The Disaster of Shyness

The night is slightly cool, not as chilling as people's hearts.

The world is mottled and blurred, and the road they walk seems to be covered with thorns, and they can't escape the destined ending after going around.

"Will you be sad if I say I want to break up?"

Hua Yu's heart was shocked, he couldn't believe Lin Fan's words, and was stunned.

There was silence between the two of them for a while, and the rustling of leaves next to their ears made people uneasy.

"Isn't it?" The corners of Lin Fan's mouth raised a contemptuous arc, his eyes were a little timid, he didn't look at Hua Yu, but was reflected in the night with a little bit of desolation.

Hua Yu came back to his senses, and hurriedly said: "Why did you break up? Did I do something wrong?"

"You haven't answered my question yet." Lin Fan raised his chin slightly, "Will you be sad?"

"Yes!" Exhaled a breath, Hua Yu seemed to be enduring some sad emotions to make a difficult decision, he found that his fingers were a little stiff when he wanted to touch Lin Fan.

Hearing this answer that he didn't know if he was looking forward to, Lin Fan didn't know if he should be thankful, and the boredom in his heart didn't disappear at all.

"Xiao Fan..." After calming down for a few seconds, Hua Yu anxiously held Lin Fan's arm, pretending to be relaxed. "You misunderstood, didn't you? I didn't expect Xiaofan to be jealous of me."

Lin Fan pursed his lips tightly, staring at Hua Yu's smiling face, his expression was indifferent, as if showing signs of anger.

"He's really not my first love, you are." Hua Yu was a little flustered, no matter whether anyone would pass by, as if he was afraid of losing the most precious person, he held Lin Fan in his arms and said, "Don't be angry."

Lin Fan's chin rested on Hua Yu's shoulder, and he heard Hua Yu's cautious voice, which was the same as the tone he used to fear that he would be sad, with three points of flattery and seven points of pampering.In the past, he should have blamed him for making intimate gestures without avoiding suspicion, but now he always feels a little sad if he pushes away.

"Who is he?" Lin Fan asked.

Hearing Lin Fan's muffled voice at first glance, Hua Yu was stunned for a few seconds before he realized, "It's just a client."

"What else?" Lin Fan said calmly, "Don't hide from me."

"He... I kissed him when I was a kid. So he said I stole his first kiss, but in fact..."

"I always thought I was your first kiss." Lin Fan's voice was still muffled, with a hint of self-mockery.

"I'm sorry, I didn't understand anything when I was a child." Hua Yu hugged his back affectionately and said, "I regret it very much now. I wish I had known you earlier."

Lin Fan didn't seem to be moved by this, and said coldly: "His surname is An."

"Well, yes." Hua Yu responded with a puzzled tone.

"Have you ever had a crush on him?" Lin Fan asked back.

"No, I have never had a crush on anyone except you!" Hua Yu replied affirmatively, and his unthinking attitude made Lin Fan ponder the truthfulness of his words.

"Then who is An An?"

"An'an?"

"You have many letters to a man named An An."

"You know?" Hua Yu was surprised, his eyes dodged a bit.

"If I didn't accidentally read your letter, how long are you going to use me as a substitute?"

Lin Fan smelled the laundry detergent on Hua Yu's body and was a little dazed. He didn't expect that he would beat around the bush and be forced to ask in the end.

Who is Ann?This question is like a thorn in his heart, it will hurt if you pull it out, and it will hurt if you don't pull it out.

"Stand-in?" Hua Yu was puzzled.Does the substitute mean the spare tire he thought of?How can it be!His feelings for him can be learned from heaven and earth.

"Yeah, a stand-in." Lin Fan felt that his nose was sour, and he suddenly felt that he was wronged, that a person like himself, who doesn't care about anything in the eyes of others, would feel humble just because he fell in love with someone It's okay to be a stand-in.

"He's doing the same thing as me. In reality, I'm with you, but in the letter, he's with you." After Lin Fan finished speaking, he suddenly became violent, and fiercely opened his mouth and bit Hua Yu's neck.

How long?It has been six or seven years since I saw that notebook, how could I tolerate it for so long?

Tasting a trace of bloody smell in his mouth, Lin Fan thought fiercely: Would it be good to kill him?

All he got was what An An didn't want, why did he cherish it so much?

"Hmph." Hua Yu snorted, unconsciously tightening his hand holding Lin Fan, not daring to push Lin Fan away, and subconsciously felt that the current situation was worse than when he was fighting with Lin Fan before.

"Xiao Fan..." Hua Yu called him weakly, "My neck hurts, so your heart hurts even more, right?" After speaking, he stretched out a hand to stroke Lin Fan's hair, trying to comfort him. he.

Lin Fan was startled, but he didn't let go.His face was still tightly pressed against Hua Yu's neck.

"Sorry, I didn't intend to hide it from you. It's just that Daddy and they don't allow me to miss An'an, so I have to secretly write to miss him."

When Hua Yu thought of An Anlai, he felt sad and a little dazed.It seems that he hasn't written to An An for a long time, and the happiness with Lin Fan seems to have made him forget about the deceased brother that he couldn't let go of the most.Suddenly, he felt a little sorry for An An, and also for Lin Fan, and his voice even had a trace of helplessness and self-blame.

"An An is my younger brother. He was born with me, but he left this world not long after."

"When I was young, my father always told me the story of An An. Although it was fictional, it just satisfied my longing and imagination. I wrote him many, many letters... Then I met you, and I was like a demon. , I think you are the An An that Dad said..."

"Do you know? From now on, I will remember all your facial expressions in my heart. I think you are him, so I will write our story to An An."

After Hua Yu finished speaking, he waited for Lin Fan's response. After a few seconds, Lin Fan let go of his mouth, and Hua Yu felt how hard Lin Fan bit him. His wound was as painful as it was connected to his heart.

Lin Fan stood up straight and broke away from Hua Yu's embrace, his nails stuck in his palm, the pain kept him rational and indifferent.

"I'm not him."

Hua Yu nodded and said seriously: "I know."

Lin Fan clenched his fist and said sharply, "But you once thought of me as him."

"I apologize."

Hearing Hua Yu's straightforward answer, Lin Fan felt a little short of breath, he gasped, and thought of Hua Yu's "predecessor" he met not long ago.

"This Mr. An is not An An, but you kissed him. Next time if you meet another person named An, will you kiss him too?"

When Hua Yu heard about An Ling, he felt a headache. He really didn't expect to have to pay back the debt he owed when he was a child after almost 20 years.He hastily assured Lin Fan, "No more, I will only kiss you."

"If you kiss someone else, I'll beat you until your own mother can't recognize you." Lin Fan stretched out his fist and hit Hua Yu's chest.

"Xiao Fan, I only have two fathers."

Hearing the smile in Hua Yu's muffled voice, Lin Fan shut up, lowered his fist and stuffed it into his pocket.

Hua Yu carefully looked into Lin Fan's eyes, and his heart moved.

"Xiaofan."

"What?"

"Your eyes are red."

"No!" Lin Fan blinked to hide it, "Go back."

"Wait a minute, I have a question." Hua Yu's eyes were shining in the night, reminding Lin Fan of Liang Xi's fox eyes.

"You knew An An a long time ago, why didn't you ask An An about it before?"

Lin Fan paused for a few seconds, then tilted his head and said in a low voice, "I don't want to ask."

Seeing that Lin Fan turned to leave, Hua Yu felt a little happy in his heart. He knew Lin Fan's answer.

It turned out that Lin Fan also had something to be afraid of, and he was also worried about losing him.

"I'm sorry, I won't confuse my feelings again." Hua Yu quickly walked in front of Lin Fan, then quickly cupped his chin and kissed him.

The lips and teeth are intertwined, and they are in love with each other.

"Hmm." Lin Fan snorted sweetly.

Hua Yu held Lin Fan's hand, interlocked his fingers, and looked affectionately.

"The person I love, his name is Lin Fan."

Feeling the force of Huayu's fingers, for some reason, the hesitation and entanglement in Lin Fan's heart were suddenly untied. All of today's events seemed to be some kind of opportunity, which changed his view on this relationship.

He originally planned that if Huayu really used him as a substitute, he would slowly accept Huayu's past, and then make some efforts to make Huayu love him more than An'an.

He wants this person to be his now, and it will be his in the future.

But only now did I realize that I was really a little stupid and a little cowardly.He was afraid of losing him, so he dared not ask.But since An An is a person who no longer exists in this world, what else does he care about.

The wind blew over his face, carrying a trace of moisture, Lin Fan found that Hua Yu was staring at him non-stop.

"Look at what?" Lin Fan asked.He touched the corners of his eyes, the heat in his eyes just now should not make his eyes look so red and swollen.

"Landscape." Hua Yu smiled, drunk, his cheeks were slightly red in the hazy moonlight, and he couldn't hide it.

"What?" Lin Fan looked at him like an idiot, but felt that Hua Yu's sudden shyness seemed to infect him, making his face a little hot.

"I see the stars are smiling." Hua Yu said with a smile.

"Really?" There was another tender attack, but he just took this set.

Lin Fan pretended to be disdainful, but his heart was already as sticky and sweet as melted syrup.

Hua Yu took his hand and walked to the side of the road, blushing and said: "Yes. Because you are in my heart, everything I look at will feel shining."

Lin Fan raised his mouth slightly beside him.

I like you, I see you all.

For them, the existence of each other is not complete, but perfect.

When he got home at night, Hua Yu looked at the wound in the mirror.

Redness, swelling, bleeding, some inflammation.

Lin Fan glanced at it, then silently came over with iodine and cotton swabs, and dragged Hua Yu to apply the medicine on the sofa.

"You bit my neck when we first met. Are you a dog?" Hua Yu smiled, thinking of the past.

"You are the dog." Lin Fan pressed hard on the wound, and the medicine juice flowed down Hua Yu's neck.Afraid that Huayu's clothes would be dirty and difficult to wash, he hastily sucked up the medicine juice with a cotton swab.

Hua Yu looked at Lin Fan with a smile, with some drunkenness on his face, as if he was not taking medicine, but drinking.

"Okay, I will be your loyal dog for the rest of my life."