lost something again

The next day's game was in the afternoon, and Zhuang Yanyu and the others still had class in the morning, so Gao Cheng took advantage of the recess to send a message to Cheng Mu: Someone asked me to ask you a question, can you answer me?

Cheng Mu turned on his phone and saw the news about Gao Cheng, he was a little puzzled, Gao Cheng was sitting behind him, what question should he ask on the phone?Just ask him directly.

After thinking about it, Cheng Mu looked back at Gao Cheng, then turned his head and lowered his head and replied: Well, you say it.

Gao Chengchong squeezed his eyes at Zhuang Yanyu, who was always paying attention to the progress of the matter, and then quickly typed with his fingers: that person wants to know whether you like boys or girls, so that he can be mentally prepared.

Cheng Mu looked at the message on the phone screen, frowned slightly, and asked: Who is that person?

Gao Cheng: I can't say that, tell me the answer quickly, or I'll be in a hurry.

Didn't read Zhuang Yanyu's draft book, it was almost crumpled into a pile of waste paper by him.

Cheng Mu thought about it and couldn't figure out who it was, and he didn't like to reveal his privacy to strangers, not to mention that people's acceptance of homosexuality is not so high now, so Cheng Mu replied without changing his face: I like girls .

There was no reply for a long time, Cheng Mu guessed that the other party was sending a message to the person who inquired about his sexuality, so he turned off his phone and started reading.

I didn't hear from Gaocheng until just before class, just one word: Oh.

Cheng Mu didn't take this matter to heart, and he didn't understand why Zhuang Yanyu next to him had been listless since the beginning of class, lying on the table listlessly like a boneless person, with drooping eyelids and dull eyes It looked like a flower beaten by frost, wilting.

When the bell rang for the end of the last class, Cheng Mu pushed Zhuang Yanyu, and asked with concern: "What's wrong with you? What's wrong with you? I think you've missed a class."

Zhuang Yanyu lowered his head to pack his schoolbag, and replied sullenly, "It's fine."

Cheng Mu was a little worried, and stretched out a hand to touch Zhuang Yanyu's forehead to test the temperature, but before he could touch the opponent's hand, he was caught in the palm of his hand by a big hand.

Cheng Mu raised his hand suspiciously, but he didn't pull it out, so he could only ask in the posture of being held by Zhuang Yanyu: "Can you tell me what happened?"

Zhuang Yanyu was so wronged that he was about to cry. He finally fell in love with someone, but because he was not a girl, he couldn't pursue him openly, so he could only hide his unspeakable love in his heart. He couldn't even say a word of concern. If he told the truth, it would definitely scare people and they wouldn't even have to be friends.

Feeling so depressed that he was about to bleed, Zhuang Yanyu looked at Cheng Mu for a while, hesitant to speak, and then he picked up his bag and walked in front of the classroom until all the people in the classroom were gone: "It's really nothing, let's go, the cafeteria will leave when you are late." There is no food to eat."

Cheng Mu felt that Zhuang Yanyu's behavior was a bit strange, but he was not good at trying to figure out other people's thoughts, and he had almost no friends since he was a child, and he was even less good at guessing his friends' thoughts, so he could only look at Zhuang Yanyu The back figure scratched his hair in distress, and decided to think of a way to make him happy.

After dinner, Zhuang Yanyu had returned to his usual cheerful and confident appearance, but Cheng Mu still felt that the other party was unhappy. Although Zhuang Yanyu talked to him as usual, if you observe carefully, you will find that the smile on the other party's face Very superficial, and did not laugh there from the bottom of my heart.

Seeing the smirk on Zhuang Yanyu's face, Cheng Mu felt uncomfortable. In fact, he really wanted to yell at Zhuang Yanyu not to laugh if he was unhappy. It made people feel uncomfortable.

But when he thought that he was the least qualified person to yell at him, Cheng Mu put away the resentment in his heart, but the anxiety increased exponentially, even worse than when he learned that his grandfather was going back to the north. Worse.

Cheng Mu's face turned pale, his hands began to tremble, and his forehead was also sweating coldly. Zhuang Yanyu, who hadn't seen Cheng Mu speak for a long time, looked back and was so frightened that all his thoughts disappeared, only nervousness and worry remained. Looking at Cheng Mu, he asked anxiously: "Cheng Mu, what's wrong with you? What's wrong? I'll take you to the school hospital."

Speaking of which, Zhuang Yanyu carried Cheng Mu on his back, and hurried towards the direction of the school hospital, but he didn't go far, when he felt Cheng Mu's cold cheek against his neck, and said in a weak voice: " I'm fine, it's just an old problem, and I'll get better slowly, don't... don't send me to the hospital, I don't want to go. "

Zhuang Yanyu was so anxious that his brows were twisted into knots, and he said in a strong tone: "No, it was like this last time, why did you commit the crime again so quickly this time, you have to go to the hospital to take a good look at it, don't your family members care about you like this? ?”

When Cheng Mu heard about the hospital, he remembered the medical certificate when he was a child. He hugged Zhuang Yanyu's neck tightly, tears poured out unconsciously, and the hot tears fell on Zhuang Yanyu's neck drop by drop, accompanied by Cheng Mu's choked voice: "No, I won't go, I beg you, don't take me to the hospital, okay?"

Zhuang Yanyu's heart was almost broken by his crying. He stopped and turned around to walk towards the dormitory. He went up to the fourth floor and returned to his own dormitory. Zhuang Yanyu placed Cheng Mu in his place, locked the dormitory door behind him, Then I sent a message to my roommates to ask them to come back later, then I squatted down and looked up at Cheng Mu and asked, "Can you tell me the reason?"

He asked why he didn't want to go to the hospital.

Cheng Mu's face was full of tears, and he shook his head sadly when he thought of his ulterior secret. While wiping away his tears in embarrassment, he spurned himself in his heart. Why did he become so fragile before Zhuang Yan Yuman, always always And crying in front of the other party again and again, the image of himself in his heart must be terrible now.

Zhuang Yanyu stretched out his hand to wipe his tears distressedly, he had never seen Cheng Mu such a boy who loves to cry, and he had never seen Cheng Mu such a person whose heart would be broken when he cried.

Zhuang Yanyu secretly felt that he had been planted on Cheng Mu's body in this life, but the movements of his hands became softer and gentler. He took a towel and soaked it in hot water, and wiped Cheng Mu's face carefully. Forget it, how are you doing now, are you feeling better?"

Cheng Mu let out a "huh" and turned away from looking at Zhuang Yanyu with red eyes. Zhuang Yanyu knew that he wanted to save face, so he didn't mention what happened just now, and was about to change the subject when he heard Cheng Mu asking, "Why are you unhappy?" ?”

Zhuang Yanyu thought of his abnormality today, and thought what else could be the reason, it was all because of you, but when he thought about it, he thought that Cheng Mu's illness might be related to him, so he asked cautiously: "Is it because I didn't Tell you the reason why you are not feeling well?"

Cheng Mu nodded, then shook his head again, and finally explained half-truthfully after thinking for a while: "You are unhappy, I feel uncomfortable and anxious, but I don't know what to do, so sometimes it is like this, emotions If you fluctuate too much, you will get sick."

In fact, what he didn't say is that he started to suffer from this disease again after meeting Zhuang Yanyu after he went to college. He didn't know why it happened, and Cheng Mu didn't want his grandfather to worry, so he dragged it on until now.

After hearing this, Zhuang Yanyu wanted to beat himself up. In the end, the cause was all his own. Cheng Mu did nothing wrong, but he got angry there. If he wanted to get angry, he had to do it in a place where Cheng Mu couldn't see him. Unexpectedly, Cheng Mu saw through the disguise he thought was perfect, and made him worry for so long in vain.

Zhuang Yanyu took Cheng Mu's hand with both hands, and didn't ask him about his illness, but admitted his mistake: "I'm sorry, I was upset because Gao Cheng asked you whether you like boys or girls."

Cheng Mu asked in puzzlement, "How do you know? Why are you angry?"

In his opinion, although Gao Cheng's question is a bit strange, when he thought that the person who asked him to ask should be a boy, Cheng Mu felt that it was reasonable. normal.

But Cheng Mu didn't want to fall in love in college. If he was still looking forward to it, then after he fell ill again, Cheng Mu's thoughts would have been replaced by the fear of the incident.

A person like him is not worthy of having a relationship at all, not to mention that under the influence of his parents' failed marriage, Cheng Mu doesn't think that there is really a so-called long-term love in the world.

It is impossible for the traditional pairing of men and women to go to the end, so it is even more impossible for men and men.Cheng Mu thought about this very clearly, and he was ready to be alone.

Zhuang Yanyu didn't dare to hold back anything, for fear of irritating his baby again, he could only hang his head and say: "I was the one who asked Gao Cheng to inquire about your sexual orientation, because I like men , so I'm afraid that if you find out, you will look down on me and want to avoid me or even break up with me."

Zhuang Yanyu didn't tell the truth, so he could only make up things like this. Since Cheng Mu likes girls, he still shouldn't show his heart to Cheng Mu and embarrass him. Good friend, if it is really said, then there is nothing.

Cheng Mu was taken aback for a while, and then asked dumbfoundedly for a long time: "Why don't you ask me directly if you want to know? Besides, I won't look down on you because of such a small issue as sexual orientation."

Because he also likes men, Cheng Mu just didn't expect such a coincidence that they are both gay.

Zhuang Yanyu's mood was barely elevated, but fortunately Cheng Mu wasn't homophobic, wasn't he? This was a good result.

But who knew Cheng Mu's next sentence made Zhuang Yanyu completely stunned, and he asked in disbelief, "What did you say?"

Cheng Mu thought that since Zhuang Yanyu had confessed his sexuality, he would be too embarrassed to hide it from the other party, so he repeated it word by word at Zhuang Yanyu's request: "I said I did too, I I also like boys, but Gao Cheng didn't tell me that you were the one who asked, so I lied and didn't tell the truth."

Zhuang Yanyu responded blankly, the fireworks were going off in his mind all the time, making him unconscious and his heart beating faster.

What did he hear?

Cheng Mu also likes men?

I like men!

The author has something to say:

In Da Zhuang’s heart, Xiao Mu likes boys = likes him

There's nothing wrong with this logic