Dazed

What Qi Zheng does is cement mixing. His daily job is to pour cement ash, water, and stones into the mixer in a certain proportion. dust disease.

The one who did this job with Qi Zheng was a young man from other provinces. His complexion was tanned and purple, his cheekbones were high, and he was a bit full. It is said that people from his hometown brought him here. He used to earn two to three hundred yuan a month farming at home.

"Then how did you meet your fellow countryman?" The skinny monkey next to Qi Zheng asked in surprise.

"I met you at the train station. Our accent is unique. The same accent is a fellow countryman." The man said naturally, and then said with some emotion: "A distant relative is not as good as a close neighbor. If it weren't for his class The fellow villagers give him a hand, maybe even if I work in the countryside to my death, I won’t be able to earn a few grave money.”

Qi Zheng glanced at him, not interested, and immersed himself in his own work, neatly picked up a [-]-jin piece of cement, poured it into the mixer, his muscles were stiffened by the cold wind.

That man is probably going to be transferred to the cement pouring team tomorrow. He was a little excited today, and he usually doesn't like to talk to people. The salary is high, one person can earn two hundred a day, and one month can earn six thousand, and I can save enough for my wife if I work for two or three more years."

Although the wages at the bricklaying side are high, there are also many accidents. The thin monkey is not very happy to go there, but finds it strange that the man is very excited, and asks: "You have saved all your money, and your parents don't need you to take care of them?"

The man blinked his eyes and said, "My parents have been dead for several years, otherwise I wouldn't have come out alone now."

Both parents died, and relatives didn't care, no wonder he would say the phrase "a distant relative is not as good as a close neighbor". Just as the thin monkey was about to reply, the sharp-eyed Zhou Tao spotted it and came over and cursed, "Why are there so many bullshit?" Monkey winked and closed his mouth, the man also immediately returned to silence, and the group of people immediately fell silent.

The next day, Qi Zheng went to work again. As expected, the dark man had already been transferred to the bricklaying team. He was standing on the steps on the fourth floor, brushing the walls with all his might, his eyes focused, and his purple-red eyes Biting his lips tightly, he returned to his usual silence.

It was another night, today happened to be Sunday, there was no need to start work at night, and one night off every week, seven or eight migrant workers on the construction site made an appointment to go out to eat meat and drink, Fatty Zhou was also inside, and asked Zhao Youran and Qi Zheng if they wanted go together.

Zhao Youran pushed the glasses on the tip of her nose, and said calmly: "No, I have something to do tonight."

Fatty Zhou asked suspiciously: "What can you do here? Is there an appointment?"

Zhao Youran returned impatiently: "No, you can go, I want to read some books."

"What about you, aren't you going? How boring it is to stay in the dormitory." Fatty Zhou turned his gaze to Qi Zheng.

"Not interested, you go." Qi Zheng simply didn't want to mix with a group of middle-aged men in their 50s and [-]s, and the topics they talked about were all wrong. Cao Jingxing had been out of contact for several days, and he had sent a text message or two a while ago, but he always felt that something was wrong, that person went to some wilderness, and he couldn't even get through the phone.

At this time, the people outside were already urging, a fat and strong man came in and hooked Fatty Zhou's shoulder, and asked impatiently, "Are you ready?"

While the palm was shaking, Qi Zheng noticed that the other palm of the man seemed to be missing a little finger, and was a little surprised.

Seeing his urging, Fatty Zhou had no choice but to leave. Qi Zheng and Zhao Youran were the only two left in the huge dormitory. The lights were dim, and there were twelve bunk beds in the messy dormitory, which was a room for 24 people.

"That group of people won't come back until one or two o'clock at night." Zhao Youran looked at their backs and said in a low voice, then looked at Qi Zheng and said, "Why don't you go out to play with me?"

Qi Zheng lowered his head and found his luggage. The temperature has dropped these few days, so he needs to add another layer of quilt. While flipping through, he saw a touch of white, frowned, and took it out. It was the white jade that Tao Qinghui gave him. When he saw the jade again, Qi Zheng was a little stunned. He hadn't had those ghost dreams that he often had for a long time, and the most recent one happened when he didn't bring the jade.

Could it be that the dream in the snow was due to not wearing the jade pendant?But why did he have such a dream?

"Homosexuality" these three bold and bold characters suddenly flashed in my mind.

Qi Zheng was taken aback, and almost threw the things in his hands out. Thinking of Guan Xia who had committed suicide by jumping off the building, he felt an indescribable irritability in his heart. After a pause in his heart, Qi Zheng put the jade into his pocket, and replied Zhao Youran's words: "It's too cold, I'm too lazy to go out."

"What do you want to eat at night?" Zhao Youran asked, and the construction site didn't care about food during the night of rest, "Would you like to go to Xiaochao across the street for dinner?"

Qi Zheng was just about to answer, but unexpectedly the phone rang, and when he answered, it was Chu Chu on the other end of the phone, who said in a loud voice: "Qi Zheng, I'm going to go home by car later, let's go out for dinner together tonight, I didn’t see you after the exam.”

Qi Zheng raised his eyes to look at Zhao Youran, and then replied, "Okay, where will I meet?"

"Let's just go to the hot pot restaurant I used to go to. I'm leaving now, so hurry up, okay?"

"En", Qi Zheng responded, and said, "See you later."

After hanging up Chu Chu's phone, Zhao Youran, who was sitting on the bed next to her, bent her mouth and said, "Have you made an appointment with your friend?"

"Well, I'm asking you to have dinner tonight, so I'm sorry, I'll leave you alone." Qi Zheng said.

Zhao Youran didn't care, said: "It's okay, I don't need you to accompany me, but what time will you come back at night?"

"About nine o'clock." Qi Zheng said, it wouldn't take much time to have a meal with Chu Chu and then chat.

Zhao Youran said: "Pay attention to safety, the temperature drops sharply at night, please keep warm."

Qi Zheng nodded, put on a thick down jacket, took out his wallet, and left first. Zhao Youran hadn't gone out yet, and watched him leave with a smile, like a gentle and elegant big brother, who looked extraordinarily handsome in this messy migrant worker's house Discord.

When Qi Zheng walked out of the construction site, the bleak cold wind rushed over. He shrank his neck, wrapped himself up tightly, and walked towards the hot pot restaurant that Chu Chu had agreed.

When we arrived at the store, there were many guests in the store, bustling and steaming, but it was much warmer. As soon as Qi Zheng entered the room, he saw Chu Chu who had arrived, and waved to him enthusiastically. When Qi Zheng sat down, Then he opened a bottle of beer and poured two glasses. The waiter next to him took the menu and walked away. Then Chu Chu said, "We haven't seen each other for a while. How are you doing on the construction site recently? Are you tired?"

Qi Zheng raised his glass and took a sip of beer. The cold and hearty feeling immediately penetrated his stomach, and said, "That's it. I go to work at eight o'clock in the morning and leave work at ten o'clock in the evening. It's pure hard work."

The waiter here served the dishes, and Chu Chu picked up some lotus root slices, lettuce, enoki mushrooms and a lot of meat and cooked them in the pot, and said, "Is it worth it if you are so tired?"

"I'm going to do an internship next year. Now it's not bad to find an internship unit to get a resume, and I still get a salary. Apart from being tired, there's nothing wrong with it." Qi Zheng frowned, threw all the meat into the pot, and replied road.

Chu Chu drank a few sips of wine, feeling a little melancholy, and said, "I always feel that since you have your roommate, you never come out to me."

Qi Zheng was speechless, and said: "Why do you think about all this all day long, and make you feel as sentimental as a woman."

Chu Chu complained, and said: "Why did this happen to your girlfriend, I only found out after watching the news, Qi Zheng, you are really not enough buddies."

Hearing Liang Siyue's name mentioned by the other party, Qi Zheng was taken aback, then felt a little dull, and said: "Everyone is gone, everything is over, there is nothing to say."

"Qi Zheng, look away, people always have to look forward, sorry for you."

Qi Zheng raised his wine glass, took a sip, gave him a sideways glance, and said, "Is it okay for me to live like this?"

Chu Chu nodded. He knew that it must have been a period of struggle for Qi Zheng to be so calm now, but he didn't want to mention it again, and said, "It's good if you can think about it."

Qi Zheng looked at Chu Chu, who had not seen him in just a few months and whose appearance had suddenly matured, and asked, "What about you, what are you doing home?"

Chu Chu sighed, with a hey smile on his face, and said: "Go home and feel the love of father and mother. Anyway, it's the last winter vacation, but it's just for nothing."

Qi Zheng frowned slightly, and said, "That's all you have to offer."

Chu Chu looked indifferent, and complained: "After working, I won't be so leisurely."

"All right, enjoy your vacation," Qi Zheng said perfunctorily.

"Actually, I have another thing to do when I go home this time. My family introduced a girl to me earlier. The two of us talked on the phone first. I want to meet up this time when I go back. If the talk goes well, it's best to settle down." Come down and get married in three years." When Chu Chu and Qi Zheng mentioned this matter, they couldn't help but feel a little nervous. After all, he had been chatting with this girl for half a year, and they had a good impression of each other. There is no need to worry about major events.

Qi Zheng pulled his lips, showing a little smile, and said, "Oh, it's terrible, then I wish you all your wishes come true."

Chu Chu waved his hand and said, "Hey, I'm afraid people will look down on me. I haven't seen a real person yet. I just want half of your appearance."

Qi Zheng touched his face, rubbed his callused palms roughly on his face, and said mockingly: "You with one eye, one nostril and half a mouth must look good, what are you afraid of, the other party may not be a big beauty , it’s fine if your personalities match well.”

Chu Chu thought about it too, nodded, hiding some longing in her heart, and said, "I don't know what she looks like."

"Then do you want Maggie Cheung or Brigitte Lin?" Qi Zheng mocked.

"If I look like Maggie Cheung, if people don't like me, I'll have to hang on to them." Chu Chu said.

Qi Zheng was dumbfounded for a while, and said: "Then don't worry, people who don't look like Maggie Cheung may not necessarily like you."

Chu Chu was angry, "No matter what I say, you have to tear it down, right?"

Qi Zheng glanced at him and said, "I just advise you to take a pee and see yourself."

Chu Chu felt cold and said, "Did you talk about shit and pee when you were eating?"

Qi Zheng felt that Chu Chu was more disgusting than him, and said, "Shut up."

After a while, Chu Chu leaned over again nervously, and said in a low voice, "Recently, the reason for Guan Xia's suicide has been talked about in school, have you heard?"

Qi Zheng said indifferently, "No, what's wrong?"

Chu Chu lowered his voice and said: "I heard that he committed suicide because he liked boys and was excluded. Don't you think it's a pity?"

Qi Zheng took a sip of his wine and said, "Now I know."

Chu Chu babbled again: "Why do you think he can't think about it so much? Homosexuals don't need to commit suicide. The mainstream thinking in this society can't tolerate them now, but there is no open discrimination. The situation will become more and more clear in the future. Not worth it, those who bullied him are rubbish."

Qi Zheng listened to his head twitching, and said a little bluntly: "You are not them, how do you know how much pressure they are under?"

Chu Chu looked at him in surprise, and asked, "What do you mean?"

"Homosexuals can't get married. What about marrying a wife and having children? If you were a parent, would you let your son like men? And there is also AIDS, the transmission rate is too high, and any of them will kill you." Qi Zheng watched constantly The tumbling soup base, said.

Chu Chu persuaded with a bit of resentment, "First of all, AIDS is not only contagious by homosexuality. Although it is a bit promiscuous, it does not represent the entire group. Secondly, marriage must not be counted on, but children's words , you can adopt, or be a surrogate, now that the technology is so advanced, what can't be done, the only one is the parents, but Guan Ya seems to be an orphan, so he doesn't have this trouble."

Qi Zheng looked at Chu Chu who was eloquent and eloquent, a little surprised at his openness, and said bluntly: "In other words, if I was gay, wouldn't you feel disgusted?"

"So what's the matter if you're gay? Qi Zheng, I, Chu Chu, dare to guarantee that in my life, don't say you're gay, even if you change your gender, you're still my best buddy Chu Chu." After a few sips of wine, his face was a little flushed, and he was emotional when he said this, and his words were a bit loud, which made the people at the next table look at Qi Zheng in surprise.

With black lines all over Qi Zheng's face, he said angrily, "I'm going to fuck you, you're the fucking gay."

Chu Chu said perfunctorily: "OK, OK, you're not, you're not."

Qi Zheng didn't reply to him, and just drank by himself. Chu Chu saw that he was not happy, so he quickly put on a smile and explained: "Actually, I was the same as you before, and I thought it was disgusting to like men, but, I The girl I like seems to be researching this. After communicating with her for three months, she gradually convinced me. Don’t tell me, some comrades are really touching. Just because of their different sexual orientations, they are like rats crossing the street all their lives. It seems that life is very depressing, so Farewell My Concubine, Brokeback Mountain, I couldn't help but blink a few tears after watching it."

Thinking of Chu Chu's face, full of snot, Qi Zheng couldn't help feeling disgusted, and said, "Are you possessed by Guo Siniang?"

Chu Chu was dissatisfied, and said: "Fuck it, my partner cried too. Those two movies are pretty good. I have a disc. I'll give it to you if you want it."

Qi Zheng raised his eyebrows and said, "Aren't you afraid that your parents will blow you up if you take it home?"

"Hey, I bought it for my partner. She said that her favorite movies are those two movies, but I haven't bought a disc yet."

When Qi Zheng heard it, he replied angrily: "Then you still give me a fart, for fear that your girlfriend will settle accounts with me."

"This is not my girlfriend..." Chu Chu retorted.

The two chatted, ate and drank until late at night, Qi Zheng looked at his watch, it was almost 09:30, so he had to go back first, for fear that he would not be able to catch the bus if it was too late, since the construction site was in the suburbs.

Chu Chu didn't insist on staying, and said, "Call me if you have nothing to do during the holidays. See you in the next year."

Qi Zheng hummed, walked out of the restaurant first, and walked alone on the quiet street, thinking about the two words Chu Chu said, he is so open-minded, it doesn't matter if his brother is gay?Then by analogy, is my reaction to Cao Jingxing too intense?Too stingy?

Qi Zheng thought about it for a while, and had to reflect on what he did go too far. The more he thought about it, the more he wondered whether he should apologize to Cao Jingxing, but suddenly, he froze again, and his thoughts suddenly became clear. What the hell, this matter is so simple, the person Cao Jingxing likes is himself, so why should he feed the tiger with his body? If one day Tao Qingyan falls in love with Chu Chu, where will his grandson go?

Hold!Almost let Chu Chu's grandson get in, that idiot.