The Disaster of Shyness

The warmth reaches from the tip of the tongue to the heart, but it's just because of a kiss.

Hua Yu caressed Lin Fan's back and patted it a few times, his face flushed slightly, as if he was restraining something.

"Do you understand?" Lin Fan leaned on Hua Yu's shoulder and asked.

"Yeah." Hua Yu nodded honestly.

Lin Fan snorted in satisfaction, then got up and broke away from Hua Yu's embrace, "Go to sleep, I'm leaving first."

"Leave so soon?"

"In the afternoon, the undergraduates are defending, and I will help take notes."

"Oh."

"Lin Enming said he would come to see you in the afternoon."

"Oh."

Lin Fan frowned, took a look at the reluctant Hua Yu with his backpack in his hand, and couldn't help raising the corners of his mouth, "Stupid."

When Lin Fan left the ward, Hua Yu quietly looked at the door of the ward and thought.

Xiaofan, didn't you hide it?

When Lin Enming came in the afternoon, he was afraid that Huayu's recuperation would be too boring, so he played racing games with him, but later it was because he disliked Huayu's technology and simply played with the tablet by himself.

"Your skills are poor, let me show you how to play." Lin Enming said.

Hua Yu looked away after a few glances, feeling other worries in his heart.

"Has anything happened to Xiaofan at school recently?"

"What's the matter?" Lin Enming continued to play the game unaware at first, until he heard Hua Yu say "Is the relationship between me and him being..." and almost dropped the tablet.

"No!"

Hua Yu looked at him and said indifferently: "You reacted so strongly... I know it even if you don't tell me."

Lin Enming threw the tablet aside, looked at him flustered and curious, "What do you know?"

Hua Yu was silent, and Lin Fan was unwilling to tell him about the troubles he faced at school. It was really a double standard, but it was understandable.Moreover, thinking of when Lin Fan said he was afraid of losing him, his blood flow accelerated again, and his heart throbbed non-stop.

"It's nothing."

Lin Enming waited for a long time but was still hung up on his appetite. He was anxious, thinking that Huayu already knew, so he continued to dig into the topic and said, "Well, let me tell you, there is indeed something wrong. He is now a hot topic in school. .The wind blows to both sides."

"Say what?" Hua Yu asked.

"Some people say he is a deep cabinet, some people say it is not. In short, the Internet is so developed, all teachers and students in the school know about it, and there are a lot of discussions. Of course, some people say it is not good. I heard that many teachers still bring The students rejected him...but I think my brother doesn't seem to care about it that much." Lin Enming replied.

don't care?

how can that be possible?

Lin Fan's behavior really makes people feel that there are very few things he cares about, and he doesn't look like someone who will be hurt, so everyone may have no bottom line.

"He must be suffering." Hua Yu's voice was low and his thoughts were disturbed.

Lin Enming lowered his eyelids and said thoughtfully: "Maybe it's a bit depressed. His tutor is also excluding him, and my brother has no chance in many projects. But he is so capable, he can apply for the project himself, even if he encounters problems in the defense, With the early scientific research achievements, there will be no problem in graduation.”

"I hope so." Hua Yu responded softly, giving Lin Enming a bitter smile, "But he never complained to me about these things."

"I'm afraid you're worried!" Lin Enming turned his face away while playing with his phone, while muttering sourly, "He said you are his most important person."

The most important person?

It turned out that Xiaofan had so much affection for him.

"Why are you blushing? Is it hot?" Lin Enming didn't hear Hua Yu's movement for a long time, looked up at him, and saw that the man's face was flushed, he couldn't help being a little funny, and naturally he would not let go of the opportunity to tease him.

Separated from Lin Enming's hand fanning his cheeks, Hua Yu was a little embarrassed, "No."

"Shy?" Lin Enming smiled meaningfully at Hua Yu.Hua Yu grinned in embarrassment.But his wound made Lin Enming think of unpleasant things in an instant.

"Actually, you are all right. Why isn't society more tolerant and understanding? Look at you, you were stabbed, my brother, you were laughed at..."

Although Hua Yu felt a little sad after hearing this, he still smiled in relief. "You're right, there's nothing wrong with that."

"Well, how can I control myself when I like someone? It's all about hormones."

When Hua Yu heard Lin Enming's answer, he couldn't help laughing. This guy seemed to understand it at all.

"Why are you shaking your head?" Lin Enming glared at him, "Did I say something wrong?"

Hua Yu didn't want to argue with him, so he held the book next to the pillow upright in front of his eyes, blocking Lin Enming's face, "You play, I want to read a book for a while. You will understand the relationship when you meet it yourself."

Lin Enming was left on the sidelines, feeling very depressed: being with patients is really boring.

Under Lin Fan's meticulous care, Hua Yu was discharged from the hospital smoothly and recuperated at home for a period of time.I can have the stitches removed this weekend.

That night, Hua Yu was sitting on the sofa watching the news on his mobile phone, while Lin Fan was sitting cross-legged on the ground, flipping through the books on the coffee table.Hua Yu looked at Lin Fan from time to time, not knowing whether he was attracted by his voice turning the pages of the book, or by his serious handsome appearance.

"Xiaofan, I'm fine, you really don't want to go to school to prepare for the exam?"

"No, it's the same at home."

"However, I think you haven't studied hard at school for the last month because of me." Hua Yu leaned closer to Lin Fan's ear, resting his chin on Lin Fan's shoulder, "Is it insulting your reputation as a "student master"?"

Lin Fan tapped Hua Yu's forehead with a pen, "It sounds like you are very proud?"

Hua Yu smiled, of course he was proud of it.Lin Fan, who regards study as his top priority, actually skipped classes for him, and even did not do well in academics. All this was because he was worried that he would not be able to take good care of himself.

"Go aside, you're dead." Lin Fan raised his shoulders and shook Hua Yu's head off.

After a while, Hua Yu went to poke Lin Fan's back again.

"Want to die?" Lin Fan was most annoyed when Hua Yu came to bother him when he was enjoying his studies, and when he stared at her beautiful eyes, Hua Yu flinched with a sneer.

He shook his phone and asked Lin Fan: "Xiao Fan, is there a virus in your computer?"

"No, I haven't turned on the computer recently." Lin Fan glanced at Huayu's cell phone, it was a news about computer virus.

"Many university websites have been attacked, and a ransom has to be paid."

"Eternal Blue? That's really thanks to you. I have been taking care of you, so I escaped a catastrophe."

Hua Yu heard the teasing in these words, and hurriedly stood up from the sofa, "I'll help you upgrade the system, the Xiaonei network is not safe anyway."

"By the way, the port is banned. Although I don't know the virus permissions, I still need to take precautions." Lin Fan said.

"Okay, you have cloud space, I'll save all the documents for you."

"I do this by myself. All my important data will be copied to a USB flash drive and transferred to a mobile hard drive every week."

"Yeah." Hua Yu nodded, went into the bedroom, and came out to ask after a while.

"Power-on password?"

"1314520."

"Is this confession to me?" Hua Yu blinked.

"I use this computer myself, and now you are the one who confesses to me." Lin Fan pointed his pen at Hua Yu, and then at himself, refusing to be taken advantage of by Hua Yu.

"Why set such a simple password?" Hua Yu muttered, wanting to go back and tamper with Lin Fan's computer.

"Is it simple?" Lin Fan felt that these words were very important and difficult to measure. He moved his eyes and opened his lips lightly in Hua Yu's direction, "I love you."

Hua Yu blushed in a daze, and softly replied "Well, I love you." He hurriedly closed the bedroom door, obviously unable to resist Lin Fan's sudden confession.

Lin Fan's chuckle and ridicule came from outside the house. "Fool."

After entering the numbers, Hua Yu quickly saw Lin Fan's desktop, the system's built-in wallpaper, and neatly arranged icons, only the browser and shortcut keys for various software.

Just as he was about to disconnect the network and set to close the dangerous port, Huayu saw an unread email pop up in the lower right corner.It turned out to be the email system that Lin Fan's computer automatically logged into. The sender was Quan Ying, and the abbreviation was a scientific research institution.

"Xiaofan, I have your email, do you want to check it first? I'm going to disconnect from the Internet later." Hua Yu asked loudly in the room.

Lin Fan responded outside.

"You are too annoying. Get back to work quickly." Lin Fan pushed the door into the room and walked to Hua Yu's side.Only to find that Hua Yu has already clicked on his email.

It's an offer.

"This organization said you were hired." Hua Yu whispered.

Lin Fan turned off the email, and then disconnected the Internet.

"Made a mistake."

Hua Yu grabbed Lin Fan's arm, "Why did you send it wrong? Your name is on it."

"Isn't this kind of email very normal? With better qualifications, there will be a lot of wrong words casually, and it will say that the company that signed you is harassing you." Lin Fan just looked at him indifferently.

Hua Yu pursed his lips and shook his head.

Lin Fan frowned, "Why?"

Hua Yu was silent, took out his mobile phone and showed Lin Fan the information he had just found: "Is GISN a random company? Would you submit your resume casually?"

"So what? It's said that it was sent by mistake. I haven't submitted my resume at all." Lin Fan walked out the door, "You do it first, I'm going out to study. I have an exam tomorrow."

Hearing this somewhat contradictory explanation, Hua Yu stared blankly in the room for a while, then put down his worried expression and concentrated on helping Lin Fan with the computer.

After another half an hour, Lin Fan went into the house to get a change of clothes.

"Is it done?" Lin Fan asked, "Okay, let's go take a shower."

Hua Yu nodded, "Not yet."

Lin Fan went over to take a look and said, "Don't worry about it, let it run by itself, take a shower and do it again."

Hua Yu naturally listened to Lin Fan, so the two entered the bathroom one after the other.

Lin Fan first helped Hua Yu take off his clothes, and then wiped Hua Yu's body with a towel soaked in water, carefully avoiding Hua Yu's wound sutures.Hua Yu cooperated with Lin Fan, staring at Lin Fan's eyelashes without blinking.It's very long and dense, and when it blinks, it almost kills him.

In a blink of an eye, Lin Fan wiped the dense forest under Huayu's abdomen with a towel, and began to wipe his thighs.But the bird in the forest looked up.

Lin Fan raised his head and glanced at Hua Yu, and saw that the man's face was red from the steam, and his eyes were still a little blurred.

After hesitating for a while, Lin Fan stretched out his hand, contrary to the previous few times of turning a blind eye.

"Hmm... um..." The wrapped place kept getting hot and throbbing uncontrollably, Hua Yu closed his eyes tightly, feeling the coming pleasure.

"Do you want me to accept that offer?"

The sudden deep voice reached the eardrums, Hua Yu opened his eyes suddenly, feeling that his whole body was chilled by these words.

"Do you want to?" Fingers began to slide again.

Hua Yu gritted his teeth, even though there was a thousand reluctance in his heart, he still hoped that Lin Fan would walk out of his own world, and that he would not become an obstacle on his way.If he is Mingyue, he will also enjoy the happiness of looking up at him.

"Don't worry, I won't stop you."

"Really?" Lin Fan twitched his lips and looked at Hua Yu's gentle eyes, with a half-smile, and the raised eyebrows looked dangerous.

"It hurts... a little less."

"It hurts?" Lin Fan sneered, "Oh, then I'm gone, does your heart hurt even more?"

"It hurts, it hurts." Hua Yu's hand held Lin Fan's, and he gasped slightly, with a look of pain in his eyes, "But you shouldn't stay here, you will definitely develop better if you go there."

"How do you know that I will be better without you?" Lin Fan frowned, and he was more rude and forceful. This was not the answer he wanted to hear.From the first day he knew Hua Yu, he knew that he was warm-hearted and kind, but wouldn't such a person be selfish?

To him, wouldn't he be someone who would die and never want to let go?

Hua Yu snorted, "Xiao Fan, let go!"

Lin Fan stubbornly refused to let go, and pointedly said, "Will it hurt if you let go or not? If it really hurts, you can say it again, let go."

Gritting his teeth tightly, Hua Yu finally held back his muffled groan, using this pain to taste what Lin Fan felt in his heart at the moment.

Hua Yu didn't open his eyes until it broke out and soiled Lin Fan's hand. He forcefully opened Lin Fan's hand and rinsed it with water.When he raised his head, he found water droplets overflowing from Lin Fan's eyes.And the long and dense eyelashes that he thought were the most charming were wet in the blink of an eye.

"Xiao Fan." Hua Yu was startled, his eyes widened, and his chaotic mind suddenly came to his senses.

"...are you crying?"

"I once thought that if I hate you one day, it must be because you are too gentle."

Lin Fan blinked, and the tears fell even more fiercely.Even he himself didn't know why he was crying. He didn't know whether it was because he felt guilty for Hua Yu's cruel behavior just now, or because he couldn't suppress the heartbreak under his cold surface.

"Xiao Fan." Hua Yu pulled Lin Fan in front of him, raised his head, and let Lin Fan's tears keep hitting his face.

There was pain in Lin Fan's eyes, he choked and hugged Hua Yu's head and said angrily: "Yes, I hurt you and were pushed out by others, you are actually annoying me, now I have a chance, don't you want me to go away ?”

"I didn't." Hua Yu panicked when he saw Lin Fan's tears, not to mention Lin Fan sobbed and said such self-deprecating words, which really made Hua Yu feel troubled.

"You know how much I love you." Hugging Lin Fan's waist, the corners of Hua Yu's eyes were also a little hot, and he stretched out his hand to wipe Lin Fan's tears, but the tears couldn't be wiped away.

"Don't cry, I really didn't mean that."

"Xiaofan, I love you. I never found you annoying. On the contrary, it's me who always annoys you. That's why I'm worried that you will leave me."

"I don't want you to leave me at all."

……

An explanation could not solve any problems at all, Lin Fan was still sad, this incident was like a fuse, releasing all the anxiety in his heart.He is a human being, how can he be invincible, what he needs most is Huayu, but this person wants him to leave him to develop.

Should he be generous or cruel?

Lin Fan couldn't see Hua Yu's face clearly, after a while he had calmed down a lot, suddenly felt that crying was really a cheap thing for him, so he wiped the corners of his eyes vigorously with the back of his hand, but it became more red and swollen.

Hua Yu separated his fingers, held his face and called him, "Xiaofan... I love you, don't cry..."

"Then do you know how much I love you?" Lin Fan said, but found that his voice was shaking violently.He took a deep breath and said fiercely to Hua Yu, "Do you think I'm willing to leave you? Do you know why I'm with you? It's because of your little caring, or a little tenderness... Who the fuck cares about it!"

"Xiaofan...me."

"Shut up!" Lin Fan pinched Hua Yu's hand, no matter how harsh his tone was, the tears in the corners of his eyes betrayed his mood.

There was only heavy breathing and the sound of rushing water in the bathroom, and every minute and every second that passed was like suffering.

Hua Yu raised his eyes to see Lin Fan's tears being wiped away and overflowing continuously, his heart ached to death, he got up and hugged Lin Fan after waiting for a second, regardless of whether the wound would still be wet or not.

"Don't leave me, I don't want you to go." Hua Yu rubbed Lin Fan's head and kept kissing the top of his hair.

"If I'm by your side, you will be hurt. If I'm not by your side, will you die... It's me, it's me who can't live without you... Well... Don't let go, or I will kill you." Later, For some reason, I started to choke up to the point where I couldn't speak.

Hua Yu hugged Lin Fan's back with both hands and slowly rubbed it, comforting Lin Fan.

It wasn't until Lin Fan cried enough, as if realizing how embarrassing he was, that he wanted to move and leave Hua Yu.

Hua Yu let go of him slightly, but still held his hand, "Xiao Fan, it's a pity that you don't contribute to society with such a good mind."

Lin Fan glared at him, "You really think highly of me." He is just an ordinary person, he has tried, and when there is no Hua Yu, he will become bored, irritable, and have no mind to study at all.

He is just a seed that relies on Huayu to grow.Roots have taken root, buds have sprouted, branches and leaves are flourishing, and it is reluctant and inseparable.

"But I want you to be an ordinary person." Hua Yu got up and reached out to touch Lin Fan's cheek, "You stay, okay?"

Lin Fan froze for a moment, forgetting to breathe.

"Daddy said that love is actually a kind of bondage." Hua Yu said, "If I was selfish for a while, would you hate me?"

Lin Fan rubbed Hua Yu's hand holding his cheek, raised the corner of his mouth slightly, and looked at Hua Yu with red eyes, extremely sincere.

"I'd rather you be selfish and pay for me."

Huayu's heart was beating non-stop, at this moment he suddenly understood.

It was Lin Fan's love for him that had always been hidden under the contradictory personality of indifference and sensitivity, ruthlessness and enthusiasm.

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