Crazy chasing love

The sea is cold and turbulent, and finding someone in the tide is like looking for a needle in a haystack.

Because of her hermaphrodite physique, Xia Zhuming has never been able to swim in the water. The only place she has ever soaked in water is her own bathtub.After pulling twice, his limbs sank uncontrollably as if filled with lead. He tried his best to keep his head out of the water and struggled desperately. As his body sank more and more, when the sea water covered his head, the feeling of suffocation hit his face. He was already ready to wait for death, when suddenly his waist tightened, and with a "crash", he was sent out of the water, and when he turned around suddenly, he saw the person who had almost experienced life and death just now.

Xia Zhuming hugged Jiang Shuo's neck tightly, sobbing as if he was afraid that he would disappear in the next second: "Jiang Shuo!"

"Brother, I'm here, don't be afraid." Jiang Shuo's voice was very soft, and he could even be said to be angry. Xia Zhuming hurriedly looked up at him, but Jiang Shuo was already looking around. He paddled and swam forward.

Xia Zhuming turned his head and saw a boat plank not far away.

Jiang Shuo picked up the clipper board, let Xia Zhuming grab the edge, and then sent him up with his hips.Xia Zhuming lay on the deck helplessly, grabbed Jiang Shuo's cold hand and said in panic, "Jiang, Jiang Shuo...you come up too..."

"The boat plank is too small, I will sink when I come up." Jiang Shuo shook his head, seeing that Xia Zhuming wanted to come down to change with him, he immediately said: "Brother, don't come down, you can't swim, come down It's no use either."

Xia Zhuming thought about it, and it was the same reason, but he was still worried: "What about your injury? You will be infected if you are soaked in seawater."

"Brother, you will worry about me, I am so happy." Jiang Shuo smiled, Xia Zhuming gave him a look, Jiang Shuo immediately calmed down, and said: "Don't worry, brother, it's okay, I have suffered more serious injuries than now , isn't it still alive and well? Don't worry about me."

Now Xia Zhuming really didn't know what to say, so he could only hold Jiang Shuo's hand tightly: "Then you, hold the boat plank and rest."

"Okay." Jiang Shuo smiled lightly, and hugged the boat board really obediently, but he closed his mouth. Although he was smiling, Xia Zhuming panicked.

He quickly shook Jiang Shuo's hand and said anxiously: "Jiang Shuo! Jiang Shuo! Don't sleep, don't sleep! Wake up!"

Jiang Shuo struggled to open his eyelids, blinking his eyes: "I'm so tired, brother, let me sleep, okay? Just for a while."

"No, no, Jiang Shuo, don't sleep, don't sleep, I'm afraid, please don't sleep." Xia Zhuming was so anxious that tears streamed down his face, he could only helplessly rub Jiang Shuo's hands and tried to give him a hug. He warmed his increasingly cold body, and cried, "No, don't sleep Jiang Shuo, Jiang Shuo please don't sleep, can you talk to me? Can you talk to me? Don't you spoil me the most? You talk to me, you, you... that's right! Can you tell me about your childhood, okay? After you tell me, I will also tell you about my childhood, how about it? Okay?"

"Hmm..." Jiang Shuo supported himself with difficulty, slapped himself, and finally regained consciousness.He first looked up at the location of the coastline, and after confirming it, he pushed the boat and moved forward slowly, with a soothing smile on his face, but his eyes were already black and his face was pale and bloodless. Somewhat scary.

"My past was quite boring. I'm afraid my brother will find it boring."

"No!" Xia Zhuming said quickly, holding his hand, as if only in this way can he really feel that he is still by his side: "No, Jiang Shuo, you say, I will listen, you I listened to every word that was said."

"I..." Xia Zhuming opened his mouth, his face turned red, "I want to participate in your past."

Jiang Shuo looked at him, blinked, and there was a deeper smile in his eyes, as if he was satisfied, but in Xia Zhuming's eyes, he felt his heart was blocked.

"Since my brother wants to know, I will definitely tell my brother exactly." Jiang Shuo said.

Xia Zhuming nodded quickly.

Jiang Shuo let out a breath, and slowly swam forward, pushing the boat plank forward, thinking for a long time with ecstasy, and then slowly said: "Brother, do you know? My parents were killed by me .”

Xia Zhuming's heart tightened.

"My family background is actually not bad. My father is a small entrepreneur, and my mother is from the Cultural Youth League. She is very beautiful and a very gentle woman." When Jiang Shuo said this, his eyes seemed to hide light, and his face was full He showed a faint smile, but the next second he cooled down again.

"But she has been living in the shadow of my father."

"My father is a sadist and has a tendency to domestic violence. It is said that my mother was beaten by him during the confinement period. After the confinement period, my mother was beaten almost every day. In my impression, the most unforgettable It is probably that my mother is sitting on a wooden donkey—you know what a wooden donkey is? Yes, it is the thing used to torture women in ancient times. Their hands are handcuffed behind their backs, their mouths are gagged, and they stare at the tearful eyes shaking their heads and shaking their heads. This is not enough, you have to punch and kick her."

Jiang Shuo still remembers that day when his father carried him, who was only 4 years old, into the small torture room, and let him see his mother's miserable appearance. At that time, he asked his father why he did this to his mother.

Dad pointed to his mother and said that women are used to conquer. If the fist is not hard, women will not be obedient.

"But mother is crying, she is very sad." Jiang Shuo is too young to understand everything, his father just stroked his head comfortingly, telling him that mother is cool, she is experiencing that only adult couples Only in between can we experience the joy.

Xia Zhuming remembered that photo and the torture room, and frowned: "Your mother obviously can't bear it, why didn't you get a divorce?"

"It's divorced." Jiang Shuo looked a little helpless, "But those people who are divorced and arbitrated are very friendly, such as 'husband and wife for a hundred days', 'bedside quarrel and end of the bed', even if my mother puts her whole body When the injury came out, they would all say that the young couple had nothing to fight, for the sake of the child, etc., anyway, it was a bunch of bullshit."

Xia Zhuming pursed her lips, held Jiang Shuo's face and kissed him on the forehead: "It's hard for you."

This was the first time that Xia Zhuming kissed him proactively. Jiang Shuo was taken aback for a moment, but then jumped up with energy: "Brother, did you kiss me? You kissed me! Kiss me again, okay?"

"Hey you guy..." Xia Zhuming's face turned red again, but she still lowered her head. This time, she kissed Jiang Shuo's lips softly and trembling slightly. Jiang Shuo sucked and grabbed He kissed his lips, licking the dry lips and licking ambiguously.

Xia Zhuming was embarrassed and wanted to push it away.But when he smelled the faint smell of blood, he felt very uncomfortable, so he just kissed him like this, and when the two finally let go, Jiang Shuo took a few deep breaths and smiled brightly: "Brother kissed me, I'm so happy Yes, die without regrets!"

Xia Zhuming frowned: "Don't talk nonsense!"

"Okay." Jiang Shuo frowned, looked at their current floating position, moved his body and continued: "Where did you talk... Yes, my mother really endured it for me for a few years. My father forced her I quit my job, called it a promotion and made a fortune, and changed my house. It was too far away from my mother's place of work, so I just concentrated on going home to take care of my children. In fact, I moved our family into that remote villa, making it easier to use violence against my mother every day. I want to beat me if I'm happy, and I want to beat me if I'm not happy. My mother can only scream every day, and the ground is not working. She can't stand it anymore. If she can't beat my dad, she starts beating me."

"Every day, she pinches my face, beats my stomach, and kicks my legs hard, crying and scolding why I was born. As long as I don't give birth, she doesn't have to because my father and I can't divorce."

When Jiang Shuo said this, his expression was a little confused: "Am I really not supposed to be born?"

"Nothing, it has nothing to do with you." Xia Zhuming said quickly, touching his face comfortingly: "If you are not born, there will be someone else, but it just so happens that the unlucky one happens to be you. Your mother herself The mind is unstable, and she can't bear the rumors from the outside world. Even if the society really imprisoned her, she shouldn't do anything to you, a child who is only a few years old. Then what is the difference between her and your father?"

Jiang Shuo looked at him steadfastly, and rubbed his palm tenderly with his face: "Brother, you are really good."

Xia Zhuming's heart tightened, for fear that he would say something bad again.

Fortunately, Jiang Shuo didn't continue with the words, and continued to recall slowly: "Later, my mother was broken in several ribs and couldn't take it anymore. She ran out secretly, went to the court for divorce, and was beaten by my father The sentence "We are playing SM fun" made me divorced crying. The group of people came to the house to check and agreed with my father's words. In the end, the divorce appeal was obviously rejected. My mother refused to accept it and wanted to appeal, but the people in the court Tell her the second appeal is in six months."

Six months, how can it be tolerated by a person who has suffered domestic violence for a long time and has lost his mind?Jiang Shuo's father was only slightly criticized by the court. On the surface, he greeted him with a smile, but when he turned his head, his face sank. When he got home, he almost dragged his mother in. After closing the door It was an endless beating.

The father was happy after the beating, and went out to work in a well-dressed manner, leaving the mother who was almost half alive lying on the ground twitching.The little Jiang Shuo was standing in front of her. When the woman saw him, she stretched out ten fingers like bones and crawled towards him. She had completely lost her stunning beauty, her facial features were ferocious, and her hair was messed up like a madman. Same.

The lunatic smiled charmingly: "It's all because of you...it's all because of you...if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have to bear so much...it's all because of you!"

Jiang Shuo just stood in front of her, looked down at her quietly and didn't speak.

The woman laughed more ferociously, crawling on the ground like a female ghost in a horror movie, and even dragged a layer of blood on the ground.

Only then did Jiang Shuo know that his mother was pregnant again, and after being beaten up by his father, she actually had a miscarriage.

But no one will care.

"Little brat..." The woman stared at him, her eye sockets repeatedly turning scary like the whites of her eyes, "Kill me brat, kill me! You killed me! You hate me?! Kill me! You and me Your father is a virtue! Kill me, kill me! You are all perverts! You are crazy! You are crazy! You are the family! Kill me!!"

The little Jiang Shuo was holding a fruit knife behind his back. Hearing this, he lowered his eyes and really took a step forward. He stabbed the knife into the woman's heart without any hesitation.

The woman twitched, like a dying fish in the bloody water, until the last moment, her eyes lit up, and she raised her hand, trembling, trying to touch Jiang Shuo's face.

She opened her mouth, as if she wanted to say something, but she could no longer utter a sound. Before the hand touched it, she fell down hard, and her eyes were completely darkened.

"I hid her body. When my father came back, I couldn't find her. I thought it was in the room. The moment he opened the door, I kicked him to the ground from behind and used the same knife to knock him down again." Killed too."

The young Jiang Shuo who had killed someone was very calm, and even sat in a pool of blood and took his father's mobile phone to call the police. When the police came, they couldn't believe it when they saw the scene. If he didn't believe it, he felt that he must have been frightened by the murderer, and even dragged him to do psychological treatment for a year.

Because there are no parents, relatives and so on have been cut off long ago, and his father actually bought a large amount of accidental death insurance for his mother. The parents were brutally murdered. The police were unwilling to detain Jiang Shuo, so After the insurance compensation and the family inheritance, Jiang Shuo, who was only eight years old, was already considered a small rich man.

He was sent to the Sun Welfare Institute in Jialing District, where the administrators heard the news that he had killed his parents, and they all avoided him like snakes and scorpions. Even the children in the orphanage opposed him every day. Buried him and excluded him, this kind of life lasted for two years, until Jiang Shuo was picked up by the retired mercenary Xue Xun to be his adopted son.

At the beginning, seeing Jiang Shuo's gloomy face and not talking, Xue Xun was also embarrassed, and he was a big bastard, so he slapped his knees and took Jiang Shuo to WOLF's base to play for a few days, and found out that he was a good mercenary Miaozi discussed with Hibbert, the successor leader of WOLF at the time, and asked Jiang Shuo about his wishes, so he left him there and let the mercenaries train him.

So far, Jiang Shuo has started a new life.

Xia Zhuming heard this, apart from being distressed, he didn't know what to say to comfort him.

He continued to rub Jiang Shuo's increasingly cold hands, and said softly: "It's been hard for you for so many years."

Jiang Shuo shook his head and said, "If it wasn't for you, I would have died long ago."

Xia Zhuming was stunned.

"Brother, don't you remember?" The tiredness on Jiang Shuo's face became more and more obvious, but he still smiled: "Ten years ago, the Sun Welfare Institute, the date was December 12th, and it was also the first time you came from my house. Last password to try on escape."

"Those are the days when my light shines through the cracks."

Xia Zhuming was recalled by him almost immediately.

Ten years ago, on Christmas Day on December 12th, his career had just started a little bit. Because he was famous for his image as a gentle brother, the company arranged for him a public welfare activity of "accompanying the children in the orphanage to spend Christmas" for a period of After three days, when the third day was about to leave, Xia Zhuming found Jiang Shuo hiding in the closet.

In the past three days, he has almost become familiar with the children in the orphanage, but he has never seen this child. Seeing his sullen expression, even with the fierceness of repelling others thousands of miles away, Xia Zhuming almost immediately "Internal exclusion" comes to mind.

He also came from this kind of experience in the orphanage, and it can be said that he empathizes with him. Nine out of ten children in the orphanage have also suffered the trauma of being abandoned psychologically, or have accepted some past that they don’t want to recall. It is not impossible for problem children to be internally out of gregarious.

At that time, he didn't ask why the child was here alone, nor did he ask him why he didn't play with other children, but he just stretched out his hand to him, smiled and said softly: "It's snowing outside, it's very beautiful, do you want to go out with me?" Make a snowman?"

"You played with me all afternoon that day, told me a lot, and even bought me a cake. I still remember it was a Black Forest cake." Jiang Shuo's expression was full of nostalgia, and he smiled happily, like a Like a child: "Later you were leaving, and I asked you, can we meet again? You hesitated and told me yes."

"So I waited at the door every day, wait, I saw you on TV, and I realized that you are a star. After that, I will watch your TV variety shows, and I will buy your magazine endorsements—anyway. I also have money, and when Xue Xun came to pick me up, I didn't wait for you to come see me again."

Xia Zhuming remembered that he joined the new group to film the next day, and he was so busy that he forgot about this appointment.

Unexpectedly, this person would remember for so long.

Xia Zhuming almost burst into tears, clutching Jiang Shuo's hand tightly and choking, "I'm sorry... I'm sorry, if, if I keep my promise..."

"It's nothing, brother." Jiang Shuo interrupted him aloud, smiled, and the tired look on his face became more and more obvious.

He said softly: "I have obviously had mental problems since I was a child, and I know it. After killing my parents, they gave me psychological counseling. A young doctor gave me a psychological test and told the police that I need to be kept under strict supervision, otherwise It might be a big danger in the future. But none of them cared, and even called the doctor alarmist, what can a kid who doesn't understand anything do?"

"I have killed many people, I have killed too many people, my soul is not clean. But you are a good person, and you said that you dislike evil people the most." Jiang Shuo slowly closed his mouth, lying on the deck , the voice became smaller and smaller: "Brother... I'm sorry... I'm not a good person..."

Looking at his appearance, Xia Zhuming knew that he had reached his limit, and immediately patted his hand anxiously and said: "Jiang Shuo? Jiang Shuo, wake up! Wake up! Don't sleep! Don't wake up first ! We're almost on the coast! Wake up!"

"Brother..." Jiang Shuo struggled to open his eyelids, his face was haggard, but his eyes were frighteningly bright.Xia Zhuming suffocated for breath, and immediately thought of returning to the light.

"Xia Zhuming..." Jiang Shuo's voice became weaker and weaker: "You once pulled me out of the mud and sent me back to the world."

"Hell is not for you, so, Xia Zhuming, live on."

After he finished speaking, he suddenly pushed the boat board hard, forcing Xia Zhuming to move forward for a long distance along the tide, and then he floated on the sea surface like rootless duckweed with the tide, and a wave hit him. , completely disappeared from sight.

"Jiang Shuo—!"

Xia Zhuming let out a roar, at this time a strong wind blew up on the sea, and the waves became rough.He didn't hold on to the plank of the boat, and his whole body was weak. After being lifted up like this, he rolled and fell into the sea.