rebirth of not following the old path

Episode 1: Past Life

Pan Haoqian was in a meeting when he received the call from Liu Yinglan, and when he heard Liu Yinglan's trembling voice on the phone, he waved his hands and left first.

"Mom, what's wrong?" Pan Haoqian asked.

"Agan, Shangru... Shangru... something happened to him." Liu Yinglan's trembling voice came through the receiver.

"What's going on?" Pan Haogan's tone sounded unchanged.

"You also know what happened these days, he...he's doing more and more excessive things." Liu Yinglan paused for a while before continuing, "I want to send him abroad..."

"I know, my dad told me."

Liu Yinglan said in pain: "Just now, on the highway, he was a little unstable and jumped out of the car."

Pan Haoqian was silent for a while before he opened his mouth and said, "How is the situation?"

Liu Yinglan choked and said, "I'm in the hospital now, he...he'll come out of the operating room soon."

"Wait for him to come out and tell me the result of the operation." Pan Haogan hung up the phone after speaking, and stared out the window for a long time in a daze.

"it is good."

Only half an hour later, Pan Haoqian got the news that Shangru's rescue was ineffective. He couldn't explain how he felt, but he always felt a little unreal.

After receiving a call from Liu Yinglan, reconfirming the fact that Shangru was dead, Pan Haoqian's sense of unreality became stronger, and he always felt that this was Shangru's trick to trap him, but facts are facts.

"Hao Gan, why don't you come to see him? After all..." Liu Yinglan said cautiously on the other end of the phone.

"...Well" Pan Haoqian looked out the window at the bright weather as always, and said, "You are not in good health, don't stay there for too long."

"If he is still alive, he will definitely want to see you for the last time." Rao Liu Yinglan, who is Pan Haoqian's mother, also feels that Pan Haoqian is too heartless.

"Just leave the rest to Xiao Wang." After speaking, Pan Haogan hung up the phone and stood by the window for a long time.

Shangru's death was quiet, there was no funeral, but a simple cremation.

Later, only Pan Deming and Liu Yinglan went to visit him at his cemetery every once in a while.

"Haoqian, my mother said that the first year of the year is the best." At Pan Haoqian's house, a gentle and delicate woman lay on Pan Haoqian's arm and said to him.

"Okay, I'll listen to you." Pan Haogan patted her on the head and said, then continued to look at the documents in his hand.

"Honey, we haven't done it for a long time." After finishing speaking, the woman arched into Pan Haoqian's arms, and Pan Haogan looked at her, with indescribable longing and charm in the woman's eyes.

"Baby, you know I'm busy now." Pan Haoqian just stood up with a smile and left the sofa.

"..." The woman froze there, took the coat on the sofa, and covered her overly exposed body.

This woman is Pan Haoqian's fiancée, Shu Yi.

The Shu family is a well-known scholarly family in City B. Shu Yi is the eldest daughter of the Shu family. She has received strict family education since she was a child. The fate of her parents is really greater than the sky to her, so although she is pursued by many young talents However, she still chose to follow the arrangement of her family and work with Pan Hao.

Moreover, this fiancé's appearance, family background and knowledge are all outstanding, which makes Shu Yi very satisfied.But gradually she found that even after getting along for nearly two years, Pan Haoqian still treated her like a gentleman, which made her very frustrated.

After complaining to her best friend, she followed her best friend's advice and bought sexy lingerie, forgot all her reserve, and did something she had never done before, which was to seduce Pan Haoqian.

Shu Yi smiled wryly in his heart: This man can always maintain a gentleman's demeanor in front of him, as if being good to himself is only what he should do.

Three months later, Pan Haoqian and Shu Yi got married.

Another year later, their daughter was born. The whole Pan family was very happy, and Pan Haoqian also doted on his daughter very much.

Seeing the standard fatherly smile on Pan Haogan's face, Shu Yi thought to himself, no matter how tough a man is, his child will soften him, and hope was rekindled in his heart.

Seeing her son so happy, Liu Yinglan deliberately ignored the loss in her heart, but such a happy life lasted only three years.

"What did you say?! She asked for a divorce?" Liu Yinglan was surprised when she heard what Pan Haoqian said to her.

"Yes," Pan Haoqian said.

"Is there something wrong with our family?" Liu Yinglan was very puzzled why her daughter-in-law wanted such a sudden divorce.

"I asked her." Pan Haoqian thought for a while, and said, "She said that it has nothing to do with you, it's because of me."

"Your reason?"

"I'm not sure why, you can ask him directly." Pan Haoqian's phone rang, he picked up the phone, and before leaving, he said to Liu Yinglan, "Tell her for me that I regret that this marriage will not last."

Liu Yinglan came out from Shu's house, recalling Shu Yi's words: He only regards me as his wife, but not his lover, I can't stand this kind of life anymore.She couldn't help but think of the young man who died four years ago. If it was him, he would definitely not have divorced Pan Haoqian. After all, he loves Pan Haoqian so much, hey.

After Pan Haoqian's divorce, he has never lost anyone around him, but they all separated for various reasons. Pan Haoqian doesn't take it seriously.

Later, Pan Haoqian met Meng Lili, the woman who was hurt innocently. The beautiful and mature Meng Lili became the last woman in Pan Haogan's life.

But after ten years, Meng Lili suddenly broke up with him because Pan Haogan met someone he really loved and let him go without much entanglement.

That night, Pan Haoqian stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows of the apartment overlooking the night scene of bustling city B. The cigarette in his hand was bright and dark. He stood like this all night. When he saw a pile of cigarette butts falling by his feet the next morning, he was rarely stunned. After a moment, he smiled wryly: "Oh, true love."

In the following years, Pan Haoqian did not have a fixed partner, and only found someone to vent his physical needs when he needed it.

At his daughter's wedding, Pan Haoqian saw his usually rigorous and prudent son-in-law showing nervousness and excitement for the first time. Standing next to him, Shu Yi said softly, "When we got married, you acted much calmer than him."

"Is this the reason you and I divorced?" Pan Haoqian asked in a deep voice.

"Yes, you are always so just right, there are no quarrels, no gaffes, and no jealousy between us"

"Isn't this a perfect marriage?" Pan Haoqian thought he was right.

"Marriage is based on love. Love is inherently selfish, and it will definitely bring harm and pain." Shu Yi looked up at Pan Haoqian, "Have you ever felt it?"

Pan Haogan remained silent, because the answer was obvious, no.

That night, Pan Haoqian searched his memory and found that the only person who made him lose his composure was the one who had been dead for more than 20 years.

When he was a child, he always pestered himself, and he would find someone to bully him. Every time he saw him obediently follow behind him after being injured, his heart was filled with an inexplicable and distorted sense of accomplishment.

Later, when he grew up, he no longer did such naive things, but he also acquiesced in what Ouyang did to him, but in fact, every time Pan Haogan always had some expectations in his heart, but now he couldn't tell clearly, what was he at that time? Expecting him to leave or expecting him not to leave.

That night, Pan Haoqian had a realistic dream. In the dream, there was a Pan Haogan and a Shangru. They often shopped and cooked together, and occasionally quarreled because of their different living habits. They always hugged and chatted for a while after making love , This was a happy dream, but Pan Haoqian felt palpitations when he woke up.

Because, he is not that strange Pan Haogan, he is just a bystander.

Those warm scenes, gentle lovers, and hearty sexual intercourse do not belong to me.

Until his deathbed, Pan Haoqian didn't want to understand what the so-called true love those people were pursuing was. He thought of that dream again. If Shangru was still there, maybe he could tell himself.

The author has something to say:

In fact, Pan Haoqian didn't fall in love with Shangru in his previous life, it doesn't mean he's a scumbag, he just didn't have time