trans walk

On Sunday, the snow stopped and it was sunny.

Zheng Heen didn't have a job today, so he came to the nursing home after lunch, and met Li Jin who was returning from the cafeteria in the garden.

"Aren't you in a hurry to go back? Let's go for a walk together?" Zheng Heen suggested.

"...it is good."

The two walked slowly side by side, the fluffy creaking sound of their boots stepping on the snow, and the crisp sound of branches breaking occasionally.

This is the normal state of their getting along, and they are often silent.Li Jin's thoughts were flying and he didn't know what he was thinking, while Zheng Heen was racking his brains to think about how to start the topic.

At this moment, looking at the vast expanse of whiteness, Zheng Heen was also a little absent-minded. He tried his best to recall how they used to have a natural conversation, and when did they become so alienated.

Probably they are just good friends, and it would be superfluous to add any other feelings.The substitutes he developed were filled with too many things that Li Jin didn't need, and if they were full, they would lose money, which was self-defeating.

After all, Li Jin is an alpha, even if it is an alpha with hyposensitivity, he would not stay for a beta, right now, what is he begging for ridiculously now.Zheng Heen thought in confusion and self-mockery, but couldn't control himself from approaching Li Jin.

They are like snowflakes flying everywhere in this world, they can't warm each other at all, but they want to stay together wishful thinking.

Unexpectedly, near the gate, they met Joey and David.

"Assistant David. Dr. Joy, long time no see." Li Jin greeted them, "Is your leg better?"

Joey smiled and waved his hand, "It's much better, it's just that it's not convenient to go to the ground, especially in snowy weather, it's easy to slip. No, I'd better let David bring me here." He said, pointing to David's hand A small box said, "Just looking for you, I have something for you!"

"What is this?" Zheng Heen asked curiously.

"It's also your fault." Joey pretended to be mysterious, "Let's find a place to sit down and talk first."

Several people came to the pavilion in the northwest corner of the park.

David opened the box, and there was a rectangular plaster-like object inside, with extremely thin wires connected to both ends, and a mini battery connected, which looked similar to a necklace pendant, simple and elegant.

Joey explained, "This product is created based on your physical signs data for more than a month. The main principle is to release a small current to stimulate the gland. The specific parameters of the micro-current also refer to the previous test data. When shielding pheromone In the state, the concentration of alpha pheromone fluctuates, and the frequency of fluctuations in the state of substitutes... Thanks to Zheng Heen..."

He motioned to David to help Li Jin put it on, "How should I put it, after all, it is a first-generation test product. We can only optimistically estimate that it can slightly improve the symptoms of hyposensitivity, and make subsequent improvements after adapting to it for a period of time. But The second generation of different forms of products is already in production, and the data of the first generation will be needed at that time. Well...how do you feel?"

Three pairs of eyes stared straight at Li Jin.

Li Jin let out a breath, and slowly closed his eyes.The surroundings are quiet, there is a very cold smell, almost nothingness.It may be snow, it may be brought by the wind, the fragrance of a certain plant in winter, but it must not be pheromone.

He slowly opened his eyes without moving.After a long while, he reluctantly bent his mouth towards them.

The three of them immediately understood that the effect was not ideal, but none of them showed any disappointed expressions.

"It's okay, you use it first. It's the same sentence, as long as there is a little hope, you have to try it." Joey said easily.

"I know. Thank you." After Li Jin finished speaking, he lowered his head and played with the battery.

"I've always been very optimistic about you. You are very cooperative and hardworking." Joey smiled helplessly. "It's not like the patient next door, who is obviously skinny and skinny, but he tosses himself hard and works desperately. If this continues, The last hope is gone."

Both Li Jin and Zheng Heen were at a loss.

David said softly, "It's the omega who had a low fever before."

Li Jin smiled wryly after hearing this.His so-called positivity is just an appearance.Gene's disease, with him for 30 years, has long understood that it is impossible to cure.

After going through so many things, he agreed to participate in Dr. Joy's research, clinging to the slightest possibility, just because it was the last rope he found under the cliff, and he could face it calmly. Falling, but it is impossible to let go voluntarily.

He has sealed himself with coldness for so many years, and the only warmth has been given to others by mistake.All we can do now is take one step at a time.

Perhaps this is his only remaining obsession.

After Joey and David left, Zheng Heen sat down beside Li Jin.

Li Jin stared at the couple who were building a snowman in the distance. The intimate atmosphere melted into the cold air, covering them in a magnetic field that outsiders could not approach, where it was like spring all the year round.

Zheng Heen tilted his head slightly, looking at Li Jin's well-defined side face and eyes that were not too angry.I want to touch his hands on his knees, so that he can feel his real existence, not just a warm body.

Li Jin adjusted his sitting posture indiscriminately, causing Zheng Heen's hands to freeze in place.He gritted his teeth, put his hand on the back of Li Jin's, and held it gently.

"He En..." Li Jin called his name softly and without emotion.

It was only then that Zheng Heen realized that getting along like this was like torture.As long as he speaks a few syllables, does not struggle, refuses, or expresses his position, it is enough to let you know that he has no place for you in his heart.

It's like a bottomless black hole that no amount of effort can fill.There's nothing to fill it up with but that person.

Zheng Heen took his hand back and tightly folded it with the other hand, as if to make up for the lack just now, "Well... I just want to test whether you are cold or not."

He is cold.Zheng Heen said in his heart, but he doesn't need your warmth.

Zheng Heen suddenly remembered that last summer night, when he put the newly prepared reagents into the incubator, he received a message from Li Jin.He couldn't restrain the corners of his mouth from rising, quickly took off his gloves, and opened the screen.

The expected pleasantries did not appear, and after losing contact for two months, Li Jin asked him if there was an aphrodisiac in the substitute.

He replied yes, of course, resentful and almost masochistic, he asked Li Jin if he got what he wanted.What he was thinking about was the day earlier when his first-generation aphrodisiac substitute entered Li Jin's body.Li Jin's eyes were reddish, he was panting uncontrollably, sweat slipped from his sexy muscles, and disappeared under his undulating belly.

He blurred boundaries and memories, and his presumptuous words really angered Li Jin.

Li Jin is too smart, too sober, and too restrained.

Li Jin's only stupidity, the only chaos, and the only loss of control were given to that omega.

Zheng Heen felt that it was extremely absurd, and he kept rejecting Li Jin, saying that he wanted to quit the substitute alpha, but picked up his invention again.He must be in great pain, bewildered and stubborn without knowing what is going on.

Zheng Heen felt sad that his original intention and wish turned out to be someone else's wedding dress. If he had known this, he would not have renewed his contract with Li Jin, so he might as well let it go.

He felt that all of this was a joke from beginning to end.Because the product he developed with all his strength was just imitating what that person was born with.

In fact, ever since Li Jin asked him what would happen if he overdosed with inhibitors, he knew that these two people were bound together, and that they would be marked one day.

But he couldn't help it.He knew that if he went back to the day when the laboratory caught fire and made another choice, even if he saw Li Jin and that person cuddling each other like a match made in heaven, he would still renew his contract with Li Jin, maintaining this point was pitiful connect.

He forgot how he lived in the few days after he learned the marks of those two people. He tried to drink alcohol, did experiments day and night, and wrote reports. In the end, he would always remember the night when he met Li Jin in crazyeve. Drunk in Li Jin's arms.Li Jin didn't know if he noticed the clue, but he gently gave him some juice, sent him home, and told him to pay attention to his body.

Every time at this time, he feels how heartless he is. Others regard you as a friend, but you want to break them up. You clearly know how rare that omega is to Li Jin.

Until Li Jin told him that many, many substitutes were needed, and the dosage and concentration were beyond imagination.

He almost rekindled hope, and personally transported the boxes of things to Li Jin's home.

But the house became messy, with scattered wine bottles, broken wine glasses, the pungent smell of smoke and alcohol in the air, a substitute so strong that it turned nauseating.

Zheng Heen closed the door, and laughed maniacally, with a feeling that he was in control. In the end, the two people still separated, and the hardship he endured was worth it.

But at that time, he had already forgotten what it meant to be rejected many times.

He sent replacements to Li Jin continuously, and he also smelled of amber, smelling like wet asphalt road.

Then the situation got out of control, Li Jin was drunk, his health was worrying, he didn't work, he was talking nonsense, he disappeared for a few days, or he was crying and laughing holding a photo frame and an orange cat doll.

Zheng Heen had no choice but to contact Zhou Wenchen.

Months of long and painful withdrawal and therapy.Zhou Wenchen proposed to send him to Sanato Sanatorium with the best conditions in Country T, and contacted Dr. Anna.

Zheng Heen followed him secretly, at this moment Li Jin almost refused to communicate with others, sometimes he thought that Li Jin didn't know his existence at all.

He rented a house near the nursing home, met Dr. Joy under the introduction of Dr. Anna, and worked in his laboratory.

Zheng Heen didn't know what kind of identity he was staying with Li Jin to take care of him, watching Li Jin go from fresh to crazy to withered.He often thought that maybe his invention hurt Li Jin.So, is this a redemption called Chasing Love?

Li Jin suddenly said beside him, "Heen, let's go back."

"Ah... okay." Zheng Heen regained his senses and stood up.

Then, he heard Li Jin say, "Give me a little more time for what you said last time."

"Huh?" Zheng Heen was stunned.

"When the snow stops..."

"Okay! You can tell me anytime..." Zheng Heen followed his footsteps.

Zheng Heen thought, he is still so gentle, agreeing is gentle, refusing is also gentle, how long will he be trapped?