if you catch up

Xiao Yuan stood at the door of his house again.

It was still dusk, and the pale sunlight came in through the small window, casting a glimmer of light on the dark stairs, illuminating Xiao Yuan's well-crafted black leather shoes and half trousers, concealing his majestic, upright and vigorous figure, and Sharp-edged, lonely and stern face.

Yi Yang looked at the tall and lonely figure in the dark, suddenly a little dazed.

What about Xiao Yuan?

How do you feel about Xiao Yuan?

His heart shrank suddenly, as if there was a strong air in his chest domineeringly attacking from all directions, forcing and squeezing, and there was no way to escape.

In the empty and depressive brain, pictures flashed like fast-forwarding slides, the desk covered with papers when he was young, Xiao Yuan's indifferent and decisive face, the dream that woke up in the middle of the night, the pills beside the bed, Su Heng's ambition The inevitable expression, the scene where the two looked at each other and laughed, the rapid car roar, the body that flew out, and the hospital was completely white.

Why are you still looking for me?

What do you want me to do? !

I admit that I can't forget you... No matter how much I hint at myself, no matter how much I build up my mind, I tell myself countless times that I can't get close, can't relax, and can't be soft-hearted, but you see, I can't lie to others, and I can't lie to myself, I can't help it I have to worry about you, eat for you, I can't see you wronging yourself, and I can't see you being kind to others. As long as you are still near me, my heart and my eyes can't help but follow you and surround you change.

I can't control you here.

But can I be with you again?Your ruthless and cold rejection, your indifference, the torment I endured day and night, ruined my father's lifelong illness, the distance and time between us these six years, Xiao Yuan, you say, I Can I have a good time with you?

I can't love anyone else, and I can't love you anymore.

What do you want me to do?

The person at the other end noticed the movement, walked out of the darkness slowly following the twilight cast from the window, and stopped in front of Yi Yang.

Looking at each other without words, the silent two people are so close, yet so far apart.

"Is there something wrong?" Yi Yang asked him, his tone could be called indifferent, but he couldn't hide the pain at the end of his voice.

Xiao Yuan also looked at him, but at this moment, there seemed to be an indelible ink in her eyes that were as bright as autumn water.

"You hide from me."

Use affirmative sentences, not interrogative sentences.

Yi Yang's actions are so obvious. For so many days, he doesn't travel, doesn't talk, and even reduces the chances of meeting as much as possible. Anyone can notice the difference, let alone Xiao Yuan who is meticulous.

The corner of Yi Yang's mouth curled up a mocking expression, not hiding from you?Do I still want to let you approach me, let you continue to influence me and torture me?

"We don't need to meet."

"Why not?" Xiao Yuan suddenly raised her voice a few degrees, hoarse and angry.

When Yi Yang reacted, he was already pressed against the wall by Xiao Yuan, his back was pressed against the cold wall, and his right wrist was also tightly pinched by him.

Xiao Yuan is like a trapped beast, her handsome face is very haggard, her lips are stretched out with all her strength, her brows are deeply sunken, and her ink-like eyes are bloodshot with anger at this moment. He is staring closely at Yi Yang in front of him. , It seems that through this face, through the flesh, to see the other party's heart carefully.

He squeezed Yi Yang's wrist, the veins on his hand were bulging, and he was very strong.

Yi Yang suffered from pain and couldn't help struggling, wanting to break free from the shackles.Xiao Yuan tried again, pressing his hand firmly against the wall.

He gritted his teeth in pain, and a fire rose in his chest. He raised his head, opened his eyes wide, met Xiao Yuan's eyes with hatred, and almost roared angrily, "Are you fucking sick?!"

"I'm just sick!" Xiao Yuan yelled out in pain, her heavy breathing was very clear in the quiet corridor.

In the end, he seemed to have exhausted all his strength, helpless, and leaned against Yi Yang's neck, growling hoarsely, "I'm just sick... six years, you want me to continue for another six years, 16 years, what do you want me to do?" ..."

He put half of his body on Yi Yang and hugged him tightly, as if this was his last straw, his last treasure.

Yi Yang couldn't move, and forgot to struggle at this moment, the wetness in his eyes could no longer be concealed, tears flowed silently from his cheeks to the corners of his lips, very salty.

In the silent corridor, the two men embraced each other in such an awkward position, panting low, and weeping inaudibly, until the tears on the neck were dry, and only water marks remained on the face, Xiao Yuan's voice was wrapped in a nasal voice Only then did it sound in Yi Yang's ear,

"……Do you love him?"

Yi Yang was a little dazed for a moment, and didn't react.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Xiao Yuan said again in a low voice: "Are you already living together...".

Yi Yang finally understood what he meant. Xiao Yuan not only knew about Chen Fan's overnight stay yesterday, but also misunderstood it.

The long-suffering heart was filled with bitterness again, so bitter that it almost overwhelmed him, he opened his mouth, but found that he couldn't make a sound, and after a while of silence, he slowed down, and then slowly opened his mouth,

"Yes,... I love him and we are together."

He answered all the questions at once, his voice fell silent, Xiao Yuan's body visibly froze, even though they were close to each other, they still couldn't feel each other's warmth, like two dull puppets, all thoughts and emotions were taken away.

I don't know how long it has passed, maybe it hasn't been long. Excessive impact always makes people lose the concept of time.

Finally, Xiao Yuan's body moved, her arms suddenly tightened, and she hugged Yi Yang heavily, as if she wanted to melt him into her flesh and blood, and engrave him into her life.Then, let him go abruptly.

Before Yi Yang had time to look at his face, Xiao Yuan hurriedly turned around and walked straight upstairs.

Watching his tall and slender, but slightly tired figure walk away little by little until he disappeared around the corner, and there was no trace of it anymore, Yi Yang leaned heavily on the wall behind him.

He seemed to be unable to lift a sliver of strength, and all the pain in his heart disappeared, and it seemed that he had taken away the life-sustaining organs, leaving only a scattered piece.

It's over.

He stared blankly at the darkness at the junction of the ceiling, as if he was also trapped in that corner, wrapped in layers of darkness, pushing and shoving, but he had no strength to struggle anymore.

Our mutual torture is finally over.

From now on, be safe each other...

The author has something to say:

There shouldn't be much abuse in the future, after all, it's been so long to be together.