[TSN social network] He's missing

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"So what?" Mark asked.

Eduardo suddenly remembered that rainy night.

He seldom shows weakness and complains about how much he has suffered, but he was too tired at the time, and maybe he was too eager for Mark's approval and concern, so he blurted out the phrase "I take the subway for 14 hours a day in New York Pull investment for you!"

But all I got was, "So what?"

All the impulse and passion were extinguished in an instant, as if a basin of ice water had been poured into the pocket.

The atmosphere now is somewhat similar to that at that time, but when you think about it carefully, it is completely different.One thing hasn't changed.

That's Mark's stubbornness.

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"I don't understand what these things matter, and I don't understand what they have to do with us, with your wanting to reject me, with you not being able to be Eduardo Saverin anymore." Mark's speech speed was flying.

"Yes, you don't have a heartbeat or breathing, and you don't have all the signs of a living person, but you are still standing here, can walk, run, talk and think, so what is the need for those symbolic things to exist or not?"

Eduardo thought bitterly.That's fucking into the realm of philosophy, isn't it.

"But I can't live like a normal human being!" he cried.

"Why?" Mark didn't understand.

"I, I can't appear in the sun!"

"Will sunlight kill you?" Mark looked serious.

"No, but I'll be in the sun...er, glowing."

Mark takes a few seconds to figure out what it means to be glowing.Too bad it's nighttime and Eduardo can't show him.Can only be explained in words.

"As soon as I am exposed to direct sunlight, my skin will become covered with broken glass or diamonds, reflecting light. This will expose me, and the identity of a vampire cannot be exposed to people."

Mark tried to use his imagination to simulate such a scene.Then he said with some hesitation, "This setting...is a bit...well..."

"A bit girly." Chris expresses his thoughts, and he sits back on the sofa, drinking his unfinished cup of coffee.

Mark nodded and gave him a thumbs up, "That's a good description."

Then he looked at Eduardo, "I don't think it's too difficult. We can buy a research institute and specialize in sunscreen. Or you can find an excuse to turn down activities that require outdoors. Anyway, people with UV allergies Many, not one less than you."

"No Mark, we can't buy research institutes yet, and Facebook isn't profitable yet. We'll have to wait until we're profitable." Chris stopped.

Mark nodded, "Okay, let's wait until the profits are made."

They were talking happily to themselves, and Eduardo stared at them angrily for a moment, not knowing what to say.He held back for a long time before saying, "...Facebook isn't profitable yet?"

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"Mark, you have to accept the ad."

"Never, that's not cool at all."

"You try to say that to your shareholders? See if they will divest."

"..."

"...cough, Wardo, you're digressing."

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"OK, then let's switch back, Wardo, is there any reason why you think you can't be an ordinary person, or pretend to be an ordinary person?" Mark humbly accepted the suggestion from the outsiders, and brought the topic back.

"...my looks. I'm always 22, I'm never going to get old, it's going to be found out."

"I can help you with this." Chris said in front of Mark, "Don't underestimate special effects makeup technology. You can spend time learning it. Anyway, this face should last until you are 30 years old. Eight years is enough for you You have mastered a new technique."

I still have to learn makeup?

Eduardo thought incredulously.

"Very well, this problem is also solved." Mark was very satisfied, and looked at Eduardo, "Is there anything else?"

Do you think this is ordering food?

Eduardo is particularly upset.

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"One more important point," Eduardo points out, "is that I still don't have complete control over my urge to drink blood. I'm a newborn, and most newborns don't have control over their first few years of transformation, and I'm pretty much in control." I can barely meet people after half a year of training. But I still can’t go to crowded places. This time when I came to California, two older vampires from my family accompanied me to prevent I was out of control."

"Actually, it's going to take all my strength to hold myself back from jumping on top of you and biting your throats. Thank goodness you're not bleeding, and if you were, I'm afraid I'd lose control of myself."

Mark frowned.

"From your words, I can infer that this restraint ability can be strengthened through training. So how long will it take you to control this desire?"

Eduardo shook his head, "The fastest in the family is 100 years old."

The question stumped Mark.

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But Eduardo knows it's an excuse.

It takes at least 100 years for a normal vampire to control not to suck blood, but he is not a normal vampire.

He was able to restrain himself and turn away when he smelled human beings just a week after his transformation. Carlisle said that according to his speed, he may be able to enter and leave the crowd in a year without any influence.

This reason is not sufficient.

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"You're a fucking coward." Rosalie yelled viciously at Eduardo, who was running away in despair.

"I should have yanked your head off and played it like a baseball!"

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Eduardo was scared off by Mark.Because Mark hit a straight ball.

"I can wait." Mark looks straight into the depths of Eduardo's pupils and says deadpan, "I can wait until you get it under control, whether it's decades or 100 years."

Eduardo shook his head in panic, "But you won't live that long!"

"You can transform me."

"That's not fair to you, you don't like immortality!"

"But I like you."

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Then Eduardo runs off.ran from the window.Don't even remember being able to teleport.

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Rosalie despised him very much.

"Can you be more cowardly?"

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"We've got to give him time," Chris says to Mark.

Mark faced the empty window, saying nothing.

Chris sighs.

"Wardo had no choice but to become a vampire, unable to control his desires, and had to stay away from all relatives and friends. His entire outlook on the world and life had been shattered and reorganized. He must be under a lot of pressure. We have to give His time."

"I know." Mark said softly. "I just...can't imagine what he's going through."

Eduardo doesn't overplay what he's lost, but from those few words, Mark can piece together the whole picture.

You can no longer stand in the sun openly, you can't approach the crowd, you must live by blood, all the values ​​​​of the past are broken, and you no longer have a future.

Everything about him stayed on that too cold rainy night, and the energetic EduardoSaverin was left forever like this.

Of course, he could pretend he was human, he could cover up, pretend he was still Eduardo Saverin.

But he can deceive others and the public, but he cannot deceive himself.

You can't think of Eduardo Cullen and Eduardo Saverin as one person anymore, Mark knows that, but he doesn't want to let go.He's had enough of this six months, he's had enough of being without Eduardo.He couldn't take the loss any longer.

"You want to give up?" Chris asked.

Mark turns sharply.His eyes were particularly bright in the night.

"No...never."

If the only way to be with Eduardo is to be a vampire, then he's willing to give up being human.Eternal life is not terrible if you are with him.

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Eduardo's second stop is Miami.

Before going to the Saverin house, Rosalie gave him a good warning. "If you dare to be cowardly again, I will really beat you up." She sighed and looked at Eduardo helplessly as she spoke. "You're putting too much pressure on yourself. Be brave, okay? Being a vampire is an unfortunate thing, but it's not that unfortunate. At least you didn't really die that day. As long as you live, there is hope."

Eduardo lowered his head and let Rosalie hug him sullenly, "...Thank you."

Rosalie ruffled his neatly lost hair, "Don't worry, no matter what, after you become Eduardo Cullen, you won't be alone."

"I just..." Eduardo whispered to himself, "I feel like I'm missing out."

"Facebook was successful where I couldn't see it, when I couldn't be a part of it, but it doesn't matter to me anymore. I wanted to do something with him, but now...that belongs to Mark. I Missed too much. There are too many gaps between us. I can't imagine what Mark has taken on alone in the past six months. He said he likes me, but I gave him pain."

"So you want to give up?"

Eduardo was silent for a while, and said, "I don't want to give up."

"Then don't give up." Rosalie patted him on the shoulder, "Don't give up on someone who loves you."

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AlexSaverin sat in the huge study, facing contracts and documents.There is a photo on his writing desk, the whole family is on the beach together, shoulder to shoulder, smiling brightly.

Suddenly, as if he had noticed something, he looked towards the open door.

A figure stood in the shadows.The figure was familiar to him, yet unbelievable.His face was hidden in the darkness, but what did that matter, even if he only saw a corner of his clothes, Alex would recognize that person.

"...Dudu?" His voice trembled slightly.It was clearly a question, but the tone was affirmative.

The figure shook for a moment, he hesitated for a while, and then walked out from the darkness.The light shone on his face, outlining his facial features and eyebrows.

"...Alex," Eduardo just moved to the light and didn't move forward.He stopped, stopped there, and looked at the person who stood up behind the desk. "I'm back."

He has changed a lot, a lot.His eyebrows were more refined, his eyes turned blood red, and he could make Alex feel threatening just standing there.

Alex knew that something must have happened to his brother.

But so what?

That's his brother.

Alex nodded, trying to smile, but tears welled up in his eyes.

"...It's good to come back."

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The news that Eduardo came back "alive" didn't tell too many people.

His parents, Alex, also called his grandfather.

Eduardo picks things to tell them, of course, good news but not bad.But it's useless, even if he didn't say it in detail, his family members could guess what he was facing from these few words.

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"That Zuckerberg..." Roberto mentioned Mark, and Eduardo subconsciously looked away.

"He loves you." Roberto said slowly, "We have seen all these years."

Eduardo feels sore inside.

"But we can't." He whispered.

"You don't have the guts?" Roberto was sharp. "Because of the unequal life? And you made the decision for him?"

Eduardo is speechless.

Roberto shook his head, "You're too conceited, Eduardo. You can't decide everything by yourself. Love is a matter between two people. Even if you become a vampire, you can't change this. You have to respect his choice. Even two ordinary people Deciding to be together requires mutual compromise, and each needs to give up something. He is willing to give up, it is his choice, and you cannot take away his right to choose."

"But he shouldn't have to suffer this." Eduardo's retort was weak and vulnerable.

"Who made it? Did you make it? It's not fair that you made the decision for him."

Eduardo is silent.

Roberto looked at his lost and recovered young son with rare tenderness in his eyes.

"You don't have to care too much about the change of your identity. Life is like a journey, and no one can accompany you from the beginning to the end. Whether it's family or friends, everyone can only accompany you for a certain distance. So You have to cherish the time you can still be together. Maybe you will watch us grow old and watch us die. But even if you are not a vampire, you will have to go through these things, it’s no different.”

"Maybe you will have a life that is too long, but whether it is 1000 years or 1 years, it is all in the future. Cherish the present, cherish the present. Because even a vampire, time cannot be repeated. Cherish what you still have , face departure and loss calmly. Dudu, no matter what you exist as, these principles are the same.”

"Bebrave, myson. I'm malways proud of you."