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If I can see the length of my life, how should I plan the remaining time. .

I should let go and love, life is short, there should be no regrets.

I fell in love with you and I realized that the feeling of loving you is not to be with you, but I hope that if I leave, you will not be sad because of losing me, and I hope you can be happy without me. .

Easier said than done. .It turned out that I would also be jealous, and my heart would ache. .

I used to be so selfish that I couldn't accompany you for the rest of my life, but I wanted to possess your youth and sincerity.

I should keep my distance from you, watch you fulfill your dreams, watch you find love, before I leave.I think this way, I can leave with peace of mind.

But jealousy is the most intense emotion, otherwise why would I feel sore and uncomfortable.

Like is presumptuous, love is restrained. .

You let me be presumptuous, and then let me learn restraint. .

───Aoi/19-year-old summer───

Do you want to rent a room?

"I used to live with my sister in a small two-story building in the suburbs of Osaka. It was like a villa, but not too luxurious. It was a bungalow, but not rich enough. Let's just have a two-story house.

My sister is gone, the only relative in this world, goodbye.

Maybe my luck is better than my sister's, and I can live past 30 years old?So next, in a person's life, let's work hard!

My name is Aoi Matsui, I am 19 years old, and I will be a sophomore at Dongmei Conservatory of Music starting this summer!

I don't know if there will be anything special this summer?

Aoi, come on! ! "

After recording the video, Aoi turned off her phone and fell on the bed.

I was going to forget about the genetic disease at home, but the morning before yesterday, when my sister was making breakfast, she suddenly suffered a cardiac arrest.I called an ambulance, but my sister died before being rescued.

In the past ten years, my sister has celebrated her birthday with her every year, and recorded a video together as a souvenir, but there are only two days left, and this time, I have to record the video by myself.

Aoi turned over and buried her face in the pillow.

The body kept shaking, no one saw it, so it didn't matter, you can cry loudly. .

How to live without financial resources?

Kui opened the drawer, and there were three 5000 yuan sheets lying alone inside. How long can this last by itself?

The only skill is playing the piano, and Aoi knows nothing but playing the piano.

Are you going to start working?But my health has been bad, if I had to work part-time, maybe I would end my life early. .

Aoi smiled wryly, what a fool, if she couldn't make money, she would starve to death soon, wouldn't this be the end of her life?

It was already dark, and Aoi turned on all the lights on the first floor.Indented into the quilt, still trembling with fear. .

No, be strong!Aoi, you can do it!

After thinking about it, Aoi's tears still flowed down.

I live alone in such a big house, and I am really scared. It would be great if someone lived with me.Eh?yes!Aoi slapped her head, if she could share the room in her own house, wouldn't she be able to live on?Very good!

But how can it be so easy to find a tenant? .Aoi doesn't want to rent to strangers in the society casually, it's too scary. .

The summer vacation was really difficult, and the school finally started. Aoi came to school and felt much better.

He didn't tell anyone about his family, at least if everyone didn't know, they were still willing to be friends with him.

No matter how brightly she smiles at school, Aoi still feels very lonely in her heart.He has no real friends because he doesn't know when he's going to die of a sudden cardiac arrest like anyone in his family.

He doesn't want to make his friends sad, so he never makes so-called real friends.

When school is over, Aoi has to hand in her family member change form to the teaching office.Gently push the door and go in, inside the instructor is giving a lecture to a student.

"Do you want to repeat the grade again? Is it really good if you don't graduate like this?"

"If you repeat the grade, you will repeat the grade, how about it? It's impossible to expel me, and I haven't done anything bad~" The red-haired boy with braids chewed his gum indifferently.

"You only came for a few days last semester? If that's the case, you might as well drop out!"

"I won't drop out of school, how?" The boy took a step back and sat on the sofa with a relaxed look.

"I know your family is rich, so it's okay to repeat it for a few years, but you are already 23, and you have read it three times in your senior year, don't you feel ashamed?"

"Hey, teacher, you talk a lot of nonsense!" The boy stood up and walked towards the door, "I'm going to repeat my studies this year, see you tomorrow, teacher~"

The teacher at the teaching office shook his head and sighed, "There's really nothing we can do about him."

After Aoi handed over the watch to the teacher in charge, she quickly followed her out.

Aoi had heard of that boy a long time ago. His name was Sano. I didn't know his name, but the red-haired 'Sano-kun' who kept repeating grades was very famous in school.

Aoi carefully followed behind him, but actually Sano-kun is very handsome, with shoulder length red hair tied together.But his back is so lonely, as lonely as me. .

Sano didn't seem to want to go home, so he walked to the green area of ​​the school and circled around the flower bed.

"Hula~" Sano yelled towards the bushes, but there was no response, he yelled again to the other side, "Hula~"

A yellow stray dog ​​emerged from the undergrowth.

Sano took out a piece of sausage from his pocket and put it on the ground, "Eat, eat, get hungry~"

It may have rained during the day, and the puppy was a little dirty.

"Poor guy, just like me..." Sano squatted beside him to watch it eat. When the puppy heard him talking, he came over and rubbed his trouser legs with two steps.

Sano raised his foot to avoid it, "Hey~ I don't have a place to live by myself, so I can't find a place to take a shower with you~ Don't look at me~"

People who bring food to stray puppies can't be that bad.Aoi looked at him not far away, he liked this person.

"That, that..." Aoi mustered up her courage and said, "Do you need to rent a house?"

Sano looked up at him and smiled faintly, "Are you encouraging me to run away from home?"

"No, no," Aoi took a step back and waved her hands on her chest, "I just see that you need help."

"I don't need your care and help." Sano spoke in a cold manner, but Sano was still touched by the sudden concern.

Even though he was squatting on the ground, Sano still squinted at Aoi to see how he would react.Seeing Aoi pursing her lips, turning around to leave, Sano frowned secretly, what am I expecting?

Aoi turned around and stood for two seconds, then turned back to look at Sano, "Well, that, I allow tenants to keep dogs at home!"

The corners of Sano's mouth turned up slightly, and he stood up to face him, "How much is the rent?"

"Fifty thousand a month." Aoi looked at the red-haired boy who was half a head taller than her, and swallowed nervously, "If you think it's expensive,"

"Not expensive~" Sano interrupted him.

Eh, it went so well?Aoi hurriedly said, "Well, do you want to take a look at the house first?"

"Yeah." Sano picked up the dirty puppy on the ground, "Can I really have a dog?"

"Okay!" Aoi nodded heavily.

The two walked side by side, and Sano looked at Xiaokui who lowered his head slightly beside him, feeling very warm in his heart.The stray dog ​​he held in his hand was like himself, hehe, did he find its owner?

Xiaokui's house is not far from the school, and it takes only ten minutes to walk there.Aoi wanted to find something to say along the way, but he was so nervous that he stuttered.

"My house is an old house with two floors. When I was a child, the houses in the suburbs of Osaka were cheaper, so I moved here with my family. I didn't expect that the branch of Dongmei Conservatory of Music moved here ten years ago. I am so lucky. ,hehe."

"Your family is so prescient." Sano smiled slightly, "Then they don't live here now? Why can the house be rented?"

"I'm sorry, if I tell you the truth, maybe you won't rent my house." Aoi opened the door and lit up all the lights in the house.

Fortunately, I often clean it. Although I live alone, the house is still clean, tidy and warm.

"Uh, um, my name is Matsui Aoi." Aoi looked at Sano embarrassedly and said, "My family has a genetic disease, and my family members passed away very early. My sister passed away last month, and I have no money to eat, so I just Thinking about renting out a house."

"Sure enough, it feels eerie~" Sano is actually quite satisfied with the house, he is not superstitious, but seeing Aoi's nervous look, he wanted to tease him, and said to himself, "I don't know if Hula can see the soul ?”

"That, that, I'm really sorry I didn't tell you the truth first!" Aoi bowed 90 degrees.

"My name is Renji, Sano Renji, thank you for taking me home." After Sano finished speaking, he walked inside with the dog in his arms.

Eh?Aoi, who was still bent over, saw that the big foot in front of her had gone far away.Quickly stood up straight, looked sideways at Sano, did that person just say 'thank you' to me?

After recovering, Aoi chased after her with a smile, "I'll show you to your room!"