The system knelt down and begged me to let it go [unlimited]

"I heard from the weather forecast that it will snow heavily here tomorrow. If we get up tomorrow morning, the whole city should be covered in snow."

When returning from the strawberry picking garden, Fei Yuan invited Ji Congming like this: "Ji Congming, would you like to go see the snow with me?"

want, want.

I want...to go see the snow with Feigaki.I want to be with Feigaki.

As long as you stay by his side, you will feel at ease.

"..."

Fei Yuan, who didn't get a response for a long time, didn't feel disappointed or angry: "Go back and eat something! It's your birthday today, so you should have a big meal!"

Fei Yuan ordered a lot of food, and a large stack of takeaway food was brought up and placed in the dormitory, it didn't look like the amount could be eaten by two people.

But Ji Congming worked very hard to finish them all.

——Figaki bought this specially for me to celebrate.Must finish eating!Eat it up with nothing left!

"Then, good night!" Fei Yuan waved farewell to Ji Congming with a slight drunkenness, he stopped at the gate for a while, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he just said——

"Happy Birthday!" How wonderful that you were born!

Ji Congming watched him open the door for a long time, then the iron-gray door was closed, and Fei Yuan's figure completely disappeared from his sight.

"..."

Fear, worry, disgust, dread, horror, and... pity...

Ji Congming couldn't feel these emotions, but he could understand them.

He is different from everyone else, he is a monster, a monster that brings despair to people, it is natural to be afraid and hate him.

But Figaki is no monster.

If he stays with me again, Feigaki will become a monster like him in the eyes of others, right?

Feigaki... is not a monster, he is human...

On the day of her 22nd birthday, Ji Congming ate strawberries and packed her luggage for leaving overnight.

Strawberry is very sweet and fragrant, I like it very much.

Well, I like it the most!

Although the matter of leaving Fei Yuan's side has not yet become a reality, it makes Ji Congming a little lonely.

A person's world, returning to a person's world made him even lonelier.

But, it doesn't matter.Enough is enough, although it makes people sad to part.

It was great to meet Figaki!

Because parting is painful, it seems that meeting is beautiful.

Thank you, Figaki.

When Ji Congming's application came out, Fei Yuan was still busy with work, Ji Congming didn't plan to tell him, nor did he plan to tell anyone.He was going to pack up his things in silence and leave by himself.

Ji Congming even thought that when he left, Fei Yuan was on a field trip, so he would not know anything, and would not even be seen seeing his back when he left.So Ji Congming neither bid farewell to Fei Yuan nor left him any letters.

At Ji Congming's request, the only director who knew about it agreed to hide Ji Congming's transfer until the end.But then Ji Congming was arranged for a long vacation in the name of rest, and let him handle his personal affairs.

Ji Congming has no personal affairs to speak of, so he just stays in the office.Also because of this, no one noticed that he was leaving soon.

"Fei Yuan, goodbye." Ji Congming poured the takeaway residue into the trash can, tied up the trash bag, and prepared to throw it away later.

He folded the quilt and packed his things, especially the basket of half-red and half-white strawberries, which he carried carefully, for fear of being crushed and lost.

Ji Congming left the single dormitory before the sun came out.

When he dragged his suitcase out of the dormitory, a piece of pure white snow fell on the back of his hand.A little ice.

"It's snowing..." Ji Congming raised his head and reached out to catch the cold and pure white snowflakes.

I'm sorry, Feigaki, I can't watch the snow with you.

Ji Congming didn't regret it.

It's just... a little lonely.

Hmm... just a little lonely.

When Mingming and Feigaki worked together before, they didn't seem to be very close.

Ji Congming is a strange person. There are almost no partners, classmates, friends, teachers in the same orphanage who can establish a close relationship with him.

No relatives, no friends, no interests, he is like a cloud that has no roots and cannot be fixed, drifting in this world and being incompatible with everything.

Maliciousness and kindness, these things that make people confused and people pursue all their lives, are meaningless to Ji Congming.

Even the money and rights that everyone likes are not of much use to Ji Congming.

Ji Congming has no hobbies, nor does he know how to entertain. For him, his nerves are in a relaxed state all the time, and he has no concept of rest.

So he often finds a place to sit for entertainment and leisure, whether it is in a daze, watching the sky, or watching ants.

It's just that his weirdness is even more incomprehensible to others.

it's fine.

It's just that, it's bearable.

Ok.

It doesn't matter to him, because he can bear the price of monsters wanting to enter human society.

I am very envious, I am very envious of them, so I can endure it.

Although they made an "appointment" to watch the snow together, Ji Congming left before "tomorrow" came, before Fei Yuan woke up.

Ji Congming stretched out his hand, and from time to time there were slow snowflakes falling in the palm of his hand, which was cold, so it must be a very beautiful thing, right?

Ji Congming thought so, and then left the city.

As long as I can live under the same sky as Fei Gaki, I am very satisfied.

Weird.

When Ji Congming left, he didn't leave any message to Fei Yuan, nor did he reveal any reason to him that he wanted to leave.

In the end, Fei Yuan learned from other colleagues that Ji Congming had submitted an application and changed jurisdictions and left.

He neither yelled in anger, nor depressed in frustration, but after waking up, he sat on the bench by the river for a long, long time.

He imagined that when Ji Congming left the dormitory dragging a small amount of luggage, pieces of cold snowflakes were falling.

What was Ji Congming thinking at that time?Is there a flash of my figure in his mind?

Figaki didn't know.

It wasn't until the last ray of light in the sky disappeared, and the newly lit city became gorgeous and prosperous under the illumination of snow and lights, that he slowly stood up and walked back to the dormitory.

The police is a high-risk but not high-paying profession. Fei Yuan’s daily work is not like ordinary people who can daze and fish at will. Every trivial or sudden job takes up most of his time.

He seldom has time to think about Ji Congming, but he always feels that he is missing something.

Life was fairly ordinary, Fei Yuan never encountered any serious danger, nor did he encounter any difficult cases.The society is stable and the people live a happy life.But Figaki was not happy.

Sometimes, he would look at a certain place in a trance, and the trances he called "irrational" and "should not exist" appeared more and more.

Slowly, Fei Yuan sometimes thinks that he can see the world in Ji Congming's eyes.

It's not in a daze, it's not in a daze, it's just looking at the nothingness world from afar.

Empty and lonely.

Nothing exists.

Is it because you are used to it?

Fei Yuan wanted Ji Congming to see something different.

"Ji Congming, it's snowing again."

After a year, the mobile phone number that he has always memorized has not been abandoned, but apart from receiving messages, he has never replied to him.

Fei Yuan is used to a text message every day, sometimes it's about the weather on his side today, sometimes it's a picture, and there are also pictures that don't know what to send, so he just sent a comma.

He sends text messages almost regularly at around eight o'clock in the evening every day, and the person on the opposite side also regularly reads the text messages as soon as they are sent.

There is no read or unread function for text messages, but Fei Yuan can always think of Ji Congming turning on his phone to check the news the first time he receives a text message.

Fei Yuan never asked why Ji Congming left, nor did Ji Congming explain anything to Fei Yuan.

The two just texted and read text messages tacitly.

Ji Congming has changed many mobile phones, but every text message is always intact in his memory.

Mission notifications, text messages from Higaki, text messages from Higaki, text messages from Higaki...

Ji Congming doesn't know the meaning of his existence, nor why he was born.

He seldom thinks about these, and never thinks about what will happen in the future.

He just quietly spends a life that is too long for a butterfly in nothingness.

But because of Fei Yuan's text message, Ji Congming began to look forward to it.

Looking forward to tomorrow.

Even if it's just a random comma, Ji Congming is very happy.

One, completely different mood from the past.

Emotions other than loneliness.

So when meeting Feigaki again, the suppressed emotion can no longer be restrained.

I want to stay by Feigaki's side.

No matter what, I want to be by his side, I want to be with him.

It is no longer for not being lonely, no longer for keeping oneself alive, but because that person is Fei Yuan, it is Fei Yuan.

Ji Congming thinks that he can always be strong, it doesn't matter if he doesn't have relatives, it doesn't matter if he doesn't have friends, and it doesn't matter if he doesn't have Fei Yuan.

He came into the world alone, and in the end he just left alone.

Fei Yuan is very gentle, Ji Congming is very happy to be a classmate, colleague, and friend with Fei Yuan, super happy!

So he can't be willful.

Wayward children are not liked.

He didn't want Fei Yuan to become a monster in other people's mouth like him, so that's fine.

That's... enough.Because, I have absorbed enough warmth from Fei Gaki.

Enough to let him relive the warmth of a lifetime.

But as a human being, greed is the original sin engraved in the bones. Not being satisfied, not knowing how to be satisfied, will always be a bad root that people can't let go of.

Even Ji Congming who is a monster, no matter how weird he is, the greed that exists as a human being is engraved in this "human" body just like genes.

Wanting to see him, even if he can't see him, even if he can't hear his voice, Fei Yuan's words, Fei Yuan's actions, and every close contact with Fei Yuan can satisfy him endlessly.

It's just that text messages twice a day can no longer satisfy him, he wants... to go to Fei Yuan's side.

During the days when he was separated from Feigaki, the memories with Feigaki kept appearing in his world like a bug that couldn't be deleted.The lazy Feigaki, the stern Feigaki, the smiling Feigaki, the sleeping Feigaki... Whether it is the Feigaki who scolded him, laughed at him, or deliberately ignored him, they will never be forgotten.