after losing

"That, I don't know that it will be like this now, that..." Looking at the dilapidated hut in front of him, Li Weiran felt unspeakably uncomfortable. Although he was well prepared, looking at the depressed scene in front of him, he couldn't say it was uncomfortable. It is impossible not to blame yourself.This is the place where he lived since he was a child, and it was here that he felt the warmth of what is truly called home.But I have not come back to see it for 11 years, I am very unfilial.

Seeing that Li Weiran was depressed, in other words, since he stepped into this small mountain village, Li Weiran's expression became serious, and now even from a long distance, he could feel the sadness emanating from him.Song Yi didn't know how to comfort him, and felt that there was no need for that. If he wanted to tell himself, he would listen quietly, and if he didn't want to talk, he wouldn't ask.Sometimes the best companionship is silent waiting.

"It seems that there is no way to live here for the time being. Let's go. Let's find a place to live in the town first." After clearing up his emotions, Li Weiran said to Song Yi. In fact, he was very grateful that Song Yi didn't say anything. Otherwise, he can't help but cry, he doesn't want to show his most vulnerable side in front of anyone, not even the person he once had a crush on.

"Um"

After all, the conditions in small towns cannot be compared with those in big cities, and the living conditions are also limited.Li Weiran himself didn't have any problems, he just felt that Song Yi would not get used to it.

Later, Li Weiran took the initiative to find Song Yi.

"Song Yi, it doesn't matter if you don't feel used to leaving at any time. I'm going to find some people to clean up my house in the past few days, so that I can still live in my own home on New Year's Eve. You also go back Bar."

"Wei Ran, have you forgotten that I also have no relatives." In fact, what Song Yi wanted to say was: A place without you is no different from being in the company's lounge.But he knew that even if he said it, the current Li Weiran would not believe him.

"Oh, that's up to you. I'm going to visit the fellow I mentioned to you in the next few days, Brother Wei. By the way, borrow some money to tidy up my house. I can't take care of you. You can do whatever you want." Li Weiran felt very tired.

"Why? Weiran, why are you willing to seek help from someone you've known for less than half a year, but you can't think of me?"

"There is no reason, I just want to, some things belong to me completely, no one is related to you, I am tired, let me go.

After speaking, Li Weiran walked away without looking back. No matter what new things Song Yi threatened him with, he didn't want to stop.In fact, in this world, he can even deceive himself. To deceive Song Yi is to like him, but he has no way to deceive himself in this place where he has the only place where he experiences family.He didn't want everything here to be tainted with the atmosphere of a person who doesn't love him, so that he would lose even the last of his dignity.

Song Yi felt so helpless for the first time.He could only let Li Weiran drive him out of his world bit by bit.If at the beginning he regretted that he didn't pick him up when he came out, now he felt regret for the first time, regretted his decision.If he promised to find the best lawyer for Li Weiran, would it be different now?If I could have cared about it at the beginning and reassured him, wouldn't that incident have happened.

As for why Li Weiran was imprisoned for three years, to put it simply, Song Yi didn't want to see him at the time, and Li Weiran knew that it was his fault that he trapped him by his side with such despicable means.But he couldn't imagine that there would be a person beside Song Yi beside him, but that person was not himself, and he couldn't accept it even if he thought about it. He happened to meet that opportunity, otherwise he would have no way to let Song Yi stay by his side.I still remember Song Yi's eyes that wished to tear himself apart, yes, the person who has always looked down upon him would be controlled by him, as proud as Song Yi, how could he accept it.So after being together, Li Weiran tried to please Song Yi in every possible way, in order to let Song Yi have the opportunity to see his sincerity and accept himself.But Song Yi is willing to spend all his time and energy on work, and he is unwilling to take a second look at himself.Li Weiran is an old man, it is impossible to be like a grieving woman in a boudoir, he started to make troubles non-stop, at least after every trouble, Song Yi would help him clean up the mess, although every time he looked at him more and more silently, But at least he can meet him, and his time can be spent on himself.

After Song Yi took over the Song family, after a period of turmoil, the Song family got on the right track. It was said that people are afraid of being famous and pigs are afraid of being strong.Song Yi, who is single outside, has undoubtedly become the dream of all the girls waiting to be married. Song Yi can kill a girl who jumps on Song Yi, but what to do when he can't see it.Coupled with the fact that there are some noble-born girls among them, some things cannot be avoided, and with Song Yi's attitude towards him all the time, they made a lot of trouble during that time, no, Li Weiran was the only one who was angry.

During that time, the Song family was negotiating an important contract. If the project was negotiated, it would be the focus of Song's work for the next year.At this time, Li Weiran heard during a banquet that his sister Li Xinyi planned to conspire with others to steal Song's secrets about this negotiation.Li Weiran didn't care about anything at the time, and went straight to tell Song Yi that at that time Li Weiran was still a member of the Li family in name, because of the trouble caused by that incident, although he voluntarily gave up the Li family's inheritance rights, but he did not announce it to the outside world, just Then his half-sister will take on her own responsibilities.At that time, I didn't even think about it, so I directly explained the content of their conversation, and explained everything. Think about what Li Xinyi said to herself at that time: eat things that are inside and outside.Now that I think about it, it really is.But what was Song Yi's reaction at that time?He replied lightly, "You don't need to intervene in my company's affairs." Li Weiran thought that Song Yi was attracted by the spies sent by the other party, no wonder Li Weiran thought so, Song Yi was with that girl all day long Looking at the tacit understanding between that girl and Song Yi, Li Weiran really wanted to hit someone.But he knew that if he did this, Song Yi would only hate himself even more.So when that girl was working alone in the office, Li Weiran thought she was stealing secrets, and had a dispute with her.In desperation, I accidentally pushed it, and later checked that it caused a second-degree injury.

In fact, Song Yi knew about this matter early on, but the reason why he let it go was that the girl's work ability was really strong, and he wanted to take her in, but the work for her didn't involve the core content.But he just doesn't want Li Weiran to be so angry about his work and his family business.So he didn't expect that it would end up like this.

It turned out that the situation in front of him was all caused by himself. Song Yi sat helplessly on the bed, thinking about Li Weiran's words and demeanor just now, his heart was stabbed severely.

Back in the room, Li Weiran was lying on his bed. He didn't know what he was going to do. He thought that after he voluntarily terminated the contract, he would have no more contact with Song Yi.But through the past few days of getting along, although he still has no way to believe it, the fact is that Song Yi did not immediately separate himself from him as he expected, but instead found various reasons to keep himself in his around.He's not stupid but he's tired.I still remember the hug on the highway, that childish and rogue Song Yi, he was really tired and couldn't like it anymore.Although he now admits that he still likes Song Yi, in this world, not only liking is enough, nor is only liking can bring happiness.He doesn't know if he will like other people in the future, but he doesn't want to change his current life.Find a time to really have a good talk with Song Yi, after this time is over.One cannot always live in the past, the present and the future are what matter.

Both of them have their own worries and sleepless nights.

"Why are you following me?"

"I don't know the way, why don't I follow you."

"I'll go... as long as you're happy"

After getting along with Song Yi for the past few days, Li Weiran is no stranger to Song Yi's actions, so let him do whatever he likes.Just take care of your own heart.

"Ouch~ Your kid is finally back, come in quickly." Brother Wei greeted Li Weiran enthusiastically when he saw Li Weiran. He thought this guy was just trying to evade, but he really came back.

"That's this?" Brother Wei looked at Song Yi who was following behind Li Weiran. This person's aura was unusual at first glance, but if he met him during the Chinese New Year, he would give people such a sense of oppression.

"This...uh..." Li Weiran was in a dilemma, and scratched the back of his head unconsciously. He really hadn't thought about how to introduce Song Yi now. He told Brother Wei that he had no relatives and no friends. Now I don't know how to explain myself.

"I am responsible for him"

"what?"

"what?"

Without giving any explanation, Song Yi just looked at Li Weiran like this, looking at Li Weiran with trembling in his heart.

"Okay, okay, Brother Wei, I'm here not just to report your early years, do you know the house in the village that can repair the house? I want to simply regulate my house."

"Well, do you have enough savings? It may be difficult to find ones for the Chinese New Year. What are you going to do? How about I help you?"

"This is the same. I just want to temporarily repair the dilapidated part of the house. You also know my current financial situation. I will take it easy later."

"If that's the case, it's not easy. I'll help you do it tomorrow."

The two were discussing enthusiastically, and Song Yi looked at it from the sidelines, feeling very uncomfortable.

After they finished discussing, Li Weiran remembered the embarrassed Song Yi, but this was not his original intention, he just didn't want the only thing that belonged to him not to be contaminated with Song Yi's breath, that's all.

"You can go back after dinner. I still have something to do." Li Weiran was going to visit his grandmother's grave, he didn't want Song Yi to follow him.

"What's the matter with you, I can't know, Li Weiran, you really don't want me to meddle in your affairs, you'd better tell me." Song Yi was really angry. Push yourself away.

"I'm going to visit my grandma. What capacity are you going to go with? Please let me go. I can't bring a person who doesn't love me to her old man. I don't want her to worry. Enough is enough."

"I……"

"No need to say anything, let me ask you, do you like me? Do you love me? If not, just let go."

The question that Li Weiran had been holding back for the past few years was finally asked, and the question was not as difficult as imagined, why couldn't he ask it before.After waiting for a long time, I didn't get an answer from Song Yi. I should have thought of this situation long ago, why my heart still hurts, and I can't breathe due to the pain.

"Look, I knew it was going to be like this."

"no……"

"There's nothing to explain. Originally, the question of whether two old men like it or not is inherently problematic. You just feel that you can't accept being dumped by me for a while. You are so proud, you are not reconciled, obviously. It was I who relied on you, it was me who started the call, and now I call it stop, your self-esteem is causing trouble, I admit that it was my fault at the beginning, but I have already learned the lesson I should have, I am really tired, How do you want to revenge me, please wait until this year is over."

After speaking, Li Weiran walked away without waiting for Song Yi's reaction. Seeing Song Yi's reaction would only make him more sad.

Song Yi didn't know how to answer. When Li Weiran asked himself if he liked him, he didn't know what to call liking, but he felt distressed when he saw Li Weiran now, watching him drive him out step by step. In the world, he will be sad and reluctant, he can't accept not having his shadow in Li Weiran's plan.If this is called liking, then he likes Li Weiran, so what did he do to Li Weiran before?Or just like what Li Weiran said, it was because I couldn't accept that I would obey his arrangements and be restricted by him again.Just got used to his presence.

Song Yi sat there blankly. He didn't know what kind of feelings he had for Li Weiran. He really couldn't give a definite answer when asked like this.

Looking at the grave overgrown with weeds, Li Weiran couldn't help but blame himself deeply, what a jerk he was to do such a thing.Li Weiran cleared the weeds from the grave one by one with his hands.

"Grandma, are you the only one in this world who really loves me from the bottom of my heart? I know it's not fair to my father when I say this, but now I know that most of his indulgence to me It's because of guilt, but I'm still sorry for him, and I'm even more sorry for you, you won't blame me for not coming to see you, in fact, I don't dare not know how to face you, but now it's all over, I want to go back Here, how about accompanying you, but I can’t do it right now. I don’t have that ability yet, but I think it’s pretty good. Now I know how proud it is to live by my own ability, so you don’t have to worry about it. I'm worried..." Before I knew it, the sun had already set.

Li Weiran relaxed after releasing the suppressed emotions in his heart. Although he looks very embarrassed now, he has never faced his real self like this moment.

I thought that Song Yi would figure it out and leave when he returned to his residence.However, to my surprise, Song Yi didn't leave and was still waiting for his meeting to share dinner.

Looking at Li Weiran who was covered in mud and his hands were scratched, Song Yi stepped forward quickly.

"How did you do it? Do you want to bandage it up?"

"It's not necessary. I'll go wash and eat." He waved off Song Yi's hand. As for what Song Yi wanted to do and what purpose he had, Li Weiran didn't think about it, nor was he interested in knowing.