cute you

"Tick-tock-"

The second hand, as thin as a silk thread, rotates dutifully, and time is quietly passing by.

Both the dial and the strap have been worn a bit badly, with a weather-beaten and dilapidated appearance, which ironically contrasts sharply with its youthful owner.

Jiang You touched the watch in his hand over and over again, as if he was soothing the trembling heart in his chest.

The world is empty and confusing, Jiang You feels his consciousness wandering around like wisps of misty cooking smoke.

Hu Haowei was talking on the side, but Jiang You couldn't distinguish clearly, he only felt that consciousness was a blurred and chaotic light, only the black words and symbols on the manuscript paper in front of him were clear and sharp.

Jiang You pulled some remaining thoughts and forced himself to finish the calculation.

The tears finally stopped.

He handed the manuscript paper with written answers to Hu Haowei as if nothing happened, and before Hu Haowei was in a hurry to express his concern, he said very firmly: "Don't worry, I'm fine."

Then Jiang You quickly wiped away all the tears on his face, as if everything had never happened.

Hu Haowei was indifferent to reading all afternoon.

He turned his head to look at Jiang You from time to time, Jiang You was completely immersed in the sea of ​​questions, and there was no clue on his face.

Hu Haowei felt very strange and didn't know what to do.

After returning to the dormitory, he secretly told Luo Chen and Huang Kangning about the incident. Luo Chen immediately hypothesized many possibilities, but this time Huang Kangning, who always took good care of Jiang You, had a complicated look on his face. He said calmly: "Don't bother him anymore, let him be alone... just be quiet."

Then Huang Kangning didn't say anything.

Hu Haowei and Luo Chen both felt tricky.

Therefore, the gossiping Luo Chen asked Qian Mengqi about it in private during class.

Qian Mengqi became uncharacteristically sad, hesitated for a long time, and finally gave an incomprehensible answer.

So Hu Haowei and Luo Chen became even more curious.

Although Jiang You's daily work and rest in and out of class was so normal that it couldn't be more normal, but it was so normal that it was almost weird. Every day, he took actions at fixed points and time, and became more and more withdrawn and taciturn.

When waking up every morning, although no one mentioned it, everyone noticed that Jiang You's eyes were often red.

Both Luo Chen and Hu Haowei felt that something was wrong with Jiang You, so they said to Huang Kangning, "Don't you have Jiang You's mother's phone number, why don't you call his mother? Could it be that something happened at home?" ah?"

Huang Kangning could only change the subject in a precarious manner.

Because Jiang You told him that if he told his family members, he would feel extremely painful if he was taken home for treatment.

It's a pity that a week hasn't passed yet, and Jiang You strangely wants to go home on his own initiative.

He could hardly bear the feeling of blankness in his head these days.

When he returned suddenly, there were only servants in the house. He lied calmly and said that he just came back to get some things, and then slipped upstairs quietly.

He stole the key from his parents' room and opened his brother's previous room.

This room has been vacant for a long time, although someone will clean it regularly every once in a while, but when Jiang You entered, he was still choked up by the turbid air and burst into tears.

Everything is well placed in place.

Jiang You walked aimlessly around the lifeless room, and he carefully sorted out the things his brother had used before he was alive, and then he felt a little relieved.

Everything in the house seemed to be waiting for his brother's return.

In the silent darkness of my heart, a little fire flickered again.

Jiang You stayed quietly in the room for a while, and finally regained a little sense of security.

In the dead and dark room, he sat on the ground, leaning against the bed, and softly called out to the air: "Brother."

Then let out a long breath.

In this alone space, it seems that all Jiang You's energy and hope are contained.

If you can’t see it in your dream, at least it’s still here.

It wasn't until Jiang You felt that he was slowly regaining his energy that he reluctantly stood up from the bed, locked the door again, and returned the key to the original place.

Jiang You didn't disturb Zhu Jingya this trip home, and it was already night when he returned to the dormitory. Luo Chen and Hu Haowei saw that his face was much better, and thought that the matter at home had been resolved, so they let go of their previous worries .

Only Huang Kangning remained the same, and Luo Chen laughed at him and Jiang You as if they were quarreling couples.

Huang Kangning was really not in the mood to joke, so he went out of the dormitory for a walk, and walked downstairs to Qian Mengqi without knowing it.

He simply called Qian Mengqi.

Qian Mengqi tied a ponytail very casually, her face was clean without makeup, and she hurried down wearing a hoodie and slippers.

The girl was full of youthful vigor, and the soft night light slightly neutralized her usual flamboyance, so that Huang Kangning almost didn't realize it, "Actually, you don't need to dress up so exaggeratedly, you still look good .”

Qian Mengqi revealed her true colors as soon as she opened her mouth, "Nonsense, I look good with a curtain!"

Huang Kangning didn't continue to argue with her, but just sighed.

Qian Mengqi asked him: "What's wrong with you? Do you want me to do something?"

Huang Kangning originally wanted to talk to her about Jiang You, but the words got to the tip of his tongue, and he didn't want to talk about it in an instant.

Qian Mengqi was very angry, "Why don't you talk?"

Huang Kangning said, "Can't I tell you to walk with me?"

Now Qian Mengqi was stunned, "Are you... are you chasing me?"

Huang Kangning looked like you must be mentally ill, "Just take a walk and you will be chasing you? Don't you feel better about yourself!"

Qian Mengqi dragged her slippers and walked a few steps, "All right, just treat me to ice cream."

Huang Kangning dug his pockets, "I didn't bring any money."

"..." Qian Mengqi grinned at him, "Pay on the phone!"

Huang Kangning spread his hands and said, "I left in a hurry and didn't have time to charge it. I ran out of battery after calling you. Can you go upstairs and get me a mobile charger?"

"It's okay, I'll pay in advance!" Qian Mengqi gritted her teeth, "Remember to return it to me later."

"Okay." Huang Kangning agreed very readily, "You can eat as many as you want."

So Qian Mengqi happily dragged Huang Kangning to the ice cream shop, she pretended to be natural and asked: "Is there something on your mind, because of Jiang You?"

Huang Kangning didn't want to mention this at first, but Qian Mengqi spoke first, so she could only give a heavy hum, "How do you know?"

Qian Mengqi took light steps, "Luo Chen said that the atmosphere between you these two days is like a couple quarreling."

Huang Kangning: "..."

Qian Mengqi turned her head, stood in front of Huang Kangning, and asked seriously: "Is there anything we can do for Jiang You's matter?"

Huang Kangning silently shook his head.

"Since you can't help...then you should be happy!"

"happy?"

"Well, you've been exuding low pressure all day long. He's no more depressed than you. Only when you're happy can you convey your happy emotions, can't you?"

"And..." Qian Mengqi continued, "Didn't Jiang You say it all, his illness is not that serious, we should trust him, don't think too complicated, in your state, I am Jiang You, I saw you Not happy."

After being lectured by Qian Mengqi, Huang Kangning felt that it made sense, so he nodded and said, "I see."

Qian Mengqi still hopped and walked restlessly, "Why are you so worried about Jiang You?"

"Aren't we roommates? Shouldn't we be concerned?" Huang Kangning replied as a matter of course.

"Okay." Qian Mengqi reluctantly accepted the answer, "I just think there must be a limit to caring, too much caring puts a lot of pressure on people, and it may not be good for Jiang You."

"But Jiang You has...that disease."

Qian Mengqi stopped again, and suddenly said seriously: "I knew you were stupid... Do you have no common sense?"

Huang Kangning looked puzzled, "What common sense?"

"It's good to get along with Jiang You as usual. Isn't the most taboo thing for depression patients is that people around them deliberately treat him as a patient?"

Huang Kangning stammered all of a sudden: "I, I don't have..."

Qian Mengqi turned her head and continued to walk forward, "In short, you should pay attention to yourself. Jiang You is not a child, he can express his wishes to us so clearly, all we can do is choose to trust him."

Huang Kangning rarely saw such a reasonable Qian Mengqi, so he couldn't help but have a better impression of her.

It's just that Qian Mengqi and Qian Kaiwen are exactly the same, they are always serious for less than three seconds, and she asked secretly: "Honestly speaking, Huang Kangning, do you have a crush on Jiang You?"

"..." Huang Kangning pulled the corner of his mouth, "You are glad you haven't bought ice cream, otherwise I might consider slapping you in the face."

"Hmph." Qian Mengqi pouted, and looked at Huang Kangning suspiciously. Seeing his goose bumps, she said the sentence at the station again meaningfully: "Friendship between boys It's incomprehensible."

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This article has been released by me more and more stream of consciousness -_,-