Cool for the rest of my life

Back in the hotel room, Wen Shaonan asked Lin Hai to take a bath first, Lin Hai went in obediently, and didn't come out for a long time, the bathroom was as quiet as if there was no one there.Wen Shaonan was smoking a cigarette and thinking about something, but when he realized it, he was startled and knocked on the door quickly.Lin Hai seemed to be frightened inside, and had to shout at the top of his voice that he was fine.Wen Shaonan didn't believe a word, kicked open the door and rushed in, the shower head hadn't sprayed water for a long time, Lin Hai stood in the corner holding his clothes in panic.

"What are you doing? Why didn't you come out after taking a shower? I thought you..." Cut your wrists and committed suicide?Wen Shaonan was furious, why is this person so thin?Under the dim light, Lin Hai's skin was a bit dark, his facial features were blurred, and Wen Shaonan could see his clear ribs.

Lin Hai hugged his clothes to block his important parts, was frightened by Wen Shaonan's anger, and said timidly: "I...I don't have any clothes to change." The clothes I wore today were dirty and smelled of sweat. Lin Hai didn't want to wear it anymore.

Wen Shaonan calmed down instantly, that's right, who would be determined to die with a change of clothes?Didn't he himself bring nothing because he left in a hurry?

"You wipe off the water first and come out, lie down under the blanket, don't catch a cold. I'm going out to buy clothes, you wait for me to come back." After Wen Shaonan finished speaking, he turned and went out. Lin Hai heard the door ring, and came out of the bathroom carefully. The door opened again. Wen Shaonan unexpectedly came back again, Lin Hai jumped onto the bed in a jerk and wrapped himself up tightly.Wen Shaonan was a little annoyed, and also too anxious, when is this, where is the clothing store still open?

"Go to bed first, let the front desk buy it for us early tomorrow morning." Wen Shaonan thought about it just now, and decided not to leave Lin Hai, because Lin Hai is too quiet and well-behaved. Now that he is seriously ill and cannot seek death, who knows he Are you still thinking of dying again?After running so far to find the person, what if he went downstairs and someone jumped out of the window?Wen Shaonan can't take this risk.

Lin Hai nodded, and was afraid that Wen Shaonan would not see him, so he said, "Okay. Brother Shaonan, you should go to bed early too." Wen Shaonan didn't even take a shower, and washed his face hastily with the bathroom door open, and wiped his face with a towel While drinking water, Wen Shaonan saw Lin Hai lying quietly on the bed, covered with a quilt, leaving only the back of his head, he looked small, like a child.

Wen Shaonan was suddenly a little sad. Before Lin Hai said that he was terminally ill, he didn't really feel it. His profession determined that he watched too much about life and death.The night is quiet at this moment, and Lin Hai is even quieter than the night, Wen Shaonan thought of the shallow smile he gave him every time he delivered food to him, and suddenly his heart was filled with unspeakable sadness.This person seemed to gently appear in front of him, and after a short stay, he planned to leave gently.His life is bitter, and his quietness is the most distressing.

As a materialist, Wen Shaonan prayed to God for the first time in his heart. Was it a misdiagnosis?It's not a misdiagnosis, it's benign.

Early the next morning, Wen Shaonan took Lin Hai on the plane to W City, and then went to the hospital where Hua Zhen was located without stopping.When Hua Zhen heard her son say that Lin Hai was ill, she sighed in her heart for a long time, and thought of a way to give Lin Hai a detailed examination that day.

Life is not a novel, Wen Shaonan doesn't have golden fingers even if he is the leading actor, Lin Hai's tumor is huge and getting worse, the location is very tricky, his symptoms are also very serious, so he can only be treated conservatively.Hua Zhen watched the film without saying a word for a long time, Wen Shaonan didn't know what to say, but Lin Hai was very calm, if it wasn't so serious, how could his father be merciful and return the money for the treatment and let him go?

After Lin Hai found Wen Shaonan, he used all his savings to open a noodle restaurant and cooked for Wen Shaonan for two months. Seeing that Wen Shaonan had his own partner, he had no other worries.

Lin Hai doesn't know the words "Holy Mother" and "Holy Father". His selflessness is not because he really doesn't care about anything. He is just used to it. He is used to not getting it. He is used to getting it and then losing it. Fate inflicted all the misery upon him.He knew from a very young age that this was his fate, and he couldn't help resisting it.He has nothing, so what is there to grieve about?

Lin Hai even began to comfort Wen Shaonan: "It's okay, don't be sad, you're right, I've met so many good friends, and I'm already very happy." Seeing his dazzling smile, Wen Shaonan really wanted to punch him and break him A mask that reassures the world of his bold, unbridled grief.Wen Shaonan wanted to hug him again, to give him some strength, to tell him that at least he was still there.

In the end, Wen Shaonan didn't do anything. He asked Huazhen, "Mom, can you treat conservatively, right?" Huazhen nodded of course, but she couldn't say that conservative treatment would just increase the pain, and it wouldn't last long.Lin Hai helped her speak out: "I don't want conservative treatment, Aunt Hua, please prescribe me some painkillers, anyway, it's all like this, less pain is good."

Just as Wen Shaonan was about to object, Lin Hai looked at him earnestly, and said, "Brother Shaonan, in this last time, let me live like a normal person."

Wen Shaonan couldn't say anything for a while, and watched Lin Hai silently go to get the medicine and walk out of the hospital, the sun was just right.Lin Hai said: "Brother Shaonan, you should go back to work quickly, it's already like this, you have tried your best. Just because of your love for me, I will live well, take a look around, I haven't traveled yet , can I send you a postcard then?"

Wen Shaonan didn't believe a word of what he said, and even if he believed it, he couldn't listen. Hua Zhen just told him that Lin Hai's disease would cause many symptoms in the later stage, such as vomiting, dizziness, vision loss, loss of taste, weakness of limbs, etc. To put it simply, it means waiting for death alone.Now Lin Hai is already showing symptoms, and he doesn't know where he will die when he goes on a trip.

Wen Shaonan said: "Xiao Hai, come live at my house. You know Xiao Xin and me. By the way, I haven't told you yet. Xiao Xin and I are lovers. I like men. You will treat me badly." discriminate?"

Lin Hai shook his head: "Brother Shaonan, I know you mean well, don't disturb your normal life because of me. I know you two are a couple, you are both good people, how could I discriminate against you? I just don't want to trouble you You guys, really, I can do it myself."

"We are friends, whether it's troublesome or not, I let you go after you're like this, I'm really uneasy. Besides, the noodles you make are so delicious, if it's okay, you can make noodles for us."

Wen Shaonan had no idea that Lin Hai didn't want to bother him on the one hand, and on the other hand didn't want to see his and Zhen Yixin's loving daily life.Just because Lin Hai can bear it doesn't mean he doesn't have feelings, he will be sad, sad and jealous, but he can't tell Wen Shaonan.

So Lin Hai went home with Wen Shaonan, and Zhen Yixin didn't turn around when he heard the doorbell, holding his computer and throwing a temper tantrum.When he was drawing, he would mute his phone, and when he found out about Wen Shaonan's call, he called back and the phone was already turned off, which worried him to the core.After finally getting through, Wen Shaonan only said that he had something to do when he came back. This was never the case. Zhen Yixin felt that Wen Shaonan should be taught some lessons, otherwise he would really be going to heaven. .

Who knew that Wen Shaonan didn't come back alone, when Zhen Yixin heard something was wrong, he turned around and saw Lin Hai.Of course he knew Lin Hai, even though he was a little confused, he still stood up to say hello, there were outsiders around, so the matter of husband and wife would be discussed behind closed doors.

Wen Shaonan winked at Zhen Yixin behind Lin Hai's back, and said, "Xiaohai will be staying at our house for a while, do we need a quilt for the guest room? If not, let's go and put on a quilt. Xiaohai should take a bath first."

Lin Hai nodded to Zhen Yixin and said, "It's troublesome." Then he went to the bathroom to take a shower.Zhen Yixin was dragged by Wen Shaonan to the guest room to make up the bed in a daze. Before he could ask Wen Shaonan, he had already whispered: "Xiao Hai, do you remember? He was the one who helped me deal with the leak in my kitchen last time. He opened a noodle restaurant at the entrance of the community. Actually, he was my The old neighbor in the past, to be honest, had a bit of a hard life, and now he is terminally ill. I took him to my mother for a check-up in the past two days, and now it’s just a matter of time. Seeing that we don’t care about it, let him live in our house. Xiaohai is a good person, so don’t be angry if I decide on my own. If you think it’s not good, I’ll find a way.”

Zhen Yixin's eyes widened, and he was stunned for a while before he said: "He...he looked healthy before! So...he's going to die? My God! This is too pitiful. Last time he came to help you deal with the water leak He also helped me tidy up the things, you can see that he is a pretty good person, how can you say that terminal illness is terminal illness?"

Wen Shaonan sighed: "I don't believe it either, but my mother said... Sigh!"

Zhen Yixin pursed her lips and her eyes were a little red: "When I was studying, I had a classmate who also got leukemia when he was a teenager. If he said no, he would be gone. I still have him copying it for me. Since Xiaohai is you My friend, that is my friend, how can I care if he is like this, let him live in our house, at worst, I will go to my house when I paint in the future, and the upstairs and downstairs will not run far."

Wen Shaonan hugged him and kissed him, the stubble that hadn't been shaved for two or three days rubbed his delicate chin red, and said: "Xiao Xin from our family is really nice. Don't worry, Xiao Hai is very quiet and won't disturb you." Zhen Yixin scolded Pushing him away, she said arrogantly: "You know me well?"

The two tidied up the guest room, and Lin Hai had been sitting quietly on the sofa for quite a while when they came out.Before, Wen Shaonan specifically told Zhen Yixin not to treat people as patients too much, a face of "you are going to die, you are so pitiful" can drive people crazy, so Zhen Yixin said in a very natural way: "Brother Hai, have you finished washing? Are you hungry? What do you want to eat, I'll order takeaway."

Lin Hai was startled by his "Brother Hai", and immediately realized that Wen Shaonan had told him about his situation, and Zhen Yixin asked him what he wanted to eat with a smile, he really looked like a little angel.Lin Hai couldn't help laughing, and said, "Where I am, I still need to order takeaway. If you don't mind, I'll make you something to eat. I'm not only good at making noodles!"

Zhen Yixin was afraid that he would be tired, so just about to decline, Wen Shaonan squeezed his hand and said, "Well, okay, we'll wait." He pointed to the kitchen to show him, Lin Hai saw that there were some scattered ingredients in the refrigerator, and finally planned to cook Let's have a glutinous rice noodles.

Wen Shaonan quietly said to Zhen Yixin: "Let him work, or he won't feel safe." Zhen Yixin thought for a while to express his understanding, then returned to the room and took out several clothes, saying: "You bought these for me, even the tag It hasn't been removed yet, I think Hai Ge came here in a hurry and didn't bring anything, let him wear it first."

Wen Shaonan held him in his arms, carried him back to the bedroom even with his clothes, and said, "Little fool, how tall are you? He is half a head shorter than you, and one size smaller than you. How do you wear it? Later Let's go shopping with him, how about it?" Zhen Yixin shook the clothes to see, it was indeed a bit long, okay, okay, go out and buy later.

It is really troublesome to keep a terminally ill patient at home, and some people may be very scared. Wen Shaonan originally prepared a basket of words to coax Zhen Yixin, but he did not expect that not only did he not blame him for making his own opinions, but he was more enthusiastic about taking care of Lin Hai's affairs than himself. Life.Wen Shaonan felt that he was really lucky to pick up a treasure.

After the three of them had dinner, Zhen Yixin dragged Lin Hai and Wen Shaonan out to buy clothes, and gave Lin Hai several sets of clothes to try on.Lin Hai had never been to such a high-end clothing store before, and he was a little bit tied up. Zhen Yixin also took several sets of clothes to the fitting room, and said, "Brother Hai, my new album is selling very well, and the royalties have just arrived. I This person has no big pursuits, but just wants to wear something nice, come, come, let's try it together, I pay the bill, whoever grabs me is in a hurry, just celebrate the sale of my album!"

Lin Hai was pushed into the fitting room, and Zhen Yixin was still saying outside the door: "Brother Hai, if the size is not suitable, I can ask the shopping guide to change it for you." Lin Hai smiled and agreed. Zhen Yixin is really a good boy with a cold face and a warm heart. This person is a perfect match for Wen Shaonan!

After buying two sets of clothes, Zhen Yixin took the two of them to the supermarket to do a lot of shopping, and finally returned home with big bags and small bags.Considering Lin Hai's poor health, Zhen Yixin patted Wen Shaonan: "Why are you standing there and helping to carry things!" Wen Shaonan repeatedly agreed to snatch the bag from Lin Hai's hand and carried it, and said in a low voice: "I can't help it, I'm afraid of my wife ..." Kicked by Zhen Yixin, she dodged with a smile.In the end, Lin Hai followed the couple home with only a set of toothbrushes in their hands.

After a busy day, everyone was tired, so they said hello and went back to sleep.Lin Hai didn't sleep in the guest room, tore off a piece of paper from his notebook, and wrote down the title of "Suicide Note" with a pen.

I wanted to write a lot, but the last thing I wrote was just a few sentences. After finishing writing, Lin Hai folded it up and pressed it neatly under the pillow.He then opened the diary he had written, Lin Hai felt very happy about the time he had secretly fallen in love with Wen Shaonan, and now seeing Wen Shaonan and Zhen Yixin living such a happy life, he also felt very happy.The love he was looking forward to, Wen Shaonan gave it to a worthy person, and he was happier than anyone else.

Tore this thin diary into shreds page by page, and flushed it down the toilet.At this moment, the peace in Lin Hai's heart was unprecedented.

Wen Shaonan continued to go back to work, often working overtime, and Zhen Yixin became a fan of painting, often staying up late.Lin Hai could only clean up the house and cook something for them.But later he lost his sense of taste and couldn't even cook.

Taking advantage of his clear mind, Lin Hai took the initiative to live in a nearby hospital and hung a little water every day to relieve the pain.Master Meng, Yanzi and Acheng often visit him. The three of them are now operating "Jiachang Noodles". Customers often ask where "that thin master" has gone. With a choked voice, he said, "Go back to my hometown."

Xia Jin visited Lin Hai twice, and left without saying anything.As for Wen Shaonan sometimes leaving early, all the people in the bureau who had eaten the noodles sent by Lin Hai pretended not to see them, and sometimes they would cook some soup to let Wen Shaonan pass by.Wen Shaonan said: "I thank you for Xiaohai, he can't eat anymore now."

Zhen Yixin went to the hospital with his notebook in his arms. When Lin Hai fell asleep, he drew a picture. When Lin Hai woke up from the pain, he pressed his hand that was struggling and scratching because of the pain.His arm was scratched and Wen Shaonan went home to apply medicine to him. Zhen Yixin was silent for a long time, hugged Wen Shaonan and said, "Husband, you must be free from illness and pain, and live a long life!"

Lin Hai's father learned that Lin Hai was dying, so he came to see him, just as Lin Hai was awake, he was almost blind, and his empty eyes were looking in his father's direction.What Lin Hai's father wanted to say, Lin Hai said: "I spent all my savings on treatment, and now I still owe him..." He groped hard until Wen Shaonan grabbed his hand, Lin Hai said: "10,000+, dad……"

Lin Hai's father was startled, he said I'm going to raise money for you, and ran away like burning his butt, never heard from again.Wen Shaonan touched Lin Hai's sweaty forehead and said, "Why do you..."

Lin Hai pulled out a smile, and said: "I'm afraid that he will pester you after I die, but now he will just walk around you." After he finished speaking, he gasped for a while before continuing: "Brother Shaonan, I said this is My happiest time, you have to believe me!"

Wen Shaonan was speechless.

That night, when Lin Hai was dying, he regained his energy and muttered to himself, but no one heard what he said.

He asked the nurse not to call Wen Shaonan, saying: "Let him sleep well, he is so tired! I am so tired too! Mom, mom is here to pick me up..."

The nurse immediately notified Wen Shaonan, and he drove to the hospital. Zhen Yixin didn't even get dressed, and was already crying before he arrived at the hospital. Lin Hai had already gone when he arrived. Ten catties.

Zhen Yixin wept loudly, he hadn't been with Lin Hai for a long time, but Lin Hai's silence and meekness left a good impression on him.Maybe he has seen too many ostentatious and hypocritical people, but he really likes Lin Hai's sincerity.But just getting acquainted, Lin Hai left.

While comforting Zhen Yixin, Wen Shaonan's eyes turned red.The nurse handed him Lin Hai's suicide note under the pillow, and opened it:

Let everyone know that I knew that I was seriously ill, and if I die, it has nothing to do with anyone.I am grateful to Wen Shaonan and Zhen Yixin for taking care of me. There is nothing to repay in this life, and I will pay it back in the next life.

Below is his signature and date. Wen Shaonan could no longer remember that this was the first day Lin Hai moved into his house. He looked at Lin Hai covered in white cloth, as if something important had been sealed away, as if a very important matter had been sealed. Important people passed by long ago.

Wen Shaonan never thought about why Lin Hai opened a noodle restaurant in front of his house so coincidentally in the last time of his life.He didn't know anything, Lin Hai thought until his death that this is really good.After all, so what if Wen Shaonan knew about it?But it only adds to the sadness.Lin Hai also didn't know that Wen Shaonan had experienced An Xin's death before, if Lin Hai died as someone who liked him again, Wen Shaonan might cause scars in his heart, and the pain index would not only double.

I like you, but I'm just a passer-by in your life.

You don't know, that's great! You're a good match for him, neither of you are wrong.

Let the past go, life goes on.Wen Shaonan still often works overtime in his forensic work, and Zhen Yixin's album sales are getting better and better.They all remembered that a person named Lin Hai once appeared, but after many years, even his face was blurred.