blessing to the soul

The days go by day by day, and every weekend when it is popular, I will howl twice, "Is the fourth child back today? No"

Nie Yuan just watched him roll quietly, the unsmooth signal cut the prevalent in the video into sections, which was very funny.When it was the last week of September, Lu Xing'an also started to ask: "Are you planning to come back?"

"It's coming soon," Nie Yuan laughed, "Why, can't wait to talk about life with me?"

"Hehe." Lu Xingan naturally ignored him, and said with a grunt: "Stay, stay, it will be convenient for me to vacate your house someday."

Nie Yuan raised his eyebrows and teased, "Where do you still live after school starts?"

On the road!Lu Xingan choked, "...Sometimes the studio will stay overnight after working overtime...Why, why not?"

The last rhetorical question only accepts one answer, and Nie Yuan hastily responded: "Give it, you can ask for it!"

Lu Xing'an snorted softly, and Nie Yuan felt happy seeing his little expression, and he became more and more relaxed.

"By the way, aren't you coming back on National Day?"

Nie Yuan smiled, "There is no concept of National Day here. It takes a lot of time to come and go. I guess I can't go back twice a year."

"Oh...you said that it seems to take root there," Lu Xing'an was puzzled: "I've always wanted to ask, why did you stay so long when you said that you were going to pick up the wind?"

Nie Yuan spread his hands in a helpless gesture, "My brother will stay here for a while and I have to accompany him. There is no other way. My brother-in-law is crazy and can't do without me."

Lu Xing'an was speechless, knowing that he didn't want to tell the truth, Nie Yuan followed up and asked: "What about you, where are you going for the National Day? There are many people outside, so you can find a quieter place."

Lu Xing'an didn't speak, Nie Yuan thought he didn't hear it, and when he was about to ask again, he heard him say: "How about going to the Northwest?"

Snapped!

Nie Yuan dropped the phone directly.

Lu Xing'an is coming here? !Nie Yuan panicked and wondered where there was something to do nearby. After thinking for a long time, there was only a lesser-known scenic spot hundreds of kilometers away, and he pulled his hair in distress.Besides, the weather here is not good, if Lu Xing'an is sick, it will be bad, let's forget it.When picking it up again, Lu Xing'an still looked at Nie Yuan with the same expression. Nie Yuan's throat was dry and he couldn't make the first sound. He cleared his throat and said, "Don't...it's too barren here."

Lu Xing'an smiled, "I said it casually."

Nie Yuan said oh, feeling uneasy about doing something wrong, this time the video was cut off in a hurry, Nie Yuan was lying on the bed with his mobile phone in a daze, what did he do?

He rejected Lu Xing'an? ? ?

Nie Yuan hugged the quilt and rolled around in annoyance. It's a pity, but he also didn't want Lu Xingan to suffer with him. If he was idle like himself, he could make himself whole. Lu Xingan's long vacation would still make him Can't you follow yourself?

Can't do it.

...I still regret it!

When Nie Chaodong came back, he saw his younger brother hugging the quilt with a dull expression on his face. Putting down the takeaway, Nie Chaodong walked over to pat Nie Yuan's face, "Thought it?"

Nie Yuan lowered his head and said in a muffled voice, "Think."

"Then you go home, I don't need you," Nie Chaodong slowly took apart the chopsticks, slurped the ramen and said inarticulately: "It's just the National Day, you can go back for two days to rest."

"I do not."

"..." Nie Chaodong scolded him, "Talk something you don't listen to!"

Nie Yuan has no appetite. He holds the phone and wants to call back but doesn't know how to say it. He lies on his back and stares at the phone. What should I say?

Nie Chaodong kicked him, "Dinner, I bought a large plate of chicken. I heard that the boss learned it from Xinjiang. Hurry up and eat."

Nie Yuan grumbled listlessly, Nie Chaodong seemed to have something else to do, and took Lao Xia out, leaving Nie Yuan alone in the hotel.

Nie Yuan scratched his hair and sat up irritably, swiped his finger across Lu Xingan's number, paused, then continued to swipe down.

"Duddu...Hello?" The other side answered quickly, "Why did you remember to call me?"

Nie Yuan scratched the quilt very upset, "Dongyou, I think I went the wrong way."

Xin Dongyou laughed, "Aren't you and your little deer making good progress, what's bothering you?"

"It's so smooth," Nie Yuan was still uneasy deep in his heart, "He can accept it, that alone is too strange."

"You, I told you not to think about the past," Xin Dongyou said with a sigh, "You are different from before, aren't you?"

"Yes, but," Nie Yuan finally tore through the quilt. He looked at his fingers angrily and whispered: "When he doesn't want me, I always want to tie him up and hide him so that no one can touch him. Now he Don't resist me anymore, I..."

"I'm very happy, but I still want to hide him from anyone to see," Nie Yuan was familiar with this feeling, and he said to himself discouragedly: "My essence has not changed, I am still the same selfish person. scum."

"What are you worrying about?" Xin Dongyou's voice was steady and reassuring, "Nie Yuan, you have been influenced too much by the past, Lu Xing'an is not lying to you now, is he? If you keep thinking He will hate you as before, leave you, and immerse himself in those memories, so now you have to think about it, do you like the Lu Xing'an in the past, or the Lu Xing'an now?"

Nie Yuan was confused, "But, aren't they the same person?"

"It's not fair to Lu Xing'an, Nie Yuan, they are the same person, but you can use the old Lu Xing to put it on him now, and he can't do those things now, so you still have to help him figure it out What should he do, do you think it is appropriate?"

Nie Yuan was silent for a long time, and just said: "...you let me think again."

Now he still loves Lu Xingan with all his heart. He has returned to the starting point, changed the established track, and also changed the possibility between Lu Xingan and him. Everything is developing in a good direction.

One thing that needs to be recognized is that Lu Xing'an, whom he once loved so deeply, is no longer there.

During the few days of National Day, Nie Yuan stayed in the hotel and did not return to the camp, nor did he contact Lu Xingan and the others. He just looked at the chat records with Lu Xingan over and over in a daze, thinking about things, thinking about the past and the future, and his hair fell out. a handful.

On the last day of vacation, Lao Xia who was originally in the camp came with Nie Chaodong. Nie Yuan was very surprised and asked him why he came.

Old Xia Hanhan smiled and said nothing, Nie Chaodong coughed, "Old Xia, go and do your work first, and I will contact you when I return to the camp at night."

"thank you boss!"

Lao Xia went out mysteriously, and Nie Yuan opened the curtain to see Lao Xia left the hotel...and went to the massage room.

Nie Yuan suddenly realized that Lao Xia is a man... Nie Yuan thought about it and glanced at Nie Chaodong. How does his brother usually solve it?

Nie Chaodong felt awkward being stared at by him, and glared at him fiercely, "What are you looking at, go play with your phone!"

Nie Yuan went over to gossip without giving up, "Brother, how old are you, if you don't find a partner, you will die alone!"

"Crow's mouth, take care of yourself," Nie Chaodong made a loser gesture to his younger brother, "You have been chasing after my sister-in-law for half a year, but you still have the nerve to call me?"

"Which is gone!" Nie Yuan jumped, "We all..."

"What?"

"...I won't say anything!"

Nie Yuan yelled and almost said something to Nie Chaodong, but fortunately he didn't say it out, Nie Chaodong was depressed, "What are you hiding your object like, why is it so shameful?"

Nie Yuan said honestly: "I'm afraid you will make things difficult for me."

"... Do I look like I can eat people?"

Nie Yuan glanced at him, he didn't seem to be able to eat people, but he seemed to be able to beat people.

Before night fell, Nie Chaodong called Lao Xia, and his concubine picked it up, saying that Lao Xia was falling asleep after drinking too much.Nie Chaodong then asked her to tell her that when Lao Xia woke up, he called a car back to the camp, and that person agreed.

When Nie Chaodong made the phone call, Nie Yuan carried a box of water onto the car. Nie Chaodong laughed at him for being too expensive and brought the water back by himself. Nie Yuan patted the box seriously, "This is called planning for a rainy day."

Nie Chaodong didn't take it seriously. An hour later, when Nie Chaodong was lying on the side of the Gobi Highway with no way back, he finally understood what it means to plan ahead.

It was too late when he realized that the oncoming truck was out of control and it was inevitable. Nie Chaodong only had time to kill the steering wheel, using his own side to withstand the impact so that Nie Yuan's damage could be minimized.When Nie Yuan climbed out of the deformed co-pilot, his hands were shaking, the door of the driver's cab was knocked twisted, Nie Chaodong was in a coma, except for the wound on the forehead bleeding, there were no other serious injuries.

Nie Yuan pulled the cab door twice and didn't open it. He almost lost control and wanted to kick a few times. Afraid of causing secondary damage to Nie Chaodong, he could only punch himself twice. Wiping his face and trying to calm down, Nie Yuan quickly checked the fuel tank. No oil spill, luckily not.

Nie Yuan tried to move Nie Chaodong from the co-pilot, but Nie Chaodong's leg was stuck and he couldn't move. When he pulled it, his expression was extremely painful. Nie Yuan gritted his teeth and pulled away, enduring the rush of enthusiasm and ran to the other side to check the status of the truck.

The condition of the truck was much better than that of the small car driven by Nie Yuan and the others. The driver lay on the steering wheel and passed out. The strong alcohol smell on his body made Nie Yuan so angry that he really wanted to strangle him.

Fucking drunk driving!

Nie Yuan brought two bottles of water and poured them all on the driver's head. The driver shivered from the drench. When he woke up and saw the scene, he was shaking even more. He followed Nie Yuan to find a way to pry the car door open.

The car door was successfully pried open. Nie Yuan slowly stretched out his hand to hug his elder brother. When he lifted his wrist up, he felt bone-piercing pain. He staggered and almost fell to the ground while holding Nie Chaodong. The driver hurriedly helped him and moved Nie Chaodong to the flat ground. Yuan said, "Your hand should be fractured, so you can't use any more force."

Nie Yuan sneered, the driver felt ashamed, and shrank back without daring to say anything.

Nie Chaodong's injury was mainly on his leg. A white bone on his right leg poked out bloody flesh. Nie Yuanhong cleaned and bandaged him, only to find that his abdomen was also injured. Nie Yuan really wanted to peel the driver's skin and bones!

Is that how the injury came from back then?He was not in the car at the time, so why was Nie Chaodong still so seriously injured?Nie Yuan couldn't think, he was stunned, and was awakened by the sound of the truck starting to drive away. Nie Yuan couldn't hear what the man said, and after a few steps, he could only watch him leave, and the despair in his heart was overwhelmed. , almost crushed him.

Nie Yuan shook his hands to make a call, but the damn signal couldn't be dialed out, it was useless work over and over again, and he couldn't just wait.

Pulled out all the things that could be covered in the car and made a hole to avoid the wound as much as possible. Nie Yuan carefully put Nie Chaodong in. The rest of the things that could be burned were piled together and lit to make a fire to keep the temperature. The cell phone also continued to call for help.

Before the last 1% battery ran out, Nie Yuan sent a message to Lu Xingan. Seeing the screen dim, Nie Yuan smiled wryly, wondering if the message was sent...

The night in the northwest was freezing to the bone. Nie Chaodong woke up once in the middle of the night. Nie Yuan was so cold that he couldn't even laugh. Nie Chaodong coughed up blood foam and struggled to speak out, "Have you, haven't you..."

"I'm fine!" Nie Yuan hurriedly responded, his eyes were red and hesitant, he didn't dare to shake Nie Chaodong's hand, it was too cold.

Nie Chaodong smiled weakly, "That's good..."

Nie Yuan's heart was extremely complicated, "Brother, you shouldn't have done that..."

"What... are you talking nonsense?" Nie Chaodong struggled to speak, but continued to hold on, "You are my younger brother, I don't...cough cough I don't protect you...who protects you...huh?"

"I...it's not worth it..." The heat in Nie Yuan's eyes contrasted so sharply with the coldness on his body, the heat burned his eyes all the way to the bottom of his heart, "I belong to Nie Zhaosu..."

"Brother knows," Nie Chaodong interrupted him, smiling softly and holding his younger brother's dodging hand, "Brother knows."

"elder brother……"

Nie Chaodong couldn't say any more and passed out again, but he didn't let go of Nie Yuan's hand.

Nie Yuan held his brother's hand tightly and sat withered all night. When the headlights came on, he finally couldn't hold on any longer. He left the noise and fell into the boundless darkness.