I'm afraid I won't survive [Quick Transmigration]

When he first stepped into the university campus, Xu Si hadn't questioned his own orientation yet, because before that, his mind had never been close to love, nor had he taken it seriously. After looking for beatings and living a stable life, the youth hormones flooding the university campus were considered to have affected him.

Originally, he was still blind, spending all day in the dormitory playing black and white games with his roommates, but when his two roommates also started to disappear all day long, and after five of them dressed up and went out to date girls, he realized that he was too. It's time to find a girlfriend for a stroll, otherwise those bad friends will always make fun of him, saying that he has a handsome face for nothing, but in fact he has a cold personality.

Oh, indifferent?I let you rough old men see my enthusiastic side, is that okay?

Now that he has decided to find a girl to start a dog abuse career, he has to have a goal first, and compare and compare, the courtyard girl in the outer courtyard looks passable, with long legs, thin breasts, big buttocks, and a passable face, at least It's quite upright, and it's more comfortable to follow the pure route than the coquettish bitches.

If you have a goal, let's do it.

After half a month of buying food and giving drinks, the girl reacted and sent him a text message. Xu Si was still wondering why she had her own mobile phone number, and was even complacent about it, but looking at the content of the text message, Immediately, the flags and drums died down and the food was stopped.

The refusal was obvious in the text message. First, he praised Xu Si, then sent a good person card, and finally said that he belonged to him, so he called three times to be sorry.

Xu Si: "..."

"Hey, do you know who Zhang Jiajia likes in the outer courtyard?" Xu Si asked while lying on the bed with her hands under her head and her legs crossed.

The Stinkyfoot King stuck his head out from the lower bunk, "You don't know? Wasn't there a lot of rumors on the forums a while ago? I thought the whole school knew about it."

"You said Zhang Jiajia's public confession was rejected?" Xueba Li, who was clacking and typing on the keyboard to make documents in big pants, turned his chair around and helped his glasses that were pressed to the tip of his nose. His oily face was full of gossip. .

"Even you know?" Xu Si wondered, "I thought you only cared about scholarships."

"It's because you care about scholarships. Zhang Jiajia is a strong contender for school scholarships with me." Li Ran looked like you don't understand, "Since you are an opponent, you must know yourself and your enemy."

"Who is the person who rejected her?" Xu Si pretended to be casual and asked, but his ears were all pricked up. He wanted to see who was the person who compared him.

"Xiao Jing!" The other three animals in the dormitory called out at the same time.

"That heaven-defying Xiao Jing from the Department of Archeology." Wang Tian clicked his tongue.

"Xiao Jing, who became popular in the entire school forum within one month of school and gained countless fans." Li Ran clicked his tongue twice.

"Xiao Jing, the goddess of the outer courtyard and the goddess of the School of Management, who confessed successively." Shen Yan, who had always been taciturn, clicked his tongue three times in succession.

A strong same-sex jealousy floats in the narrow room of four.

Xu Si: "...so exaggerated? Why don't I know this person?"

The other three Qiqi rolled their eyes, and Wang Tianyi said, "You can check the forum yourself."

Xu Si obediently flipped through it, and randomly opened a post about Xiao Jing. This building was already built high enough, and once she entered, her eyes were filled with the pink roaring body of the male god husband.

Scrolling down, this post has been recorded almost since the first day Xiao Jing entered the campus, all kinds of photos cover Xu Si's face, from the freshman military training period to today's update, Xu Si has to lament these girls Terrible ability to track candid shots.

"It's okay." Xu Si murmured insincerely, and zoomed in on a picture. In the photo, it was the back of a boy, probably the one with legs below the neck. He was wearing a white T-shirt and blue jeans, clean. Neat and tidy, with a few books in one hand, he seemed to have noticed that someone was secretly taking pictures. He turned his head and raised his eyebrows slightly, but he didn't see much displeasure...

It's just that at the moment when he looked at the camera, the person who took the sneak shot quickly pressed the shutter, so he froze his expression, and captured a faint trace of helplessness in his brows and eyes and the indulgence of letting it go. Xu Si's heartbeat suddenly missed a beat for some reason.

"You're handsome, right? You're a public enemy." Li Ran said faintly, "When I saw you on the first day of school, I thought God was unfair sometimes, but when I saw Xiao Jing At that time, I felt that God was never fair."

"Do you think he's more handsome than me?" Xu Si threw the phone aside and touched his suspected hot face.

"Although it's inappropriate to say this as your brother, you can't speak out of your conscience, right?" Wang Tianyi sighed.

Xu Si kicked the bed board twice, "Then don't say it!"

The matter of Zhang Jiajia was of course nothing, but after that, Xu Si began to pay attention to Xiao Jing intentionally or unintentionally. He himself didn't understand what kind of evil he was. Before going to bed, he looked through the post for any freshly released photos.

No one would believe him when he said it, but what kind of mentality is he waiting to see a man's picture every day?

Compared to Xu Si, who was uninformed, Xiao Jing knew of Xu Si's existence one step ahead of him, and there was no special opportunity. He just met him in the lecture theater by chance, and felt that the other party looked like a playmate of his childhood.

He sat directly behind that person for a whole month. This person never looked him in the eye. In class, he only slept and slept, with various postures, completely ignoring the lecturer who was talking on the podium and the sniper that came from time to time. superior.

He couldn't help joking with his friend: "Hey, I found out that the buddy in front of me never woke up in class."

At that time, my friend glanced at it and recognized it immediately, "Oh, this is Xu Si from the museum department, and he fights very hard."

"fight?"

"I used to be in high school with me, that guy, I don't know how to grow his brain, he hangs around all day long, he is not a fuel-efficient lamp, and he got mixed up in this school."

"Oh..." Xiao Jingjing nodded, "IQ problem."

"But I think he hasn't committed any crimes since he was in college, so he probably has changed his ways." As he said that, his friend reached out and patted the sleeping man, "Hey."

Xu Si was having a good dream, when he was awakened by a sudden blow, he quickly turned his head, and turned his face ferociously, that stare, the hostility was fully exposed, Xiao Jing and his friend were stunned for a moment.

"Hu Weisheng?" Almost instantly, seeing the person clearly, Xu Si closed his eyes, and the arrogance of the whole person became lazy again, "Long time no see."

Hu Weisheng wiped his nose embarrassingly, "I see you every day, but you are sleeping. If you sleep like this, will you pass the final exam?"

Xu Si waved his hand indifferently, and lay down again in the original position.

Hu Weisheng shrugged his shoulders at Xiao Jing who had been ignored the whole time. Xiao Jing smiled, and the pen in his hand was rustling.

That night, Xiao Jing met Xu Si again in the Internet cafe on the back street of the school, and he picked a machine opposite him and sat down.

As soon as he sat down, he heard a cat meow, that lazy and coquettish meow, which instantly attracted Xiao Jing's attention, and then, the crackling and angry keyboard sound stopped abruptly, and the person opposite took off his earphones , picked up the black and white kitten that was rubbing against his legs.

"Are you hungry?" Qing Ya's voice was a little hoarse. Through the gap, Xiao Jing saw a pair of slender hands holding the cat's upper body. The exposed nails were trimmed round. The cat turned its head and licked the other. hand, causing the man to raise the corner of his lips.

When he looked at the cat, the expression on his face was unbelievably gentle, completely different from the fierce stare in the daytime, and the broken light in those eyes made Xiao Jing unable to move his eyes away.

"I just met the pig teammate. Are you trying to comfort me by seeing me unhappy?" The man talked to the cat, and the cat raised its head and meowed.

"I'm very poor, you come here every day to grab my legs, I'm going to be poor by you." After a complaint, there was a soft pricking sound, a cat can was opened and placed on the corner of the table, and the kitten immediately jumped off the lap , ran to the canned food.

Xiao Jing watched the cat gobble it up, purring from time to time, the corners of his lips turned up unconsciously, and when he looked back, the man put on the earphones again, and the mechanical keyboard started wailing again.

After that, Xiao Jing came every day, and he could probably calculate the time and frequency of Xu Si's appearance in the Internet cafe every day. When he was free, he would come here to have a look. It arrived on time in 10 minutes, waiting for one person and one cat together.

Once when Xu Si didn't come, the cat waited for a long time but didn't get anyone, and of course he didn't get the canned cat food he liked to eat, so Xiao Jing gave it the canned food that he had kept in his bag for many days. It was a stranger, and it didn't dare to eat it, but it was really hungry. The stranger didn't look bad, and he kept squatting beside him and staring at it eagerly.

With the first time, there will be countless subsequent times. Even if Xu Si does not come, it can still have enough to eat, so it has become familiar with the human being who came later.

When Xu Si came back later, he found that the cat was not only rubbing against his legs, but also rubbing against the legs of the person opposite him. Putting on a cuckold, she got angry for a moment, stood up and went to find out, and suddenly found that the opposite was Xiao Jing who had been spying on the screen for a semester!

How does it feel to meet a male god?At that second, Xu Si probably understood the mentality of those nymphomaniacs, and suddenly mentioned the heart in his throat, the sudden reverse flow of blood, and his flushed face, making him feel numb.

"Are you the owner of this cat?" Xiao Jing picked up the cat coiled on his lap, and smiled at Xu Si.

Is he laughing at himself?Xu Si felt short of breath, her heart was beating non-stop, and she even started to speak incoherently, "Ah...uh, no no, I just feed it something occasionally."

The way he nodded and shook his head looked a little stupid, Xiao Jing scratched the cat's chin with his slender fingers, "What a coincidence, me too."

The four eyes met, Xiao Jing's frank eyes did not avoid the slightest bit, but Xu Si's heart was full of secret thoughts that were neither yin nor yang, and he couldn't stand this kind of blatant staring at each other, as if for a second, His mind would be discovered and explode on the spot.

"Oh." Xu Siqiang suppressed his strange mood, turned around stiffly, sat back to his original position with his hands and feet together, held his head and calmed down for a long while, swallowed, and finally entered in the column that he had been lingering for these days. The shadow in my heart: how to judge whether I am gay?

The answers he found were like a lingering haze that shrouded his heart for a long time, which made him dare not look directly at Xiao Jing, so he began to reduce the frequency of going to Internet cafes, trying to avoid meeting Xiao Jing, This led to a period of unexamined days.

But that person is like a ghost that can't be dispelled, you can meet him from time to time, sometimes you can meet him on the road, God knows, the campus is so big, how can there be such a big fate?Especially when he later heard that the other party had a girlfriend, he avoided it like a snake and a tiger.

He also couldn't tell what he thought about Xiao Jing. Xiao Jing made him know himself again for the first time. To put it bluntly, it was similar to the existence of the cinnabar mole and Bai Yueguang, but at the welcome party, he realized that it seemed to be more than that.

In Xiao Jing's memory, Xu Si was very dazzling that night, like a huge light source, even the beautiful host who was named the school belle beside him was not as good as him.

Someone at the bottom shouted that it was a good match, the hostess looked shy, and Xu Si smiled generously: "You can just say it in private, whatever you shout, tomorrow you will see me running around in a mess, being chased by the goddess sister's crush kill."

There was another burst of laughter underneath, jokes are jokes, who can't see that the hostess's shy expression hides unspeakable affection?

Xiao Jing clenched his fists secretly. He should have thought that when he was making the plan, after the originally scheduled male anchor of the broadcasting department was absent due to illness, the school belle tried his best to recommend Xu Si, probably out of selfishness to cultivate relationships.

"Backstage preparations are complete, don't be too hot, let's announce the curtain." He said coldly through the intercom, Xu Si immediately restrained his smile and announced the curtain in a serious manner.

After the party, everyone had a dinner together as usual, and the students didn't have much money, so they went to eat hot pot without any dispute.

Xu Si doesn't like to eat hot pot. Usually, when encountering this kind of gathering, he just pushes it off, but today Xiao Jing was here, so he followed him in a strange way. Along the way, the school belle who was his partner kept following him. He strikes up a conversation.

At this time, Xu Si already knew clearly that he was gay and was not interested in women, so he kept calmly perfunctory, and kept looking towards Xiao Jing.

Xiao Jing was talking to a few friends in the same company, he didn't know if it was telepathy or what, he immediately turned his head, his eyes met, there was a faint spark, Xu Si was defeated and fled again.

Xiao Jing stared in his direction for a while, frowning.

"What's the matter? You seem to be very upset." Hu Weisheng sensitively noticed the sudden drop in the aura of his friends around him, thinking that he was still thinking about the party, "A few small mistakes are inevitable at the party, don't take it to heart , you are too pursuit of perfection."

Xiao Jing turned his head, didn't speak, but deliberately slowed down, and soon reached Xu Si's row.

"Xu Si, you performed well today!" Hu Weisheng patted Xu Si on the shoulder, then turned his head and gave the girl a wink, "Sister Xiaohua is even better! I can hear that, the audience treats you two very well." Interested, how about it, do you want me to help..."

Before he could finish his sentence, a slap fell from the sky, hitting his chin hard on his chest, and Xiao Jing's cold voice came, "Don't spread rumors casually."

Xu Si smiled awkwardly, "Yes, rumors, rumors, don't ruin the reputation of other girls."

Hu Weisheng: "???" I just said it casually.

The school belle probably felt that the crowd was inconvenient, so she left Xu Si and ran to chat with her best friend. Xu Si breathed a sigh of relief, and cast a grateful look at Xiao Jing, but the other party just glanced at him indifferently and bowed her head silently. walk.

Hu Weisheng was blindly rewarded with a blow to the head, and slipped away. For a while, only Xu Si and Xiao Jing were left in the last row.

Xiao Jing didn't speak, neither did Xu Si, and the two kept a close distance.

Noisy laughter came from the front, only this area was deserted, the moonlight stretched the figures of the two people, Xu Si's swinging hand accidentally touched Xiao Jing's clothes, and he retracted his hand like an electric shock Putting it in the pocket, while turning the head to the other side, the heart beat like a drum.

It's strange to say that everyone has organized such a large-scale freshman party together, but the two of them never said a word in private, some just made eye contact, and neither of them would speak first, Xu Si felt awkward, He felt that he was awkward, and Xiao Jing was even more awkward, because Xiao Jing never treated others like this, he always talked and laughed with others, kind and natural.

Did he find out?Thinking of this, Xu Si immediately felt a stabbing pain in his heart, and Xu Si pursed his lips tightly, because he found out that I was abnormal, so he deliberately distanced himself from me?But...but I never thought of letting you know, disturbing your life...

Thinking wildly all the way, a group of people had already arrived at the hot pot restaurant. The boss saw a group of students and suddenly felt dizzy. He might make a fuss until some time in the morning, but it was not easy to drive people away, so the service attitude was not very good.

But everyone didn't care about it. As soon as they sat down, they ordered a few cases of beer before ordering food.When Xu Si saw that there was wine, coupled with her unhappy heart, she thought more and more about using wine to relieve her sorrow.

So he did not refuse any comers, he took part in finger-guessing games, he also took part in truth-or-dare, and he took part in any event where he could drink.

After two rounds, very few can stand.

Xu Si was still pouring wine into his mouth mechanically, and a slender hand grabbed him.

"Stop drinking."

After Xu Si drank the wine, except for his complexion getting paler, he was no different from a normal person. He smiled and took his hand away, "Sister Goddess, would you like a drink too?"

"Come with me, I have something to tell you."

When Xu Si didn't pay attention, she was pulled out of the box lightly. He was still smiling and teased as he walked: "Sister Goddess, I'm drunk, do you want to take advantage of others?"

Mu Xuan laughed and scolded: "Who takes advantage of others? I'm a girl, am I shameless?"

Xu Si giggled.

"Then are you drunk? Do you know me?" Mu Xuan let go of him at the end of the corridor, and waved her hand in front of his eyes.

Xu Si felt that hand was an eyesore, so she grasped it, "Not drunk, Mu Xuan."

Being held by her sweetheart, any girl would inevitably bump into a deer, Mu Xuan blushed, "Xu Si...do you know what I'm going to say next?"

Xu Si's smile bloomed even wider, "Do you want me to guess?"

Mu Xuan nodded with burning eyes.

Xu Si slowly let go of her hand, "Before I guess, you have to listen to me first."

"What?" Mu Xuan moved a little closer. From an outsider's point of view, this distance is almost like a kiss.

Xu Si tilted her head, her cool fingers brushed the hair beside her ear, her thin lips parted slightly, and she said something in her ear.

Without waiting for Mu Xuan to react, Xu Si was pulled away from her side by a strong force, and she felt as if she had fallen into an ice cave, her pupils shrank sharply, and she watched a tall figure walk forward with Xu Si in her arms.

"Xiao... Xiao Jing, you know... what did he just say to me?" She suddenly said loudly.

"I don't want to know." Xiao Jing left a sentence without even looking at her.

"He...he said." The back gradually moved away, Mu Xuan murmured softly, and the corner of her mouth raised an inconceivable arc, "He said he likes men."

"What are you doing!" Xu Si only felt that he was being dragged forward by an indistinguishable brute force. His footsteps were chaotic, and he stepped on his front heel several times, almost tripping himself. He vaguely saw that it was a man, but I don't know who it is, and I feel irritable, "Who the fuck are you!"

Then he made a turn, and with a slamming door, he was slammed onto the wall, and a hot body rushed forward to suppress him, pressing him hard against the wall, with his spine poking against the cold and hard tiles. On, he snorted softly.

"Xiao Jing?" The moment he opened his eyes, the name blurted out.

Is it a dream again?Xu Si thought drowsily.

"It's me." Xiao Jing's eyes caught him, carefully discerning whether his eyes were clear or chaotic, "Can't it be me?"

Xu Si laughed, he often laughed inexplicably when he was drunk, "No, I can't think of anyone else but you."

I never dreamed of anyone else but you.

The bright red lips glowed with water, and he was still staring straight at Xiao Jing, that smile was like a fatal invitation that could not be refused, Xiao Jing also drank a little wine, not much, just smiled The state of drunkenness is just at the critical point where self-control is negligible, but at this time, alcohol can always strengthen people's courage, who would think about the question of restraint? Originally, Xiao Jing just wanted to get Xu Si from that girl. Pulled away, but now he kissed decisively.

He didn't want to ask for anything, he just pressed his lips against Xu Si's, and his breath was instantly filled with another person's breath. His whole body trembled because of it, and he felt that the place where the lips met was extremely hot. scorching.

Xu Si seemed unable to stand the high temperature, so he opened his mouth naturally, covering his lower lip. Xiao Jing stayed on the spot for a moment, he... didn't think about going deep, but when a man can make an inch, he never Not going back, he immediately grabbed Xu Si's chin and squeezed his tongue in.

His jaw hurt a little from being pinched, Xu Si struggled slightly, but soon gave up, and instead greeted him warmly, he put his hands around Xiao Jing's neck, and pulled him down, the malt taste of beer in his mouth stimulated him Xiao Jing's nerves, coupled with Xu Si's open and welcoming attitude, almost ignited him all the way.

I don't know how long the kiss lasted, Xiao Jing felt his lips were swollen and painful, he let go of Xu Si, the man had no support, as if he had completely lost his bones, he took advantage of the situation and fell into his arms, even closing his eyes .

This is... Kissing and falling asleep?

Xiao Jing laughed, stretched out his hand to wipe Xu Si's red and swollen lips, bent down and carried her on his back, and walked out of the toilet cubicle.

The classmates outside had already left in a hurry. Xiao Jing just carried Xu Si on his back and walked to the dormitory. He knew which building and room Xu Si lived in, and he even knew who Xu Si's roommates were.

Xu Si was so drunk that he was unconscious, but the broad back shook him comfortably. He rubbed his head against the man's neck and said something softly. The evening wind blew his voice into the night sky. Xiao Jing All I heard was an out-of-tune whimper.

"Help me, Xiao Jing."

The author has something to say:

My original intention was to write a story of mutual redemption. Both Gong and Shou are flawed people. The task given by the system is to reduce the psychological shadow area of ​​Gong. People who know how to love.The original plan was that Xiao Jing's temperament would change drastically during Xu Si's coma, and he would embark on the path of high-IQ crimes. However, this incident was avoided because of the success of Xu Si's mission, because the mission he did made Xiao Jing step by step. Jing's potential psychological shadow was eliminated, so his fast travel was not meaningless. He saved Xiao Jing, and at the same time, Xiao Jing also saved him.