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With a bang, the whole dormitory was as bright as day.

Gu Cheng frowned uncomfortably under the light.

"Your friend came to see you."

The other two people in the dormitory were not there, Liu Yun gave Gu Cheng a signal to Huo Yufei, and hurried to wash up before the lights were turned off.

Gu Cheng's bed was on the lower bunk, and the quilt and pillows were neatly arranged. When he saw Huo Yufei, he immediately stood up from the side of the bed.

Passed by him, took a chair: "Please sit down."

Huo Yufei touched his nose and looked at the other party's expression.

I feel that Gu Cheng is not very energetic, and he is not in a good mood, and his attitude towards him is obviously a bit rusty.It's not that he was familiar with him before, but from the first meeting, Gu Cheng had an imperceptible intimacy with him.

Although he obviously did nothing wrong, Huo Yufei was a little guilty.

Gu Cheng was looking for a cup, as if he wanted to pour him a glass of water, he grabbed the other party: "Farewell, just say a few words to you, I will turn off the lights later...why is it so hot?"

The temperature of his palm surprised him a little.

Gu Cheng pulled his arm back: "I have a fever."

He didn't care about the fever at all, but Huo Yufei knew that when the other party was sick, he would be particularly impatient and in a bad mood.

"Have you taken your medicine?" Obviously not, but he still asked symbolically.

Gu Cheng's tone was already a little uncontrollable irritability: "I forgot to buy it, I will eat it tomorrow."

Huo Yufei turned around and ran back to the dormitory. He himself didn't live there often. Last time Song Yulai seemed to give him some common medicine, but he didn't know where to put it.After rummaging through boxes and cabinets, it was Yang Xiaodong who found a box of antipyretic powder and gave it to him.

Huo Yufei took a look at the granule, put it away first, and went to other dormitories to ask around, and found that there was nothing else.

Well, it seems that Gu Cheng has no choice.

Gu Cheng's ears were hot, and his body temperature should not be low, but he had no idea of ​​taking medicine to see a doctor, and even washed his face with cold water.While collecting the towel, Liu Yun asked with concern, "You caught a cold? Why are you still touching the cold water?"

Huo Yufei just heard this sentence, without saying anything, took Gu Cheng's cup from the table, and made a cup of strong antipyretic powder.The strong smell of Chinese medicine stirred up the hot water and immediately filled the entire dormitory.

Liu Yun was delighted: "Yo, here comes the medicine."

Huo Yufei didn't talk much, he just stood in front of Gu Cheng holding a cup and looked at him silently.

He knew that Gu Cheng must be in a very bad mood at this time, and wanted to lose his temper.You Qi was still holding the traditional Chinese medicine granule that he swore he would never touch again in his life.

But even if you can lose your temper when you are sick, you must take medicine.

Gu Cheng was soon overwhelmed by his gaze.

Frowning, he took the cup and said sincerely, "Thank you."

Then I want to put it aside.

Huo Yufei still looked at him without blinking.

He had no choice but to explain: "I'll wait for it to cool down."

Huo Yufei poked at his weakness: "It's even worse and bitterer when it's cold."

The other party didn't even say an imperative sentence, Gu Cheng just felt cornered.

Immediately, he wanted to lose his temper, but when he looked into Huo Yufei's bright and serious eyes, he couldn't express it at all.

I had no choice but to hold my breath and picked up the cup.

As soon as it was close to his mouth, the strong taste made his stomach sick. Fortunately, the amount was not much. Gu Cheng shook the cup before planning to sip it a little bit. The other party urged him as if he had caught his attention: You can drink it in one breath, and it will be more bitter if you drink a little bit."

Gu Cheng accepted his fate.

Liu Yun looked at it and wanted to laugh, and especially wanted to say, "So there are people who can cure you", but Gu Cheng must still be annoyed now, so he resisted the teasing.

Then a little bit of the granule at the bottom of the cup is indeed finished in two or three sips, and Gu Cheng immediately drank several glasses of water after swallowing it.

Just at this time, the dormitory suddenly became dark and the lights were turned off.

A little light came in from the street lamp outside the window.

"Are you going to rest?" Huo Yufei urged him to go to bed implicitly, "Then I will come to you tomorrow."

Gu Cheng shook his head without saying a word, and pulled him out directly, stopping on the small balcony at the end of the corridor.

Huo Yufei closed the balcony window without any hassle.

"what's wrong?"

Although Gu Cheng's brain turned a little slower than usual because of the fever, he had thought about this matter many times in the past few days, and he didn't need to think too much, but just needed to confirm it with Huo Yufei.

Of course, it could also be because of his illness, so he was silent for a few seconds, directly omitting the opening remarks.

Ask straight to the point: "Are you gay?"

Huo Yufei was stunned when he asked him a word.

He stumbled a bit when he spoke: "You...what did you say?"

Gu Cheng looked straight into his eyes and repeated again: "Are you gay?"

Huo Yufei was a little angry.

How does he look like a homosexual? Why is everyone so suspicious?

He said firmly, "No."

Then I heard Gu Cheng's slightly relaxed voice: "Then neither am I."

……

Huo Yufei: "Oh."

Is this gone?

Gu Cheng smiled at him, "Just to ask you, nothing else." Then he hesitated for a second, "I think you can explain it to your sister."

Huo Yufei blinked and understood.

Thinking from Gu Cheng's point of view, it is easy to understand Song Yulai's purpose. Such a quick joke has no meaning, but it can show his attitude.No matter how this lie is exposed, Gu Cheng can't help thinking about Song Yulai's purpose for doing so.

The other party was Huo Yufei's family members, who knew his former name, and hinted like this in front of him.

He couldn't stop thinking about it.

Gu Cheng planned to go back to the dormitory after saying this sentence.

Huo Yufei grabbed him: "Are you angry?"

He tried a word, and then apologized bluntly: "I'm sorry, I didn't know my second sister would think so wildly, I never mentioned you to her."

Gu Cheng looked back at him and comforted him: "It's okay, I just hope there is no misunderstanding."

At this moment, Huo Yufei couldn't even consider the other party's attitude.

Suspected and warned like this, with Gu Cheng's proud personality, would he not be angry at all?

Huo Yufei expressed doubts.

But in fact, Gu Cheng was not angry at all.

The term "homosexuality" came to me suddenly after many days.

Gu Cheng originally planned to take Huo Yufei to play around City B during the National Day holiday, but he didn't receive a call the next day.He tacitly agreed that Huo Yufei had other arrangements, so he went to pick up a few jobs and was busy for three or four days in a row.Before going back to school, he went to a large foreign supermarket in the city center to buy a lot of snacks. He felt that since it was inconvenient to pay back the money, it shouldn't matter if he gave some food.However, after learning from Huo Yufei's roommate that Song Yulai, who called himself "girlfriend", turned out to be Huo Yufei's sister, Gu Cheng couldn't help but think about it.

He has no concept of homosexuality, and he never thought that he would have any connection with homosexuality.

But what if Huo Yufei is?

That would totally explain it.

Why are you so kind to yourself.

He had to confirm with Huo Yufei.

As for what to do, he hasn't thought about it yet, at least he needs to know the result first.

Although Gu Cheng didn't think that Huo Yufei might be gay at all, this small possibility still made him nervous for a while.

After hearing the other party's denial, Gu Cheng relaxed slightly.

Instead, I found it a little funny.

He has never had any particularly close friends, and the only ones he is familiar with are Liu Yun and Zhang Cheng.As for Huo Yufei, although he had known him not long ago, he was already far beyond the level of familiarity.

It's like just taking medicine, as if the other party knows everything about me.

On the contrary, he knew almost nothing about Huo Yufei.

Thinking of this, he suddenly stopped in place and smiled: "Do you have a sister?"

Huo Yufei found that he really couldn't guess what the other party was thinking now. He felt melancholy for a second, and the corner of his mouth was still smiling: "Yes, she is my second sister, and I have a big brother. Maybe it's because I Staying abroad since childhood will cause them to misunderstand."

This sentence is the truth, this "they" also includes Huo Qidong.

foreign?

This was a bit different from what Gu Cheng had imagined before, which made him a little curious, but he wasn't sure if it was appropriate for him to ask directly.

Probably because I don't like others to explore his origin, so I am particularly cautious in this regard.

He was still thinking about how to tactfully satisfy his curiosity, when Huo Yufei suddenly leaned over and reached out to touch his forehead: "Okay, it's not hot anymore."

Gu Cheng was taken aback by his sudden approach.

His brows were sharp, and he looked a little cold under the moonlight.Huo Yufei was very natural in being intimate, as if they had known each other for more than ten or twenty years.

Gu Cheng raised his eyebrows, suddenly felt that there was no need to be too cautious, and asked him directly: "How old were you when you went abroad?"

"Eight or nine? Or ten?" Huo Yufei didn't care much.

But it doesn't sound like that at all to others.

"So small..." Gu Cheng frowned, "Won't your family worry?"

Huo Yufei actually didn't really want to talk about this, but he didn't want to avoid it, so he smiled relaxedly: "It's okay, there's nothing to worry about. You can adapt quickly at a young age."

In fact, the reason why the family was really willing to let him go abroad was that he had just recovered from his autism, and he was afraid that excessive opposition would irritate him.Otherwise, there is no special reason, which pair of parents would feel at ease and would be willing to let a child under ten years old stay alone in a foreign country for nearly ten years?

But Huo Yufei didn't want to take the blame at all, and he definitely wouldn't mention this to Gu Cheng.

Seeing the other party's confused expression, Huo Yufei added to the liking: "I also have an older brother, who is six years older than me. It was the rebellious period at that time, and the family was devastated because of him. There is also my second sister, a little girl, at that age It is the hardest thing to raise, and my father and Ms. Song dote on her the most. And my elder brother is very capable, and he started helping the family early on. Whether it is on my father's side or Ms. Song's side, he is the default heir. I It's different..." His voice gradually trailed off, and the more he explained, the less convincing he felt.

Because the real reason is in himself.

It was he who didn't want to be in this place.

Just like Paul Gauguin, after his suicide attempt, in the midst of hallucinations and aftermath, with "Where do we come from?"who are we?Where are we going? "asks the world—or maybe it is a summary of his spiritual world for a long time.

And what about Gu Chengyue?

He resolutely leaves and unexpectedly returns to the world.It is also full of confusion about this world where nothingness and existence are intertwined.

Who is he, where did he come from, where is he going?

Maybe the moment he thought about these questions, Gu Chengyue was already dead.

It was Huo Yufei who came back to life.

From then on, there was only Huo Yufei.

But Huo Yufei couldn't find himself.

He cannot identify with himself.

He didn't know how to explain all of these to Gu Cheng, so he could only remain silent.

Gu Cheng was also silent.

After a long time, he suddenly stepped forward and hugged Huo Yufei into his arms.

Huo Yufei was startled, struggled a little, and was restrained even harder by the opponent.

Gu Cheng's slender fingers penetrated into the hair on the back of his head, and with a little force, he pressed his head on his shoulder.

Then tightened even more, tightening the arms around the opponent's back.

"no problem, no problem."

Gu Cheng whispered in Huo Yufei's ear.

He didn't ask whether "Ms. Song" was Huo Yufei's mother, why she was called that, or why she had to earn money through physical labor despite her wealthy family.

For these, he is not curious at all.

What he just wanted to know was how Huo Yufei, who had been ignored since he was a child, grew into such a sunny appearance.

He couldn't imagine--

How does a small seed fight alone to grow into a tall sunflower in the dark?

If you don't have sunshine, I would like to be your sunshine.

The author has something to say:

Huo Yufei: Honey, although my family is very rich, I don't want to rely on my family, I just want to support my family by myself.

Gu Cheng felt distressed for a second, and suddenly pulled him over and kissed: It's okay, you support the family, and I will support you.

Huo Yufei: What did I say?