why do you always blush

"What does it mean?"

After a long time, Gu Li swallowed hard and said in a trembling voice.

Ye Xunxi's words hit Gu Lichu so hard that her mind went blank. She never dreamed that Ye Xunxi would say such... so plausible and ambiguous words.

Her heart started beating extremely quickly belatedly, and Gu Lichu felt her body stiffen. She looked down at Ye Xunxi stupidly, trying to see what she expected from the other's face.

Ye Xunxi was also looking at her, her eyes met, Gu Lichu's face was hot, and she hurriedly turned away.

She didn't look carefully, so she didn't notice the confusion and panic in Ye Xunxi's eyes.

After Ye Xunxi said those words, her heart lightened suddenly. The knot in her heart for many years finally showed signs of loosening. She let out a long breath and pulled Gu Lichu to sit down.

"It might be strange to say this to you suddenly, but..." Ye Xunxi bit her lip, a blush appeared on her face, and her eyes were stained with shyness, "But I have to admit, I can't live without you. "

Gu Lichu's breathing stagnated, and her heart felt a dull pain, sour and sweet.

Before she had time to say anything, Ye Xunxi continued.

"You know, I debuted ten years ago because of a movie..."

Gu Lichu's attention was drawn back, she nodded in agreement, and said, "I know, "Lost"."

As a die-hard fan, Third Miss naturally watched Ye Xunxi's famous works countless times, and was also fascinated by Ye Xunxi's acting skills in "Lost".

Ye Xunxi pursed her lips and smiled, as if sighing or nostalgic: "Yeah, Fu Xin in "Lost"... I won the best newcomer of that year because of this role."

Gu Lichu didn't quite understand Ye Xunxi's intention of mentioning this, so she could only say: "Your performance is amazing, and the award is well-deserved."

Ye Xunxi squeezed her hand noncommittally. It's not surprising that Gu Lichu didn't know what happened at that time. She kept it a secret. The only people who knew about it were Gao Xuan and her. When Gu Lichu became her fan , she has been able to hide her bad state very well.

Ye Xunxi wanted to laugh when she thought of this. It's ironic that her innate acting talent was used to cover herself.

Feeling back to emotion, Ye Xunxi straightened out her thoughts, and continued: "Don't you think it's strange? After "Lost" was finished, I didn't have any outstanding performances anymore, and my acting skills plummeted."

Gu Lichu blinked her eyes. Of course she noticed this problem. She thought it was just because the goddess didn't get a character she liked and resonated with. Now it seems that there are other reasons.

Ye Xunxi ignored Gu Lichu's silence and continued talking on her own.

"Actually, after the end of "Lost", I have been unable to act." Ye Xunxi still has lingering fears when thinking about what happened during that time. "It was my first time acting at that time. He said that I have spiritual energy and insisted on letting me join the group. Originally, I didn’t intend to act, but he asked me to read the script first, and then decide whether to continue acting... and then..."

Ye Xunxi's face was a little pale, she held Gu Lichu's hand hard, her knuckles turned white.

"And then... I can't get out."

A worried look appeared on Gu Lichu's face, and he was about to interrupt Ye Xunxi, but the other party continued to talk regardless.

"I don't know how to describe that feeling. I was sober at first, I knew I was acting, and I still remembered that I was Ye Xunxi, but later... it became more and more indistinguishable. After the play, it was almost impossible to make a play. Even during the time when it was about to wrap up, I felt that I was Fu Xin, and Ye Xunxi was just another personality of Fu Xin. I was Fu Xin, and I looked at the crew coldly. The people here are busy coming and going, like Fu Xin who is as taciturn and eccentric..."

Ye Xunxi's suppressed anxiety for many years finally broke out in tonight's talk, she trembled more and more, Gu Lichu was so distressed, he grabbed her waist and hugged her in his arms.

The familiar breath and warmth came over through the clothes, slightly calming the turmoil in Ye Xunxi's heart. She took a deep breath, seemed a little calmer, and continued.

"No one can bear this feeling of denying their own existence. At that time, I was really going crazy, but I was a newcomer, and I was already the one who was lagging behind in the crew, so I didn't dare to ask for leave. Director Linye told me I have very high expectations, I am under too much pressure, but I can't show it, I thought, then I should hide Fu Xin a little deeper..."

Hearing this, Gu Lichu frowned slightly.

When Ye Xunxi wanted to hide Fu Xin, she had already recognized Fu Xin's existence. In other words, her behavior had begun to be dominated by Fu Xin.

She was too involved in the play, which has already affected the reality.

Ye Xunxi's voice sounded again: "I hid it perfectly, and my acting talent made it impossible for others to see my flaws. Even I was almost fooled by myself until I received the second movie script." ..."

Gu Lichu listened to her silently, her mind spinning non-stop.

The second screenplay...is that "Wonderful Person" with a temporary change of actors?

Gu Lichu remembered that Ye Xunxi was invited to be the heroine in "The Record of Strange People" at that time, halfway through filming, it was suddenly announced that the heroine would be changed.

When she went abroad that year, she didn't want to use her identity to pry too much into Ye Xunxi, and there was very little news when she went abroad.

""The Record of Strange People", you may not know this... At that time, I didn't dare to devote myself to the play, and I was afraid of Fu Xin... But there is a bloody scene in "The Record of Strange People", I unconsciously Entered the play...then... Fu Xin came out..."

When Ye Xunxi said this, she seemed to be in great pain, not only her body was shaking, but her voice was shaking as well.

"Fu Xin... Fu Xin, she... No, it's not Fu Xin, it's me... I almost killed the actor who played against me... When I woke up, my hands were still strangling the actor's neck... "

Gu Lichu was stunned.

"Later...the company suppressed this matter, and the crew changed people urgently, and I was devastated...Afterwards, I never dared to put my heart into acting again..."

Ye Xunxi's voice gradually weakened, and finally the room was completely silent again.

Ye Xunxi was buried in Gu Lichu's arms, unable to calm down for a long time.

This matter had been shadowed in her heart for too long, and although she said it now was cruelly opening the wound, it finally gave the pain that had never seen the light of day a chance to breathe.

Listening to Gu Lichu's heartbeat, Ye Xunxi felt inexplicably at ease in her heart, and unconsciously remembered what Gao Xuan said to her when the accident happened.

"Ye Xunxi, you're in too deep, you have to figure it out yourself, or someone will rescue you and pull you out," Gao Xuan sighed at that time, "You lack someone to pull you out, You have no concern for reality."

And now...

Ye Xunxi recalled her state when she was playing Han Ziyi during the day, her appearance was unexpected, and her appearance was also surprising.

What was she thinking at that time?

She seemed to be thinking that Miss San and Han Ziyi were really similar.

Miss San, Gu Lichu, she was the one who pulled her out.

She needs her, and she cannot do without her, Ye Xunxi is very sure of this.

Ye Xunxi was thinking chaotically, but suddenly heard Gu Lichu's soft voice.

"Ye Xunxi." She called her.

"...Huh?" Ye Xunxi subconsciously replied.

"Ye, Xunxi, Xi," Gu Lichu called her name word by word, then sighed deeply again, "You are Ye Xunxi, it's just Ye Xunxi, it has nothing to do with anything else..."

As she said this, she supported Ye Xunxi's shoulder and pushed it away a little bit, looking straight into her eyes with a sincere and serious expression like a child.

Ye Xunxi's heart became hot from seeing such eyes, and all the messy thoughts in his mind flew away, leaving only the face of the person in front of him.

She saw the red lips of the person in front of her opening and closing, saying words that made her heart tremble.

"You are my favorite Ye Xunxi, but Ye Xunxi, you are you, I like you the most... only you."