Yokohama Future Lovers

It was a day of heavy snowfall, and the weather was so cold that even the breath would freeze into ice.

There was a man standing by the window. He was wearing a thin black coat, and he didn't seem to be afraid of the cold at all.He looked up at the snow scene outside the window.

Mori Ogai, who saw this scene, walked over and asked, "What are you doing? Dazai-kun."

The man called "Dazai-kun" didn't look back, he just watched the snow scene outside quietly with a peaceful expression.

"I was thinking..." The man who seemed to be disappearing with the snowflakes outside said softly in a second: "It seems a good way to die to be submerged in snow and freeze to death in a snowdrift."

Mori Ogai was not surprised by such a reply.After all, the existence named Osamu Dazai has been pursuing death fanatically since the first encounter.

This child seems to have been out of tune with the world since birth.

It is quite strange to use "children" to refer to a frightening Hong Kong black cadre who is already in his twenties.

But this clumsy, bewildered search for meaning in life could indeed be called a child.

"Dazai-kun." He pressed Dazai's cheek with both hands.

This gesture is a bit too intimate, even though they have been struggling and entangled together in this bottomless abyss for so long.

Mori Ogai's fingers pressed the corners of Osamu Dazai's eyes, looking like he was going to insert them at any moment.

If it was someone else, even if he knew that Mori Ogai would not hurt him at this time, his body would definitely instinctively show some resistance.Not to mention that Mori Ogai brought his hand over suddenly, and didn't say that he would definitely not hurt Osamu Dazai.

But Osamu Dazai just let Mori Ogai hold him blankly, like a puppet without a soul.

His eyes that were not bound by bandages were a pitch-black void, which seemed to contain countless darkness and despair.

Nothing reflected in Dazai's eyes.

Mori Ogai met that eye in silence.

At the end, he sighed deeply.

Osamu Dazai has been in the port mafia for several years, so long that Mori Ogai can't remember what Osamu Dazai looked like when he first came to Hong Kong.

Mori Ogai knew exactly what Osamu Dazai was looking for, but unfortunately he still couldn't find anything so far.

Will tomorrow be better?Maybe worse.Even Mori Ogai can't say anything on this point.

All he can do is-

"You survived again today, Dazai-kun." Mori Ogai lowered his head, touched Dazai Osamu's eyes lightly with his lips, and said softly.

That can't be called a kiss, without any lust. It's just a simple touch, and even the temperature is only a little higher than the snowflakes outside.

Like Mori Ogai's words, they are extremely cruel and bitterly tender, fleeting like snowflakes.

Osamu Dazai closed his eyes calmly, and murmured in a raving voice.

"Yeah, I survived again today."

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Mori Ogai, an underground doctor.You may not believe it, but a few days ago he suddenly had the memory of his own future.

Of course, he doesn't have all the memories of the future.Otherwise, the first thing Mori Ogai should do now might be to buy lottery tickets.

All the fragmentary memories of the future that he has are related to a man named Osamu Dazai.

In that future, he met Osamu Dazai, took him with him, and made him a witness to the change of the head of the port mafia.

I won’t mention the details after that. Mori Ogai, who thought he only got a disposable tool, was pleasantly surprised to find that what he picked up was actually a diamond.

The relationship between the two was distorted from the very beginning, and then they were tightly entwined until the day they broke off completely.

But Mori Ogai himself wasn't the type to unsuspectingly believe as long as he stuffed a memory into the past.

When this memory popped up in his mind, his first reaction was - this is the enemy's supernatural power.

Although I don't know what the other party's purpose is, but there are all kinds of strange abilities in the world, and one of them may be the ability to fabricate some "future memories".

While calmly analyzing various possibilities, Mori Ogai couldn't help being curious about the existence named Osamu Dazai in that memory.

Even if this memory is nothing more than watching a movie he participated in to Mori Ogai, it is still hard not to pay attention to the various performances of Osamu Dazai in the "movie".

So he tentatively searched for Osamu Dazai, and after several days of searching, he finally found this place.

It was a time of turmoil, and I don't know how Osamu Dazai found it. A young man actually found a house with sufficient water and electricity in such a remote place.Even Mori Ogai, it took a lot of effort to find him.

Holding various thoughts in his heart, when he looked at the boy who opened the door and was covered in bandages, Mori Ogai suddenly broke out in bad humor and said something like "I am your future lover".

Of course he didn't mean anything else.It is also impossible for Mori Ogai to fall in love with a boy he has never met because of an extra memory, it must be him.

It's just that he didn't expect the other party's reaction to be - the boy gave Mori Ogai a look of disgust, and closed the door heavily.

Mori Ogai: "..."

Alice, who had just established her personality, laughed unceremoniously inside him.

"Dazai-kun~" The man who was not yet the leader of the port mafia had a mournful face, knocked on the door again, and shouted in a drawn-out voice: "I am really your future lover, I didn't lie to you! I am not either. Bad guy, you have to trust me!"

Osamu Dazai in the room has already started thinking about how to capture the guy outside.

Speaking of which, the guy outside is called Mori Ogai, and he is the Mori-san that the "Osamu Dazai" in other worlds talk about, right?

Why would Mori Ogai come here suddenly and claim to be his future lover?

Is it possible to suddenly have future memories?

Osamu Dazai thought about it, and with a little interest, opened the door again.

"The door is open!" Mori Ogai, who was squatting outside with a mournful face, showed a surprised expression after seeing him open the door, and his dark purple eyes lit up.

"Dazai-kun!"

Osamu Dazai watched him calmly, thinking: Is this his future lover in some world?

It's really a fake face.

Seeing the carelessness under Mori Ogai's hippie smiling face, Dazai Osamu also showed him a calm smile, and said bluntly, "Where did this uncle come from?"

Although he was smiling, the smile was not as bright and pure as that of ordinary teenagers, but instead had a lingering paleness and gloom.He was obviously just a young man, but he didn't have a "living" breath on his body. His right eye was tightly wrapped with a bandage, and his naked left eye was like a deep bottomless pit, reflecting darkness and treachery.

For some reason, Mori Ogai suddenly had a feeling that this child was very similar to himself.

——"You survived again today, Dazai-kun. ".

——"Yeah, I survived again today. 』

Some fragmentary memories suddenly flashed in his mind, Mori Ogai was silent for a few seconds, then squatted down.

Perhaps it was due to malnutrition, and because he hadn't really grown tall yet, Osamu Dazai at this time couldn't see the future tall appearance at all, and looked extraordinarily thin.

After allowing himself to be at eye level with Osamu Dazai, the man in a white coat who looked like an ordinary doctor asked with a smile.

"are you hungry?"

Leaving aside the terrible opening remarks just now, this is the first sentence Mori Ogai opened his mouth.

This made Osamu Dazai blink a little blankly, and also made his face look more immature than it should be at his age.

"Are you 'hungry'?" He touched his stomach unconsciously.

Perhaps physiologically, Osamu Dazai should feel "hungry"?After all, he hadn't eaten anything for more than a day from yesterday to today, and even touched the water.This also made Osamu Dazai's lips a little dry.

But he didn't have the slightest desire to eat.

In other words, ordinary food couldn't satisfy him.

Osamu Dazai felt that he was probably different from ordinary people, and his body seemed to be missing something since he was born.In order to fill the huge hole that was missing in his body, he had to struggle desperately like a embarrassed and terrifying wild dog, hoping to find something.

But I can't find it, no matter how hard I struggle, I can't find what I want.

The missing hole in the body is getting bigger and bigger, dripping like an hourglass.

Even breathing hurts, and despair spreads like poison, spreading all over his limbs, corroding his life.

Seeing that Osamu Dazai fell silent, Ogai Mori sighed helplessly, and said, "...Anyway, let's eat something first."

"I bought some canned crab meat on the way here, do you want to eat it?" Mori Ogai asked, he thought about it carefully, and found that there are really no restaurants nearby, and even convenience stores are far away some distance.He glanced at the bag in his hand.

Because of that memory from the future, before coming here, Mori Ogai subconsciously bought several canned crab meat.Originally, he wanted to buy a few bottles of sake, but after thinking about how Dazai Osamu was still a teenager, he gave up the idea.

Mori Ogai originally wanted to give it to Osamu Dazai as a meeting gift, but he didn't expect that the other party hadn't eaten anything for more than a day.

In fact, it is better to eat something lighter and warmer when you haven't eaten for more than a day, but Mori Ogai thinks that Osamu Dazai, who just met him, will probably not go out with him.

Not wary or scared, just disgusted by the way others seem to be intimate.

If he was left alone, Osamu Dazai would probably continue to stay here, and go out to find something to eat when his body really couldn't take it anymore.

Mori Ogai thought with a headache.

Noticing the canned crab meat in Mori Ogai's hand, Osamu Dazai developed a little appetite.The disgust and resistance that seemed to have been violated in the territory also dissipated a little.

He reached out and took the canned crab meat that Mori Ogai handed over.

Mori Ogai blinked, a subtle joy welled up in his heart.

He sat on the side, watched the teenager beside him eating crab meat bit by bit, and glanced at the canned crab meat piled up in the trash can next to him, sighed helplessly, and said, "It's always right to eat like this." I'm not in good health."

Osamu Dazai ignored him and shook his leg.

In order to be able to eat canned crab meat, he rolled up his sleeves, and his exposed arms were wrapped in bandages.

With Mori Ogai's eyesight, it is natural to see that there must be scars under the bandage.That didn't happen all of a sudden, but a scar that was left over and over for a long time.

Adding more scars is like increasing pain.

Continuous and never-ending pain.

He watched Osamu Dazai finish eating the canned crab meat in silence, and asked softly, "With so many injuries on your body, don't they hurt?"

"Hmm..." Perhaps it was because Mori Ogai brought canned crab meat, Dazai Osamu's patience with him was obviously better, he nodded indifferently, and said complainingly: "It hurts, if I can find Just a way to die without pain."

"Dazai-kun, why do you want to die?" Looking at him, Mori Ogai asked the question he had asked in memory.

"Why die?" He showed a somewhat dazed, child-like expression.This expression also made Dazai Osamu appear immature at this age. He asked, "Then why do you want to live?"

Mori Ogai remained silent and did not speak.

The two of them were separated by a hand, but at that moment, Ogai Mori felt as if there was a wall between him and Osamu Dazai, which made Ogai Mori unable to touch Ogai Dazai or see clearly. he.

He lowered his eyes and suddenly remembered the last fragment in that memory.

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Mori Ogai received a letter.

Obviously no one was written on it, but he immediately realized that it was a letter from Osamu Dazai.

Looking at the letter on the table, Mori Ogai opened it.

When the outer shell was taken off, the important white letter paper inside was exposed, with a few black words lightly written on it.

"I decided to die. 』

Mori Ogai stared at the letter paper silently, as if staring at a tombstone.

Until the end, he didn't say anything, but quietly put the letter away.

Mori Ogai sat on a chair, looking at the snow scene outside the window, the snow outside was still falling heavily, as if it would never stop.

Mori Ogai knew that it was not a "prediction letter", but the last farewell of a child who was determined to die——

——“Goodbye, Mr. Mori. 』

Even though this sentence was not written on the letter paper, Mori Ogai could still imagine that after the boy said this sentence, he walked calmly and almost peacefully towards the world shrouded in snow and cold.

"It would be hard to freeze to death in a snowdrift, Dazai-kun."

He heard his own voice, as if he was about to float into the distance.

It's just an empty room, no one responds to him anymore.

···

Mori Ogai closed his eyes, then opened them again.

Those fragments from the future flashed by quickly, causing him to rub his head with some headaches.

Although these memories just make him watch as a bystander, but it will still be affected to some extent.

Just as he was thinking this way, there was a sudden noise outside.

Mori Ogai was stunned for a moment, suddenly guessing something, his expression suddenly became subtle.

Osamu Dazai glanced at him expressionlessly, and went outside to open the door as if he had just opened the door for Mori Ogai.

The silver-haired man standing outside the door looked down at him. He was wearing a kimono and looked extremely difficult to get along with from the outside. If an ordinary child stood in front of him, he would definitely be overwhelmed by this man's aggressive aura. Get scared.

But Osamu Dazai just looked up at him and asked calmly, "What's the matter?"

The silver-haired man, who had a serious face at first, changed his face in an instant, showing some tangled emotions. After hesitating for less than a moment, he sighed and said, "I am Fukuzawa!" Yuji."

He looked at Dazai Osamu, his sharp eyes full of serious emotions reflected the other person's figure, and he said, "Then——I am your future lover."

Dazai Osamu: "..."

Mori Ogai, who was sitting inside and heard the voice: "..."

Will future lovers be the same as others these days?

The author has something to say: A local doctor who does not want to be named is slowly sending out one?

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I want to make a cover, but now the title seems awkward and too long 23333 Do you have any suggestions_(:з」∠)_The name is so painful

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