light and shadow [entertainment circle]

Of course, Xia Zhi didn't return to Switzerland the next day. Since he fell ill, adjectives like "obedient and obedient" have been far away from him.Fortunately, Tang Chi didn't seem to want to force him too much, but soon packed up the psychiatrist, Xiao Jian and Qiao Yue who were far away in Switzerland.Xia Zhi, who stayed in China, still lives in seclusion. He will see a psychologist twice a week, each time for an hour.If he is willing to talk, the psychiatrist will chat with him; if he is unwilling to speak out, then draw pictures, play with the sand table or simply stare blankly.Besides, the only time he is willing to go out is to accompany Yi Xue to court.In the final judgment, Yi Xue got the divorce certificate, the custody of her daughter, the huge sum of maintenance paid by Chu Yiming and his apology in court, which can be said to be a complete victory.

The reason for such an ending, in addition to the fairness of the law, also depends on the two-sided attack on Yishentang in the stock market by Zhenxing Pharmaceutical and Light and Shadow Film Industry during this period of time.It can be said that Chu Yiming suffered a heavy loss from this marriage. He even had to give up suing Xia Zhi for hurting others in exchange for the Chu family's controlling interest in Yishentang.In view of the above, when Chu Yiming walked out of the court, he looked at Xia Zhi with vicious eyes like a rattlesnake looking for food, which is completely understandable.

Xia Zhi ignored this look, he even completely ignored this person, but just unbuttoned his suit jacket and put it on Yi Xue.That night, the trial results of Yi Xue's divorce case and this photo became the number one searched item.

"Finally something new! I think he's going crazy!"

"When will you pick up the new play? Have you had enough rest?"

"He's leaving the circle early! Forget about the big star persona! The newest persona is the domineering president, and he's so angry that he's a concubine!"

"Are you still refusing to update Weibo? I really miss you..."

……

Xia Zhi casually glanced at Weibo and threw the phone aside.

Unexpectedly, the phone was picked up by the psychiatrist before it fell into the sofa.He turned on the screen and flipped through a few messages before saying enviously: "A fan count of eight figures...Frankly speaking, Xia Zhi, are there any zombie fans you bought yourself?"

Xia Zhi shook his head, and said calmly: "I don't buy fans, there's no need for that." He doesn't accept commercials, variety shows, and rarely accepts scripts other than light and shadow.In other words, he doesn't need to sell products to fans, nor does he need to rely on fans to help him tear up any resources, so the number of fans on Weibo is meaningless to him.Speaking of this, he frowned uncomfortably. "I don't want to talk about this, I can draw."

The psychiatrist was silent for a while, and took out the works of Xia Zhi when he came to the clinic several times recently.Pointing to those paintings, he said, "This is the first time you drew." Moyo's A4-sized white paper simply outlined a round of blue moon and winding curves, which looked like undulating mountains. "This is the second time." It was a work that was almost exactly the same as the first time. "The third, fourth time..." He laid out those paintings in front of Xia Zhi's eyes, they were all the same.The psychiatrist sighed, and said bluntly: "Xia Zhi, you have closed yourself very deeply. If this continues, we will never make any progress."

Xia Zhi looked away uncomfortably, and said softly, "Doctor, I'm sorry."

"What's my last name?" The psychiatrist finally couldn't help asking.

"What?" Xia Zhi was startled suddenly.

"We've known each other for so long, Xia Zhi, what's my last name?" The psychiatrist looked into Xia Zhi's eyes and asked word by word.

The two looked at each other for a while, and Xia Zhi moved his eyes away again.

"You have so many fans, but I don't think you've ever noticed that I, too, am a fan who follows you." The psychiatrist sighed again, trying to slow down his tone and administer the powerful medicine. "Xia Zhi, I'm ten years older than you. So, I think you can agree that I follow you mainly because of my admiration for your acting skills and personality. We won't talk about acting skills, and I'm not a professional Yes. As for being a person, you have always been very enthusiastic, upright and like to help others. This is not easy, especially in the entertainment industry. I think this is why you still have so many good friends in the entertainment industry. Just because you are the first brother."

"Are you trying to say that I've changed now? I'm no longer the summer solstice I used to be? My concern for Yi Xue is out of my morbid flattery, which is one of the symptoms of depression, not really from the bottom of my heart. Concerned?" Xia Zhi added clearly.

"No, I want to say that you are a good person. A good person likes to help others and will get help from others. If you need it, many people are willing to help you. You really shouldn't lock yourself up." The psychiatrist paused After observing Xia Zhi's expression for a while, he continued. "If the psychiatrist cannot gain your trust, then find someone who can confide in you. I believe that there are many such people." At least the psychiatrist has seen it himself. Since Xia Zhi was depressed, everyone around him They are all tirelessly reading psychology books and trying to understand everything about depression.

"Doctor, you don't want to continue to treat me?" Xia Zhi was amazed, even a little lost and sad.

The psychiatrist smiled reassuringly, and said softly: "The profession of a psychiatrist is different from other doctors. We don't pursue the pleasure of curing patients by ourselves. As long as the patient can be cured, it is the highest achievement, no matter how much credit you have for it." .And now, Xia Zhi..." He led Xia Zhi to lie down in front of him, motioning him to close his eyes. "I want you to tell me frankly, if you can only confess to me once in this life, then it is now! Tell me frankly, who do you most want to see?"

This answer was not difficult for Xia Zhi, but he still bit his lip.Time passed by every minute and every second, and the entire consultation room fell silent. Xia Zhi felt as if waves were tossing in his chest and beat against his heart continuously, making him tremble, causing him pain, but also making him nostalgic. "...Brother Shan." After an unknown amount of time, he finally spit out these two words softly.Everything seemed to have settled down, and Xia Zhi's heart suddenly fell, as if he was at ease all of a sudden.

no respond.

After a while, Xia Zhi couldn't help opening his eyes, only to realize that the psychiatrist had already left the consulting room.He turned his head and glanced at the clock, it turned out that the time for this diagnosis and treatment had already ended.Then, he got up and took a business card with the words "Wei Xiuming" from the desk, carefully put it in his pocket, and left the consultation room.

Xia Zhi disappeared again.This time the note he left to explain his whereabouts was even more confusing than the last time.

"I'm going to find Brother Shan, he's in my heart."

Tang Chi read these 11 words and two punctuation marks over and over three times before he raised his head and asked Xiao Jian: "Did you tell Xia Zhi where Mr. Guan is?"

Xiao Jian shook her head and looked at Tang Chi with reproach: "I said I should have told Xia Zhi long ago. Is it interesting for the two of them to hide and seek like this?" In Switzerland, she also specifically told Xiao Jian not to reveal his whereabouts to Xia Zhi.

"Then how does he know where to find Lao Guan?" Tang Chi wondered, "What did he do yesterday? You tell me everything, don't miss any clue!"

"I didn't do anything." Xiao Jian looked innocent, "I went to see a psychiatrist, came back to eat and sleep, nothing special." Speaking of this, Xiao Jian suddenly paused for a moment and frowned as if thinking hard. "Oh... I remembered, I ordered a takeaway around 10 o'clock in the evening." She turned around and rummaged through the trash can, and took out a cardboard box and placed it in front of Tang Chi. "Here, this is it, Chocolate Lava Cake."

Tang Chi picked up the carton and glanced at the take-out order attached to the side of the carton. It clearly stated that the ordering time was 18:38.He looked up again at Jane, who was not panicked at all, and immediately lowered his face and said, "The takeaway at 6 o'clock will not be delivered until 10 o'clock? Can you tell me which delivery boy delivered the meal?" Xiaojian's eyelids twitched slightly Before he could reply, Tang Chi yelled angrily. "Tell the truth! If you dare to help Xia Zhi lie to me, believe it or not, I will fire you right away? It's no use asking for mercy!"

With Tang Chi's sharp eyes, Xiao Jian was immediately frustrated, and obediently lowered her head and poured beans out of a bamboo tube. "When I came yesterday, I saw Xia Zhi ordered a cake and was eating it. After I finished eating, I laughed and said that I was really slow.... Then he asked me about the whereabouts of Mr. Guan. Then he asked me, Can I not tell him?"

Looking at Xiao Jian's blushing and insane fanatic, Tang Chi suddenly helped his forehead.After a long while, he took out his mobile phone and called Guan Shan while walking outside: "Old Guan, it's me... Xia Zhi went to Switzerland to find you... Don't care who said it... Everyone has left, and the planes have taken off , What can I do? Hijack the plane?! Where are you?... Forget it, you hurry back to the sanatorium where you lived and wait for him! He is sick, if you miss it and can’t think about it, just think about whether you can carry it You have to live!"

Tang Chi, who was walking away, didn't notice that the senior assistant Xiao Jian, who had been a fan of Xia Zhi for 1 years, silently raised his right hand and made a "V" after hearing his call.

When Guan Shan, who went to St. Moritz for a ski break, received a call and ran back to the recuperation center on fire, the summer solstice had already arrived. It looks really comfortable.

Guan Shan was so rushed all the way, but he didn't care about getting angry, he just stepped forward and shook Xia Zhi's wrist and asked nicely, "Have you eaten? Do you have an appetite? If you want to eat, Brother Shan will make it for you." After finishing speaking, he walked into the kitchen and put on his apron without waiting for Xia Zhi's response.

Xia Zhi followed Guan Shan into the kitchen with the bowl in his arms, and whispered behind Guan Shan: "If I don't come, will Brother Shan hide from me forever?"

"Oh... there are only noodles and sauce, can pasta be okay?" Guan Shan took out a pack of noodles and a box of hoisin sauce from the refrigerator, thought for a while, and took another can of cheese. "You know, Xia Zhi, if you need me, Brother Shan will always be there."

"What about you? Do you want to be by my side?" Xia Zhi asked again. "...after all that has happened?"

Guan Shan put down the pile of food ingredients and looked at Xia Zhi with some doubts.After a while, he said helplessly: "Xia Zhi, why do you think Brother Shan came back today? Brother Shan has always..."

"No, no..." Unexpectedly, Xia Zhi shook his head to stop Guan Shan from confessing. "Maybe I'll finish my sentence and you'll change your mind...but I, I think..." He choked up, but still managed to muster up the courage to finish the sentence. "You should know, I...how bad I am now..."

Guan Shan's heart was sinking uncontrollably, but his voice was still so gentle. "Xia Zhi, Brother Shan, listen up."

"...First of all, I'm sorry...I didn't mean to be this...depressed. At the beginning, I just didn't want, didn't want to listen to those people, those irrelevant outsiders speculating about my relationship with Yijing for no reason. I really I regret choosing a career as an actor, it twisted everything about me, and I couldn't do anything about it. I lost my best friend, and then everyone thought I should die for him... Maybe I really deserve to die, but, If I were to die at that time, Yi Jing would not be able to cleanse himself by jumping into the Yellow River... I just wanted to separate myself from them, so that maybe I could be more comfortable and rational. At first it was very It worked, and then I found out that doing so would have side effects... I, I... There seems to be a wall between me and this world... Transparent, no one else can see it, only I can see it, and it's unbreakable."

Guan Shanshang came forward and tried to hug and appease Xia Zhi, but Xia Zhi staggered back with a pale face. "Let me finish, Brother Shan, let me finish." He swallowed hard, trying to turn his head to think about words.It's not for expressing technical Xinyada, but just to make the words clear so that you and the audience can understand. "Depression... the world has not changed, maybe I have changed, maybe it's just something more, that wall....everything around, all material and spiritual, images, sounds, colors, feelings, are the same as before Same. The world is still running according to the established laws, and everyone is doing what he should do, including me. But it's... Brother Shan, I don't feel it, I don't feel it anymore, the sun shines on me It doesn't feel warm and it doesn't taste like anything in your mouth.. You guys, all of them, are so far away from me, it's like a fake.. I tell you, you tell the doctor, and then I start the treatment. I know I'm lucky because other family members and friends of people with depression...they often mishandle it and cause further damage. I didn't...I didn't go through that...and then..."

Xia Zhi shook violently, and even Guan Shan shook too.

"I've tried, I swear, I've tried, to get those feelings back, to get back to normal. But... my dad... he's like a black hole, sucking everything out... hope , light, feelings, all good things, even those things that make you feel pain, all...don’t exist. Jumping off a building is not terrible, at least I still have pain and impulses at that time...Later...I often I was thinking, if Guangying makes a zombie film in the future, maybe I will be the best candidate... No, no... It should be a little bit worse, I don't even have the desire to eat people... I walk on the road, like a zombie Walking in the dark jungle, there is no light, no sound, no direction, even that jungle, there is no sound, it is dead... But I know, there is a black hole, watching me all the time... it It's right there, Brother Shan, right under my feet, it's waiting for me, waiting for me to go back..."

"Where are you going?" Guan Shan finally couldn't help asking in a trembling voice.

Xia Zhi looked straight at Guan Shan, the fear in his eyes seemed to be describing to Guan Shan the ghost he had just seen.His voice was so soft, as if he was afraid of disturbing the ghost. "grave."

"Now, do you still feel this way?" Guan Shan choked with sobs and tried hard to hold back his tears.

"Occasionally." Xia Zhi forced herself to smile.

This smile made Guan Shan's hair stand on end, and his heart was churning: Why is he laughing?What's the point of this smile?

"...I, I walked out from there, and then I found myself in a daze..." Xia Zhi's expression was blank for a moment, as if he had returned to the dark forest just now. "I came out of that jungle, into the empty house, and pretended to be a normal person. But I knew this room wouldn't hold me for long, and I had to pry open the door and get out. But what was outside? The normal world? Another A jungle? Another room?...I don't know...I just know that I've been running away for so long, wanting to escape from this...I thought that as long as I don't face you and everything before, I'll be To be able to return to normal... only to run away from you, which was not my intention... I want to think about my father and you, but I can't, I will be lost there, I... I Will not come back... Qiao Yue said that I should be an asshole and choose to save myself first, maybe this is the way... Psychiatrist... Doctor Wei, he is very good and professional, but I don't know, I don't know how to explain this to him I can't figure out the mess myself... He suggested that I find a trustworthy person to confide in, so I thought of you..."

At this moment, Xia Zhi was so ashamed that he could hardly lift his head. "So, I became such a bastard... I came to find you, but even if I can't find you, I won't kill myself. Because I have become used to... used to put up with that... Will one day, I'm used to it and I can't leave?...I really don't know. Maybe I'll get back to normal, maybe I won't...and even if I do, my dad..." He couldn't breathe.Every time Hu Daxian was mentioned, Xia Zhi felt a little out of breath, but this time he couldn't breathe at all.

Guan Shan rushed forward and hugged the breathless Xia Zhi tightly in his arms.The two fell to their knees on the kitchen floor together. Guan Shan hurriedly opened the noodle packaging bag, poured out the noodles, and pressed Xia Zhi's mouth and nose with the empty packaging bag. "Xia Zhi, follow me, inhale...slowly...exhale...inhale again...very good..." Until Xia Zhi completely recovered his normal breathing, Guan Shan did not let him go.He hugged Xia Zhi tightly, stroked his back with both hands, and kept kissing the top of his hair and the pinnae of his ears, whispering incessantly: "Xia Zhi, my Xia Zhi, my baby..."

Sure enough, Guan Shan's consolation was the most effective for Xia Zhi, he trembled for a while and finally gradually eased over. "so?"

Guan Shan held Xia Zhi's cheeks and said softly: "So, usually at this time, the hero and heroine can kiss..."

Xiao Jian, who was watching from the window, had red eyes, and sighed in a low voice: "Obviously the two of us are almost 70 together, why are we still so pure when we kiss?... It's like two kittens are grooming each other." She lowered her head Rubbing his eyes, he turned his head and questioned Li Zhiyi beside him. "So, what do we do now?"

Li Zhiyi's face was a little unnatural, but he still managed to suppress the fluctuations in his heart, gave Xiao Jian a hard look, and replied in a rough voice: "Pull the lights! Curtain call!"

The author has something to say:

call!Oh, God!Finally finished another article, obviously the length of the plan is not long, but the front line is hot~~is it~~long~~

Here, I would like to say sorry to the readers who follow the article, I know that Zhou Geng really affects the reading experience, and I will definitely not do it next time!Since the plan can never keep up with the changes, then, it is still suitable for me to save the full text... Wiping my sweat! ╮(╯▽╰)╭

Speaking of palindrome, Xia Zhi is the simplest protagonist I have ever written. He does not need to use his brain at all. All his actions are based on preferences and instincts. Since the perception is stronger than that of peers, it is really not surprising to suffer from depression.After all, in the real world, ancient and modern, Chinese and foreign... right?Depression will not affect his love with Guan Shan, what will affect their love will always be the matter of Xia Zhi's father.Although Xia Zhi's kindness made him depressed, but at the same time, his kindness also made him understand Guan Shan's decision at that time, so although Xia Zhi could not guarantee whether he could be with Guan Shan again after recovery, it was the kind of lover rather than brother. Together, but Guan Shan, Xiao Jian, Li Zhiyi, including the director and me and readers, should all be very optimistic!

As for Guan Shan, he is not the guiding light of the summer solstice, he is Aladdin's magic lamp of the summer solstice.Don't laugh at his love brain, in fact, as long as it is true love, everyone will become a love brain! ╮(╯▽╰)╭

So, the writing has come to this point, it can be finished!See you in the next article!mwah! O(∩_∩)O~

PS: There will be extra episodes!Update tomorrow!mwah! O(∩_∩)O~

Thank you Gulou No. [-] girl for mine! O(∩_∩)O~

Director: Xia Zhi, don't be afraid that you have nothing, at least you are still sick!

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