fickle midsummer

He has been running away desperately, but it can't be so easy to be disconnected.Perhaps only like now, the passing of a person's life can be exchanged for eternal peace.

You Yu suddenly felt cruel again, and made him feel sorry for Fang Yuan for no reason.Fang Yuan's age is a good time for his children and grandchildren to spend their old age peacefully.But the absurdity he made when he was young made him live in unwillingness and endless regret for the rest of his life.

Fang Yuan suddenly grabbed You Yu's hand and shook it with all his strength, he said hoarsely: "You are a good boy, you can't live like this!"

"Xiaoyu! If you don't recognize my father, I will!"

"You have to be sorry for your mother! Xiaoyuan...she is so bitter...you can't like men."

"You can't! You can't give up on yourself, you can't like men because of us adults, you are Xiaoyuan's only support, Xiaoyuan can't live without..."

"She has." You Yu said when he saw that he couldn't continue.

"Even if I like men, I can still take care of her. Shu Xia is also her child." You Yu smiled, "You have the concept of passing on the family line, but she doesn't."

Is Shu Shaoyuan in pain?Bitterness, the bitterness of being away from home, the blood is broken and the teeth are smashed by the reality, and you have to swallow it mixed with blood.But after she gained fame and money, she immediately found a way of life that suits her best.Constantly falling in love, constantly interacting with opposite sexes of all ages, even regardless of her own son, she still wants to pursue the love she couldn't ask for.

Finally married...Yang Chengyu.

He lightly patted Fang Yuan's back to help him breathe, and poured him a glass of water for him to drink.Fang Yuan's emotions are still very excited, but he is too weak, and his spirit is much more sluggish than before.The breathing is weak, there is air in but not out, and there is a sound like "ahhh" in the throat.

This is his father, who looks very different from his father.

A father who had never left the countryside and was so pedantic and dull that he gritted his teeth with hatred.

For a moment, You Yu even disgusted himself, disgusted that his blood was flowing in his body, and he would never be able to get rid of such a father in his life.

Fang Yuan's hands are very rough, like sandpaper. You Yu is held by these hands. If he exerts a little force, You Yu will even feel as if some blunt and thick needle is pricking himself.

"Ms. Shu knows that I like men." You Yu said.

After work, Shu Shaoyuan took advantage of Shu Xia's vacation to visit him. It happened that he had adopted a new child, and the child surrounded him and asked him to accompany him to the movies.You Yu was so tired just after get off work that he was not interested at all.The child was so delicate that he just stood at his door and cried.He was coaxing people helplessly when Shu Xia just came out of the elevator, carrying vegetables and meat.

The kid was the only one who had seen Shu Shaoyuan, and thought that meeting Shu Shaoyuan was equivalent to meeting his parents.When You Yu dumped him, he lost his energy a little bit, and since then, he has never found this kind of temperament again. It is more comfortable to get along with Gu Ling who is smart and knows how to advance and retreat.

He has always been very good, at least in Shu Shaoyuan's eyes.

So much so that when Shu Shaoyuan saw him raising a lover, she was shocked at first, and then had countless doubts.

Shu Shaoyuan crossed her arms and looked her son up and down, "How did I raise such a son?"

"You weren't like this before."

You Yu was sitting by the bar, with his back straight, unbuttoned the front two buttons of his shirt and broke the cans, and said lazily, "Will you reject every beautiful child who comes to your door?"

Shu Shaoyuan rebelled when she was young, although she was angry, Kua Youyu was worthy of being her son.

The so-called upper beam is not straight and the lower beam is crooked, she said.

You Yu said, "I'm different from you."

In the end, Shu Shaoyuan only had Yang Chengyu in his heart, but he, he had Bao Tanyu from the beginning to the end.Even if he didn't want to admit it, when he woke up from a dream at midnight, the person lying next to him was not Bao Tanan, and he would still collapse. Later, he learned to smoke, and when his heart was in severe pain in the middle of the night because of loss and emptiness, he used tobacco to paralyze himself.

But I still don't know how to smoke very much, and I will choke myself if I am not careful.Tears and snot flowed together, embarrassing and ridiculous.

He said to Fang Yuan, "I am not a good person."

It's not the kid who gets good grades and is called the kid next door in the eyes of those of you.

He took out an unopened box of cigarettes from his pocket and asked Fang Yuan, "Do you smoke?"

Fang Yuan shook his head.

You Yu patted Fang Yuan on the shoulder, stood up, and laughed: "Fang Yuan, you are dying, be a man."

He stood in the yard smoking a cigarette, filled with smoke, thought for a while, and called Gu Ling.

"Teacher You."

You Yu blew out a smoke ring, "Gu Ling, you are a good boy."

"Mr. You, what's the matter with you?" Gu Ling asked, "Do you need me to come over now? I have a class this afternoon, maybe it won't be until evening..."

"What do you want?" You Yu interrupted him.

"Teacher You?" Gu Ling was puzzled.

You Yu laughed angrily, "Others and I have a purpose, and I haven't given you anything practical yet, what do you want?"

After the words fell, Gu Ling was silent for a long time, until a weak cry came along with the electric current, and You Yu laughed: "Don't cry."

"Teacher You, you don't want me anymore." Gu Ling cried, "You don't want me anymore."

"Where did I go wrong?"

"I change."

"You're fine." The smoke burned out, and before burning his fingers, You Yu knelt down and put it on the ground to snuff it out.He comforted, "It's my fault, just tell me what you want."

"But... but me." Gu Ling cried in a muffled voice.

"I, I really like you."

No way, You Yu said.

"Gu Ling, when I was your age, I had someone I really liked, and I hope you can be happy too."

"My happiness is you!"

No, You Yu shook his head.

After the call ended, You Yu suddenly felt amused.When there is no Bo Qinyan, other people's butts are facing him, but with Bo Qinying, it is himself facing Bo Qinan.

"Old bastard." He cursed, couldn't help touching his throat with his hands, and felt ashamed covering his face.Just as Aunt Bai came out of the kitchen, she hurriedly asked You Yu to go back to the house, the room was cool.

Aunt Bai was kind and enthusiastic. She put melons and fruits in front of You Yu and urged You Yu to eat them quickly. You Yu couldn’t accept the simplicity and enthusiasm. After sitting for a while after eating, she said that she was tired. Aunt Bai led him to the prepared room to rest. .

He was indeed extremely exhausted, and fell asleep as soon as his face hit the pillow.When he woke up in the middle of the night, he saw the screen of the mobile phone on the bedside flickering, and squinted to see who it was before picking it up.

"Sober?" he said.

"Where are you?" Bo Qinyan asked.

You Yu turned over, "You miss me."

It's an affirmative sentence, he is sure that Bo Qinan must miss him.

Bo Qinan didn't answer immediately, he smiled in a low voice and said, "Are you in a hurry? You can't find me when you wake up the next day. Now that you are lonely in your boudoir, you must miss me. Why, can't you take care of yourself without me?"

The guy over there said, "Yes."

"Shameless." You Yu scolded.

"Others are not as comfortable as you." Bo Qinan said.

You Yu was stunned for a moment, and then rolled around wrapped in the quilt, his face was red and burning, "Bo Qinan, do you want to be ashamed?"

"Stop losing your temper?"

You Yu was speechless, "It's really shameless."

He warned Bo Qinan not to call these few days, and he would not answer when he saw it.

Bo Qinan didn't see You Yu after waking up the next day, and often ran over to him crying and begging for mercy when he went to work, saying that he had accidentally said everything.

"Master, your phone wallpaper hasn't changed. It's been a few years. If you don't say anything, how can you catch up with me? I just wanted to help you, but after I said a few words, Director You became angry." Chang Ke put his hands together and wept. , "He didn't do anything to you when he went back, did he?"

Chang Ke repeated to Bo Qinan exactly what he had said to You Yu.

"If he didn't like you, he definitely wouldn't come to pick you up. I thought he would be moved by saying it, but I didn't expect him to be angry."

"I don't blame you." Bo Qinan handed her the patient's medical records, "Go out to work and prepare for ward rounds."

In fact, You Yu left a gift for Bo Qinan before leaving. After Chang Ke went out, Bo Qinan rolled up his cuffs, revealing an ugly cartoon pig face drawn with a black gel pen on his pulse.

During the operation, the nurse saw the painting on his wrist and said with a smile, "Doctor Bo, what are you singing about?"

"The little ancestor in the family is not sensible." Bo Qinan said.

The nurse nodded in agreement, "I have a nephew who is three or four years old, and he also likes to draw around with a pen. As for the child, it will be fine when he grows up."

Fang Yuan disappeared in the early morning of the third day. Aunt Bai rushed up to knock on the door and shouted, "Youyu! Youyu, hurry up! Your father is dying!"

You Yu slept lightly, and quickly put on his clothes and went downstairs.

Fang Yuan dyingly told Fang Zhicai to live a good life, Fang Zhicai's family surrounded him, You Yu didn't come forward, and waited for Fang Yuan to call him before he approached.

"You, come here Let, let Dad take a good look at you."

Fang Yuan touched Yu Yu's face with trembling hands, "It really looks like your mother."

Everyone was very sad, Aunt Bai sat beside Fang Yuan and wiped away tears, Fang Zhicai cried against the wall, his wife and children accompanied him.His wife comforted him in a low voice, but she also choked up a sentence that had to be repeated several times before she could complete it.

You Yu said: "Like you, can I still see my face?"

Fang Yuan begged him to call him Dad, You Yu held his hand, Fang Yuan's hand was surprisingly warm, after he finished speaking, his eyes suddenly brightened a little more than before.

He waited for You Yu to speak.

Looking back, I am going to die, You Yu thought.

He cleared his voice, and under Fang Yuan's expectation, he leaned over and whispered in his ear.

"you."

"go."

"die."

"Bar."

After he finished speaking, he chuckled triumphantly, Fang Yuan's whole body trembled violently, but stopped abruptly in the next second.

You Yu let go of his hand, took a step back, and Fang Zhicai rushed forward and burst into tears.

Fang Yuan died with his eyes open, even if he died, his eyes still stared at You Yu.It reminded You Yu that when he was alone at home in high school, he was also frightened to death by the people standing outside the door, which caused him to be in the shadows now. Before going out, he looked out through the cat's eyes to see if there was anyone.

He reached out and wiped Fang Yuan's eyelids, "Don't look."

I feel sick.

Fang Zhicai didn't know that You Yu didn't call Fang Yuan's father until he died. He thought that You Yu finally obeyed Fang Yuan's wishes, and Fang Yuan had been forgiven by his son in this life without any regrets.

Everyone in the Fang family was immersed in self-movement from beginning to end, unable to extricate themselves.

He gratefully said to You Yu, your father was finally able to leave without regret.

No, You Yu looked on coldly, withdrew his hand and said, "Inform your relatives, if you don't want to go to the funeral parlor for cremation, then bury it as soon as possible, the body is easy to rot in hot weather."