The whole entertainment industry begs me not to drink CP

It snowed heavily.Jing Xin stepped on the shallow snow under her feet and kicked away a small stone: "This is stepping on the tail of winter. It seems that winter will end in a few days after Valentine's Day."

"Actually..." Cangye's voice was behind him, "I don't want winter to pass so soon."

"Why?" Jing Xin turned to look at him, "Cangye, do you have a date for Valentine's Day?"

"No."

Cangye didn't answer the first question, and Jing Xin didn't care, and looked back at him as he walked: "Cangye and I go to the playground...if you have time."

"Well, yes." The boy replied without hesitation, "Don't turn your head while walking, watch the road."

As soon as the words fell, Jing Xin stopped suddenly, making Cang Ye, who was following her, also stop: "I said..."

"what?"

"Although this is the case, let's spend Valentine's Day together." Jing Xin looked at Cang Ye, as if she was in a movie theater that day, her eyes were clear and fearless, she said all the words in her heart without reservation, and turned white Gas dense in the air. "But I really want to ask... Cangye, do you like me?"

The wound on the back of the hand that had scabbed and fallen off suddenly felt intense pain, and Jing Xin knew that this was an illusion brought about by her nervousness.

The scarf in Cangye's hand was not steady, and suddenly slipped down from his hand, and landed on the snow without a sound.

Jing Xin heard his slightly hesitant voice piercing through the slightly sentimental snow sky:

"Jing Xin...can you, don't like me?"

009.

Such a heavy winter, packed in the chest, turned into a handful of cold snow.

From that day on, Jing Xin never saw Cang Ye again. She devoted all her energy to studying, pushing herself desperately.After passing the final exam, Jing Xin got a good grade, but her face gradually turned pale, and she developed a low-grade fever for more than ten days, which made her parents anxious.

As soon as the holiday is over, as long as Valentine's Day is over, spring will soon enter.

So, this winter is about to end, right?

Jing Xin didn't know why Cangye said "don't like me", she felt that she was hated by Cangye, and she was depressed during the time when she didn't see Cangye, her mood was always hovering at the lowest point.

Fear for no reason.So much so that when Valentine's Day really came, Jing Xin couldn't even muster up the courage to go out of the house.

In the end, he plucked up the courage to walk out of the house, but he did not see Cang Ye at the gate of the playground.Jing Xin wandered around the amusement park all day in frustration, and there were couples everywhere.

It was getting dark quickly.Jing Xin stood alone among a large group of couples watching a fireworks show and a fountain. When she was about to go home, she saw a little girl selling roses to a couple on Valentine's Day.

When Jing Xin saw the boy bought a large bouquet of roses and handed them to the girl with a sweet face, she almost shed tears.

——He Cangye.He Cangye.He Cangye.

Why are you not by my side.

Jing Xin turned around resignedly, and just walked a few steps, when she stopped suddenly, tears poured out of her eyes continuously.

Standing a few meters away under the streetlight and staring fixedly at her was He Cangye, who was wearing the white NIKE she was familiar with.

010.

On the final day, Jing Xin went to the school next door to find her friend Xia Juanjiu.In her free time, Jing Xin suddenly thought of Cang Ye who was also in the same school, so she asked Juan Jiu to help him out.

Because Cangye had clearly said before that he was not often at school, so it was best not to go to him.Regarding the sudden decision to see Cangye before leaving, Jing Xin somewhat hastily made Jing Xin a little hasty, but in her heart she expected Cangye's surprise when he saw her suddenly.

While waiting, footsteps from far to near came from the end of the corridor, a boy came out from the corner at the end, stepping on the silent light cast by Yu Dong from the window under his feet.

Jing Xin raised her eyes.

What was projected into her eyes was the face of a strange boy.

He stopped in front of Jing Xin, "I'm He Cangye, are you looking for me?"

Jing Xin remembered.He was the boy standing next to Cangye that day who kept teasing girls.

"...Are you He Cangye?" Cheng Jingxin stared.

"That's right, aren't you looking for him?" Juan Jiu, who was standing at the side, replied as a matter of course.

He is not He Cangye.He is He Cangye.

It's him.not him.

"Jianjiu, then the boy standing beside him that day..." Jing Xin felt her voice was a bit dry, "...Didn't there be three boys in total?"

is three.One is the so-called "He Cangye", one is his friend Li Hang, and the other is the real "He Cangye" who stood in front of Jing Xin and was teasing the girls around him that day.

"Only two boys came that day." Juan Jiu patiently explained, "One is He Cangye and the other is Li Hang. How could there be two boys? Did you misread the person?"

...Actually, did you see the wrong person?

"No, then the one with you who always wears white NIKE..."

Who is it again.

"Oh, that." Juan Jiu was silent for a moment, stepped back a few steps, stood next to the class photo hanging at the door of the classroom, and pointed to someone on it. "It's Chen Jian who has been dead for a winter."

On the familiar handsome face of the young man in the photo, his lonely eyes seemed to fall on Jing Xin through the photo.

... Was it a mistake?

"The mobile phone number you gave me..." Jing Xin mumbled.

I almost didn't have the courage to ask any more.

"It's his." Juan Jiu pointed to the real He Cangye beside him.

Got it wrong from the start.turn out to be.

That number is not his, and his name is not He Cangye.Jing Xin had heard of the name "Chen Jian" even earlier, but at that time she didn't know who he was, and he had even been dead for a winter.

But she doesn't know.He didn't tell her either.Never mentioned it.

Jing Xin stared at the scar on the back of her hand that had already faded and almost disappeared, and seemed to hear the sound of melting snow coming from her chest.

"Jing Xin, do you know him?" Juan Jiu hesitated for a moment and asked.

"...No." Jing Xin heard her own dry voice resounding in the empty corridor, "...I don't know you."

No matter how long this winter is, it will eventually disappear from sight.

011.

But the boy named Chen Jian has more secrets that he can't tell Teng Jingxin.

How should I tell her that I have had a crush on her since a long time ago.

How to tell her that he died unexpectedly just days after being hit by her bike.

How should I tell her that I stayed in this world only because my thoughts were too strong, and I hope to spend the whole winter with her.

How should I tell her that I really wanted to kiss her at that moment, but it was just because the spirit body couldn't contact the human body.So many times I wanted to help her pick up things that fell on the ground, or I wanted to hold her hand at a certain moment on a certain occasion, but there was no way to do it.

How to tell her that she mistook her name as "He Cangye" and didn't correct it because she didn't want her to find out that he no longer belonged to this world.

How should I tell her that the spirit body, which cannot touch the real thing, cannot embrace her with roses as she thought in her heart on White Day, and can only look at her from afar.

How should I tell her that what I don't want her to like is just because the weak spirit body will disappear completely after winter.

There are so many things I want to tell her.

Will she believe it?

012.

In the summer when Cheng Jingxin was 17 years old, the college entrance examination ended and she was admitted to a university in another city.Therefore, I am busy in my spare time, and I have to work part-time to pay for part of the tuition.

It was already hot summer, Jing Xin put the scarf and hot water bottle back into the closet together with the winter, and put on a cool skirt and T-shirt.

The boy whose real name is Chen Jian disappeared after the end of last winter.There was no notice, no farewell, as if the memory of the last winter never existed from the beginning to the end.

Jing Xin still hasn't figured out whether the young man named Chen Jian is her hallucination or a real nihilistic spirit body, and no one around has seen him again.

However, these are not important anymore.

——It is enough to use my memory to restore the original shadow of this long winter and keep you alive in my memory for a long time.

On the last Valentine's Day night with snowflakes in the long distance from now, Jing Xin turned around and walked a few steps when she saw a boy who should be named "Chen Jian" standing under the streetlight almost outside.

Tears flowed down from the corners of her eyes uncontrollably.

He came over and looked down at Shio Jingxin.

"Happy Valentine's Day. Jing Xin."

-THEEND-

After many years, after reading this novel again, Tu Bai felt strange ripples in his heart.

When I grow up, I look back on the novels I liked many years ago, and my mood is completely different. I feel that such words are a bit naive, but I still feel more emotional-after all, this is my original intention.

It was Tubai's initial heart, and it was also Shen Jianxia's initial heart.

Back then, it was precisely because I liked Shen Jianxia's fresh writing that I picked up the pen and wrote the first letter to him.

In my mind, the "Shen Xia" who often corresponded with me when I was young suddenly overlapped with the handsome young man in front of me.It's like two different space-time folds intertwined, very strange and subtle.

Tu Bai raised his head and looked at Shen Jianxia: "This ending?"

"Huh?" Shen Jianxia crooked the corners of her mouth, smiling a bit ruffianly.

"I remember that the original ending was not like this." Tu Bai frowned, pointed at the typeface on the paper, "Did I remember wrongly?"

In his impression, the ending was clearly after the first winter, the hero's wandering spirit disappeared, and he never met the heroine again, and he didn't even have time to say goodbye.

"You remember correctly." Shen Jianxia shook her head, "I changed the ending after it was included in the collection of short stories."

"Why?" Tubai looked at him in surprise.

"Didn't you tell me at that time that you didn't want to watch BE?" Shen Jianxia was lazily slumped against the sofa, looking sideways at Tubai, smiling nonchalantly, "So I changed it to HE."

[? ? ?This is sugar? ? ?This sentence is so informative. How old was Mr. Summer then?Did they know each other? ? ]

[Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooookswlkswl no wonder Mr. Summer never writes BE, so it is because Xiao Tubai does not like to read BE]

[5555 Sisters, I’ve finished reading it too, to tell you the truth, I also loved this hypocritical literary style when I was a teenager]

[Actually, it’s pretty good-looking hahaha Teacher Summer, don’t be embarrassed]

[Aw! Xrbz must be HE too! ! ! ]

"Wow!" Song Wenxing, who was sitting on the side, suddenly exclaimed, and raised his mobile phone, "Mr. Summer, you're on the trending list! Really popular, Mr. Summer!"

"...What's the matter?" Unexpectedly, during the live broadcast, it became a trending search, and Shen Jianxia suddenly had an ominous premonition.

Tubai was also a little surprised.They leaned over together to look at Song Wenxing's phone screen, only to see a few strange Tags suddenly appear on Weibo's real-time trending list:

#Youth Pain White Summer#

#Pain Literature No.1#

Shen Jianxia: "..."

Shen Jianxia: "???"

The author has something to say: I’m back hehe, let’s take a look at the youth pain literature (by mistake) ovo~