Song Song

Lin Xiaosong went back to the previous house, took out the bed of cotton from the cupboard and put on a quilt cover, straightened out the corners, and let it be covered at night.The cotton comes from the morning market in my hometown. It is played by people from Xinjiang and weighs six catties. After traveling with him for four or five years, it still feels fluffy and soft to the touch.

"Dad, will the kindergarten car pick me up here tomorrow?" Lele was still holding up the milk tea cup, which was already empty.

"Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr-" the straw rubbed against the air to make an annoying sound, no less than a fingernail scraping a blackboard.

Lin Xiaosong turned his head and glanced at his daughter: "Hey, I've already drunk it, go and throw it away."

Lele was still sucking in the air vigorously, tilting his head to look at Lin Xiaosong: "Then tell me, will the car come?"

"Let's get up early tomorrow, and Dad will take you there." Lin Xiaosong thought for a while, "Tomorrow Dad will go to school with you, and throw away the empty cup."

"Okay." Lele ran to the kitchen in a jolt, and there was a knock on the door at the right time. She still had the same procedure as before, first asking who it was, and then deciding whether to open the door or not.

After Lele finished asking, she unscrewed the door, wrinkled her face, and muttered aggrievedly: "Uncle, why did you drive me and Dad out?"

Chu Yi bent over to hold her steady, and walked straight into the room with his long legs. It was difficult to speak, his whole body was obviously tired and tense, and the light cast its shadow on the white wall, as thin as a piece of paper.

"You go back." Lin Xiaosong was putting on a pillow and didn't look at him, "I'm staying here with Lele today."

Chu Yi gently put down the child, and dragged her to Lin Xiaosong. His Adam's apple moved and his voice was low: "Girl, is there a parent-child sports meeting tomorrow? I've already asked for leave."

Lin Xiaosong patted the two covered pillows, placed them on the head of the bed, one on the left and one on the right, and glanced at the ignorant child. There was no fluctuation in his voice, "I don't need to trouble you, I'll just go."

Chu Yi stared at him closely, then sighed suddenly: "They're all married, and I'm her father too."

"Sounds good." Lin Xiaosong looked at him with the end of his eyes, "In your house, no one really cares about my daughter's life except me. She doesn't fit in and can't play with other children. You Do you know about it with your mother? You must say it, others can do it, why can’t she, then I will tell you today, she has never had a good day with me, Lin Xiaosong, and I can only lock her at home when I go to work. Talk to her, so she's weird, so she doesn't fit in."

Speaking of the latter, each word was heavier than the last word, almost gnashing his teeth, but who could understand the great significance of this child to him.The timing of the encounter was too perfect, such a small milk doll was thrown by her biological parents at the entrance of the hospital, surrounded by so many people, she just grinned at him.He stood in the crowd and smiled at her too.The two secretly reached an "agreement" in this way, and Lin Xiaosong came back to life as if a dead tree was springing up.

Chu Yi was helpless, the pain of losing his daughter was still stuck in his heart, and the ground was covered with chicken feathers again. The man calmed down for a while, and said earnestly: "Come home with me, we can talk about it when we go back."

Lin Xiaosong said, "That's your home."

Chu Yi looked at Lin Xiaosong, explored for a while, and tried to piece together the appearance of a female doll. There are probably two dimples and her skin is very white. Will she be like Lin Xiaosong when she cries, with snot and tears streaming down her face? ?

"Is she good?" the man suddenly asked.

Lele has been looking at the two adults curiously, and finally understands this sentence, and can't wait to interject: "I'm very good, the teachers all praise me!"

Lin Xiaosong looked at Lele, dazed for a long time, and suddenly pulled the corner of his lower lip, "It's all over, you don't care if she is good or not, children have accidents every year, not bad for our family."

Chu Yi swayed for a while, his footsteps were flimsy, and he had nowhere to put his strength on. He could only hold Lin Xiaosong's arm tightly, and muttered, "Why didn't you bring the child back to me?"

Lin Xiaosong shook off his hand, eyes scarlet: "How many times have I called you, will you admit it!? Chu Yi, the child is gone, and your family has to take responsibility!"

Lele was so scared by the battle in front of her that she didn't dare to make a sound. She was so stupid that she couldn't even cry. She frowned and pursed her lips. After a long time, with a "wow", she ran over and hugged her father's thigh, " Dad, don't be angry, don't be angry, okay?"

"Good boy." Lin Xiaosong squatted down, wiped away tears, and patted the child's back, "Daddy is not angry."

Chu Yi was so angry that he let out a long sigh, bent over and took the child's creaking nest, threw her to the bedroom door, and locked the door.

"You're crazy!" Lin Xiaosong rushed over to open the door.

Chu Yi blocked him with determined eyes: "Let's go back to your hometown to see our daughter."

Lin Xiaosong sneered: "People are dead, what's there to see." After speaking, he wanted to pull the door again.

Chu Yi clamped him tightly, most of the weight of his body fell on Lin Xiaosong, he gritted his teeth, his voice was completely broken, his voice was hoarse and dry as if it had been swept away by wind and sand, "Songsong, let's go back and see her."

A man has never experienced such a fragile moment. Since his parents divorced, he was the only man in his family. He stood upright at a young age, and his childhood was fleeting. He was prematurely sensible and mature. The life and death parting of life, thinking that the world is indifferent, has long been numb.

"I haven't been back for six years. What are you going to do? If you really want to, treat Lele better." Lin Xiaosong closed his eyes, his voice was so soft that he could hardly hear him, "I'm the only child left..."

The child outside the door was crying, Chu Yi gradually let go of the person in his arms, and opened the door. The little girl stared at him with tears in her eyes, as if he was a big villain.

Lin Xiaosong turned his back and wiped his face, then turned around, squatted down and hugged him coaxingly: "Be obedient, don't cry, let's be good and get the first place tomorrow."

"I hate this uncle." Lele burst into tears.

A bell rang to break the deadlock.

Chu Yi picked it up, and it was Gu Xuyang who sounded like he was drunk, his tone was slurred, his tongue seemed to be tied up, he frowned, and asked, "What's the matter?"

Next to it was the sound of booing from others.

Chu Yi immediately understood what was going on, and seeing that Lin Xiaosong was already helping the child untwist the braids, he replied "I'm very busy now" and immediately hung up.

"Lele, let's go take a shower." Lin Xiaosong pushed his daughter towards the bathroom.

Chu Yi said: "Come back with me?"

Lele turned her head and glared at it angrily. Lin Xiaosong closed the small bathroom door with a "bang" to block out all disturbing sounds.

Chu Yi had no choice but to stand at the door and knock the door twice, "I'm leaving." The man left the rental house, went downstairs, looked up at the faint light on the third floor, was very upset, and went to the car to switch on the light. Smoked a cigarette.

Not long after, Zhao Rui called him and scolded him for his bad attitude just now. He obviously felt wronged for Gu Xuyang in his words. What? Truth or Dare?"

Zhao Rui said cynically, "That's right, people didn't mean to call you. Who made you the 41st contact?"

Chu Yi reached out the window to flick the cigarette ash, and said in a cold voice, "He's going to be 20 years old this year, so he can do whatever he wants."

Zhao Rui was annoyed: "No, the man Gu Xuyang provoked you, why are you so cynical! Chu Yi, I found that you are heartless at all! When he chased you with all his strength, I Knowing that you can’t do a hot face with a cold butt.”

Chu Yi was just at the moment when he was struggling with depression, and unfortunately, he was bumped into by Zhao Rui. He leaned on the seat, took a deep breath of cigarettes, and his eyelids were heavy: "What's the matter? Leave your wife and children alone, and have an extramarital affair with him! If you really hope that my family will be harmonious, don't play this kind of childish game!"

Zhao Rui turned back and said, "You fucking ate dynamite today! Well, you, Dr. Chu, are personable and the most rare, I'll tell you..."

Before he finished the rest of the sentence, Chu Yi directly hung up the phone and threw the phone on the passenger seat.

After smoking half a pack of cigarettes in the car, Chu Yi looked at his watch. It was almost time for the child to take a bath. He picked up his phone and sent Lin Xiaosong a WeChat message, "Is there a sports meeting at eight o'clock tomorrow, girl?" ?”

After waiting for a while, but did not receive a reply, Chu Yi threw away the cigarette butt in his hand and drove away.

When I got home, Mother Chu sat on the sofa before she went back, as if she had lost her soul, and when she saw him, tears came down, "I remembered, he is the child who shared the rent with you back then... Is there such a time?" Well, he went to our house to look for you..."

Chu Yi said: "Don't go back today, just sleep in the child's room."

Mother Chu clutched her chest, distraught and indignant: "How could I have thought that he was pregnant with a child at that time? You said how could I have imagined it!? I have worked so hard to hope that you will have a child. I want to know, I ..." As he spoke, he broke down in tears, covering his face and weeping.

Chu Yi was bored hearing this, so he took a few steps on the balcony, then walked back, looked at his mother, and said, "From now on, I will treat Lele as your own granddaughter, and treat that child with treats."

Chu's mother stopped crying and tried to calm down, "You go and bring your daughter-in-law back, you must, you must bring her back."

Chu Yi took out the cigarette case, picked up a cigarette and put it in his mouth, trying to light it, but he couldn't touch the lighter, maybe it was left on the car, so he directly smoked the cigarette, pinched it tightly in his palm, and said impatiently : "Go to bed early, there are still a lot of things to do tomorrow."

The man took a hot shower and lay down on the bed. He looked at his phone, but there was still no reply. After thinking about it, he edited another message, "I'll pick you up tomorrow morning."