Know what I mean

At the gate of the deserted cemetery, there were cars passing by one after another. The rearview mirrors of each car were tied with white cloth strips. It could be seen that they came directly from the funeral home to handle the burial.

Shen Duoyi got out of the car with Shen Lao's urn in his arms, and looked up at the high stone steps.He has no expression, and his eyes are swollen and painful, and there is no time to dry them up.Qi Shi'an hugged his shoulders beside him, and said, "Sorry, let's go up."

Shen Duoyi nodded, and climbed up the steps holding the urn tightly.He stepped firmly on every step, pursed his lips and stared at the ground, and accompanied by Qi Shi'an, he walked to the tombstone.

The neighbors behind him couldn't help crying. They watched Shen Duoyi grow up and stuffed him with delicious food when he ran from the end of the alley to the entrance of the alley.Now Shen Duoyi's thin back stands in front of the three tombstones, and none of his relatives died.

Shen Duoyi knelt down in front of the tombstone, put Shen Lao's urn into the grave, and then grabbed the soil and sprinkled it on it.Qi Shi'an also knelt down beside him and kowtowed three times with Shen Duoyi.

After the tomb is filled in, even if the burial is completed, it will take only ten minutes.The three tombstones are next to each other, namely Shen Lao and Shen Duoyi's parents, as if they are all together and reunited.

Row after row of neighbors came forward to bow and lay flowers, some wept bitterly, and some muttered words to reassure Mr. Shen.There are white chrysanthemums piled up in front of the tomb, and the portrait on the tombstone has a faint smile.

Shen Duoyi's feet were weak, he swayed slightly, turned around, and bowed deeply to the neighbors.

"Thank you, everyone. I have a small family. Thanks to everyone's help, we can manage this funeral well." Shen Duoyi looked at everyone, tears in his eyes, and the skirt of his filial robe was wet. He received a lot of care from the neighbors. Before he left, my grandfather told me that he wanted to go to the alley for the funeral and let the neighbors send him off. He misses everyone in his heart and is grateful for your help over the years."

Shen Duoyi wiped away tears with the back of his hand: "My parents left early, and now grandpa has also left, and they will be reunited there in the future. I am happy for them."

He talked a lot, sometimes fast, sometimes choked up and unable to speak, but he finished speaking intermittently.Qi Shi'an stood aside and listened, crying several times.

He began to think that Shen Duo was like a hydrangea because it was beautiful.

Later, I felt that Shen Duo was like a mimosa because of his thin skin.

He always wanted to be a big tree, to shelter the other party from the wind and rain, and to draw a greenhouse.Only at this moment did he realize that Shen Duoyi was a free bird, growing up in the wind and rain, and flying in the wind and rain without stopping.

After everything was over, everyone said goodbye and went down the mountain one after another, and then left the cemetery.Shen Duoyi didn't move, and squatted down in front of the three tombstones after everyone had left.

He tugged on Qi Shi'an's trousers, raised his tear-stained face: "You squat down too."

Qi Shi'an squatted down next to Shen Duoyi, and the two of them sorted out the white chrysanthemums in front of Shen's tomb together. "Grandpa, you can't put it here anymore, I'll give you a share." Shen Duoyi's voice trembled, but it was much better than before.

Three bouquets of white chrysanthemums were placed in front of the three tombs. Shen Duoyi patted the leaves on his hands, and then grabbed Qi Shian's hand to pat the other party.He suddenly grasped Qi Shi'an's hand tightly, lowered his head and said, "Grandpa, Dad, Mom, have you seen it? Shi'an came here wearing a filial piety. I'm not alone, I still have him."

Qi Shi'an raised his arms to hug Shen Duoyi: "That's right, you still have me."

Shen Duoyi acted like a baby while crying and laughing: "My eyes hurt."

Qi Shi'an gently wiped the corners of Shen Duoyi's eyes with his sleeve, and said distressedly: "Then don't cry, let's go home."

The two of them walked down the stone steps side by side, Shen Duoyi took off his filial piety hat, untied his filial piety, and finally took off his white filial robe.Walking out of the cemetery, the sky was clear, and he looked back.

Shouted loudly: "I'm leaving!"

He lowered his voice again: "I'm fine."

Qi Shi'an drove Shen Duoyi back to Qiuye Hutong and helped the house clean up. Before leaving, Shen Duoyi thanked Lin Yuzhu and Fei De'an.

Lin Yuzhu was worried, took Shen Duoyi's hand and said, "Stay at home for a while, you can't bear being at home by yourself."

Qi Shi'an stepped forward: "Auntie, don't worry, I will take care of Duoyi."

Both the husband and wife looked at Qi Shi'an. Qi Shi'an was wearing a filial piety during the funeral, which made them puzzled, but they were too embarrassed to ask.Qi Shi'an also regretted his haste, fearing that Shen Duoyi would be embarrassed.

Unexpectedly, with warm palms, Shen Duoyi held him and said, "Uncle, Auntie, I am actually the same as Fei Yuan."

Fei De'an and Lin Yuzhu reacted for a moment and looked at him in surprise.He generously tugged Qi Shi'an, and introduced: "His name is Qi Shi'an. We have been together for a while. He is very, very good, so I am also very good. Don't worry."

They left home and walked slowly from the end of the alley to the entrance of the alley.Qi Shian couldn't tell the difference between sweet and sour in his heart, and couldn't help but ask, "I'm really very, very good?"

Shen Duoyi nodded: "Don't you think so?"

Qi Shi'an wanted to make the other party laugh: "I think so too."

First, he went back to the Wenhu apartment, and Shen Duoyi's calmed down mood boiled again when he entered the door. The house where the old man lives has a smell. As soon as he entered the house, he felt sour water in his heart and nose.

The recliner was on the balcony, the radio was on the coffee table, and the blankets were piled on the sofa.

Nothing had changed, as if Mr. Shen hadn't left.Shen Duoyi stood in the middle of the living room in a daze, the light above his head was on, but the world in his heart was getting darker by inch.

Qi Shi'an said: "Be careful, pack up your things and follow me, don't stay here."

Shen Duoyi turned to look at him: "On the day after the renovation was completed, I came in covering the old man's eyes and asked him if he was surprised. He was very happy, walked around the house with a cane, and said that he didn't expect to be able to live in the house." Such a beautiful house."

"Taking hot springs with him in winter and fishing with him in summer, he likes to sit on a deck chair and watch the scenery, or listen to storytelling to see Duke Zhou." Shen Duoyi took a deep breath, and then exhaled heavily, "There is nothing left Pity."

After simply packing up some clothes, Shen Duoyi and Qi Shi'an left Wenhu Apartment, and he probably won't come back for the time being.

Qi Shi'an's apartment has everything, and all daily necessities are prepared in advance.The two of them had been busy all day and were exhausted physically and mentally.Shen Duoyi hung up his clothes in the closet, stood in front of the closet door in a daze, always in a trance uncontrollably.

"Suspicious," Qi Shi'an approached, "Stop being dazed, take a hot bath and sleep."

Shen Duoyi put on his pajamas and went into the bathroom. He found a satisfying sense of security after soaking in the bathtub, wrapped in hot water, his whole body was warm.After taking a shower and returning to the bedroom, Qi Shi'an sat on the edge of the bed with a towel, apparently planning to wipe his hair.

He walked over and squatted down, wrapping his arms around Qi Shi'an's waist.

The towel was placed on the hair to absorb the moisture, and it gradually became damp.Qi Shi'an felt that his waist and abdomen were also wet. He grabbed Shen Duoyi's shoulder and pushed it away a little before realizing that Shen Duoyi was crying.

"I'm sorry." Shen Duoyi looked up at him, "I may cry a lot recently, and I don't want to, but I can't make the decision."

Qi Shi'an dragged Shen Duoyi onto the bed and pushed him down, then went to wash a towel, and when he came back, Shen Duoyi wet the pillow again.He put a towel on Shen Duoyi's eyes, coaxing: "Cry for another 5 minutes and go to bed, otherwise your eyes will hurt."

Shen Duoyi closed his eyes and sobbed, the darkness in front of him made him unable to tell whether it was reality or a dream.He calmed down, hoping that Mr. Shen could entrust him with a dream.

When Qi Shi'an came out of the shower and saw that Shen Duoyi had fallen asleep, he turned on the bed and lay beside him, and hugged Shen Duoyi into his arms.The relatives who depended on each other left, the faster Shen Duoyi recovered, the more worried he became.

The heavy curtains were drawn, and the bedroom was pitch black. The two hugged each other and slept soundly, temporarily forgetting their infinite troubles.

After sleeping for an unknown amount of time, Qi Shi'an felt cold and damp. He opened his eyes in a daze, and before he turned on the bedside lamp, he heard a cry.Shen Duoyi was drenched in cold sweat, he struggled to get up in the dark, and ran out of the bedroom.

"So mean!"

Qi Shi'an quickly got out of bed and followed, with a "bang"!The living room door opened and slammed shut.He didn't even have time to change his shoes, so he took the key and chased him out.

Taking another elevator downstairs, Shen Duoyi's figure disappeared at the door when he rushed out of the lobby.Qi Shi'an was so anxious that he almost knocked over the passers-by. He ran out with long legs, and finally slowed down after running out of the apartment door.

Shen Duoyi stood under the sycamore tree in a daze, staring blankly at the streets where cars were passing by.

Qi Shi'an walked over, and his eyes turned red first: "Suspicious, don't scare me."

"I'm not..." Shen Duoyi frowned and looked towards the end of the long street, "I clearly saw my parents. They came to pick up Grandpa and kept calling him. Grandpa left with them, and he didn't wait for me..."

Qi Shi'an held Shen Duoyi's face: "Grandpa has already left, we will see him off today, have you forgotten?"

Shen Duoyi's eyes finally focused, and he nodded: "So I forgot, he has already left."

After a toss, Shen Duoyi didn't say a word on the way back, like a child who knew he had made a mistake.After entering the door, he silently went to the bedroom to sleep, got into bed, got into the quilt, wrapped himself tightly and closed his eyes.

Qi Shi'an couldn't relax, so he simply sat by the side and read a book. Later, he realized that there would be movement when turning the pages of the book, so he moved to the side hall again.If you don't go to work all day, your workload has doubled, and the debt you owe is even more difficult to calculate.

He turned on the computer and started working overtime, in order to prevent Shen Duoyi from having another nightmare and running out.There were more and more documents and materials on the table, and they were scattered on the ground in a blink of an eye.

Shen Duoyi didn't have any more nightmares, and fell asleep soundly. When she turned over, she moved to the side, but lost her mind in a daze.He woke up again and found himself alone on the bed.

Walking out of the bedroom with light steps, Shen Duoyi stood by the door and saw Qi Shi'an who was working at his desk.

Tired, troubled, calm.

Support alone, only showing calmness.

Shen Duoyi woke up at that moment.

He turned around and went into the bathroom to wash his face, looked at himself in the mirror, and understood that he should not continue to immerse himself in pain, but to raise his face and keep pace with Qi Shi'an.

He went to the kitchen to warm up a glass of milk and made four sandwiches out of the only bag of bread he had.Carrying the plate and walking to the side hall, the obvious footsteps finally made Qi Shi'an look up from the document.

He said softly, "Mr. Qi, let's have some supper."

The two of them were sitting on the carpet, eating supper and drinking milk against the sofa.After eating three meals, Qi Shi'an still couldn't get enough of it. He hugged Shen Duoyi greedily and refused to let go, and said aggrievedly: "I'm so busy, there is no boss busier than me in Central Street."

Shen Duoyi stacked a stack of white papers in front of him, and then picked up a pen: "Are you doing big market analysis, I'll help you."

Qi Shi'an still didn't feel at ease: "Go and rest, I'll finish it myself."

Shen Duoyi has already written: "Finish it together, and rest together."

They leaned together in front of the table, Qi Shi'an analyzed, and Shen Duo intended to draw pictures and calculate data.Occasionally they looked at each other, and occasionally they questioned each other, and when they questioned vigorously, they turned into arguing.

Shen Duoyi glanced at the computer screen: "Those with more than 3000 points have already started to double." After speaking, he lowered his head and circled a few on the data sheet, "Look at these, aren't they a bit overhanging?"

Qi Shi'an said: "The turmoil builds a bottom, and the market outlook may come out on top."

They worked overtime until midnight, during which time Qi Shi'an called the nurse's station of the hospital, but Zhang Yiming hadn't woken up yet.Shen Duoyi tidied up the files on the desktop, and used clips to secure the data analysis he had done.

Being busy made him forget about other worries, he stretched out and saw the astronomical telescope on the balcony.

Shen Duoyi got up and walked to the balcony, where he sat down and lowered his head to face the glasses.His field of vision was pitch black, and he didn't know how to focus, but he knew that Qi Shi'an would come to help him.

Sure enough, a chest was blocked behind him, and Qi Shi'an adjusted the focus around him, and soon a vast starry sky appeared in his field of vision.

"did you see it?"

"Saw."

"See what?"

"I saw my mother, she is so beautiful today."

Qi Shi'an wanted to laugh but felt sad at the same time, he raised his hand and touched the back of Shen Duoyi's head.Shen Duoyi didn't even dare to blink, for fear that the colorful world in his eyes would disappear.

He said softly: "There is an extra bright star, isn't it Grandpa?"

Qi Shi'an hugged him: "Yes, say hello to grandpa for me."

Shen Duoyi turned around and put his arms around Qi Shi'an's shoulders: "You are right, there is no reason for all misfortunes, some just don't want to face and are hard to accept."

Their love is stronger than gold, but there will always be twists and tribulations on the way forward, and now they have reached the most difficult moment at the same time.The life and death of Qi Shi'an's best friend is uncertain, and there are endless business affairs.Shen Duoyi lost his last relative, and once again experienced the great grief and pain of life.

They shared joys and sorrows at that time, and now they can also share sorrows.

Hugging each other, it is hard to tell who gave strength to whom.

Shen Duoyi supported Qi Shi'an's shoulder, and looked into Qi Shi'an's eyes: "You can guess what I like, and you can see through the lies I tell."

Qi Shi'an asked: "Then what about me?"

Shen Duoyi said: "Then I will always accompany you on the road you walk."