【Billdip】Restart

Why do you want to protect me?

Why did you block the attack for me?

tell me why?

The answer is actually quite simple.

because i love you.

Alcor is Dipper, Dipper from beginning to end.

Mabel hugged her 22-year-old brother tightly and wept bitterly under the starry sky.

In this way, all the illogical things are connected in series.

Why did he protect himself, why did he protect Uncle Ford, why did he do so many actions that were inconsistent with his status as a devil.

She got it all.

She thought how stupid and miserable she was.She thinks that she has already shouldered the most painful thing in the world, and that the world is the cruelest to her.

But she never thought that it was all her self-righteousness.

She stood in the garden and complained about the injustice of the spring, denying the whole garden because her fingers were pricked by thorns.And her younger brother is in purgatory, stepping on blood and bones, and his soul is burned by fire.

How did he laugh?

How did he smile so gently in the meteor bubble?

Mabel wanted to tighten his arms, but he was afraid of touching Dipper's wound, so the muscles tensed for a moment and then loosened.

She could finally understand how her brother felt.Although only a little bit.

...It turns out that it is so sad to take back the hand that wants to love you.

A little more is afraid of your pain, and a little less is afraid that you will be unfamiliar.But stranger is better than pain, isn't it?

Her tears dried up, and her eye sockets were astringent and itchy.The girl could only open her mouth, breathe the meager air, and wait for the next wave of sadness to come.

Is that how you push us away a little bit?

A little bit, laughing, a little bit, pushing us away.

Mabel felt rejection in her arms, the adult pulling herself out of her sister's arms.He met Mabel's teary-eyed face, froze for a moment, then smiled.

"Why are you crying? Ah, I see, I scared you."

He said, "I'm sorry."

The dry lacrimal gland suddenly secreted tears again.

The blurry vision cut Dipper's smiling face into countless pieces.In every picture, her seriously injured brother is smiling.

"do not……"

"Mabel?"

She tightened her arms again, and pulled her brother firmly into her arms—a protector's stance.

Mabel Pines cried under the stars:

"Stop laughing!"

"What's so funny! Don't you hurt, Dipper? You received such... such a serious injury... bones, bones came out... why are you still laughing..."

"Why do you have to apologize... I should apologize...I did such a cruel thing to you...I denied everything about you, denied your love for me. I threw your sincerity to the ground Trampling... why, why, why are you apologizing to me..."

"Doesn't it hurt?" She stroked the broken wing, tears streaming down her cheeks, "I asked another stupid question... how can it not hurt... But why are you laughing, Dipper..."

"Cry out when it hurts! Isn't it natural to tell your sister, 'It hurts so much'!"

Dipper's eyes fell into the endless universe. His eyes were very quiet, like a pool of water without waves; but they were so deep that the bottom of the pool could not be seen at a glance.Lifeless, but also empty, nothing.Even the highlights are nothing more than the reflection of the sun from the pool of water.

He didn't smile.

Just say in a very soft voice:

"It's okay, Mabel."

"I am used to it."

Stanford turned his head away from looking at the twins over there.He grabbed Stanley's hand, who wanted to go over, and shook his head at the latter.

Mabel felt... as if a cold, sharp sword had been pierced through his heart.

Did Dipper hurt that much when they said those words in the pyramid?

No, it should be more painful than her.

It hurts a lot.

"...What are you talking about?"

She hugged Dipper's face instead, brown eyes to gold eyes, human to demon. Mabel thought, she must be ugly now, with tears and snot running down her face.

"How can you get used to this kind of thing!"

How can this kind of thing be used to!

How can you allow yourself to get used to this kind of thing!

Dipper seemed to want to laugh, but remembering Mabel's words, he didn't let the smile continue, he simply pulled the corner of his mouth. Mabel heard her brother say in a very gentle tone:

"Did you forget, Mabel? I'm a demon."

I am a devil.

Neither the flame nor the sword light is as sharp as this sentence.

It is the sudden extinction of the candle on the lamp, and the sudden shattering of the stars.

The world turned into darkness at this moment, the silence was stretched for a long time, and all the stars were dimmed at this moment.

In the silent and long darkness, Mabel finally realized that there was no longer a door between him and Dipper, no upstairs and downstairs.

What separated them was years, experience, and hearts.

There is already a chasm between them.

The young demon sat in the dark, with the stars above his head.He was bruised and bruised, but neither sad nor happy.

People don't show this kind of expression, Stanford thinks, people need to connect with each other, and people don't show expressions that have nothing to do with the world.Only monsters can be so... so quiet, let the crowds swell, and silently wear the barrier to the world.

Monsters see the world differently from humans, something Ford has learned during countless time travels.

They are not happy because of human's joy, nor are they hated because of human's evil.

Dipper was right, he really was a demon.

From body to mind, they are all demons.

Stanley frowned, he shook his arm vigorously to break away from his brother's shackles, and walked towards Mabel with big strides.

They were so close that they could touch each other's faces if they reached out.

But Dipper didn't reach out, Mabel tentatively raised his arm, then lowered it.

Obviously within reach, but out of reach.

Mabel thought desperately, this is probably the distance between them.This rift will always lie here, and it will never be filled.

The distance between them will only get farther and farther away.until we can no longer see each other.

And there was nothing they could do.

Powerless.

Mabel twitched the corner of his mouth very, very lightly.

"sorry."

She didn't wait for Dipper to answer, she continued slowly.

"I think I should apologize to you."

"you do not need……"

"No, you let me go. You let me go, Dipper."

The young professor shut his mouth when he heard this.

Mabel is still stained with demon blood, her eyes have cried and her eyelids are still swollen.She sat in front of him, crossed her legs; she looked him straight in the face, and made a sign of the cross on her breast.

"I'm guilty," she said.

The girl confesses to the devil.

"Our Father in heaven, may your name be hallowed, may your kingdom...your kingdom...what came from? It is too long to remember. I will omit it below."

Dipper: "..."

The girl put her palms together, and her voice flowed through the gaps in the nebula like a trickle.

"I suspected my brother and wanted to kill him."

As Cain was to Abel, Judah was to Joseph.

"I think you're going to kill me, us, the people in this town."

How did she do it?Oh, right.She went to collect a circle, and then put all the collected things in front of the uncles.

She rambled on about her usual observations and guesses, cruelly negating one after another - those Dipper's indifference, Dipper's impermanence.She was carrying a bag full of "evidence" and broken time.

She wept bitterly in front of her uncle, but she held the handle of the knife in her hand.

I think Dipper has already been possessed by Bill.

Mabel Pines said so.

It was she who drew the conclusions, and it was she who led everyone's minds down this false path.

It was she who drove Dipper Pines to a dead end.

"It was I who told everyone the wrong conclusion, and then I held their hands tightly and made the energy ring work."

She cupped the young man's face, and she held out her hand to Dipper, hazel to gold, white to black.

She crosses the valley and sees the abyss as nothing.

"sorry."

She rests on Alcor's forehead, and the bottom of her eyes is the endless Milky Way, with thousands of stars twinkling in the depths.

she says:

"sorry."

He slowly opened his eyes.A light rose in his eyes—it was dawn, it was enlightenment.

Dipper's lips quivered, his face was deathly white.

"...Mabel?"

Mabel smiled through tears, and she pressed Dipper's forehead hard, just like when she was a child.

"Give me a hug, bro? Hughug?"

"No, it's not," Dipper stuttered rarely, even a little incoherently, "You...why are you apologizing? You didn't do anything wrong, did you?"

"……what?"

"I said, I mean," he murmured, his voice dry, "you don't need to apologize. I never, I never felt like you did anything wrong. That's me…"

"Are you done yet?"

Stan yanks Dipper up—he's rough, rough enough to say the least.He tugged at the young man's sleeve, his brows furrowed.

"What are you struggling with?"

"...Uncle Stan?"

Stanley Pines repeated the question impatiently: "What are you struggling with?"

Dipper licked his chapped lips, and the hard skin scratched the coating of his tongue, causing a slight sting.

"I do not……"

Stan let out a loud sneer.

"Come on Dipper, you think you can fool your Uncle Stan by changing your appearance when you grow up? I've eaten more salt than bridges you've walked on."

Ford added loudly on the other end: "It's the meal!"

"Shut up!" Stan snarled back, then turned and continued. "Look at you, Dipper."

The young demon was taken aback.

Stan pulled out a crumpled handkerchief from his pocket. Although it was creased all over, the cloth surface was surprisingly clean.He wiped Dipper's face vigorously.

Very hard.

He heard the old man say fiercely: "Put a face that is about to cry, it's really disgusting to see. How old are you?"

Stan cursed.

"I don't remember ever teaching you about being as weak as these women."

He paused, even the movement of wiping his face stopped for a moment.

"However, I still have to apologize to you."

He said, "I'm sorry. That energy ring hit you, does it hurt?"

The professor who was just in his early twenties sat on the ground, staring blankly at his uncle and his sister, his eyes constantly moving between the two.

He didn't understand at all why it happened like this.

He shivered, trembling, and flung Stan's hand away.He stumbled back and pulled a safe distance.

Dipper's eyes are curved, but his eyebrows are drooping.The corners of the mouth are upturned, but the ending sound is trembling.

"I am a demon."

Mabel said, "I know."

"...I've killed people. More than one."

Stan said, "I know." The old man paused, and said in a brisk tone, "I've been to prison, look, you still don't dislike me."

"That's different!" Professor Pines' voice rose sharply, but then suddenly weakened, like the ashes of fireworks.His voice was weak, "That's different."

His ten fingers were twitching nervously, his voice was like a river bed that had dried up and exposed gravel, and it was like a bow that had passed through the strings without applying rosin.

"I," he said, "I came back to kill people."

He obviously came back to save people, but his hands were covered with the blood of innocent people. Blendin, Trigger, and the whole team...

None of them deserved to die, and none of them needed to die.

But they became obstacles in his way of saving lives—maybe only small obstacles, maybe only a little bit in the way.

They are still dead.

Dipper knew it, he knew it was Bill's plot, that guy was pushing himself away from the human way.Let him alienate into a monster from body to heart.

He could have declined, but he didn't.

Because if he refused, Uncle Ford...how could Uncle Ford come back from outside? If Bill found out what he was really thinking, would he continue to be his accomplice?

He couldn't afford to gamble, and he didn't dare to gamble.

So he killed Blendin, he killed Trigger, he killed those guys.

To save his loved ones.

When the sharp blade pierced through the Time Man, blood splashed on his face.At that time, he was expressionless, but there was a boy in his heart who died with the time man.

It wasn't just Blendin that the blade pierced through.

Only he himself knows what he has lost.The demon taunted coldly in the depths of his consciousness.

"You don't need to apologize."

Alcor said.

"Because DipperPines is long dead."

Gravity Fountain, black and white, who died that decade later.

In the distance, the "Ring Gravity Spring" and the salamander were fighting fiercely-to be precise, the salamander beat them unilaterally. Ford growled and told them to drag the salamander to death here.

Only silence prevails here.

Time slipped by quietly, and it revolved around the Pines family. Mabel spoke slowly:

"How self-righteous are you going to be?"

……what?

Flames flashed in the distance, and the sound of metal clashing echoed. Mabel pinned a few strands of hair behind her ears.Her words rolled down to Dipper's ears, accompanied by swords and flames.

"Dipper, I want to ask you something." She took a deep breath, "Did I see you in the false illusion?"

False illusion?

Meteor Bubble?

Dipper nodded.

"..." Mabel's expression became very complicated, "And you left me?"

You left your sister behind?

"I didn't! I just think this is the best solution under the circumstances at that time. You will encounter many difficult things when you come out, and those are very dangerous..."

"Dangerous or not, you decide for me!" Mabel interrupted her brother, her chest heaving violently, "Are you going to let my relatives and friends suffer, and hide in a corner to enjoy false happiness!"

The young professor was hit like never before.He opened his mouth, his face full of horror.

"I do not……"

"You have!" Mabel gritted his teeth, "Do you know how uncomfortable I was when I saw you fall from the stone tower!"

Even though she "knew" that body was not the real Dipper at that time, she still couldn't control the contraction of her heart.

In fact, she also mistakenly thought that "Bipper" deliberately locked her in the illusion.That was just one more piece of evidence that Dipper was possessed.

But thinking about it now... it might as well be evidence of being possessed!

Throwing her, Wendy, and Soos in the meteor bubble was all out of Dipper's own will!

"You don't know! You idiot!"

Anger crept across Alcor's face.

"I want to protect you! Human beings are vulnerable in the end!"

Mabel responded with a louder decibel:

"I don't need your protection at all!"

Dipper flinched, shoulders pulled back a little involuntarily - Mabel realized she might have gone too far.Just as she was about to apologize, she saw Dipper raised his shoulders again, the golden pupils were brighter than ever, and the anger was burning inside.

"Ha," the demon snarled sharply, folding his arms. "No need? Come on Mabel Pines."

His brows trembled, and the giant dragon looked up in his eyes, bursting out with anger.

"Who do you think you are? A hero? Noah? Put away your "I am the center of the world" routine! Do you think that the "Day of Annihilation" is the end of the end? Do you think that the current Gravity Spring is the purgatory on earth?"

Dipper's voice was high-pitched like a cat's claws across a pane of glass.

"You're the one who doesn't know anything! Have you ever seen a tall building collapse? Have you seen a life disappear? Have you seen a dry bone? Have you ever seen a cannibal? Have you ever seen a fight over a bottle of water? Until one side's brains are splashed! Have you ever seen life passing helplessly beside you? Even if you clasp your hands and ask God to save your friend, his life still flows through your closed fingers Erjing! Have you seen it!"

He met the shocked gazes of Stan and Mabel, and the rest of the words slipped out of his mouth uncontrollably.

"I have seen!"

"When I close my eyes, I look dead! All kinds of deaths! Uncle Ford committed suicide by taking sleeping pills! Soos and Melody laughed and shot each other! Wendy smashed half of her head with a shotgun! And you..."

The waves of emotion crashed against the cliffs, and the waves smashed into pieces.The vigorous gushing momentum came to an abrupt end.

Sadness came to those golden eyes where the dragon lived.

The ending is like the wind, dissipating among the stars.

"...you died of extreme dehydration and starvation. I held it like, light as a cat."

Without water and fat, how can it not be light?

The young man with normal human eyes hugged the corpse and held a funeral for his beloved with his last tears.

It was his lingering nightmare.The past, the present, and even the future will forever fetter him.

He is a walking dead, a ghost on earth.Every breath he took into his lungs was brimstone and fire.

They won't understand him, they won't understand how the last survivor is dying of pain, and they won't understand that the last survivor is already in hell.

...except Bill.

No one understands him except Bill Cipher.

He slowly closed his eyes.

He heard Mabel say, "...you make me feel like a piece of shit."

Dipper opened his eyes again.

Mabel smiled and shook her head.

"I may not be as strong as you, Dipper, I may be weak. But look," she opened her arms to Dipper, "I'm standing right here."

Professor Pines looks like he's been hit in the head by a football.

"Maybe I'm not as smart as you, not as brave as you. Dipper, I don't have your heart-wrenching experience and lessons. I should be stupid, I can't see the difference in strength between myself and monsters. But I still broke through by myself." Illusion, I still survived this doomsday...probably."

"So you see, I'm alive and well even though I'm not acting in your script. What are you afraid of? What else are you afraid of?"

Under the starlight, Mabel spread her arms wide; she smiled without hesitation.

"I'm standing here alive right now."

Stan strode towards Dipper, his callused palm resting on the young man's forehead.

"Let's stop with your messy willfulness. I don't know why my name didn't appear, but," he rubbed Dipper's hair hard, and Alcor's hair was messed up, "I'm standing here too."

He crouched down, at eye level with the demon.

"I forgive you."

Stan was referring to the time in the basement.

Dipper... Dipper can't laugh or cry.

"...I don't need your forgiveness, what are you talking about, Uncle Stan."

"Ah, really? That's what you said, after all, you didn't destroy anything last time." Stan smiled heartlessly, "Going home? There's still pizza in the fridge. I specially reserved your favorite flavor for you. "

Mabel walked over, and with brisk steps, she stood in front of Dipper with her hands behind her back.

"Go home, Dipper."

At this moment, they are still standing here.

They are all still there, and no one has left.

The glaciers thawed and the flames reignited.After the star collapsed, the remnant formed a new nebula.

The young professor looked at them, at his uncle who was still alive, at his sister who was still alive.He felt the warmth of his fingertips, and his cold blood seemed to be warm again.

He could feel that his heart was still beating, although it was slower than humans, but it was still beating.

Dipper slowly, slowly, buried his face in trembling palms.

Stan and Mabel moved closer to him, and he smelled the girlish fragrance on his nostrils - it was the scent of Mabel's usual shampoo.

She said softly in front of him: "Birthday is coming soon, how do you like the birthday cake this year?"

There was a muffled sound coming from the person kneeling in a group.His voice trembled.

"...I want a blueberry sandwich."

"Wow, don't even think about it. The sandwich has to be strawberries, it's not negotiable."

Stan and Mabel gave him a hug together.

"Welcome home, Dipper."

He trembled, even the tips of his wings trembled.His ending trembled, and part of it was muffled in his throat.

Dipper said:

"……I'm back."

TBC.