life is just like first love

Chapter 45 Hearts for Each Other

After a period of recuperation, Xia Hongyun was discharged from the hospital.During this period of time, Lin Luo was by Xia Hongyun's side 24 hours a day, even if Xia Hongyun was in the toilet, Lin Luo would follow him desperately.Thinking back to that time, every time everyone saw him, Xia Hongyun's face became like a big tomato with those ambiguous eyes.

The Dark Vatican sent someone to look for Lin Luo again, and with the lessons learned from the tragic death of a cardinal, the Dark Vatican learned a lot this time.Finally, after a discussion, someone from Lin Luo would go to the Dark Vatican to take over the position of Holy Son after a hundred years.The matter of the Dark Holy See has finally come to an end.

On the day they were discharged from the hospital, everyone gathered at Lin Luo's home to celebrate Xia Hongyun's safe return and to celebrate everyone's safe return.Lin Luo cooked a large table of delicacies, and everyone was drunk that day.

Late at night, Lin Luo and Xia Hongyun were going to sleep.

"Honey, go to bed first, I'll smoke a cigarette first."

"it is good."

Seeing Lin Luo lying on the bed slowly falling asleep, Xia Hongyun's desires flashed complicated light, and he almost betrayed him, and even killed him.Xia Hongyun felt that he no longer had the purity he had when he fell in love with Lin Luo, so could he still be worthy of Lin Luo?

On the bed, Lin Luo felt that Xia Hongyun was rejecting him, even when he lost his memory before, this kind of thing never happened.Did Xia Hongyun feel that he was too cruel?Not as gentle and virtuous as he imagined, did he start to hate him like this?

The two had their own thoughts, no communication, no conversation, only deep self-blame for themselves and deep guilt for each other.Tears fell silently in the hearts of the two of them. The night seemed a little long.

During this period of time, Lin Luo discovered that Xia Hongyun had changed. Ever since Xia Hongyun came back, Xia Hongyun was no longer the person he knew well before.

Xia Hongyun looks so gentle, but he is no longer clinging to himself like in the past, he no longer comes to the coffee shop to eat, and he no longer needs to deliver lunch by himself.Work crazily every day, go to work earlier than anyone else, and always find excuses to work overtime for myself when I get off work. By the time I get home, it is already late at night, and the meals carefully prepared by Lin Luo are already cold.

Xia Hongyun is not like in the past, laughing and joking, the only expression Lin Luo can see every day is that smiling face, always polite.When going to sleep at night, they always go to sleep in another room. Even when they come back, the two of them will be on their respective sides of the bed. When Lin Luo leans over, Xia Hongyun will reflexively dodge.

"I have something to do today, so I won't go back tonight."

I don't know if this is the first call Xia Hongyun has received during this period that he can't return.Lin Luo held the phone and smiled, but the smile looked so bitter.Does he really hate me?Think I'm too bloody and cruel?Forget it, as long as he can stay by his side and watch him live, that's enough.

During this time, Xia Hongyun discovered that Lin Luo had changed. Since he came back, Lin Luo seemed to be no longer the Lin Luo in the impression he loved.

Lin Luo seemed to cling to him every day and be with him, but Xia Hongyun felt that Lin Luo seemed to have concerns about him in his heart.Lin Luo looked into his eyes, always showing loss.Does Lin Luo know what happened to him on the island?Think you are not good enough for him?Xia Hongyun began to use work to numb himself, so that he would stop thinking about these things, but it seemed to be of no use at all.

Lin Luo was very gentle to Xia Hongyun, but not as gentle as before, but out of politeness.Xia Hongyun felt that she had completely become an outsider, and could never enter Lin Luo's heart again.Xia Hongyun was afraid that Lin Luo would dislike him, so he always went to sleep in another room. Even when he returned to the bedroom, he didn't dare to get too close to Lin Luo.Sometimes, when Lin Luo fell asleep and turned over, Xia Hongyun always avoided it immediately. He was afraid, afraid that when Lin Luo woke up, he would see himself approaching him like that, and then he would show disgust.

Xia Hongyun felt that every day was so long, no matter how tired he was, he would suffer from insomnia once he lay down.He started to work overtime for himself, or numb himself with alcohol, so that he didn't have to worry. Suddenly, that day, Lin Luo told himself that he no longer loved him.

Xia Hongyun and Lin Luo are like natural actors, no one can see the changes in them.The two of them cover up very well, wearing different masks and doing different things every day.The two were buried in their own minds, and lived a life that seemed to be inseparable.Neither of them seemed to be able to notice that a crack appeared in their intact love like a skyfall.

In the box, Xia Hongyun was already drunk, and the women beside him were still trying to persuade him to drink.Xia Hongyun unconsciously picked up the wine glass and poured wine into his mouth.Xia Hongyun hugged left and right, and raised and lowered his hands on the women.The box opened suddenly, and Xia Hongyun saw a person standing at the door, a person he seemed very familiar with.Xia Hongyun shook his head vigorously to wake himself up, but under the influence of alcohol, he couldn't see anything clearly.

"excuse me."

Xia Hongyun knew that voice, it was his Lin Luo.Does he not care when he sees himself like this?An interruption, so what?

Xia Hongyun drove everyone out of the box, and poured himself vigorously by himself.I don't know how much I drank, Xia Hongyun finally lay down in the box and fell asleep.It was already the next morning when he woke up again, and Xia Hongyun felt as if his head was about to explode.

Not in the mood to go to work, Xia Hongyun went straight home.Walking into the house, he saw Lin Luo sitting blankly on the floor of the living room, as if he hadn't slept all night.Looking up, seeing Xia Hongyun, Lin Luo slowly got up.

"I'll help you make breakfast."

The strange gentleness and polite attitude pierced Xia Hongyun's heart like a sharp sword.Xia Hongyun hadn't fully woken up from the wine yet, looking at Lin Luo who was busy in the kitchen and seeing the breakfast served by Lin Luo, Xia Hongyun broke out.Sweeping all the breakfast to the ground, the plates, bowls and chopsticks fell to the ground and shattered, making a piercing whine.Regardless of Lin Luo's struggle, Xia Hongyun carried Lin Luo into the bedroom and threw him on the bed.

Xia Hongyun tore Lin Luo's clothes to pieces, biting Lin Luo's body like a beast.Xia Hongyun was startled suddenly, raised his head, and saw Lin Luo's tears falling from the corner of his eyes.

"Why?" Lin Luo raised his hand and slapped Xia Hongyun on the face, hoping that Xia Hongyun would wake up, "Even if you have had enough of me, why are you ruining yourself like this?"

"I've had enough of you?" Xia Hongyun sneered, "Don't you fucking hate me? Then I'll make you hate me a little more!"

Xia Hongyun rushed forward again, Lin Luo pushed Xia Hongyun away.

"Do you fucking despise me that much?" Xia Hongyun roared.

"Why do I fucking hate you? Don't you fucking hate me? I work overtime every day, and I add NMLGB!"

"I dislike you? When did I dislike you? It's not because I'm afraid you'll annoy me!"

"Why do I dislike you?"

"Because I fucking killed someone!"

Lin Luo was taken aback, and Xia Hongyun was taken aback.

"Honey, please don't think I'm dirty, please don't think I'm a murderer! Please!" Xia Hongyun cried like a child.

Lin Luo helped Xia Hongyun wipe away tears, but his own tears fell under the influence of Xia Hongyun. Lin Luo hugged Xia Hongyun, "I don't dislike it, I really don't dislike it!"

Two people are in pain, releasing all the pressure during this time.The thoughts separated for so long, and the imagination during the time after the reunion, all turned into tears and flowed down.After finally hearing it, seeing the tears on each other's familiar faces, the two couldn't help crying again.In the end, the two were tired from crying and fell asleep hugging each other. This was the first time the two had slept soundly in nearly two months.

As night fell, the two slowly opened their eyes, rubbed their growling stomachs, looked at each other's crying faces, and smiled awkwardly.Xia Hongyun helped Lin Luo find a piece of clothing to put on for him, and the two of them went to the bathroom to wash their faces.Xia Hongyun went to clean up the mess in the bedroom and dining room, and Lin Luo went to the kitchen to prepare dinner.

The two who hadn't seen each other for a long time sat at the dining table to eat, without words, but full of sweetness.In the bathroom, Xia Hongyun was sitting in the bathtub, holding Lin Luo, who lay quietly in Xia Hongyun's arms.

Xia Hongyun told Lin Luo everything that happened on the island, and his worries after returning. Xia Hongyun spoke while Lin Luo listened.After Xia Hongyun finished speaking, Lin Luo spoke again about what happened during Xia Hongyun's disappearance, including what he had concealed, and Lin Luo's conjecture after returning.After talking about everything, both of them had no secrets and smiled knowingly.

I didn't expect to be so stupid.

The two returned to their former appearance, Xia Hongyun was still the Xia Hongyun Lin Luo knew well, and Lin Luo was still the Lin Luo that Xia Hongyun loved.If you have to say something different, the two who have no secrets have no scruples, as if they have a tacit understanding, even if they are no longer around, they can still feel each other's existence.

At dinner time, Wang Jian and the four of them went to Lin Luo's house to have dinner again.During Xia Hongyun's return, in order not to disturb the reunion of the two, they ate at home.It's rare for Wang Jian to cook. He didn't almost ruin the kitchen like in the past, but it's also unflattering. Either he put too much salt, or he accidentally burned it, but Mu Yunxi cried and became a guinea pig.Although Wang Jian's cooking is not delicious, at least he can swallow it.

In the kitchen, Wang Jian and Ye Feng watched Lin Luo cook seriously, and started to fight, hoping to learn something.Lin Luo couldn't help smiling when he heard that Xia Hongyun was asking Mu Yunxi and Mengsheng for food expenses in the living room.It can be seen that the recent meals of the four of them do not seem to be very good. Lin Luo cooked more meals than usual today.When the four of them were turmoil at the dining table, Lin Luo and Xia Hongyun just ate quietly, serving food for each other.

"Brother, why do I feel that you and Hongyun are a bit different compared to before." Chatting after dinner, Wang Jian suddenly stared at Lin Luo and Xia Hongyun, and said suddenly.

"Is there?" Seeing that the other three nodded, Lin Luo smiled lightly, "What's different?"

"It seems to be more affectionate than before!"

The two smiled and did not speak.

In the bedroom, Xia Hongyun hugged Lin Luo and kissed Lin Luo on the forehead, "Honey, will you marry me?"

"Proposing on the bed is not a romantic thing." Lin Luo smiled and looked at Xia Hongyun tenderly, "However, I am willing."

"Then let's get married." Xia Hongyun smiled.

"Okay, but—" Lin Luo hesitated.

"But what?" Xia Hongyun's heart tightened, probably because he didn't want to.

"Can your mother agree?" Lin Luo expressed his worries, "I don't want when we two get married, we only have friends and no relatives to witness."

"Well, let's think of a way. There will always be a way." Xia Hongyun also hoped that Xia's mother could come, but, thinking of Xia's mother's attitude, Xia Hongyun felt that this matter seemed to be nothing.

"Honey, when I was unconscious, I dreamed about our past." Xia Hongyun was silent for a long time, then suddenly spoke.

"what's up?"

"Do you still remember that you promised me before that you would marry me as your wife?"

"When did it happen, why can't I remember?"

"I still remember when you said you were a man and didn't want to marry, and I spanked your little ass, you—"

"Okay, okay," Lin Luo blushed, and bit Xia Hongyun's shoulder.

"I knew you still remembered!" Xia Hongyun smiled, "Honey, are you willing to stay by my side forever?"

"I am willing!"