left side of the solar system

Faced with today's embarrassment, Zhang Da's heart is as painful as a knife, and he still has the feeling of despair. He wants to cry but has no tears, and his head is empty. He just wants to go to a strange place where no one knows him. I don’t know anyone, and then hide myself in that strange place, and never come out after entering the house, and spend the rest of my life quietly in the house.

No one bothers anyone, no one knows the big mistake he made, and no one knows the pain in his heart. He spends the rest of his life alone to bear this pain and redeem himself for the mistakes he made - never should never No, he shouldn't have fallen in love with his younger brother!Zhang Da's heart hurts.

His heart is bleeding, he really doesn't know how to deal with the situation today, he really wants someone to help him, talk to him, help him untangle, tell him what to do, or God Take him away!

After all, he is a child of God, and God will never abandon his child, right?In the end, Zhang Da decided to turn around and leave this place full of regrets first. He wanted to deal with the whole thing in his own way. He thought of "Shengguang Temple", thought of Kongjing, thought of becoming a monk, and thought of cutting... Broken love, thought of karma.

He only thinks about how to reduce regrets and make up for mistakes. He doesn't care how painful and difficult the path he chose is. On the contrary, he feels that only when he suffers will it be beneficial to the whole thing , or God let him come to this world just to see his pain, now it's time for him to show his pain to God, he has no way out, he can only perform unconditionally.This is the effect, although he doesn't know what the cause is, and now he doesn't care what the cause of the effect is anymore.

Zhang Da returned to the Zhulin community after finishing the company’s cleaning work. When he arrived at the home of the Zhulin community, he looked at the familiar and cozy hut, and there were too many records of the place where he and Wang Er used to be. He was very nostalgic and familiar with it. He didn't want to leave, but he had no choice, he had to leave, his eyes were moist, and he dialed Wang Er's phone at the same time.

"Hey, why are you calling? Did you miss your man?" Wang Er teased.

"Wang Er, listen, I'm leaving..." Zhang Da cried.

"What did you say? Where are you going? What happened?" Wang Er asked at a loss.

"Don't ask, I don't know where I'm going! I just want to get out of here." Zhang Da said painfully.

"Tell me quickly, what happened?" Wang Er continued to ask.

"Nothing happened, I just want to go alone to relax." Zhang Da really didn't know how to tell Wang Er, he also wanted to tell Wang Er the truth, but he couldn't tell the truth, and at the same time he didn't want Wang Er to suffer too, because Wang Er Two is not only his lover, but also his brother.

"Then when will you come back?" Wang Er asked again.

"I'm not coming back..." Zhang Da replied.

"Don't be stupid, wait until I go back to have dinner together, I want to eat ribs..." Wang Er said excitedly, he didn't know what happened, if he knew the truth about what happened, he probably wouldn't It will be so relaxed, and he will not have the idea of ​​eating ribs, and he will not wait until Zhang Da is gone before going back. He completely thinks that Zhang Da is joking!