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"Teacher, why do you come to me, why do you have to explain, isn't it good to let me misunderstand? Then maybe I won't pester you, and you don't have to force yourself to get along with me."

"The teacher called me just now. I thought the teacher might like me a little bit, but I said in my heart that he couldn't feel the teacher's love at all, and my reason told me that the idea that you might like me may be an illusion at all. .”

"But there is no way. I don't want to give up on the teacher at all. There may be nothing to hope for, but I can't persuade myself to give up. I can't even silently bless the teacher. Am I selfish and narrow-minded?"

"The last time I was sick, I told my father everything. After listening to it, he ignored me and just woke up, so he slapped me. He said, he didn't look down on me for liking men, but felt that my behavior Shameless, disgusting. At that time, I felt that even my closest relatives could not accept and forgive me for what I did, how could the teacher..."

"Later he said he wanted to come to you, so I begged him not to, don't mention those shameful things to you again, I said to go back to the capital with him, and never come back again."

"Later, I broke my promise. He didn't stop me. He just told me to respect your choice. When I got on the plane, I was full of joy. I thought that I could see you and talk to you and that would be enough."

"I always thought that it was a kind of respect not to force the teacher to respond, but it was not. I knew that the teacher would not be happy to see me, but I still pestered me. I didn't realize until today when I saw the teacher smiling so happily. Although I didn't do anything, appearing in front of the teacher is actually a kind of harm." Qin Xu thought he would cry, but he didn't, instead he finished these words calmly and easily.

"So? What about your choice?" Chen Donglin said suddenly after being silent for a while.

"I choose to give up, if you can be happy, teacher." Qin Xu squeezed out a smile.

"Oh, I'm very happy. If that's the case, then I'll go home first." Chen Donglin stood up and straightened his clothes.

After walking two steps, he turned around and asked solemnly, "Are you serious?"

Qin Xu nodded, his eyes were red.

Chen Donglin opened the door expressionlessly, changed his shoes, turned around at last, and said, "I'll give you one last chance."

Qin Xu rushed forward and hugged him, he couldn't bear it at all, he has persisted for so long, why can't he persist for a while longer, maybe there is hope.

Chen Donglin took a few steps back due to momentum and inertia. He looked up at the monitor at the end of the corridor, then pushed Qin Xu away, and re-entered the room, not forgetting to close the door as well.

"You keep talking about respect, what did you do just now? Are you not afraid that I will hit you again?" Chen Donglin was aggressive.

"Go ahead." Qin Xu looked at him fearlessly, and suddenly thought of a poem in his mind: Ask the king what he wants, ask the king what he wants, peony flowers die, even ghosts are romantic.

He thought this in his mind, and actually read it out. Chen Donglin laughed out loud when he heard it. After laughing, he turned his head and kissed Qin Xu, as if he had practiced it many times, casual but precise.He fell onto the sofa with Qin Xu in his arms, and sighed leisurely. Every time it was the sofa, it might be difficult for him to look directly at the sofa in the future.

Perhaps Chen Donglin had experience before, he seemed not in a hurry to take the sweet fruit, instead he gently brushed the tip of his tongue over his lips, and then slowly drove straight in.Although his hands are very honest, Qin Xu couldn't stand the teasing, and his lower body had already reached Chen Donglin. Chen Donglin felt that he was also tending to raise his head, and pulled a little distance away from him, but he untied his belt with his hand, and then stretched out his hand. After entering, Qin Xu was even more excited, and even lifted it up.

At this moment, Chen Donglin suddenly pulled out his hand, then stood up, and sat on the sofa next to him, leaving Qin Xu who was immersed in it speechless for a while.He sat up silently, and then seemed to think of something suddenly.

"Teacher, is this revenge?"

"Indeed, you humiliated me at the time."

"But, teacher, I'm very happy, really." Qin Xu didn't feel the anger of being played at all, as if he was really happy, his eyes were shining.

"I... just wasn't ready." Chen Donglin said.In fact, he didn't play with Qin Xu, but backed away when he put his hand in. He suddenly woke up. Qin Xu is a man, and he is also a man. He can admit his feelings for him, but he can't overcome the psychological barrier. obstacle.

Qin Xu understood what he said, and was so happy that he didn't know what to say. His eyes turned red again, as if the tears he had accumulated from childhood to the present were all released after meeting Chen Donglin.

"Did anyone tell you that you love to cry?" Chen Donglin sat beside him and handed him a piece of paper.

"No, I never cried before I met my teacher." Qin Xu laughed through his tears.

"Then I'm really guilty."

"But I am willing." Qin Xu hugged him and tightened his arms.

"Okay, let go, I'll go back later."

"Why are you going back? Is it appropriate for you two to live together?"

"..."

"What if he has something wrong with you? You two have known each other for so long, it's hard not to have something."

"..."

"Don't go!" The final word was finalized.

Chen Donglin lay on his lap silently and then sent a text message to He Jianjun, saying that he had something to do and would not go back today, so he could rest well.He Jianjun only responded with a good sentence, and there was no further text.

"Isn't that good? Jian Jun finally came back from the capital, so I have to accompany him, right?" Chen Donglin said as he casually took the almonds that Qin Xu peeled for him.

"Didn't I come back from the capital?" Qin Xu complained

"You are different."

"Yes, I'm your boyfriend. He's just your friend. Isn't a boyfriend as important as a friend?"

Chen Donglin sat up and looked at Qin Xu with a complicated expression.

Qin Xu chuckled, and brought the last cashew nut to Chen Donglin's mouth.

"Just kidding, let me treat you to dinner tonight." Qin Xu bent over to clean up the table, as carefully and meticulously as before.

Chen Donglin squinted: "You wouldn't put your arms around me and say to him, this is my boyfriend asking you to keep a distance?"

"Teacher, I found that you think of me very naively, just a very ordinary meal, don't think too much."

Chen Donglin continued to squint: "Isn't it? Who said just now that it's inappropriate for single men and widows to live together?"

"..." In fact, he was really just joking, but seeing Chen Donglin texting, he felt a little secretly refreshed.

"Teacher, wait a moment." Qin Xu suddenly ran into the bedroom and took out his notebook. He opened it and saw that the screensaver was the one that Chen Donglin came out of the room with the box that gave him a gift.

"Didn't I delete this photo..."

"Really? Maybe you copied it to the computer, and only deleted the ones in the computer. There were not a single photo missing from the camera. Then this screen saver was seen by my dad."

"What did your father say?" Chen Donglin was inexplicably nervous.

"He said you looked a little dazed."

"..." Chen Donglin had nothing to say, and refused to admit it.

Chen Donglin stayed for a while and planned to go back. After all, it was not good to leave He Jianjun at home alone. It was really too deserted to be alone on the first day of the new year.Qin Xu didn't say anything, but took him to the supermarket to buy a lot of fruits and vegetables for the New Year.

"You have to go to work after tomorrow. He is at home alone, so he must buy something to entertain others?" Qin Xu pushed the shopping cart, and Chen Donglin felt that what he said made sense. Yes, thinking about it now, it's really outrageous that there is nothing at home during the Chinese New Year.

"Does he like orange juice or yogurt?" Qin Xu asked him, but Chen Donglin couldn't tell, and he didn't usually pay attention.

Qin Xu suddenly turned around and said, "I don't like drinks. Fruits like lychees and watermelons. The color is green. I don't eat spicy food or coriander. My zodiac sign is Sagittarius, remember?"

"What did you say? I didn't hear it." Chen Donglin rolled his eyes.

"..."

Qin Xu sent Chen Donglin downstairs, Chen Donglin asked him to sit down, but he refused, Chen Donglin raised his eyebrows and went up with a big bag of things. When he opened the door, He Jianjun was watching TV and saw He was startled when he came back.

"Is there something wrong? Why did you come back suddenly?" He Jianjun came over and took the things in his hand.

"Come back when you're done. It's not fun for you to be alone at home during the Chinese New Year."

He Jianjun was touched and lightly punched him on the shoulder. Actually, it was nothing, but someone remembered it and still felt very warm.

"I'm going to work tomorrow, and I don't have anything at home, so I just bought something to pass the time."

"But I'm going home tomorrow, and I can't finish these things."

"Are you leaving tomorrow?"

"Yes, I didn't have time to tell you before, I haven't been home for a long time, and then I will fly directly to the capital from my home."

Chen Donglin was a little helpless looking at this big bag of snacks, he didn't usually eat snacks very much, after returning to the room, the first thing Chen Donglin did was give Qin Xu a meal.Qin Xu asked him to take him to the department. It is not easy for everyone to celebrate the new year. Chen Donglin really did not expect this level. As a regular employee who works overtime every year, he is always the object of condolences. This year he also took two days off. Colleagues who are struggling should indeed express themselves.

Qin Xu asked him if he had told He Jianjun about the invitation to dinner at night, and Chen Donglin suddenly remembered it, but Chen Donglin guessed that Qin Xu wanted to invite two people to dinner. To be honest, Qin Xu really didn't think too much about it, he just wanted to invite Chen Donglin to dinner, but it's not good for He Jianjun to be alone at home during the Chinese New Year, so he thought about going out with three of them.

Time to Winter: Such a simple thing has to be made so complicated!

Qin Xu: I told you that it’s normal eating, don’t you believe me!

Chen Donglin didn't bother to talk to him, and went out to talk to He Jianjun about it, but He Jianjun refused as soon as he finished speaking.

"Brother, thank your friend for me. You bought so many dishes today, why don't you invite your friend to eat at home. I will cook today." Apart from the fact that He Jianjun is a really good person, cooking skills are also an important reason for living with a partner for so long.

When Chen Donglin told Qin Xu about this and praised He Jianjun for his good cooking skills, Qin Xu somehow felt a sense of crisis. After all, Chen Donglin once said that he wanted to marry a wife who could cook. How could Qin Xu not be there? They made an appointment to have dinner on time at seven o'clock.