foul youth

Time, sometimes it is very long.For example, when we are impetuously taking a class that we are not good at or don't like.My mind is like a ball of twine, twisted and twisted a thousand times.No matter how you sort it out or straighten it out, you can't straighten it out.Then the body is tightly bound by this ball of twine, no matter which sitting position you use, you don't feel at ease.Every minute and every second of this is a torment.

In reality, however, time is short.It's like fine sand that is held tightly in the hand, it disappears before you know it, and you can't hold it no matter how hard you grasp it.That's why there are so many sighs: where has the time gone, you will be old before you feel young; --"where did all the time go"

30 days a month, short or not.But on the [-]th, Xia Zhilin suddenly realized that before he knew it, a month had passed in the blink of an eye.

This month has been quite fulfilling, and my nose and ears are still built, but the National Day is here, which is the biggest legal holiday besides the Spring Festival. It is a 7-day long holiday even with the increased holiday. Do you want to go home?

When the last class was held on September 9, many students who were closer to home cheered and couldn't sit still, hoping that it would end immediately, and then went straight to the station.However, Xia Zhilin thought about the distance between home and school on the map, and then thought about the empty house at home. In the end, he could only smile deliberately, perfunctory everyone's excitement.

On October 10st, most of the students who were able to go home had already gone back. Now that Jiang Haowen had also left, Xia Zhilin had nothing to do, and accompanied him to the station.Before entering the station, Jiang Haowen stopped and pondered for a moment, and then said with concern: "After I leave, you are the only one left. You can stay in school alone. You are OK."

"It's okay, I've been used to being independent since I was a child. I'm alone, but I'm free." Xia Zhilin said with a calm smile.

Jiang Haowen lowered his head, stabilized the travel bag on his back, and said: "Why don't you go to my house with me? Although our place is not as good as Beijing, if you haven't been there, it should be relatively new and relatively fresh." It's fun, and you know that in small cities, the pollution and population density are definitely not as bad as Beijing."

"Okay, thank you. I'm fine, don't worry. Hurry up and wait at the station, don't be late. Have a good trip!" Xia Zhilin said while gently pushing Jiang Haowen towards the station entrance.

"Okay, then we'll see you after the vacation. You go back and pay attention to safety."

After bidding farewell to Jiang Haowen and returning to school, Xia Zhilin stopped in front of the dormitory, feeling a little lonely as expected.Looking up at this eight-story building, the corridors on each floor, and some clothes that have not been cleaned are still sparsely hung on the ceiling, but all the doors and windows are quietly closed.Although the sun is shining brightly and the sky is clear at this moment, it is a deserted scene.Not only this dormitory building, but the entire dormitory area and the entire campus have become deserted.

Upstairs, Xia Zhilin gently opened the door of the dormitory, smiled wryly, and laughed at himself in a low voice: "Finally, I have my own private space again."

Just like at home, alone and free.However, why do I feel so unsteady in my heart, like the moment I first arrived in Beijing, completely lost myself, without any sense of security.

Coming to his desk, Xia Zhilin sat down gently, then took out his cell phone casually, and found out Guo Zihao's phone intentionally or unintentionally.I don't know what he is doing at the moment?travel?playing ball?reunion?Who are you with, family?friend?Or is he accompanying his girlfriend?Staring at the phone number, Xia Zhilin looked at it for a long time, finally sighed lightly, and directly locked the screen again.After all, I still didn't have the courage to fight.

After putting down the phone, Xia Zhilin turned on the computer and played a song casually, then took an English textbook from the bookcase, trying to enrich the empty time with learning.However, after flipping through it, my mind went blank, and I couldn't concentrate.

right!Xia Zhilin suddenly had a flash of inspiration: The Japanese that I just started to learn recently is very fresh, and I am more interested in it. Maybe it is better to read Japanese.Xia Zhilin changed another Japanese textbook from the bookcase and persisted for a long time, but he was still restless after all.

Really unable to hold on any longer, Xia Zhilin gently closed the textbook and turned to look out the window.On this early autumn afternoon, the sun was shining obliquely on the window sill.He walked over, couldn't help stretching out his hand to feel it, the temperature slowly seeped into the palm of his hand and then into his heart.

So warm!This temperature made Xia Zhilin suddenly think of the south.October!I remember that September and October are the hottest months at home. In the first two months of each autumn semester, the sun is so hot that it seems to evaporate the whole world.However, at this moment in October in Beijing, the dormitory has already had a strong coolness, but the sunshine that shines in is a refreshing warmth.

It seems that I should go out for a walk. I came from the south all the way, just to come out and see the world, to see the north that I have been longing for since I was a child.But now a month has passed, but I haven't been anywhere yet.

After making up his mind, Xia Zhilin searched the Internet for information on scenic spots, and randomly chose a convenient and cheap spot - Houhai Bar Street.Then I tidied up a bit and left the school.

Sure enough, after coming out, I feel much more comfortable, and the scenery and atmosphere of Houhai are not bad, no wonder it is so famous.

The casual bars along the lakeshore are now open for business, and there are not many people in the afternoon, which looks very leisurely and comfortable.The willow trees by the lake are still luxuriant, although it has passed the Mid-Autumn Festival.The willow branches hanging down one by one are densely packed, swaying gracefully in the wind from time to time.The autumn wind still has the cool smell of the lake, and every time it hits the face, it feels very fresh.

However, from time to time, I meet one or two romantic young couples, leaning on the slump by the lake.However, Xia Zhilin wore headphones, and his whole soul seemed to be floating in the world of music with the autumn wind, but he didn't feel the tens of thousands of injuries those so-called single dogs said.With a calm expression and a vaguely peaceful smile, he walked slowly along the path by the lake, accompanied by the bustling tourists.

Until the evening, the songs of singers in various bars gradually began to reverberate gently, and finally the flow of people became denser and the environment became more and more noisy.Xia Zhilin glanced at the people in the bar, and each of them was chatting happily, or tasting wine leisurely, all of them felt tall, which made him daunting.

Xia Zhilin suddenly felt a little lonely, even though the place had just started to become lively.I feel that this excitement is just right, and it is just right to set off my loneliness.Xia Zhilin's mood sank, and he turned away from the hustle and bustle silently, found a place to have some dinner, and then found his way back to school.

Back at the school, the night has completely opened, and the desertedness of the campus is a little heavier in the night.The street lamps glowed listlessly, and the light was indistinct, making people feel insecure.Back in front of the dormitory building, Xia Zhilin subconsciously glanced at the building again.Fortunately, there are still one or two rooms with lights on each floor, at least I am not the only one, and I am more or less relieved.

However, when he returned to the dormitory, Xia Zhilin opened the door and went in. Looking at the empty room, he still felt a little flustered inexplicably.

Loneliness, sometimes, can really make people feel helpless.Freedom is indeed relative, and the freedom of being alone is sometimes not as good as having a friend by your side.

Shall I call Jiang Haowen, Xia Zhilin thought.However, it's fine, wouldn't a good vacation just cause him more worries and ruin his happiness?

After hesitating for a while, Xia Zhilin still canceled this idea.Then he found Guo Zihao's phone and looked at it quietly for a long time, but he didn't call in the end, but he edited a text message: What are you busy with?However, looking at the short question on the screen, he watched it quietly for a while, and then deleted it.Facing the empty screen, I watched it silently and thought for a while, then switched it on again.The exact same sentence was typed and deleted over and over again, repeated many times, and finally I clicked "Send" lightly!