Song Song

Later, it was the hospital that Zhou Yue accompanied him to. This time, he had a B-ultrasound, which showed that the fetus was almost four months old. The doctor did not recommend abortion. Firstly, the month was too long. Which hospital dares to take responsibility.

Coming out of the hospital, Zhou Yue finally understood what her boyfriend said. Men, they are all ruthless beasts, coaxing children into saying "you can't be pregnant", bah, it's thanks to him that he can say that.

After much deliberation, Zhou Yue found that the only way to go now was to lose money. She pulled Lin Xiaosong over and said earnestly, "Songsong, listen to my sister, you have to go find him again."

People came and went in the outpatient hall, Lin Xiaosong went to the leisure area to find a chair to sit down, tossed and tossed all morning, he was a little tired, and his voice was weak, "Why do you still want him, I will go to another hospital to see, If the big hospital doesn’t work, I’ll go to a small clinic.”

Zhou Yue understood what he meant, and felt somewhat regretful: "You really don't want this child?"

Lin Xiaosong scratched his fingernails without raising his head: "I don't want it, and I don't have the money to support him."

Zhou Yue also sat down, and comforted softly: "It's fine if you think about it clearly, it's okay, it won't hurt after taking anesthetics."

Lin Xiaosong didn't delay, and went to many hospitals one after another. He was pregnant with a heavy burden, and he was wheezing and wheezing after walking a few steps. The hospitals in the city were useless. He found a small private clinic on the outskirts of the city.

They agreed to operate on him, but they had to sign a lot of messy pre-operative agreements. In a word, they were not responsible for anything that happened.

He has been going out recently without a mask and a hat. The clothes on his body are all loose, and there is no sign of pregnancy.I don't know him well, and I can't even tell his gender.

"Are you sure? If you're sure, sign behind here." The nurse said, "After a while, the girl inside is well, and you can go in directly."

Lin Xiaosong did not take off his mask, and signed his name stroke by stroke with a black pen.

The nurse sneaked a few more glances at him, and felt that this man was weird and abnormal. The main reason was that his voice was a little rougher than that of ordinary women, but it was not so rough. His hairstyle looked like a tomboy. If she hadn't come to them for this kind of operation, she would Probably thought it was a man.

A 50-year-old female doctor came out. She had just finished a bloodbath. She took off her mask and said to the nurse, "I'll take a break and let the rest wait."

The female doctor went to the cupboard to get some tea leaves, made herself a cup of tea, then sat back in her seat, squinted at the signed agreement on the table, flipped through it casually, and gave up.

The tea leaves slowly boiled, she picked up the cup and blew on it, took a sip slowly, and then chatted with the female nurse about the mahjong game last night, saying that she lost 2000 yuan last night and was all caught by so-and-so. Won.

The female nurse said, "Whether you lose or win, you win alone. No one will dare to play cards with you in the future."

"I'm not reconciled, what can I do with 2000 yuan?"

"The money will come down after one operation."

Lin Xiaosong was sitting on a tall leather swivel chair swinging his legs, like a timid cat, always wary of his surroundings.He didn't know what he was afraid of.

At this time, a young girl came out from the "back room", leaning on the side of the wall and moving forward in small steps.

The female doctor raised her eyebrows slightly, and she looked very mean. She said to the girl: "You should lie down for a few days when you go back, and let your family make some nourishing soup."

The girl ignored her and continued to stagger forward.

Lin Xiaosong jumped off the chair and walked over to help him. The girl whispered "thank you" to him.

The voice is clean and clear, and if you look closely, she is also very beautiful, with a beautiful temperament.

Lin Xiaosong wanted to take her to the station outside, but the girl brushed his hand away and refused: "No need, I can walk there by myself."

After she left, the female doctor said to the nurse: "I shaved for the fifth time, and the uterus is like iron." She got up and poured some of the strong tea in the cup into the trash can, and then added water into it. , "I know it's cool when I take off my pants. The little girl nowadays doesn't understand self-love at all."

The nurse was not surprised: "She is quite pretty, who knows what she does."

The female doctor put down the glass and smiled meaningfully: "It's hard to say."

These harsh words, like glass across the night sky, made Lin Xiaosong's scalp tingle.

"Go in." The female doctor said suddenly.

Lin Xiaosong walked in timidly, and then stuck in front of the hospital bed like a log.

He dared not lie down.

"Take off your clothes, just lie on it." The female doctor said.

Lin Xiaosong looked at the female doctor and said tremblingly, "Auntie, I'm a little scared."

The female doctor was wearing latex gloves. Hearing his voice, she felt strange. She couldn't help but look back, but it was clearly a little girl about to undergo an abortion.

"There's nothing to be afraid of. Once you close your eyes and open them, you'll be relieved when the anesthesia wears off." The female doctor prepared the surgical tools, saw that he was still standing, and became impatient, "What's the matter with you kid?" Ah, I didn't think about it before I came here."

Lin Xiaosong didn't speak, but looked at her with pleading and mournful eyes.

The female doctor sighed, and her tone was a bit mean: "Nineteen, not too young, there are people who come to me who are several years younger than you, and they are not like you." Seeing that he is still wearing a mask , I couldn’t help but feel a little displeased, “Why do you still wear a mask when talking to people?”

Lin Xiaosong evaded and lied, "I have a cold."

The female doctor said nothing more.

Lin Xiaosong lay down on the bed, like a frightened kitten, he missed his grandma, if his grandma was still there, she would definitely give him a lot of advice.

This is an old small clinic. The wall skin on the ceiling is peeling off, a large piece is torn out, and it is crumbling at any time.There was a strong smell of blood everywhere in the room, perhaps it was left by the last girl.

Lin Xiaosong accepted his fate steadfastly. As soon as he lay down on the bed just now, he knew that no one could change his own fate and the fate of this little thing in his belly.

"Auntie, I'm ready." Lin Xiaosong said to the female doctor.

The female doctor turned around with the tray in her hand, raised and closed her eyes, and discovered Lin Xiaosong's secret.

"I can't do your surgery." The female doctor put down the tray and took off the mask from behind her left ear.

Lin Xiaosong understood her astonished and slightly disgusted eyes, and without saying a word, lowered his head and put on his clothes and trousers.

The female doctor left him inside, went out and said to the nurse: "Return the man's money, I dare not perform this operation."

The nurse asked puzzledly, "Is there something unclean about him?"

The female doctor should be whispering to the nurse, but Lin Xiaosong couldn't hear clearly from inside. When he came out, the nurse's eyes started to beat him up and down again.

"Here, your money." The nurse handed him the money with one hand.

Lin Xiaosong took the money, folded it in half and stuffed it into his pocket.

The nurse looked at him, and said in a strange way: "You have to tell us clearly in advance, if you know your situation, I won't let you sign what the consent form says."

Lin Xiaosong ignored her, and walked out of the small clinic with his schoolbag on his back and his head held high.But as soon as he stepped out of the door, tears rolled down his face.

The voices of the two people in the room were still harsh, piercing Lin Xiaosong's heart like a sharp knife. He stood at the door and listened for a while.

"It scared me to death. When I looked up, that thing jumped into my eyes... like a monster."

The nurse echoed: "No wonder the voice is strange. I was still wondering, which little girl has such a rough voice."

The female doctor giggled, like an old bustard, "But ah, I've learned a lot today, and it's neither male nor female. It's really the first time I've seen it."

Lin Xiaosong pulled off his mask, rushed in and kicked over the trash can beside the desk, staring at the two women with scarlet eyes angrily.

He can only bluff like this, and besides that, he has nothing, neither can he ask them to shut up forever, nor can he ask the heartless man to sympathize with his long suffering.

"What are you doing! You don't know what's going on with you!" the female doctor said angrily.

Lin Xiaosong kicked the trash can again, then turned and walked away.

The long journey was long, and the setting sun was hanging at the end of the road. He walked along the road, stepped on the wild flowers and weeds on the side, and chanted a little poem he had memorized before.

"I am a thousand times dead/The man who always sleeps to the left/I am a thousand times dead/The woman who always sleeps to the right/I am a thousand times after the funeral/The friendship from far away/I am a thousand At the climax of a funeral/Mother's guttural trembling consonants..."

Yes, he is a man who sleeps on the left and a woman who sleeps on the right. His home is in the countryside in the northeast, where wheat and corn are abundant.

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