push her away."

"After the meal, I don't know why she suddenly kissed me. At that time, I quickly turned my head to avoid it, but my hand was always held by her, unless I pushed her away. I'm sorry! I didn't push her away for the so-called gentleman's demeanor. She, just... I was wrong, Zixuan, I shouldn't go out to dinner with women alone."

When Ling Ye said this, he looked at Ren Zixuan, who didn't speak or look at him, as if he wasn't listening.

He thought for a while and continued: "When I walked to the parking lot, I pushed her away, really! I also gave her a stern warning. If I do this again next time, I won't give her face again. "

Ren Zixuan: And next time, you will not push away, you take your image too seriously.When a man pushes a woman away, people who don't know why eat melons will accuse you, you can't stand that!

"She, Zhao Nina, thought I was afraid of being known by you. She thought I liked the pleasure of being sneaky with her. Because I couldn't communicate, I never went out with her again. Until," Ling Ye paused again Then, he took a deep look at Ren Zixuan, who was still looking into the distance, not listening to him.

Ling Ye didn't continue talking, and the surroundings suddenly became silent.

Ren Zixuan had no choice but to give a soft "hmm".

Hearing this "um", Ling Ye was a little happy, because he didn't hear any angry tone from it, and then he continued talking.

"Until you left, I found that there was something strange in my heart. Sometimes my heart hurts, and my life was uncomfortable. But I thought that I was just not used to your leaving, and I was not used to the loss of you in my life. After that, my parents knew They let me see my heart clearly. But at that time, my life had become a mess, and I didn’t have time to think about it. Then, I took Zhao Nina to pick up Xiaochen, thinking Maybe through this method, I can see how I really feel about Zhao Nina. Unfortunately, I have not come to a conclusion yet, because Xiaochen was scolded by me, "

When Ren Zixuan heard the last sentence, he turned his head and glared at Ling Ye.

Ling Ye smiled bitterly. If he had known that there would be such a result, he would not have done that.

Time is always squeezed out. If he really wants to, he can use the time to think about it, such as bathing, drying clothes, and going to bed.

"Then, Xiaochen was injured, and you appeared. You should remember that day, Zhao Nina came to see Xiaochen at home. I watched her standing in the room, and suddenly realized that she was out of tune with our family, and I didn't like her to criticize casually The design of the home, I like your layout." Ling Ye never forgot to express his heart when he spoke.

"Then I realized that in my heart, in my private domain, you are the other master, and you have always been. It was only then that I realized that I love you, and I have loved you from the very beginning. "

After Ling Ye finished speaking, he looked at Ren Zixuan, wanting to see how the other party would react, but he still only saw a expressionless face.

Such Ren Zixuan made him a little panicked, and he couldn't help calling softly: "Zixuan?"

Ren Zixuan was not happy when he heard Ling Ye's confession, on the contrary, he felt even more uncomfortable.

He stared into Ling Ye's eyes and asked, "Ling Ye, you didn't marry me because you fell in love with me, did you?"

Ling Ye replied without hesitation: "No!"

Ren Zixuan sneered, and asked again: "Really?"

"Yes, I fell in love with you at that time, but I never knew it."

"Oh, I get it."

The tone of these words inexplicably reminded Ling Ye of the scene when Ren Zixuan told him about the divorce back then, panic welled up in his heart again.

He asked gently: "Zixuan, what do you understand?"

What do I understand?

When I thought you loved me, you didn't love me; but when I thought you didn't love me, you said you loved me.

However, if you "love me" now, and later it is verified that you don't love me, what else can I do?

Ren Zixuan originally didn't believe in love because of his parents' marriage, but Ling Ye appeared.

Ling Ye's tenderness, care and companionship to him made him feel that he was still loved by others, and that love was so beautiful.Then, he fell in love with Ling Ye without hesitation, married Ling Ye, and had a child.

However, when he devoted almost all his time and energy to loving them, Ling Ye changed into a machine that only knew how to work, desperately trying to make money and expand its territory.

If the happiness and sweetness before marriage is love, then what is the hesitation and waiting you gave me after marriage?Burnout period?

Now, even though I'm divorced, you still appear in front of me, so what?Regret period?

And after that?Another love burnout?

At this time, Ren Zixuan was already in a state of confusion, unable to sort out his thoughts at all.He also couldn't judge whether the experience before marriage was real, or the one after marriage, or was it all fake?

Ling Ye looked at the ever-changing expression on Ren Zixuan's face, and the suppressed pain and sadness surged into his heart again.

He raised his arms and hugged Ren Zixuan into his arms.

Zixuan, I'm sorry, I won't talk anymore.I don't know it hurts you so much to talk about it, but believe it or not, I really love you and only you in this life!If you won't forgive me, well, don't forgive me.It was my own fault, and I will bear everything. Just be good and let me guard you. That's fine.

Suddenly, Ling Ye felt a wetness in his chest, only to realize that the body in his arms was trembling slightly.He hugged him even tighter, and patted Ren Zixuan's back with one hand to comfort him.

Baby I'm sorry!

Ren Zixuan actually didn't want to cry, but sometimes, it was really difficult to control his emotions.

Perhaps, this is what he really thinks in his heart.

The reality is really cruel and ironic. He has waited for so many years and hoped for the hug for so many years, but he got it under such circumstances.

Oh, he really wanted to look up and laugh.

Ren Zixuan was crying and crying, and he really laughed, laughing at the time when he laughed at himself, at the time when he laughed at Ling Ye, laughing...

With the beloved in his arms, Ling Ye wished that time could be suspended at this moment.Of course, it would be even better if Zixuan smiled happily in his arms instead of crying in his arms, or if Zixuan could wrap his arms around him.

Ling Ye's sweet dream was half realized, because Ren Zixuan did smile, although this smile was not the other smile.

Then, the dream was completely shattered.

Ren Zixuan laughed for less than a minute, then pushed Ling Ye away abruptly, and ran away resolutely.

Ling Ye who was sitting on the ground was dumbfounded, what's going on?

He thought that when Zixuan smiled, he understood him and was willing to forgive him.

Thinking of this, he smiled wryly again, "I thought" again.

That's right, why did he think that he could ask Zixuan to forgive him by saying "I have always loved you" and embrace the beauty!

Wasn't it because too many "I thought" made him make mistakes?Now come to "I thought", maybe, I really can't go back.

But, Zixuan, what do you mean by leaving like this?Can I still see you tomorrow?

Ling Ye sat on the ground for a while, then sighed deeply, got up and moved the two cool chairs back to their original places, and left with a feeling of apprehension.

Standing in front of the window, Ren Zixuan sighed as he watched the lonely back of Ling Ye leaving.

He believed what Ling Ye said, because of the current situation, there was no need for Ling Ye to lie to him.It's just that knowing the truth can't help, they can't offset the wounds suffered in the past, and they can't make up for the mistakes made in the past.

Moreover, he was timid, and he no longer wanted to invest in another relationship.Emotional injury, really too painful.

After thinking about it, he turned his head to look at the son and daughter sleeping soundly on the bed, softening his face.

It is enough for him to have children.