[Net King + Black Basket] Seijuro, your mother calls you to go home for dinner!

Night falls.

Ginza at night is a city surrounded by high-rise buildings, brightly lit like daytime.It's rush hour, and the wide road is blocked by crowded vehicles and pedestrians. People who are used to the noisy life in the city have long ignored the sound of horns.Hard-working white-collar workers just want to rush home after get off work, take a comfortable bath, and watch relaxing and funny entertainment programs while eating.

However, Xun Li has no desire/desire to go home at all.

She wandered aimlessly in the streets and alleys all day long, and when it was time to eat, she found a water bar nearby, ordered the not-so-signature chicken sandwich and a cup of Irish coffee, and found a secluded place to kill time.

It's nice to be alone once in a while, she thought.The last time she came to the water bar alone, she happened to be an adult, and to celebrate her stepping into the society, she sneaked a drink behind her mother's back—just a simple sip of cocktails, without the bar's dance floor, corrupted lights, and smoky atmosphere, in fact, the water bar Most of the customers are white-collar workers with petty bourgeoisie.

Accustomed to the rigid life of Akashi's family on a regular basis, even though Seijuro's existence has added a lot of joy and laughter to her, she forced herself not to think too much, and put the focus of life on her children—but as time went on, her heart was constantly Even he couldn't fill the emptiness that swelled.

Because she doesn't belong there.

She doesn't belong to Akashi Masashi, and Akashi Masashi doesn't belong to her.That man might one day take the child back from her—the battle between them was not over.

Jinjing may have been frightened by Xunli's overly calm state, but only she knows best that she, who has always been troubled by office politics, feels that being fired is a relief.

The knot she couldn't let go was Masashi - she was fed up with his going his own way, and the loneliness he imposed on her.The faltering relationship between the two collapsed at the first blow, and she could no longer imagine Seijuro's puzzled yet hurt expression when she confides the truth to Seijuro.

……

"A glass of Blue Margaret." Xun Li waved to the little brother at the bar.Perhaps what she needs most now is alcohol.

The ocean-like fluorescent blue cocktail is decorated with lemon slices and bright red cherries. It looks like a child's favorite smoothie.Xunli took a sip, and the intertwined taste of tequila and curacao stimulated the taste buds, revealing a strong saltiness.

Not strong enough.

"Black Russian please."

The younger brother on the opposite side gave her a sideways glance, as if feeling aggrieved that she hadn't calmed down to taste the wine.No one would order the next one after only taking a sip of the previous one! ?

Despite this, the dedicated bartender brother still served her a highly concentrated cocktail with ice 3 minutes later.After drinking the spirits, Xunli felt much relieved.

"It's been a long time living alone..." How can I describe it in a cool word?

Katase didn't know that Akashi's house in the outskirts of the city was now in chaos, centered on Seijuro with a calm face and silent voice, Katase desperately made more than a dozen phone calls to the hostess who was supposed to go home , but the other party is still turned off.But Zhichuan wished he could send a car to the city to find Xunli immediately.

"Young master, look..." Katase rubbed his palms, "Did Masashi-sama not say anything?"

"Dad said leave Mom alone."

His father's stern and tense face appeared in his mind, and Seijuro's resentment was about to materialize.

It was the first time that Xun Li was still wandering outside so late, without even calling him in advance.Behind his father's back, he found Katase who had a good relationship with his mother, and asked her to contact her, but it was in vain.

Seijuro felt vaguely uneasy.It seemed that the most important thing hidden in my heart was cut off and suddenly disappeared.He was restless during this difficult time, and he didn't move much for dinner.

"Where will it be..."

"Young master! It seems, it seems to get through—"

After Katase finished speaking, Seijuro snatched the phone away!

"Mom? Mom, where are you? Why don't you go home now? Did you quarrel with Dad?"

Katase and Shikawa looked at each other, stunned by the young master's rude behavior.It was the butler who was the first to react, and motioned her to follow him out of the young master's bedroom, and let him and Xunli talk alone.

Xunli on the other end of the phone was bombarded with a series of questions by Seijuro and became dizzy. It seemed that alcohol had an effect.

"Mom is fine. I worked overtime late today, so I went out to eat something casually when I was a little hungry." She made up a child-trusted excuse, which sounded really reasonable.

"..." Seijuro was suspicious.

"I have to go back to work soon, Xiaozheng, don't worry." He could have promised to go home immediately, but Xun Li didn't do that.

She also needs some private time to sort out her emotions.

"Okay, if it's Mom's wish." His voice choked up, "but you have to go home early."

"Oh, I see."

Xun Li was surprised but also felt distressed that a four-year-old child could say such understanding words.

Has the precocious Seijuro noticed something is wrong with her?This child's ability to read people's hearts can almost catch up with Yashi.

"...Mom," after a moment of silence, Seijuro was still holding the phone. "You agreed to give me English class today."

Xun Li's pupils suddenly widened, and he could no longer pretend to be nonchalant.A sense of guilt welled up, as if she was the unreasonable, willful rebellious underage who ran away from home.

"sorry."

Xunli paid the money, swayed his body, and walked out of the water slowly after standing firmly.

Holding her mobile phone, she suddenly lost her sense of direction while standing at the door of the water bar.Pause for a while, and walk towards a place with less traffic.

"In order to punish mom, sing me an English song!" Seijuro's tone couldn't hear the slightest bit of anger, but his tone was unquestionable, making it impossible for Xunli to refuse him with the excuse of "busy at work".

"Hmm...let me think about it..." She nodded her chin with her fingertips, "Then let's find a nursery rhyme."

She took a deep breath and sang a short paragraph with her fluttering and unstable breath.

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine (You are my sunshine, the only sunshine I have.)

Youmakemehappywhenskiesaregrey (you make me happy when the sky is gray)

You never know, dear, how much I love you (You never know, dear, how much I love you.)

Please don't take my sunshine away (Please don't take my sunshine away.)"

A four-year-old child may not understand the meaning of each word in the song, but that heart can definitely be conveyed to his chest.

Xunli hung up the phone, sat on a secluded park bench, looked up at the starry sky and smiled wryly.It was hard to see the stars at night in a developed city, maybe they showed up because they were afraid that she would be lonely.

——It is a very suitable night for remembering the past.

She began to believe in the power of "like mother, like son".When I was just in elementary school, I also stood anxiously by the phone because of my mother who would not come home all night in the bar, holding my younger sister who was talking uncomfortably, waiting for the young woman who was scarred by her father to return home.

The two sisters, Xunli and Mai, are the illegitimate daughters of Matsubara Kaizhi. This careerist who is active in the political circle knows that once the incident is exposed to the outside world, it will somewhat stain his smooth career.For this reason, he tried to silence the mother of the two sisters with a large sum of money.

The helpless mother and daughter often huddled together in the middle of the night, and the mother's hot tears wet her skirt. After that, Xunli was so depressed for a while that she didn't have any expectations for the future.Fortunately, the mother quickly recovered from the blow and took her daughters to open a small design shop, which grew bigger and bigger.

And they never touched Song Yuan Haizhi's money, even in the most difficult time.The children's books and living expenses are all saved on Mother's Day——

This selfish yet great mother.

……

Xunli leaned weakly on the bench. She hadn't had strong alcohol for a long time, which caused her to drink less.At this moment, I had a splitting headache, and with my hands resting on my forehead, those long and old memories flooded into my mind, and for some reason, a nauseating churning feeling rose from my stomach——

She suddenly sat up from the chair, ran to the side of the grass and retched.

Stomach was overwhelmed, as if to get rid of all misfortunes and pains.The temperature of the spirits still remained in the body, and the heart seemed to burn in a scorching fire until it was reduced to ashes.

**

Xun Li lay down on a park bench all night in a daze.

She woke up from the cold.

The weather is getting warmer in April, but the mornings are still too cold to stay outside.A cloudy, leaden sky heralded a cloudy start to the day, with scattered mist hanging over the park.

Xun Li opened his eyes, but was too lazy to move his body.Her strength seemed to be drained, and her chapped lips desperately wanted to be moisturized.

I obviously didn't drink much last night, but I couldn't avoid the bad symptoms after drinking.When I woke up, my forehead was covered with sweat and my limbs were numb.She just wants to go home, take a shower and go back to sleep.

It's not that I haven't fantasized about the possibility of finding myself being carried home after opening my eyes, but I'm not too disappointed after discovering the gap between reality and fantasy.Xunli had to sigh with emotion about the safe and secure Japanese society.

She supported her waist and stood up slowly, her head shaking with the movement.In Xunli's view, the swollen brain that received a huge amount of information in an instant would burst at any time.

"It looks like I've remembered everything."

Xunli's eyes were a little different from before, very indifferent.

She took out a tissue to wipe off the sweat, crumpled it up and threw it into the trash can.She combed her messy brown hair with her fingers, raised the collar of her windbreaker, and took out sunglasses from her bag to cover the blue marks under her eyes.

The effect of using alcohol to relieve anxiety was even more terrifying than she expected.She just slept in the park overnight and expressed her sentimental feelings by the way. Some of the memories she had lost unexpectedly woke up her vague consciousness with a "bang".

The brain is a wondrous thing, caught off guard and kicked into self-healing mode when she wasn't prepared.

Whether it's the first meeting with Akashi Masashi, the wedding, being forced to return to Japan, and later falling out with the Akashi family, everything is clearly displayed in front of you, like a revolving lantern theater.

"It's just a sleep to regain the memories of the four years away...it's too unreliable." Xun Li pouted, not knowing whether it was joy or sadness.And what makes her most depressed is that the strangers she is most familiar with have never noticed something wrong with her in four years (they have rarely communicated since marrying into the Akashi family).

Selective amnesia is also an abnormal forgetting phenomenon included in the category of psychogenic amnesia.A deeply traumatized and unhelpful poor soul unconsciously strips a deeply held negative memory from his mind in an attempt to escape.

This explanation is reasonable, and now Xunli can fully understand why he, who was helpless and helpless when he was in a desperate situation, chose this way to relieve the pain.

It wasn't Kanai who had an unknown past with Masashi, it was her from beginning to end.