For the favor of Mr. Nie

Tong Yan didn't expect that Nie Zheng would comfort him in turn, and couldn't bear to look away from the man for a moment, then came back to his senses, hurriedly shook his head, "I'm fine."

Looking at the altar at the end of the coffin, the old man's kind face has faded to black and white, but his voice is still there.Nie Zheng didn't say much, walked forward, bowed deeply three times, put on the incense again, and then stopped in front of the spirit for a long time.

Tong Yan didn't know when Nie Zheng saw the old lady last time, but he could guarantee that Nie Zheng never thought it would be Yongjue that time.

The world is impermanent, how sad.

Originally, this was an occasion where he shouldn't be distracted, but Tong Yan still lost his mind after all. After staring at Nie Zheng for a moment, he turned his attention to one side.

Six men came in with Nie Zheng, two of them stayed behind Nie Zheng, and the other four stood on both sides of the gate.

Yes, this is still coming in, outside, I don’t know if there are any more.

He always judged Nie Zheng's weight by the number of entourage. Last time the man came back with four people.

The distance between them seems to be increasing.

Mrs. Xia has no children, but she has two nephews who came back from other places in the afternoon.

Even so, the social interaction of the elderly is limited, and there are still not many people who come to express their condolences, and the mourning hall seems very cold.Nie Zheng has received the kindness of the old lady, and has been taken care of for 20 years. It is necessary to do my best to stay at night to keep watch.

After dinner, Nie Zheng said to Tong Yan, "Go back and rest first."

Tong Yan noticed that the man's mood was obviously low, how could he really leave, he quickly shook his head and said, "I'll stay here tonight, anyway, I'll be fine tomorrow."

Besides, he was also reluctant to leave, it was so rare for them to meet.After Tong Yan finished speaking, he hurried to the side and sat down, not giving Nie Zheng any chance to object.

Before the burial, the lamps and candles are not extinguished, as if to illuminate the last ray of soul of the deceased left in the world.In the middle of the night, seeing that the nephew of the old lady was in a state of depression, Nie Zheng went to the coffin, knelt down, picked up a stack of yellow paper, put it into the basin of burning paper money, and lit it with a lighter.

Soon, Tong Yan followed, knelt down beside him, and reached out to the pile of papers.

Nie Zheng grabbed Tong Yan's wrist and said, "I'll do it."

According to local customs, burning paper money for the deceased on this day should be done by the younger generation of blood relatives or in-laws.Nie Zheng is not superstitious, but he has to pay attention to what should be paid attention to. He doesn't care. Anyway, to him, Mrs. Xia is more like a mother, but in Tong Yan's house, Tong Yanyan is still alive and well, so don't let the child make taboos here. .

Tong Yan said hello and retracted his arms, but he still stayed by his side.A pair of eyes were illuminated by the dancing flames.

It wasn't until the next morning that Nie Zheng went to rest, but he only found a nearby hotel, and Tong Yan followed suit.Both of them were tired and didn't say much.The next day, Mrs. Xia was cremated. Tong Yan originally planned to stay with Nie Zheng, but at night, Lao Nie and Zheng Zhaohua came.The father and son got together in one place, Tong Yan couldn't say much, and Zheng Zhaohua punctured everything: "You have an interview tomorrow, don't forget it, go back early."

Nie Zheng also asked Tong Yan to go back, but he kept sending him to the car.

The two of them were sitting in the car, and the driver stood guard below.

Looking at Tong Yan's tired expression, Nie Zheng said, "I planned to come over to see you, but I didn't expect such a thing to happen."

Tong Yan quickly replied, "No one would have thought of it."

In the dark carriage, Nie Zheng remained silent for a long time again, "I'll leave after tomorrow's funeral, don't send it off. I'll come back when I'm free next time." Many, the trip can only be delayed until tomorrow at most.

Even though he could understand, Tong Yan's heart still skipped a beat, and a sentence lingered in his mind repeatedly: Nie Zheng is leaving.

There seems to be a wilderness in my heart that can't be seen and the end can't be reached, but Tong Yan laughed, "I'm in good shape this year and I'm quite busy. Don't worry about me, I'm not a child."

Not children, do not need to keep in mind.

Nie Zheng had indeed heard from Zheng Zhaohua that Tong Yan was coming out of a trough this year.He didn't know that there would be repetitions in the trough, so he nodded slightly, "Yes."

When Nie Zheng got out of the car, the car drove away slowly. Through the rear window, he saw the figure of the man standing quietly under the street lamp. A huge sense of sadness quickly swept through Tong Yan's body. He even had an extremely real physiological reaction: stomach bursts twitch.

Tong Yan quickly withdrew his eyes and turned his face forward.It may be that he was facing life and death after the farewell, and he couldn't suppress the dull feeling of depression even with all his strength.Every parting in life is uncertain what it will be like when we meet again.

Some people's arrival seems to be for the moment when their backs are fading away.

In the second day's interview, with such a simple script, Tong Yan forgot his words one after another.The host is a highly respected teacher in the circle, and he said to him very patiently: "It's okay, come again."

After recording the show, he went out from the TV station. Xiaotian looked at his face and carefully comforted him: "Brother Tong Yan, you are busy attending funerals these days, so it's normal that you don't have so much time to watch TV. We are nothing today. I heard that The last time Teacher Ling Long was on this show, he answered one question and stopped once."

Through the glass covered with sunshade film, the world outside the car window is always dark. Only Tong Yan knows that he memorized the script last night, and he memorized it seriously, but when things came to an end, his slack mind couldn't do it at all. To immediately find out what was originally engraved in his mind, it was even worse than when he was in the worst situation last year.

Tong Yan looked at the hurrying pedestrians outside the window in a panic and blankly. Everyone was busy with the present and the future. It seemed that everyone was busy with vigor, but what could he do, what else could he do?Tong Yan's whole body was shrouded in a strong sense of fear: he couldn't remember the lines when he was filming a TV series; he couldn't concentrate on getting into the role when he was filming a movie. As an actor, he was useless, what else could he do?

That is, in the afternoon of this day, Tong Yan met three unexpected guests in Zheng Zhaohua's office - the sister, ex-wife and manager of the late actor Cong Xueyang.

Tong Yan sat on the side listlessly, seeing Xueyang's agent had a game with Zheng Zhaohua for a while, and then he understood what these people were doing: next year will happen to be the [-]th anniversary of Xueyang's death, and these people want to give this legendary actor To make a biographical movie, I fell in love with him.

Moreover, Zheng Zhaohua has obviously pushed it once for him. After all, the biographies of celebrities play real people. At present, in China, there is no actor who has used this subject to find himself a promotion. It has been less than 20 years since Xue Yang passed away, but his old movie fans are still there.

That's right, if it weren't for this kind of hard work, people wouldn't be able to find him right now. Cong Xueyang's manager is now a master in the industry, and there are not one or two actors under him who can get on the scene.There are really good cakes, why not keep them for your own people?

As soon as Tong Yan thought of this, Director Zheng asked the question in a more subtle way, "I think Yu Feng is good, why don't you leave this opportunity to him?"

Cong Xueyang's agent really gave them an answer: "He can't, his image is too far from Xueyang, don't you think? Tong Yan's eyes are quite similar to Xueyang's, and even his temperament is the same as when he just debuted The Xueyang at that time was somewhat similar."

Thank you so much, Tong Yan felt unhappy and turned his face aside.

Zheng Zhaohua's tone was a bit stiff: "I still can only say that I regret that Tong Yan can't keep up with the schedule. I said it last time."

They used both soft and hard nails, and manager Xueyang finally couldn't hold back anymore. Hearing this, he stood up, "That's fine, excuse me."

Originally, the matter was over here, but after Xueyang's ex-wife got up, she walked up to Tong Yan, looked at him silently for a moment, and asked, "Have you not slept well for a long time?"

There was real concern in the woman's eyes, and her tone was like greeting an old friend. Tong Yan's heart jumped suddenly, and his nose felt sore for a moment.But after a while, he stood up and smiled nonchalantly, "Thank you for your concern, no."

The woman said, "You really look like him," then took out the script from her bag, and stuffed it into Tong Yan's hands without any explanation, "Please take a look before making a decision, okay?"

Everyone in the room fell silent. Tong Yan was originally impatient, but facing the woman's teary eyes, he was a little dazed, and still lowered his head and opened the script.

It is impossible for him to read all of it, only the outline in front of the script.

From the few lines of Xueyang's success as a teenager, he basically swept it away. What really held Tong Yan back was the ups and downs of the film king when his glory was no longer.Since Xueyang died of asthma, she also suffered from severe depression in the years before her death.All these tragedies started when Xueyang won the best actor for the second time. In that year, the actor experienced two things-the child who was about to fall to the ground died in his wife's womb, and divorce.

It may be due to the double torture of body and mind. In the next few years, the actor did not have a single work that could be achieved. The anxiety and pain finally pushed Cong Xueyang to the critical point of collapse.The actor did not admit defeat, and kept fighting against himself until the last work brought him the third actor trophy, and he finally burned his life.

Tong Yan hurriedly flipped through the next few pages, and there was even a scene where Cong Xueyang had a depression attack on the set.When he spoke again, his throat was a little burning, "Can the characters really be cut open like this?"

Most of the biographies of celebrities are full of Wei Guang Zheng Gao, but this time it is obviously different from what he thought. Seeing Youmen, Cong Xueyang's manager immediately said: "In the past, what the public saw was Cong Xueyang in their hearts. This time, we want to give them a real Cong Xueyang."

Tong Yan nodded: "You'd better remember this sentence, when will the movie start?"

Seeing that the situation was not right, Zheng Zhaohua hurriedly said, "Let's discuss it first."

The manager really wanted to stop him, Tong Yan couldn't do this play.Tong Yan's brain exploded, and he forgot that there were other people beside him, and then he opened his mouth and spewed out several tons of gunpowder: "I said, take it. Can't you hear it?!"

He didn't know if he wanted to play Cong Xueyang, or if he wanted to play himself once, but Tong Yan was very clear in his heart: this time, no one can stop him, and no one can stop him.

Tong Yan has never been mild-tempered, but this is the first time Zheng Zhaohua has been bullied by him in public.After sending away the bright eyes, Zheng Zhaohua looked back at Tong Yan.

And Tong Yan was leaning on the back of the sofa, gasping for breath, looking at him with a bit of fragility at a loss, and said in one breath: "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

Tong Yan begged, "Just let me act."

Zheng Zhaohua suddenly realized, "Okay, don't worry, act, let you act."

This afternoon, several people in Zheng Zhaohua's office saw Tong Yan's mental state, but this time, even Zheng Zhaohua himself would not tell Nie Zheng again. It's rare to find the right role.

After New Year's Day in 2016, "From Xueyang" officially launched.

It is also based on Tong Yan's state, and the front-ranking scenes start from the downhill road from Xueyang.

On the day it was started, the film was about the divorce from Xueyang.

Divorce and the loss of children are the key to the film king's decline. In order to grasp the character's mentality, Tong Yan asked Cong Xueyang's ex-wife, Ms. Wu, "Why did you have to divorce him at that time?"

As far as he knows, Ms. Wu is ten years older than Cong Xueyang. She was Cong Xueyang's teacher at the Film Academy. Lu, however, resolutely chose to leave when Congxueyang stood at the peak.Don't say that the divorce is just because of the loss of the child and the common suffering. Shouldn't the two of them go hand in hand?

Ms. Wu smiled very vicissitudes, "He is a good actor. In the beginning, we really came together because of our like-mindedness. But because he is an excellent actor, many times, after the shooting is over, he is still in the role. Go, including the feelings in the movie. He...was not a good husband. At that time, I was almost forty, and my enthusiasm for movies was almost exhausted. I couldn't teach him anything long ago. I just wanted a stable life. He Can't give it to me. We've argued too many times."

This is a tragedy where dreams and family cannot be balanced.People's hearts are subject to change. People who have been with you may leave at any time. The long time you once thought was never long.

Tong Yan's filming of this scene was unprecedentedly smooth: after leaving the Civil Affairs Bureau, he smiled at the actress who played Ms. Wu and said, "Okay, we are all free. If you need anything in the future, just come to me."

Tong Yan is too aware of the helplessness behind this smile, some people are destined to not be able to stay, and they cannot stay.He almost acted in his true colors, just like afterwards, from Xueyang sitting alone on the side of the road in a daze, he also acted in his true colors. For an immature man, his lover who could be called his life mentor suddenly left, leaving What kind of ruins are there, he understands too well.

Still a man, but clearly an outcast again.

After this one came down, the director's eyes were all over the place, "Okay! There's a play!"

Tong Yan still sat on the side of the road and did not leave. Soon, Zheng Zhaohua came over and asked him worriedly: "Are you all right?"

He lit a cigarette and smiled, "The filming went so smoothly, what can I do?"

Taking the first puff of the cigarette, Tong Yan turned his face away. It was strange that he should be happy when he regained his state, but he couldn't tell where his heart sank.

On the tenth day of filming, the first scene in the morning was the first episode of Xueyang's depression on the set after his ex-wife left.

Early this morning, Tong Yan received a call from Nie Zheng.

After exchanging pleasantries, Nie Zheng asked him, "The filming went well?"

Tong Yan replied truthfully, "It went very smoothly, very smoothly. This time, my condition is better than before."

Nie Zheng said, "I heard, congratulations."

Adhering to the principle of not disturbing at any time, the frequency of his phone calls with Nie Zheng is once a week. After the phone call passed, so did the expectations of the week. Calculate backwards.

The scene lights were in place, and Tong Yan came to the camera.

Cong Xueyang also received a call on the day when she became ill. The timeline was not specified, but Tong Yan guessed that Cong Xueyang had heard the news of her lover's marriage in Canada.

What touched Cong Xueyang was the assistant's words, "Brother Xueyang, let's have breakfast before reading the script."

Tong Yan is restless, sleepless at night, struggling, but still can't keep up with the camera that is about to be aimed at him. The people in the distance are still far away, and they have already had a new start, but he, who has lost what has been lost, is still hesitating not before.

In a trance, Tong Yan heard Xiaotian urging him, as if urging him to die, and the script in his hand slapped towards the opponent's face, "Get out!——"

The noisy studio suddenly fell silent...

What did he do?

Tong Yan could clearly feel the headache, just like his headache every night, the pain was really piercing, he covered his head, screamed, and breathed with the greatest effort to keep his own breath.Tong Yan didn't expect that he would cry in front of so many people. He didn't realize that his face was full of tears until he realized that Xiao Tian was by his side.

This is not good, very bad, Tong Yan hurriedly calmed himself down, curled up on the recliner without moving, saw Xiaotian's mouth opening and closing in front of him, he heard himself replying something, just like a normal person.

Looking back, Tong Yan didn't want to understand why he had a headache that lasted until daytime. During this period of time, it was clear that he had a headache every night, and it started as soon as it got dark, like an alarm clock.

In a blink of an eye, I joined the group for a month.Oda must have discovered something. At night, when he was sent back to his room, he specifically said: "Brother Tong, if you want to think about the script, you should do it now, and don't stay up until midnight to read it."

Tong Yan didn't say anything, and slammed the door forcefully, what a fucking nonsense, if he could calm down and do things now, would he have to wait until midnight?

Back in the room, he threw himself onto the bed, took out the painkiller from under the pillow with trembling hands, and swallowed it just like that, then stared blankly at the ceiling as if waiting for death.I don't know how long it took, but finally, the effect of the medicine came up, and the headache passed, followed by deep sleepiness.

Like many nights, when I opened my eyes again, it was already midnight.Tong Yan got up, smoked a cigarette, picked up the script, and turned to the part to be performed tomorrow.

He had seen this episode a long time ago, since Xue Yang was found mentally abnormal by his assistant in one morning.When the assistant opened the door, Cong Xueyang curled himself up under the desk, engraving words on the side wooden board of the cabinet.

Tong Yan has seen the photos of the lettering, a few crooked lines, all of them, come back.

come back, come back, come back...

Therefore, there is really nothing difficult to understand. This person's depression and all abnormalities started when that person left.No matter how stubborn you are, you have been waiting for that person to look back, but you can't wait.

But, so what?Tong Yan only saw a few days ago that a vice president of that South Asian country was prosecuted for a same-sex relationship, not impeachment, but prosecution. Only then did he know that in some places, such a relationship violated the law.

Tong Yan was in a trance immediately, he might as well have stayed there, the moonlight outside the window was clear, just like the moonlight in his window that year, maybe he just had a not-so-good dream?Now I wake up from the dream, when he is still there.

Yes, maybe.Tong Yan's stomach tightened again, he was so hungry.

He is hungry, and there may be a fish outside the door.

Tong Yan threw the script aside, almost staggered towards the door, and pulled the door open.In the middle of the night, the lights still illuminate the corridors of the hotel. Outside the door and on the ground, there is nothing except the carpet, which is not a complicated pattern.

His, it has been a long time.

In the early morning, Xiaotian knocked on the door, but no one answered. He opened the door with his room card, and when he entered the room, he was stunned, and there was a person curled up under the desk.Tong Yan was dragged out by Oda in a trance. Amidst the loud humming in his ears, he seemed to hear Oda calling his name.

Moreover, Xiaotian was still crying, Tong Yan seemed to understand, but also didn't seem to understand, and asked: "Why are you crying? It's okay, I've finished my play trials, let's go to the set."

It took three years from Xueyang to go out, or in other words, I haven't been able to go out in my whole life. From Xueyang's last play, he played a role with abnormal mentality. Perhaps, like Tong Yan now, it is also the same. True color.

Tong Yan saw Cong Xueyang's diary at that time, recording the last time he went to Canada to visit his ex-wife.

"On the day she sent me away, it was snowing heavily, and we didn't hold an umbrella. The road in front of her door was really short. After walking the whole street, the wind and snow would not turn my hair white. It just melted into the eye sockets."

We have only walked together for two years, and the road is not short.

You can't grow old together, you can't grow old together.The snow that melted in the eyes is the continuous hatred and endless sadness after parting.

Tong Yan performed the best crying scene in his life after this farewell scene.It was heart-piercing, as if his internal organs had been emptied.

From the day Xueyang passed away, Tong Yan seemed to have some sharp weapon constantly stirring his brain, and even his skull seemed to be broken.He was lying on the bed, gasping for breath, shaking with pain, the darkness gradually filled his field of vision, Tong Yan thought, it has passed, it will pass, this long and bumpy road, he is finally going to finish, but , why is he so unwilling?

After the director said, Xiaotian went to the bed right away, while Tong Yan was still lying there without moving. Xiaotian shrank his heart and didn't care too much. He reached out and patted Tong Yan's face, "Brother Tong! Don't scare me."

The person whose face he slapped remained silent and did not respond.

Everyone told Nie Zheng that the filming of Tong Yan's film went very smoothly, and after a long period of low ebb, Tong Yan finally ushered in a burst.

But no one told Nie Zheng that Tong Yan spent his life acting.

He returned home anxiously, and when he arrived at the shooting location, it was only the afternoon of the day Tong Yan fell into a coma.

When Nie Zheng entered the ward, Tong Yan was already awake.He passed several people and walked to the side of the hospital bed.

He asked how he was doing, and Tong Yan's eyes slowly turned to him.

Then, Nie Zheng saw a scene that he would never forget for the rest of his life: when Tong Yan looked at him, his eyes were indescribably and neuroticly dull.

He sat down on the side of the bed, held Tong Yan's skinny hand, and asked again, "Tell me, how do you feel?"

Tong Yan still didn't speak, but his eyes were fixed on his face, and a line of tears fell from the corner of his eyes.

Before, no matter what happened, Nie Zheng had never seen Tong Yan cry, and his heart ached immediately.

And Tong Yan couldn't understand why Nie Zheng appeared here.

Maybe it was his hallucination again, he couldn't control his trembling lips, "Nie..."

Nie Zheng?

still?Mr. Nie?

Having been registered as a tranquilizer, Tong Yan slept deeply.

And Nie Zheng has already learned everything from the doctor, not to mention chronic insomnia, nervous headaches severe enough to cause fainting, and other signs of the body. How healthy can a person with long-term insomnia be?

Tong Yan kept saying good things to him, and he kept saying yes, and he could persevere.Forget it, Tong Yan is sick, he doesn't care about the patient, but what happened to Zheng Zhaohua and Xiaotian?

So, when Tong Yan woke up, he heard Nie Zheng say to Zheng Zhaohua outside: "I didn't stop him from acting, but he has signs of a mental breakdown. He can act. Wait until he recovers. You can negotiate with the crew. How much loss will you have?" I take care."

Tong Yan was shocked and immediately struggled to get out of bed.His legs were so weak that he couldn't support his body, and as soon as he fell to the ground, people outside rushed in after hearing the sound.

When being picked up, Tong Yan firmly grabbed Nie Zheng's arm, "I can't stop... If I stop, it will be gone."

What's gone?I can't tell whether it's from Xueyang or my own chaos to the extremely painful madness.

This time, there were a lot of lobbyists in front of Nie Zheng, and they all agreed. The actor's state of ecstasy in the play, if you miss it, there may be no next time.They told him not to block Tong Yan's way to the top.Anyway, there's still a week left, and the shooting is done.

Well, a week.

This is not the first time that Nie Zheng has seen Tong Yan act with his own eyes. On the day Tong Yan finished filming, he returned to China and went to the filming location again.

The last scene was from Xue Yang standing on the stage of the awards ceremony for the last time.Nie Zheng stood behind the monitor, feeling uncomfortable with Tong Yan's eyes.

Tong Yan was still smiling, but that smile only made people feel that the prosperity was gone and the world was barren.

This time, Nie Zheng didn't even let Tong Yan eat the finished cake. When someone got off the camera, he immediately stepped forward and put a coat on Tong Yan, and then said, "Come with me."

Tong Yan hadn't come out of the play yet, so he didn't have time to figure out why Nie Zheng came again, so he could only obediently get into the car behind him.

When he sat still, Nie Zheng said to the driver, "Let's go."

Tong Yan was a bit stunned when he was depressed, "Where are you going?"

Nie Zheng said: "Go to my place, heal the disease, and nourish the body."

When he was away, Tong Yan was not well, so there was really nothing else to say, this disease had to be cured under his nose.

Seeing that Tong Yan didn't say a word, he couldn't tell the difference: "When will you take care of your body, and when will you come back to filming."

Tong Yan said, "My certificate."

Nie Zheng quickly replied, "It's all here with me."