I never thought about experiencing the next year

That night, Gu Zhixian came back.Arrived home at a quarter past eight, opened the door and came in by myself.This time Gu Zhixian had a lot of family concerns in his heart, so he didn't have the kind of meticulous thoughts he had when he came back last time, unlike the last time he made more noises to remind the people in the house, this time he was at least divided Going out with one soul, one is somewhat out of shape, so he doesn't care much about some details.

He just opened the door and quietly changed his slippers in the hallway, put his backpack on the sofa in the living room, and the first thing he did was to wash the dishes in the kitchen.As soon as I entered the kitchen, I saw that there were no dishes piled up in the sink, and then I saw that the dishes in the dishwasher were arranged vertically according to the category. Not stacking dirty dishes in the sink for three days.After adding dish soap to the sink in the dishwasher, he closed the side door, selected the mode on the operation panel, and pressed Start.

After hearing the sound of water flowing in the dishwasher, he walked out of the kitchen, walked to the sofa, picked up his backpack, and returned to his room.Not to mention that he doesn't have much thoughtfulness and eyesight to observe details at all, even if he has thoughtfulness and observation ability, he still can't see anything strange in this room.Because Guo Jinghan's hands and feet were too clean, before leaving his room this afternoon, he made his room as it was before, as if it hadn't been turned over or touched.Therefore, Gu Zhixian was completely unaware that his bed had been slept in again, and he did not know that even the bottom drawer had been looked at, and that one of the discs was wrapped in cardboard. The note that he hadn't read himself was read first.

His current state is not that he is tired, but that he is a little absent-minded.This trip back, I only saw my father a few times from afar, and my brother arranged to have dinner with my mother.His mother is also in good spirits, and she really misses him. Seeing him crying so much that it makes him feel uncomfortable. He really wanted to cry, but when it came time, he realized that he couldn't cry at all.Because the feelings in his heart over the past few years are too complicated, not just sadness.If it's just sadness, it should be able to cry smoothly, but there are too many emotions entangled together, not just a simple one, which makes him unable to feel sad or worried. Like him, nondescript.

That intertwined emotion boils down to what is called "accepting reality."Everyone thought he accepted homosexuality, but he didn't accept it as much as others imagined, and he just accepted himself because he couldn't change.I have tried too many times, and even read the "Diamond Sutra" more than 100 times. I want to eliminate this kind of karma on my body and live like a normal person, but it is not so easy. I am afraid that I have to read it a thousand times. Don't like women either.

He put his backpack on the chair in the room, and he was not in the mood to pack the contents of the backpack. He just fell on the bed like this, thinking about his mother.

Guo Jinghan, who was lying in another room, thought that Gu Zhixian would come to see him in his own room when he came back, but he didn't know that he seemed to be in the living room, so he went back to his own room without saying hello Say it yourself.In vain, he still pretended to lie on the bed, pretending to be uncomfortable——guaranteed that someone like Secretary Gu would feel distressed when he saw it.Who knows that once Secretary Gu entered the room, there was no further movement.

Guo Jinghan got a little impatient with the wait. He looked at the mobile phone beside the bed, it was almost nine o'clock, and Secretary Gu had been back for [-] minutes, so he didn't say anything to see himself.So he "screamed" in the room.

Sure enough, within a minute, Secretary Gu knocked on the door.I heard him ask outside the door: "Producer Guo, are you okay?" Guo Jinghan replied "weakly" in the room: "There is something." Secretary Gu said: "Can I come in?" Guo Jinghan said weakly, "Go in."

After Gu Zhixian entered this room, he saw Supervisor Guo lying on the bed, covered with a quilt, frowning, as if he was very uncomfortable.Gu Zhixian overlooked one point, most good actors can't make good directors, and most good directors can't make good actors, but this Guo Jinghan is not only a good director, but also a good actor.Just like he is now, completely hiding from Secretary Gu's eyes.

Seeing his appearance, Secretary Gu hurried over, sat down beside his bed, stroked his forehead with one hand, and asked him, "What's wrong with you? What's wrong?" Guo Jinghan's voice was a little weak: "Stomach " Secretary Gu reached into his quilt, stroked the position below his left atrium, rubbed it lightly, and asked, "Is it here?" Producer Guo's voice became weaker: "Yes."

After that, Secretary Gu began to count him in detail: "Did you not eat on time these few days? How can you do this? You are only 26, and your stomach is like this. What should I do in the future?" Guo Jinghan said slowly: "Sometimes Forgot about it, and you didn’t call to remind me.” Secretary Gu helped him rub the stomach that didn’t hurt at all, and glanced at him, and said, “You are really, how old you are, how old are you when you eat? Someone needs to be reminded." Guo Jinghan said: "Men work like this." Secretary Gu disagreed: "I am also a man, why don't I work like you."

Gu Zhixian kneaded for a while, and asked: "Have you taken any medicine? Can I give you another pack of Weishu Granules last time?" Guo Jinghan said: "No, you can cook some very thin porridge for me later. That’s enough. It’s not good to drink too much of those medicines.” Gu Zhixian was right after thinking about it, so he said: “Then I’ll cook the porridge first.” Guo Jinghan held his hand and looked at him: “Then why don’t you drink it later? Come? My stomach is still uncomfortable." Gu Zhixian looked at him from top to bottom like this, and his heart suddenly became very gentle towards him. Maybe it was because he went back two days ago and saw his mother was tortured by illness. As soon as I read this, I naturally have a kind of tenderness for the sick in my heart, always wanting to take care of them until they get better.Gu Zhixian said: "I'll cook the porridge and come over." What's rare is that the voice of the producer Guo who has always been a bit repulsive in his subconscious is quite soft.The voice was like a warm wind with the breath of green grass, agitated by the air current, and kept blowing on Guo Jinghan's face and body, enveloping him. He suddenly wanted Secretary Gu to be so gentle forever. treat yourself.

So he thought about how many days this "stomach pain" would last, and what he would do next time after this stomach pain was over.

Gu Zhixian cooked the porridge in the kitchen, because he had to go back to rub Guo Jinghan's stomach later, so he couldn't watch the fire in the kitchen, so he used the smart rice cooker in the kitchen to cook the porridge. pattern will do.He also took out all the dishes from the dishwasher and put them on the rack next to the sink to dry the dishes. He didn't have time to dry the dishes with a cloth, so he had to arrange them vertically so that Let it dry overnight and they will be dry by themselves in the morning.

After setting out the dishes, he poured a cup of hot water and went back to Guo Jinghan's room. After putting the cup of hot water on the bedside, he reached under the quilt to rub the stomach of the supervisor Guo.After a while, Guo Jinghan asked: "How is your mother?" Gu Zhixian replied: "It's okay. Rheumatoid, it's just that the body suffers a bit. This time I saw that one of her finger joints was deformed. Anyway, she was taking medicine. " Guo Jinghan asked: "Would you like to come to Chencheng to have a look? The hospital over there is too small, and the medicine prescribed may not be very effective. Don't delay the condition." Gu Zhixian paused, and said: "She It’s not that she can’t come, after all, her household registration is also here. It’s just because of my dad, they don’t come here now.” Guo Jinghan had thought before that he might be at odds with the family, and this morning he found out in his room So one thing, at this moment, the discord between Secretary Gu and his family was related to his being gay, thinking that maybe it was because Secretary Gu was gay that he had a bad relationship with his family.

So he didn't ask, fearing which pot would not be opened and which pot to carry, he just said: "Come on, after all, it's more formal. The treatment is important. How uncomfortable it is to be sick." After finishing speaking, he frowned twice, as if As if he himself felt the same way, even Secretary Gu nervously rubbed his stomach a few more times and asked him: "Do you want to drink some hot water first? The porridge will have to wait." He replied: "good."

This night, Gu Zhixian rubbed his perfectly healthy stomach for more than an hour, and the two of them chatted very intimately during the chat. I lived for quite a few days, but I also didn't have any in-depth or intimate topics to talk about.From this point of view, it is very valuable for Producer Guo to pretend to be sick. In just one night, the relationship between the two has taken a turn for the worse.

At ten o'clock, Secretary Gu fed him a bowl of porridge. Even though he hated the bowl of porridge, he still drank it. After all, he had to work hard in front of Secretary Gu.He has never taken any medicine in front of Secretary Gu, because he has nothing wrong with him, so if he refuses to drink even a bowl of gruel now, that would be too bad.After eleven o'clock, he said that he was going to sleep, Secretary Gu walked around to his other side of the bed, took the mobile phone on the bedside table and put it on his desk, then turned off the lights in his room, and went out the door , went back to the room by himself, took a set of pajamas, went into the private bathroom to take a shower.

The next morning, Guo Jinghan also got up early, and Gu Zhixian asked him what he wanted to eat today before going out to buy vegetables.Guo Jinghan said: "Dumplings." Gu Zhixian was stunned at the entrance, and after a while, he asked, "You have eaten dumplings for three days, and you still haven't eaten enough?" I have eaten dumplings for three days.He has a kind of obsession, which cannot be explained concretely, such as when he is hungry, he knows to look for dumplings in the refrigerator, or when Secretary Gu is at home, he knows to look for Secretary Gu, He doesn't like trouble, and he's not really keen on being rich.After all, he may not have a habit of changing his bed partner frequently. In the past, he only needed to ensure that when his desire came, there was someone who was pleasing to his eyes to relieve his desire. How much he is greedy for other people's beauty, it seems that he can't say that, he himself is quite attractive.In the past, when he changed people, it was often when he felt that the person was starting to get annoying.

He is afraid of trouble, and he likes to be obsessed with one thing. He doesn't want to pay too much attention to things other than his work.During the time before, he thought about developing Secretary Gu into the bed, and there was also a layer of this meaning in it.It is enough to have a Gu secretary close to him. For all the complicated and trivial things at work and at home, he can find Gu secretary. If even the last layer of relationship is broken, he doesn't even feel that he has to find someone else to solve his physical needs. .But Secretary Gu has always been too disrespectful. At first, he thought that he could develop Secretary Gu, and it would be the same when he turned off the lights, but then he was treated with a cold face by Secretary Gu for more than a week, and he didn't see it for a while. Thinking about the development, after Secretary Gu came back from his hometown, the two seemed to be getting closer. Guo Jinghan even thought that Secretary Gu, with such a gentle personality, didn't seem to care whether he turned off the lights or not.It's just that I haven't developed to that point with him after all, and I can't be sure without personal experience. After all, I haven't tried that kind of thing with a person with this appearance, so I may not be able to care about appearance when the time comes.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Gu Zhixian asked again: "Are you sure you want to eat dumplings today?" Guo Jinghan recovered, shook his head, and said, "No, you can do whatever you want."