I don't love you tomorrow

Although Wei Chunxuan said he would return in a few days and asked Li Guanmian to wait for him to come back, in fact it took nearly half a month and neither of them could meet smoothly.

One afternoon, Li Guanmian received a call from Aunt Wang, saying that Liu Yujuan's condition was not good. She had a persistent fever and was about to get worse. He turned off the live broadcast and went to answer it at home, and sent her to the hospital.

After the examination, the doctor ordered him to be hospitalized again.It stands to reason that diabetes affects wound healing, and it does not prove that the previous amputation was unsuccessful.

Liu Yujuan was so thin that her face was sunken. Li Guanmian didn't see her very much these days, and when we saw her again, she was really shocked to see her so thin.The guilt in my heart gradually magnified, I went directly to my live broadcast room to change my name, and sent a leave notice.

Now that his live broadcasting business is developing very well, Wan Ling pushes him calmly. According to Tryna, he spent a lot of human and financial resources to seek sustainable development. In the first place, he should not broadcast live too frequently to avoid aesthetic fatigue of the audience.

Li Guanmian didn't pay much attention to these things, he just listened to the management and Tryna's arrangement, and did whatever he was asked to do.Rather than being easy-going, it is more like alienation and indifference to the surrounding world.

Watching Liu Yujuan silently by the hospital bed, the phone rang suddenly, and he took it out to see that it was Wei Chunxuan.Going outside to answer the phone, Wei Chunxuan's voice came out.

"I'll go there at night."

I couldn't hear any emotion, and it was very quiet, as if I was outside.

Li Guanmian felt sorry for this, "My mother is hospitalized, and I will accompany her in the hospital."

The other party was silent for a while, "Okay, do you have money?"

"some."

While he was waiting for Wei Chunxuan's next sentence, the phone hung up.Li Guanmian put down the phone, stared at it for a while, and soon saw that Tryna transferred him a sum of money, 5 yuan.

In the past few days, he has also withdrawn the gift money from the platform, which is more than enough for subsequent hospitalization expenses.He felt that the money was spent willingly. If it wasn't for Liu Yujuan's illness, it seemed that he wouldn't be able to earn money by playing the piano every day.

Life is still going on.

The trouble is that Liu Yujuan is not very cooperative with the treatment, and she is not allowed to take insulin every day, pushing the nurse aside and telling her to go back.

The little nurse was not without a temper. After holding back for a long time, she handed the needle to Li Guanmian, "You can return it to me at the nurse's station after you beat your mother." Then she turned and left.If it wasn't for Li Guanmian's appearance that won her favorability, her voice would have been a little louder.

Li Guanmian said in a deep voice, "What are you doing?"

He couldn't figure it out, he couldn't even figure out Liu Yujuan's brain circuit.

Also, if she were her, she wouldn't appear in this ward now.

Liu Yujuan first turned her head aside and shed tears silently, then said that it was because she wanted to see Wu Hui.

Li Guanmian could understand this kind of feeling. After all, she didn't watch her grow up, so it was understandable to want to see her son, but he really didn't want to contact that person.He took out his phone, flipped to the WeChat interface and handed it to Liu Yujuan. It was his unilateral exchange with Wu Hui.Ask him every now and then whether he will come back, and he never responds.

"I asked, I really asked." Li Guanmian said, "If he wants to come back, I will leave immediately, but if he doesn't answer me, what can I do?"

He remained calm, trying to be calm and authentic.

There are four beds in the ward, and an aunt is resting next to her.He didn't want to say anything, especially in a hospital setting.But Liu Yujuan probably didn't have the intention of being considerate of others and paying attention to the occasion. She seemed to want to send a voice with the mobile phone, but she didn't know what to say, so she put the mobile phone back into Li Guanmian's hand.

"I know, I know..." She responded to Li Guanmian.She knew what Li Guanmian was thinking, and also thought that she was lucky to have such a son.But Wu Hui is different!She took care of her for so many years, and raised him from childhood to adulthood. That child was disobedient and rebellious, and she was very angry with her.

But that was also her son.She was always accompanied by Wu Hui when she was suffering the most, and now that she hadn't seen him for so many years, she already missed him too much.

Liu Yujuan didn't cooperate with the treatment, and didn't eat, so she was in a stalemate.

It went on like this for a few days, Li Guanmian forcibly injected insulin without getting an injection, and it was more torturous when eating, but she took the opportunity to feed a little from morning to night, which was considered peaceful on the surface.The aunt on the bed next to her looked at Li Guanmian and sighed, saying that she is blessed to have such a big and filial son, but Liu Yujuan never spoke to her.

In the evening, some people in the ward were discharged from the hospital, some went home to live, and Aunt Wang went out to buy food.Under the bright light, Liu Yujuan looked even more haggard, with white hair piled up on her temples.

Li Guanmian is on Weibo, he opened a new account, occasionally posting live broadcast previews, reposting official videos, sexually frigid style, no one's comments are replied, and all he pays attention to is Lingguang's official account.In the latest Weibo, a large number of people urged him to live broadcast, asking if he forgot about this matter, and some fans sincerely urged him to go back to the platform, Li Guanmian laughed.

Liu Yujuan became alert immediately, opened her eyes and asked him, "What's wrong, is there any news?"

Li Guanmian, who had just breathed a sigh of relief, was dragged back to the ward and was trapped in front of the bed. He took back his mobile phone, shook his head and said no.

Liu Yujuan sighed and told him intermittently about the past.Including how he was obedient when he was a child, others praised him when he took it out, and she sewed the dolls to coax him to play with.

"That doll is ugly. Someone lost it one day. You couldn't find it and refused to sleep. Your dad went out with a flashlight, and found it in the big doghouse next door."

"Ah." Faced with Liu Yujuan's expectant look, Li Guanmian smiled, "I don't even remember."

The doll was ill-fated and was thrown by Li Guanmian several times.He knew that Liu Yujuan ran out the day she left, and it was raining heavily, and the water flowed downhill like a small river.He ran to the ditch and returned home, throwing the doll into the water.The child couldn't restrain his emotions, squatted on the ground and couldn't help but cry. The doll was stuck in the stone after flowing with the water for a while, and Li Guanmian went home crying.

Liu Yujuan was right, he couldn't sleep without a doll by his side, even though the doll was ugly, with rough stitches and uncoordinated body, he still felt kind.When the rain stopped the next day, Li Guanmian ran out to look for it. He found the doll in the trash, took it home and washed it, feeling the joy of finding it again.

It wasn't until a long time later that Li Guanmian understood the truth that if you lose many things, you can't force them back, and what you get back is no longer the original one.

I am always hesitant and soft-hearted.

Li Guanmian thought, he has nothing to ask for, just keep the status quo, and when everything is over, another ten or eight years will pass, and he will have a clear conscience.

Self-comfort is very effective. After all these years, Li Guanmian has not collapsed, and his heart is getting softer and weaker.But what he didn't expect was that, as his mother, Liu Yujuan's words were light and fluffy, but when they fell on his heart, they were like sharp knives, and they hurt others without knowing it.

There were also endless chatter about ways to relieve the pain. When Liu Yujuan talked about Wu Hui, she was very sad.She didn't live well in those years, the man she followed had a family, she lived with Wu Hui's orphan and widow, she was worried, like a thief.Fortunately, the economic foundation is sufficient, she is never short of money, and can go wherever she wants. These are the wonderful life that she will never experience living in a small town. She knows what it means to have something to give, and she will not regret it when she chooses it.

"I think if I don't live long, and I can see you two before I leave, I will... I will be worth it." In that extremely rare clip, Liu Yujuan is beautiful and strong, and she hardly cries like this, It's so weak that it can fall over with a light touch.

Li Guanmian said calmly, "Don't say such things."

And Liu Yujuan didn't realize the change in her son's mood at all, she still couldn't help crying.

She is also afraid of death.

"Don't cry!" Li Guanmian seldom gets angry, especially with his relatives, and the resentment and trivialities piled up in front of the hospital bed are accumulating more and more, making his chest tight and painful, and crying is even more tormenting to him, he said, " Aren't you so strong? Wu Hui ignores you and you get cured and go back to find him and beat him, what's the use of crying to death now?"

Liu Yujuan was stunned, she obviously didn't expect her filial son to say such a thing, she thought about it, and felt that it was impossible.

"I just wanted to be strong, so I got to this point."

"But you don't regret it."

In this regard, Li Guanmian is surprisingly similar to Liu Yujuan.Don't say I don't know, even if I know that I have chosen the wrong path, I don't want to turn back easily. I don't know what is the fault brought by my genes.

Dead ducks have tough mouths.

"Mom has a lot of regrets, and I know it's useless to regret. I just can't figure it out. You said how could that child be so cruel. I sent him abroad for his own good. How could he blame me for this. "Liu Yujuan raised her head and wept, she could barely see the lights.Her vision became more and more blurred, especially in the past few days. She didn't dare to tell Li Guanmian that sometimes she couldn't see Li Guanmian sitting at the end of the bed.She doesn't want to be a burden, but she has regrets, so she dares to die.

"enough."

Li Guanmian had heard enough, besides Wu Hui these days, it was Wu Hui, it was his own wishful thinking.He didn't want to listen anymore, so what should he do, just leave like this, leaving Liu Yujuan here alone?

"Can you stop mentioning him?" Li Guanmian said calmly, pleading sincerely, "Stop mentioning him, and treat the illness properly."

"Then are you going to drive me to death?" Liu Yujuan looked at Li Guanmian, and she didn't know where to say such a sentence. She said, "Aren't you happy when I die?" Or stepped into her minefield.

Li Guanmian looked at her in disbelief, completely, completely unable to understand where her words came from. Before, he only regarded Liu Yujuan as a patient, but now it seems that she is indeed ill. Maybe she didn't feel better from the beginning. From the moment she abandoned him, this woman's life had been rewritten into four words: unreasonable.

He endured Liu Yujuan's unexplainable anger. He originally wanted to endure it, but his emotions often suddenly lost control at a certain moment, deviated from the established track, and headed towards an unpredictable future.

Of course, if Li Guanmian knew what was going on in the future, he would absolutely keep his mouth shut, or get up and peel an apple.

"I never thought you would say such a thing." Li Guanmian continued calmly and calmly with his usual tone, "I don't think I owe you anything."

Liu Yujuan couldn't understand, she was immersed in her own logic and couldn't get out, her son hurt her heart and refused to find Wu Hui for her, she should contact Wu Hui by herself, but she didn't know what to say, it seems that instead of It is better to rely on yourself than to place hope on others.

"If you don't want to come in the future, then don't come." Liu Yujuan said, "I know you are not happy every time you come, I am the one who made you tired."

"you……"

It wasn't Liu Yujuan who brought him up, and Li Guanmian realized that he didn't know this person at all.There was not much affection left between mother and child, and he couldn't help it, "If I don't come, will I leave you here alone?"

"Yes, I can do it alone."

"I don't want to come and take care of you, because I don't want to see you crying!"

"You won't be able to see it anymore."

Li Guanmian was so angry that he was almost speechless, the bed was made of iron, he punched the railing at the end of the bed, and looked at her coldly, "I borrowed money to send you to the hospital, perform surgery on you, stay here every night, you Tell me not to come here again?"

"I will return the money to you." Liu Yujuan said.

"That's too late."

Li Guanmian said, "Didn't you ask me where the money for the operation came from? I signed a contract of sale and sold myself for 60 yuan, just like you did back then."

"What? What is a contract of sale?" Liu Yujuan couldn't understand for a moment.

After Li Guanmian said this, he felt relieved, but the relief that followed was not as expected. He had a strong premonition that he seemed to have done something wrong again.

"I said I don't need you to pay back the money, no need." Li Guanmian emphasized this sentence, "Since it is my own choice, I will not regret it."

Liu Yujuan remained silent for the next whole night, and the two of them lived in peace.

Life will always return to calm in its own way. The emotions burst out one moment, and the next moment is calm, as if nothing happened.Li Guanmian slept in the next bed for a while at night, and unexpectedly slept well, and was not woken up until the patient's family members came.

He waited until seven o'clock, and Aunt Wang also came, took a look at Liu Yujuan, and said, "I'm leaving."

Liu Yujuan looked at his back and said let's go, the atmosphere was so weird that even Aunt Wang saw the clue, she chased him out of the ward and asked Li Guanmian what happened.

"Nothing." He couldn't understand a word or two.

Aunt Wang looked at him and sighed, "Your mother is in a bad mood right now, so don't take anything to heart. She has just had an operation and her feet are... well, bear with it if you can. Be considerate, after all, she is a patient."

"I know." Li Guanmian promised to do what he would do when he came back next time, and he would go back to remind Wu Hui when he got home.

"Then you go slowly." Aunt Wang looked at him worriedly, "Eat more, you look skinny, don't burn yourself out."

On the way home, Li Guanmian bought a pack of cigarettes, and almost finished smoking them along the way, leaving two cigarettes in the pack.Because Wei Chunxuan would go, and he didn't dare to smoke at home, he would go downstairs to smoke every time, brush his teeth and turn on the air purifier at home.

Reluctantly throwing the remaining cigarettes and cigarette packs into the trash can, Li Guanmian went upstairs.

There were people in the living room, and some things were piled up on the coffee table, Li Guanmian took half a step back guiltily.

Wei Chunxuan was posing for a photo, beckoned to Li Guanmian, and said with a smile, "What are you doing in a daze? Come and take a look."

Li Guanmian turned her head and coughed, then walked over and stood aside, seeing dozens of photos of herself, feeling inexplicably ashamed.His hand was held by Wei Chunxuan, pinched in his hand, and then he saw the other party frown and said: "Are you smoking?"

"……Um."

"Go wash and change clothes." Wei Chunxuan touched Li Guanmian's hand, so he had to wash it up, they went to different bathrooms, Wei Chunxuan came out quickly, and waited for Li Guanmian for a while.

"Quit smoking." Wei Chunxuan put his arms around Li Guanmian who had changed his clothes and took a shower.

"Hmm..." Li Guanmian said in his heart that he couldn't quit.

"Look at this."

Wei Chunxuan selected one of Li Guanmian sitting on the sofa from all the photos. He hugged his knees with his hands and looked at the camera with clean and empty eyes.Wei Chunxuan said, "I like this one, what about you?"

Li Guanmian was not a person who liked to take pictures. He didn’t even take selfies. Sometimes his roommates showed him photos secretly taken by girls from the same school.Now even in the face of Wei Chunxuan's affirmation, he still thinks the same.

"This one." Li Guanmian calmly chose the one closest to him, but he didn't even know what position he was in on it.Sensing his emotions, Wei Chunxuan pulled some distance away from him, and stretched out his hand to shave his face, "Why do you look so bad, are you tired from being in bed?"

Li Guanmian: "No, I fell asleep."

Wei Chunxuan said, "Did you eat then?"

"Not yet, I want to have lunch together."

"Well, let's do something simple at noon, and I'll take you out at night." After Wei Chunxuan finished speaking, he went to collect the photos, put the entire stack of photos back into the envelope, and handed it to Li Guanmian for him to put it away.

At first Li Guanmian wondered why Wei Chunxuan was here, but later he found out that he was off on Sunday.However, they didn't communicate much all day, Wei Chunxuan was working in the room, and he didn't come over to call Li Guanmian until he was about to leave.

"Should I wear something more formal?"

Some restaurants have a dress code, Li Guanmian wants to confirm.

After thinking about it, Wei Chunxuan said no.

"It's a private party, don't dress too... childish, and Tryna didn't take you to buy clothes?"

"I don't go out very much, I thought it was useless."

"Tomorrow I will ask her to bring a tailor, and I still need to make two sets of clothes." Wei Chunxuan said.

The first time I attended a party with Wei Chunxuan, Li Guanmian felt a little regretful on the way, I should have thought of a reason not to go.He had never met Wei Chunxuan's friends, and he thought that he would never have an intersection with his life circle, who knew that this day would come like this.

Li Guanmian had a lot of mental activities along the way.

What kind of party is this?

The people Wei Chunxuan met were all bigwigs in the industry?

It's still the kind of people who bring their playmates, men and women, and get together, Wei Chunxuan should not be that kind of person!

Li Guanmian glanced sideways at the person next to him, thinking regretfully that he really didn't understand him.

What if everyone had a good time when we got there, and Wei Chunxuan asked him to accompany others, would he turn his face on the spot or swallow his anger... What should Wei Chunxuan do if he gets angry? If he calls the police, will he be finished?

There was no end to the wild thoughts, until the car stopped, and Wei Chunxuan called him after going out, "What are you thinking about?"

Li Guanmian got off the car in a complicated mood, and looked up to see a health club.

Li Guanmian: "..."

Wei Chunxuan looked at him, "It's okay, you don't need to say anything, this is a good friend's house, we get together."

"Oh good." Li Guanmian nodded seriously.

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