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For Huo Yufei, doing psychological counseling is as common as eating and drinking.

Huo Yufei's parents, as well as Huo Yushou and Song Yulai, all have their own counselors, who help them better understand and improve themselves through regular or irregular psychological counseling.

And because of Huo Yufei's big misunderstanding when he was a child, his mental state has always been concerned by his family.

So this time, when he realized that he was deeply troubled and needed a little help, he first bypassed the counselor Huo Qidong had arranged for him.

Instead, I found one myself.

Huo Yufei was already familiar with the process of psychological counseling, so he picked up the water glass and turned it back and forth in his hand.

Ning Cong quietly waited for him to organize his words.

"We met not long ago, but it's amazing. Although we have known him for a short time, I know him better than he even imagined. There are many similarities between the two of us. I'm not talking about personality, preferences, I'm used to this superficial thing, but...how should I put it? It's a kind of resonance in the soul. Maybe sometimes I can't accurately perceive his expression or emotion, because he is not transparent to me, but like It's a familiar maze that has been slightly modified, and maybe I won't be able to find the exit for a while, but I won't be anxious at all, I understand the logic hidden in it." Huo Yufei paused slightly, and looked at the other party.

Ning Cong nodded to him affirmatively: "I understand."

Huo Yufei smiled: "It may be unbelievable, but the fact is, I may not understand him [-]%, but I can accept him deeply and comprehensively... everything is sorry, everything."

"It doesn't matter, sometimes the expression in English is more accurate. I understand that the 'everything' you said not only emphasizes everything, but also emphasizes the importance."

"Yes," Huo Yufei nodded, "He is very important to me, but I just discovered that I am also important to him. The 'nature' of this 'important' is a bit beyond my expectation. He Looking forward to a more intimate relationship."

Having said that, he pondered.

A few minutes later, Ning Cong took the initiative to continue the topic: "What about you?"

"kindness?"

"For this 'closer' relationship, what is your attitude, rejection? Expectation?"

Huo Yufei didn't pause this time: "No, I thought we were already very close."

"Very intimate?"

"My definition of our relationship..." He organized the words, "I don't know if you can understand me when I describe it this way. We have very, very similar souls, or the same soul, so I can be very familiar with him. Naturally fully accepted."

"Like yourself in the mirror?"

Huo Yufei nodded.

Now that the conversation has progressed, the relaxed smile on his face has completely disappeared.

Or that easy smile itself is a kind of decoration.

In fact, when the test results confirmed that Gu Cheng had unknowingly developed feelings for him beyond a friend, Huo Yufei's mood...maybe only "forced" can describe it.

No, not accurate enough.

How could it be possible?At least it's the power of Mengbi.

Huo Yufei was entertaining himself in his heart, while implying the other party with actions without delay, this is inappropriate.

It's not right for you to like me.

When Gu Cheng hesitated to speak, he deliberately changed his expression to stop the other party from saying what he was about to say.

He took one of the roses he gave to Gu Cheng and gave it to the girl next door, pretending not to see his well-hidden slight disappointment.

He knew that the other party could understand him.

Because he knows this person.

"I hope to be by his side as a friend. I don't know how to respond to his expectation."

Huo Yufei's words expressed his distress.

In fact, he was very distressed during this time.

How exactly?

He didn't want to hurt Gu Cheng's feelings, and he also didn't want to disappear from the other party's life like this.He hopes to get along with the other party as a friend, but he is afraid that if he continues to get along like this, the other party will become more and more affectionate.

Because he knows Gu Cheng too well.

If you like someone, you will like it for a long time.

When you love someone, you will love deeply.

Then, he heard his consultant say this——

"So, you're already thinking about how to respond to the other party?"

Huo Yufei took a quick breath, and then he said calmly, "Yes, because I can't think of any other way to not hurt him."

"You value him very much."

"Yes."

"Do you value him more than your own feelings?"

"I don't know, maybe...sometimes?"

It's hard to put another person's feelings above your own in most situations, even when you profess to be "deeply in love" with someone.This is determined by genes and various chemical substances, human instinct.

But if you are very rational and reflective, you can hesitate to say "sometimes".

Then this person should be much, much more important than you think.

Ning Cong looked at him with a smile.

He didn't say anything, he was waiting for the other party to realize what he meant.

Unexpectedly, this particularly keen consultant did not stop at this point.He took it for granted that he valued another person so much.

Ning Cong felt a little funny.

His prolific practice has given him an in-depth knowledge of all aspects of the world.However, Huo Yufei's confusion couldn't find any connection with the dark side of human nature.

This made his expression more familiar and gentle.

"I value him very much." Huo Yufei tilted his head as if thinking about something, "I don't want to see him sad."

Then he concluded the third sentence: "But I don't know how to respond to him."

This is what bothers him the most.

Ning Cong noticed this: "I don't know how to respond?"

"Oh——" Huo Yufei suddenly remembered that he had missed something: "He is a man."

Ning Cong was not surprised, he nodded: "Understood. Because you can't accept the same sex?"

"Maybe? But not all, I haven't had an emotional need for another person in a long time."

Ning Cong noticed "emotional needs", which is a very accurate and professional word.

He sits up straight, shows he values ​​himself, and concludes, "It overwhelms you. Because you subconsciously want to satisfy him. So do you have an emotional need for him?"

"I don't know. I don't want to avoid the problem, but I think the core of the problem is not here. No matter whether I have emotional needs for him, or what kind of emotional needs. I hope that I can satisfy all his wishes. At least, I don't want him to be sad."

"learn."

"I said we're similar, that there's oneness in our souls."

"Yes."

"So I value him as much as I value myself."

"Yes."

Then, there was silence in the bright and comfortable consulting room.

After a while, Huo Yufei suddenly laughed.

"It seems that in a general sense, this means liking someone?"

The first snow in City B has been falling for a whole day since the morning.The rapidly dropping temperature has condensed a thin layer of ice on the lake, and the light snowflakes are spread on it again and again, gradually piling up, fluffy and fluffy, like the top layer of the fur of a small animal .

The entire campus is covered by a world of ice and snow.

Occasionally, in the continuous white, a corner of emerald or bright color is exposed, which is very naughty and lovely.

The temperature was low and the wind whimpered.

The interior is a completely different warm world.

Gu Cheng's eyes focused on the notes spread out in front of him.

The font on it is very familiar, but it looks better.

It's not his.

The desk lamp embedded in the table creates a bright area on the desktop, making the pages of the notebook glow a nostalgic beige.

He still held the water glass tightly in his hand, but the water in the glass was completely cold.

Gu Cheng was distracted.

In front of you is the horizontal floor-to-ceiling glass window. From the outside, you can see that the entire campus is covered with a layer of clean white.Occasionally, a few figures coming and going seem to be some moving embellishments, leaving deep and shallow marks on the snow.

His wandering gaze suddenly froze when he bumped into one of the familiar figures.

Then he stood up quickly, put down the cup in a panic, leaned over to look down the window while leaning on the table.

But nothing.

It was really dazzled just now.

This also brought Gu Cheng back to his senses. He looked at the remaining thickness of the book, propped his forehead and smiled self-deprecatingly.

How about calling it a day?He couldn't see it anyway.

But what are you going to do if you don't read a book?

Gu Cheng thought about it, but he couldn't think of it for a while.

He sat back again, and read a book obediently.

However, just as he was about to reopen the closed book.

There was a sudden ice on his cheek, he dodged subconsciously, and when he turned his head to see the person who was smiling at him with snowflakes on his eyelashes.It was really a bit of a surprise.

"Yufei!"

Huo Yufei made a "shh" gesture to him, then curled his mouth, leaned into his ear and whispered, "When are you going to eat? I'll wait for you."

The words "I'll wait for you" plucked from the base of his neck like a dog's tail.

Gu Cheng involuntarily shivered slightly.

In order to conceal this, he immediately stood up, put away his things quickly, nodded to Huo Yufei, and signaled him to follow him.

If it was two months ago.He may be very natural and directly pull the other party.

But now he is restrained.

Huo Yufei seemed to have noticed this too.

He touched his nose, then patted Gu Cheng's shoulder lightly, and changed the direction.

They bypassed clusters of bookshelves, opened the heavy fire doors, and entered the fire stairwell one by one.

The temperature dropped immediately.

Everyone usually takes the elevator, and the stairwell is empty, but it is convenient for talking.

Huo Yufei was wearing a jacket with a woolen sweater inside, and his neck was empty, apparently he had left his scarf in the car again.

Gu Cheng walked a little behind him, and he could clearly see the pale wheat-colored neck protruding from the low collar, like a sunflower emerging from the soil.The ends of the hair have a slight and natural curvature, like leaves stretched in the sun.

Gu Cheng felt that he had too many associations, so he coughed lightly, stopped his imagination, and asked him, "Is it cold?"

Huo Yufei was wearing very thin clothes.

It is obvious that the clothes and pants are not as bulky as others.

Huo Yufei was still thinking about things, he didn't feel much at first, he wasn't very afraid of the cold, and he was indoors all the time today.

When Gu Cheng reminded him like this, a chill suddenly flowed from the newly heated toes back to the heels along the blood vessels.

He shook his head lightly.

"The quality of this shoe is too bad. The sole is not warm at all."

Huo Yufei's voice was quite low, muttering, Gu Cheng couldn't hear clearly, and asked, "What?"

"I was thinking about what to eat." Huo Yufei turned around and smiled at him.

The snowflakes on his eyelashes have melted now, only a little bit of ice still hangs on the brow.It made his eyes look moist.

They had already reached the first floor at this time, the hall was ventilated, and the temperature was obviously lower.

It was still snowing outside.

Gu Cheng stopped at the door, turned around and asked the other party again: "Is it cold?"

Huo Yufei shook his head: "It's okay."

They walked out the door.

Outside the continuous glass door was a huge gray space with a height of three floors. The wind mixed with snowflakes rushed towards them. Their heads and shoulders were quickly covered with a layer of white.

Gu Cheng suddenly stopped moving: "Go inside and wait for me."

He walked a few steps, then turned around and handed the bag to Huo Yufei, and confirmed with him: "Wait inside, don't run around."

Then it hurriedly disappeared into a vast expanse of whiteness.

Huo Yufei had been watching his back completely disappear.

Then he stood still and stared blankly.

Then Gu Cheng came back.

Huo Yufei was surprised: "So fast."

Gu Cheng felt helpless for his disobedient behavior: "Don't you feel cold standing here?"

Huo Yufei looked at him with a smile, but didn't speak.

Gu Cheng unwrapped the package, opened the umbrella, took his own bag from Huo Yufei, and motioned to him, "Let's go?"

Huo Yufei nodded, took a step forward suddenly, and wiped off all the snowflakes on his shoulders and head with the cuff of the sweater inside his coat.

Gu Cheng didn't move.

After Huo Yufei finished all this, he suddenly put his arms around each other's shoulders, and then they huddled under a transparent umbrella that seemed to have no cover, and walked into the snowy sky together.

The wind is getting stronger and stronger, and the slanted umbrella can't block all the snowflakes. There are many snowflakes that roll in along the edges and rush into their necks.

They were close together, almost moving forward in the difficult wind and snow.

But every step they took was very steady.

Huo Yufei could feel the strength and temperature on his shoulders.

He could also feel a sense of determination.

It was snowing too hard.

And swallowed up all sound.

In the silence, it seemed that there were only the two of them in the entire campus and the entire world.

Endless snowflakes scrambled towards each other, and were broken into drops of cold water under the interception of the umbrella surface.

Then a drop of it somehow flowed into Huo Yufei's neck.

He suddenly became alert.

Then I heard familiar voices beside my ears, Gu Cheng's voice, Gu Chengyue's voice.

"It's cold?"

Three very short, even cold words, but followed by an umbrella leaning towards him even more.

Huo Yufei was almost completely covered under the umbrella, while almost two-thirds of Gu Cheng was exposed to the wind and snow, and the melted snowflakes had already wet the fabric of his underwear.

Then his eyes fell on the back of the other party's hand that was tightly holding the umbrella handle - it was blown bright red by the cold wind.Only the joints, because of too much force, left the petal-like jade color.

This reminded him of the day when the other party tightly clung to the rose branch because of his words.

He was very sad.

It seems to be my favorite painting, but I accidentally painted a wrong stroke.

Gu Cheng's comforting voice was next to his ear: "Let's eat something hot, stew pot? It's also close, so it won't be cold in the store."

"Wait a minute." Huo Yufei suddenly remembered something, he stopped, took out the beautifully wrapped paper box from the paper bag he was carrying, tore off the seal, unpacked the layers of packaging, and grabbed Gu Cheng's hand, a little rough He put the lambskin glove on his right hand.

And then another one.

But he didn't realize how red his hands were from the cold.

The cold temperature of the fingertips is even shocking.

Gu Cheng noticed it.

He tried to take the glove off, but was unsuccessful.

Huo Yufei even took the handle of the umbrella from him.

Don't you really feel cold?

Gu Cheng asked softly in his heart, as if he was afraid of disturbing something.

But he didn't say it.

He just stopped where he was.

Hold each other's hands firmly in the palm of your hand, then pull off the coat and stuff it into your arms.

The freezing temperature chilled his chest, but made his heart swell.

A thick layer of snow has accumulated on the transparent umbrella surface, blocking the light, and it hangs unsteadily on the shoulders.

They huddled together under the umbrella, as if in a place where no one knew and no one could see.

Gu Cheng firmly pressed Huo Yufei's hand on his warm chest with one hand.The thorough coolness was like eating a large piece of ice.But the rest of his body was hot.

His Adam's apple rolled.

Ask yourself in your heart——

He is so good to me.

So so good.

Do you really not like me a little bit?

I do not believe!

So why should I hesitate?

Can anyone treat him better than me?

I do not believe.

So he, with an almost hoarse voice, stared at each other's eyes word by word, and said——

"I like you."

"Even if you don't accept it, I still like you."

"You will also know sooner or later that no one treats you better than me."

At the same time, he pressed the opponent's hand with all his strength suddenly, as if he wanted to hand over the beating heart to the opponent's hand.

The author has something to say:

Gu Cheng: I like you.

Yufei: Well... I like me too.