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After sleeping all afternoon, it was already dark when I woke up again.In the ward was a small lamp with a warm yellow light.The light was so dim that Yan Chen couldn't even see the whole room clearly.

His stomach was empty, but Ke Yan Chen had no appetite at all.Unsurprisingly, I vomited up everything I ate today.

As the condition worsened, Yan Chen's spirit became extremely haggard, and he was rarely sober throughout the day.I didn't know what was going on tonight, so I woke up suddenly.

Not only awake, but also very hungry.But even so, he still didn't want to eat anything.Because it's useless to eat, I still vomit.

In the brain, heaven and man are at war.While yelling that you are very hungry and want to eat, while yelling that you will throw up after eating, and if you vomit, you will trouble someone to serve you.Slowly, the scale began to tilt towards the side of not eating.

Yan Chen exhaled slowly, since he wasn't going to eat, there was no need to call someone.Yan Hongwen is probably resting next door, Mu Qing should have gone back, there is still a child at home, and she is always clinging to her.Cheng Yang should also be resting.

I don't know what time it is now, anyway, seeing the dim lights outside, it must be too early.Touching his bald head, Yan Chen laughed at himself, slowly got up and prepared to pour himself a glass of water to fill his stomach.

When he slowly sat up from the bed, he prepared to pour himself a glass of water under the dim light.

But before his hand touched the quilt, it was touched by a cold object. Yan Chen was startled, only then did he find that there was a person sitting beside the bed.The lights in the room were dim, and Yan Chen looked out the window when he woke up, and saw the door of the ward closed from the corner of his eye, so he didn't think about the fact that there was another person in the room.

Yan Chen was taken aback, another object was stuffed into his hand, the person slowly stood up, picked up the thermos cup on the table and poured water into it with Yan Chen's hand.

The person came with his back to the light, so he couldn't see his face clearly, seeing that his figure was similar to that of Cheng Yang, Yan Chen was relieved.Picking up the water glass, the water glass had already started to warm up, and he took a sip slowly, before Yan Chen remembered that he still wanted to complain: "Scared me to death... Cheng Yang, you can go to rest if it's okay, there's no need to stay by my side In the middle of the night, you should also take a good rest. Young people, don’t stay up late, when you reach my age, you will understand all the disadvantages of staying up late.”

Cheng Yang is a very talkative person, at first he felt a little embarrassed when facing Yan Chen, but once he got to know him well, his chatterbox attributes were deeply developed.Many times, Yan Chen likes to chat with him when he is bored alone.

Talk about games, talk about life, talk about love.Anyway, Cheng Yang is the same as Liu Liang, they are the kind of people who don't know what it means to be cold, and they won't be cold when they are there.

As the relationship got closer, Cheng Yang also cared more about Yan Chen's body, and he was meticulous in nursing and disinfection, and often explained some important principles to Yan Chen.Anyway, Chen was tired of hearing these words, so he just listened to Yan Chen casually and didn't refute.

Recently, Yan Chen's health has been deteriorating, and Cheng Yang has become tense.The night before yesterday was also the same, Yan Chen woke up once in the night, and saw Hai Zan kicking his boss's eyes, staring at him closely.Yan Chen was also taken aback, first he smiled helplessly, and then repeatedly told Cheng Yang not to keep vigil in the future.

Who knew that after only a day or two, Cheng Yang repeated his old tricks.

Yan Chen sighed helplessly, and said with some earnestness: "I'm serious, Cheng Yang, you know about my illness, and I won't leave without any symptoms. Don't worry about it. Go and rest. I drank my saliva and went back to sleep."

The person beside the bed remained motionless and did not say a word.

Yan Chen frowned in doubt, "What's wrong?"

With the sound of "pa", someone turned on the light in the ward, and white light hit instantly, causing Yan Chen to close his eyes.Eyes that have adapted to the dark are always extremely uncomfortable when the light comes.

Yan Chen was completely speechless, but he didn't say anything, he closed his eyes quietly, ready to let himself get used to it for a while, and then opened his eyes again.Although Cheng Yang made me feel like he didn't want to talk, it doesn't mean that Yan Chen didn't say anything—"What are you doing? Turn on the light suddenly? You want to see how handsome you look after not seeing me all night?" Even though he was depressed However, Yan Chen still didn't let go of the hurt and praise.

"I want to see how ugly you have been since I haven't seen you for a few months." After a long time, a familiar and nasal voice came from beside the bed, "Where do you look handsome? You are obviously ugly! I don't even know which eye I had back then. Blind, I like you bastard."

Yan Chen's whole body was shocked, and he opened his eyes suddenly, regardless of whether his eyes had yet adapted to the brightness.

The corner of the man's mouth curled down, and the disgust on his face was useless. If it weren't for the red eyes and strong nasal voice that revealed his emotions, he would have thought he was really disgusted.

Lv Xuyi lowered his head and laughed at himself, pulled the chair beside the bed and sat down again, taking a full view of Yan Chen's emotions that were too late to take back.

"you……"

"How do I know?" As soon as Yan Chen opened his mouth, Lu Xuyi interrupted him instantly, telling everything he wanted to say.

"You don't want me to know that you have leukemia, and when you die, you don't want me to know. So you signed a few months ago, patted your ass and left, really waved your sleeves, no Take away a piece of cloud... how chic!" Lv Xuyi sneered, at this moment he had already controlled his emotions.The cold voice revealed all of Yan Chen's arrangements.

"You divide all your property into three equal parts, donate one part to charity, one part to your father for retirement, and one part to me in the name of compensation. You quit the entertainment industry you like because you are about to Received treatment. You don't want fans to know, and you don't want me to know, you are going to die alone." Speaking of this, Lu Xuyi lost control, slightly turned up the volume, full of unspeakable resentment and sad.

"You are so great... Yan Chen, I'm really, really moved!" Lu Xuyi pulled his lips and gave a forced smile, and he didn't forget to applaud at the end.

In the empty ward, the sound of applause echoed from him alone.

——"Papapa..."

He seemed to have exhausted all his strength and applauded vigorously, as if to show respect to a noble person again.

Yan Chen suddenly forgot what he wanted to say, and also forgot what he wanted to say.Looking at Lu Xuyi like this, he felt so uncomfortable that he was dying.

Every time he vomited after chemotherapy, he never felt this way.Looking at Lu Xuyi, he was clearly on the verge of crying, and smiled with the corners of his mouth stiff.Yan Chen's heart, which had been empty for a long time, suddenly throbbed, one after another, as if he forgot to rest.

"Don't you think you are great? Yan Chen?" Probably because he was tired from patting, Lu Xuyi weakly lowered his red hands.The white palm was flushed with burning pain.Lu Xuyi didn't care at all, he just looked directly into Yan Chen's eyes and remained motionless.

Yan Chen lost a lot of weight.He was pale, and there was no trace of blood on his face.The whole person is so thin that he is almost skinny, his eye sockets are terribly sunken, and his cheekbones are also highly protruding.The hair on my head has been completely lost due to chemotherapy.The bald Yan Chen is actually not ugly, but coupled with his sick appearance, he is particularly decadent and lifeless.

Lu Xuyi's throat moved, and Mu Qing's words kept ringing in his ears.

——"He has lost all his hair, just like a bald uncle, which is ugly."

——"He has no hope of being cured. You know that his blood type is very special. During the hospitalization, no less than [-] volunteers with an HLA value of six points or more have been matched, but none of them can reach eight points or eight more than a point."

——"It is said that the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment. But Yan Chen doesn't seem to have this feeling, because he has never had hope."

——"Yes, he didn't think he could survive... Even, he has been in contact with a lawyer recently, and he is going to start making a will..."

——"In the beginning, he planned not to even tell me. In fact, he didn't plan to tell Uncle Yan. If he hadn't happened to meet Uncle Shen in the hospital, I'm afraid we would have been kept in the dark until now."

——"He just wanted to find a place where no one was around, and leave secretly."

—— "But who made him unable to support you? It was so uncomfortable that he had to rely on sleeping pills to sleep, and he yelled your name again when he fell asleep."

——"He really can't forget you, but he still wants you to find someone else to be happy. You said, why does he like to torture himself and others so much?"

Lu Xuyi couldn't help trembling all over his body. When he thought that Yan Chen would sneak away in the middle of the night that he didn't know, and the world would never find this person again, that terrible fear would sweep through his body and pull Lu Xuyi to the An abyss that never sees the sun, and there is no way out.

The palms are clenched on one side, and the fingertips are a little white.Lu Xuyi's voice was a little choked up: "Yan Chen, why are you so cruel? Tell me, if you leave, do you think I, Lu Xuyi, will have a good time? Are you heartless? Don't you tell me that you are going to accompany me in country A?" Mu Qing has been here for half a year, why don't you forget it, I don't care if you don't tell me about your family situation, why the hell didn't you even tell me that you were going to die?"

When it came to the end, Lu Xuyi was a little hoarse, "If you don't fucking love me, you would have told me earlier! Labor and management didn't have to go out of their way to seduce you into bed! You are fucking irresponsible when you get fucked, and wait for someone to fall It’s deep, and you’re going to roll up your bed and find a random place to die, what do you mean?”

Lu Xuyi's voice was hoarse, the crying in his tone was revealed, his neck was thick and red, it seemed that he had exhausted all his strength to resist going up to slap Yan Chen.He lowered his head fiercely, trying to control his emotions on the verge of explosion.

"... Are you happy to play with other people's feelings?" After a long time, Lu Xuyi raised his head, his eyes filled with tears.

Yan Chen panicked instantly, he stood up in a hurry, and saw the needle still stuck in his right hand, he was afraid that his random blood flow would not only frighten Lu Xuyi, so he sat back slowly.He wanted to explain, opened his mouth, but forgot all the words.

"I……"

"Forget it, stop talking. I don't want to hear it." Lu Xuyi's eyes were red, and he interrupted Yan Chen to explain for a long time.

Yan Chen's lips moved, and he didn't say anything as he followed Lu Xuyi's will.

"I'm tired, go to bed first, we'll talk about it tomorrow." Lu Xuyi stood up, covered his face with his hands, and took a long time to sort out his emotions.Seeing that there was not much medicine left in Yan Chen's bottle, he rang the call bell.

The nurse came soon, helped Yan Chen pull out the needle, and treated the wound with special medicine.

For the sudden addition of a person in the room, the nurse did not look sideways, finished her own work, and did not forget to close the door gently after going out.

"Go to sleep." Lu Xuyi moved a recliner beside him, and he didn't intend to listen to what Yan Chen had to say, so he lay down on his own.

Yan Chen's heart ached instantly, and he hurriedly said, "You can sleep on the bed, I'll sleep on the recliner."

"Your immunity is weakened now, what if you get infected?" Lu Xuyi glanced at Yan Chen coldly.

Yan Chen was speechless for a moment, so he had no choice but to increase the temperature in the room several degrees, and found a clean quilt to cover Lu Xuyi.

Lu Xuyi kept his eyes closed, as if he had fallen asleep.Yan Chen sighed helplessly and lay down on the bed decadently.The two had nothing to say all night.