make do

Just like Lu Xuyi said, he returned to the hospital with the thermos after only two hours away.

Yan Hongwen also came to the hospital early because he was going to receive the next chemotherapy treatment tomorrow.Lu Xuyi happened to run into Yan Hongwen when he came.

Yan Chen saw surprise in Yan Hongwen's eyes, and he also understood in an instant, it seems that Yan Hongwen did not say this.So who could it be?

The repeated chemotherapy treatments had made Yan Chen extremely mentally exhausted, and he didn't have much time to think about some complicated things.But I don't know why, Yan Chen is eager to know the answer to this matter.

But to pry Lu Xuyi's mouth open is no different than going to the blue sky, and Hongwen must know nothing about it.In fact, if Yan Chen was in good spirits for a while, he would probably have been able to get the answer by using the method of elimination at this time.But after all, it's different now, because of the illness, his brain's rotation speed is much slower.

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Lu Xuyi seemed to have been here for a while, and Yan Chen was asleep and didn't know when he came. When he opened his eyes, he saw him sitting with Yan Hongwen, chatting in a low voice.Lu Xuyi's eyes were always on Yan Chen's place, so when Yan Chen opened his eyes, he noticed it.

"Want some water?" Lu Xuyi came over and helped Yan Chen to sit up.

Although he really didn't want Lu Xuyi to know about it from the bottom of his heart, but when he thought that he would not be able to stay in this world for too long, he would leave soon, and he would never see Lu Xuyi again.This kind of thought deepened day by day, and as time went by, Yan Chen also indulged this terrible thought.

"Yeah." Nodding his head slightly, Yan Chen slowly sat upright.Taking the water glass that Lu Xuyi handed over, he put it to his mouth and sipped it in small sips.

Yan Hongwen didn't want to disturb the relationship between the two of them, so he just made an excuse and pushed the door open.

There were only two people left in the ward.Lu Xuyi didn't mention what they talked with Yan Hongwen just now, and Yan Chen didn't ask, they just sat in silence like this.

After a long time, Lu Xuyi finally said, "Why... didn't you tell me?"

"Huh?" Yan Chen raised his head in a little confusion, his eyes full of morbid doubts.

Lowering his eyes, not looking into Yan Chen's eyes, Lu Xuyi said, "Why didn't you tell me you were sick?"

Now that he understood, Yan Chen fell into silence and didn't speak for a long time. Just when Lu Xuyi thought he would never speak again, he said: "You know... I have a special blood type, it's hard to make a successful match..."

"So...you are going to throw me away and die alone?" The cruel truth was clearly close at hand, and Lu Xuyi wanted to hand over the knife himself and let others slaughter him.That's why when the bright truth came, he almost collapsed.

The voice was trembling, and he asked again: "Yan Chen...what do you think is the reason why I seduced you to bed in the first place?"

Yan Chen was stunned for a moment.

"Do you think that I, Lu Xuyi, married you just to have sex with you? Or, do you think that I, Lu Xuyi, never loved you at all?" Lu Xuyi's tone was a little incoherent.

"No..." Yan Chen still remembers exactly why he married Lu Xuyi, so he quickly refuted.

"Do you think I'm irresponsible and not worth entrusting...or am I just a bedside person who has been sleeping with you for seven years or an outsider?" Lu Xuyi didn't have a chance to explain to Yan Chen, "Yan Chen... I'm your legal representative. Your partner...is your lover, no matter what happens, I will accompany you, support you, and always stand by your side! Why, you push me away without saying a word?"

I don't know when the sadness in Lu Xuyi's tone was about to drip out, Yan Chen's chest was aching, and Lu Xuyi tremblingly said: "Even...you still failed to match in the end, but you are in my heart without knowing it at all. Are you too selfish and too cruel to push me away without any circumstances?"

Yan Chen opened his mouth, but finally said nothing.

"You think you're doing my best, but are you really doing it for me?" Lu Xuyi closed his eyes and murmured, "No, I won't. Yan Chen, even if I didn't know you were gone. But since I divorced you From that day on, my heart died. Every day after that, no one can open this door again, and my heart will never hold anyone anymore. Because it is as dead as my lost love Yes! Every day in the future, I will live in endless longing and sorrow, I will live a life that is worse than death, I will miss it terribly, and I will tear my heart! No matter what kind, there will be no happiness... do you know?"

The last sentence almost whispered, Lu Xuyi slowly opened his eyes, looked directly at Yan Chen, and smiled: "You are my love, if you leave, who else can I love?"

Tears flowed down instantly, Yan Chen panicked instantly.But no matter how frantically comforting her, it seemed that she couldn't stop Lu Xuyi's broken tears.

"You know... when I think that one day you will die without me knowing... and in this world, I will never find you again... Do you know how horrible it feels? "Lu Xuyi couldn't stop trembling all over, and his teeth began to chatter non-stop.

Yan Chen tightened his grip on Lu Xuyi's hand again, but he was still speechless when he opened his mouth.It was he who idealized things, and he really didn't take Lu Xuyi's thoughts into consideration.He thought that concealment was the best choice, but he forgot that this man was also someone who could accompany him to light the lamp and watch the sword, and was his only companion in this life.

In the past, his thoughts were tightly bound, but now they are suddenly untied, and after a moment of sudden realization, there is a moment of loss.

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The emotions of that afternoon were vented, and the two ended up saying nothing.Tacitly waited for all this to happen, and then waited for him to die with the wind.The two seem to have reconciled from that moment on, and neither of them mentioned those sad past events again.

The next morning, Yan Chen was pushed into the chemotherapy room.

Different from the previous times, this time, there was one more person waiting outside the door.