rebirth will be hard to find

Cheng Zian always thought that Cheng Qian would ignore their family, orphans and widows after he voted for Yan, but now it seems that this is not the case.

In the early years, Cheng Qian's situation in Yan State was obviously not very good. He couldn't send people back to spread the news, and he couldn't even really know his family's situation in Chu State.But this time he was able to sit on the position of the deputy commander of the Yan army, which is obviously not what it used to be. At least Prince Yan has great trust in him. Not thinking about his mother, wife and children in Chu State, he secretly sent people to Chu Jing, intending to take them back to Yan State to settle down before his identity was exposed.

Cheng Qian's heart may be good, but Mrs. Cheng obviously cannot accept this reality.Not only did she beat out the people sent by Cheng Qian, but she became ill after knowing that Cheng Qian had really defected to the enemy.

Cheng Zian didn't know how to comfort Mrs. Cheng, because she knew that no matter what she said at this moment, she would look powerless.Just as she couldn't vent her anger when she knew Cheng Qian's betrayal, Mrs. Cheng may be more sad and heartbroken - once the belief that has been supported for more than ten years collapses, it will always make people feel collapsed and at a loss.

After a long time, Cheng Zian said: "Grandmother, forget about him, he has been gone for more than ten years, just treat him as if he has been gone." She paused, and added: "When we parted, he Tell me, please cross out his name on the genealogy."

Until today, Cheng Zian finally understood why Cheng Qian said this.He had sent someone to Chu Jing a long time ago, and he knew that Mrs. Cheng refused to go to Yan Kingdom with him. Maybe someone found out that she had been Chu Yi's companion, so he chose to let the Cheng family abandon him.In this way, it can be regarded as drawing a clear line, as long as Chu Yi really trusts her, then the Cheng family can be safe.

Of course, with a father like Cheng Qian, people in the world can't stop talking, and Cheng Zian's official career is probably coming to an end.

Mrs. Cheng obviously understood this too, her calm face finally showed a bit of sadness, not for herself, but for Cheng Zian.It seemed that it was only at this moment that she finally realized what kind of path she was forcing her granddaughter to follow.

Seeing Cheng Zi'an's extremely similar face to Cheng Qian's, two tears welled up in Mrs. Cheng's dim eyes: "Ajie, Ajie, what will you do in the future..."

Cheng Zian was silent, feeling a little depressed, not knowing what to say at all.

Her whole life has been rewritten because of Cheng Qian. The hand that used to hold the needle and thread is now holding a knife and gun, but she was on the battlefield when she was in her boudoir.But all of this happened without Cheng Qian's knowledge, and even today he still doesn't know it, and the person who really made these changes happen is the crying old man in front of him.

Cheng Zian's silence made the atmosphere in the room suddenly suppressed. Mrs. Cheng seemed a little unbearable, and finally said: "This is the end of the matter, and the things of the past should be put aside. Ajie and His Majesty... have a good relationship, presumably Your Majesty I won’t go into anything, and then Ajie will resign, and then our family will leave Beijing. Go to a place that no one knows, and Ajie can resume her identity and live a normal life.”

Madam Cheng looked at Cheng Zian when she heard the words, but Cheng Zian's heart sank.She turned her head away, then looked straight into Mrs. Cheng's eyes and said in a deep voice, "What is a normal life? Can I still live that 'normal' life?!"

A long time ago, Mrs. Cheng knew that she liked a woman, and later even guessed that the man was Chu Yi.She thought that after such a long time, Chu Yi became the emperor, and Madam Cheng should have accepted it, but who knew that she was still thinking about "normal life"... If they knew today, why would they send her away? Forced into this road that is not a normal person should take?

Mrs. Cheng was a little dazed, but she was not stupid, she immediately recognized the clue, and asked, "Did something happen?"

Madam Cheng pursed her lips and frowned, she didn't know how to respond to Cheng Zian's words, let alone how to answer Madam Cheng's question.

Cheng Zian suddenly lifted his clothes and knelt down towards Mrs. Cheng. She said calmly, "Grandmother, grandson can't leave. In this capital, there are people whose grandson wants to stay with him for the rest of his life."

This answer was obviously beyond Mrs. Cheng's expectations. Compared with Mrs. Cheng, she was stricter, and all she saw was Cheng Zian's learning and growth. She hadn't paid much attention to things like relationships. .Suddenly hearing Cheng Zian say that she has someone she likes, she froze in place for a while before asking, "Which family is it?"

Cheng Zian choked for a moment, and was about to say that it wasn't a girl but a girl, when Mrs. Cheng said again: "You are always busy and don't go around much with others. The closest person is Li Lin from the Li family, is that him?"

Li Lin's reputation in the capital is actually pretty good. He comes from a family, has a good reputation, and his own talents are not bad. In addition, he has been the emperor's companion, so it seems that his prosperity is just around the corner.In the eyes of Mrs. Cheng, he and Cheng Zian have been classmates for two years, it can be said that they get along day and night, and their relationship must be good...

However, after Cheng Zian heard Mrs. Cheng's words, he held his breath and his face changed several times, not to mention how weird it was.Then she shook her head firmly, dispelling Mrs. Cheng's strange guess: "No, grandma, Li Lin is just a friend, I can't possibly like him!" After she finished speaking, she finally said: "I don't like men, I like women."

In those years, the stern grandmother was like a mountain on Cheng Zian's head.She is cautious in her words and deeds, and dare not show the slightest disobedience in front of Mrs. Cheng. As a woman, she likes such a rebellious thing as a woman. She can admit it frankly to Mrs. Cheng, but she definitely dare not say it in front of Mrs. Cheng of.

But this time when she came back, she found that her grandmother was really old, and her former majesty seemed to have disappeared in this serious illness.And she couldn't let go of her feelings for Chu Yi anymore, so she finally mustered up the courage to say this.

Madam Cheng was silent for a long time.In fact, if Cheng Qian hadn't happened, one day in the future, Cheng Zian would get married after all, and she would marry a woman despite her identity as a man.She just didn't expect Cheng Zian to tell her one day that she has someone she likes, and that person is still a woman...

After Cheng Zian said those words, he felt a relief like relief, and also a strange sense of satisfaction that could not be described.She no longer looked at Mrs. Cheng's face, but knelt on the ground with her head lowered, waiting for her grandmother's final verdict.

After waiting for a long time, even Mrs. Cheng followed Cheng Zian and knelt down worryingly. She knelt in front of Cheng Zian and said anxiously: "Ah Jie was just confused for a while. Fang, mother must not be angry and blame her."

Although Mrs. Cheng is seriously ill now, she has gained a lot of power in the Cheng family these years, and she is what Mrs. Cheng is most afraid of.She still remembered that when Cheng Zi'an was young, his playfulness delayed his martial arts practice. Regardless of her young age, Mrs. Cheng picked up the rattan weaving to do the family law. That time, Cheng Zi'an lay on the bed for ten days.At this moment, she was afraid that Mrs. Cheng would be angry and punish Cheng Zian again, so she no longer cared about her own thoughts, and hurriedly knelt down to beg for mercy.

Cheng Zian raised his head and glanced at Mrs. Cheng who was standing in front of him, feeling warm in his heart.Then she reached out to help Mrs. Cheng up, and said, "Mother, you don't have to be like this, and I'm not confused. I promised her my whole life, and I won't let her down again!"

Mrs. Cheng clenched her lower lip when she heard the words, and looked at Cheng Zian's sad eyes, she was about to cry - she knew who Cheng Zian liked, and now both of them had promised each other for life, to the emperor Your Majesty has always been in chaos and ended up abandoning things... Not to mention the current Cheng family, even if Cheng Yuan was still there, the Cheng family would never have dared to do such a thing when it was at its peak!

For the sake of Cheng Zian's life, Mrs. Cheng was about to change her position to speak for her almost instantly, but before she could speak, Mrs. Cheng finally sighed and said, "The Cheng family is like this now, so do as you please. "

Cheng Zian was taken aback when he heard the words, and felt a little unbelievable, but also felt that it should be so.

Over the years, Mrs. Cheng cared most about the reputation of the Cheng family. Now that Cheng Qian had really betrayed her, those claims were not wronged.She is not a person who will deceive herself, although she has been persistent for so many years, but when things come to an end, she will not deceive herself and continue to be persistent.So looking back, if she knew Cheng Qian was not wronged from the beginning, what would happen to them now?

The Cheng family is an orphan and widowed mother. Although they bear a not-so-good reputation, the Cheng family has a big business after all, and they can always do it without worrying about food and clothing.Mrs. Cheng will still guard the Cheng family for the rest of her life. Mrs. Cheng may or may not remarry, but Cheng Zian will no longer pretend to be a man. She should live the life that an ordinary daughter should live. , maybe I have found a husband who is not of high status, but has a good character, and then I will be a wife and mother, and live an ordinary life in peace.

It's a pity that everything is out of place, because of Mrs. Cheng's insistence.She suddenly realized how harsh she had been on Cheng Zian all these years, and she wanted to make up for it at this moment—she had been too harsh on Cheng Zian in the past ten years, so she should let it go in the days to come, and let this child Live the life you want.The current Cheng family doesn't have to burden her anymore.

Madam Cheng was relieved, Madam Cheng and Cheng Zian were both relieved.In fact, they were all very scared, afraid that Mrs. Cheng would blame her, and even more afraid that she would be agitated by the news. Even while waiting for a response, Cheng Zian vaguely regretted choosing such a time to talk about this matter, but in fact Cheng Zian The old lady's state of mind was unexpectedly stable.

But even if she accepted it, Mrs. Cheng would definitely ask in the end: "Ajie, who is that girl you like?"

Cheng Zian glanced at Mrs. Cheng, and then looked away inexplicably guilty: "Well, it's... Your Majesty."

"Bang!" The medicine bowl that Mrs. Cheng had just picked up fell to the ground and shattered.

The author has something to say: Li Lin: Mess up the mandarin ducks... Hehe, I won't take the blame!

Chu Yi (kicking Li Lin away): Don't be careless and directly blame me!

Well, Zi'an boy came out of the closet just like that...