Treading snow to find mud

Chen Yi thought about this matter over and over again, analyzed and analyzed, and wrote down the pros and cons one by one on paper:

If he doesn't say anything, he can always take care of Tang Yao for the rest of his life.

If he said it, maybe Tang Yao would drive him away in a moment of impatience.

If he didn't say it, he could still face Tang Yao day and night.

Speaking out, maybe one day touched Tang Yao, but maybe another day, the two broke up because they couldn't get along.

But if he doesn't say it, can he resist having unreasonable thoughts about Tang Yao?

But if he said it, Tang Yao might not allow himself to touch him!

……

In the end, Chen Yi still decided not to speak for the time being, and he could test his endurance by the way. Anyway, if he couldn't bear to show his flaws, he would have to speak if he didn't speak. At that time, he could only listen to Tang Yao. He said yes, then hold his hand for the rest of his life. If he didn't want it, Tang Yao would probably not let him stay any longer. The decision on this matter was always Tang Yao, not himself.

After thinking it through, Chen Yi didn't worry about it anymore, but the symptoms were still there. When Tang Yao started to practice walking, he would fall several times a day. Every time, he was hugged firmly by Chen Yi, and the one hugged was still with him. Fighting with his injured leg, the hugging person's heartbeat has been speeding up and his breathing has become unstable. Fortunately, they parted too quickly, before Tang Yao noticed it.

Also, recently Tang Yao's fingers have recovered quickly and become more and more flexible. In fact, Chen Yi has realized that Tang Yao can use his two hands to practice each other, but it seems that he has formed a habit. Sitting on the side of the bed, I reached out to shake Tang Yao's hand, and Tang Yao never refused. The two of them started practicing with each other like this, and one was replaced by the other after practice.

Every time at this time, Chen Yi couldn't help but silently recite the phrase "Hold your hand and grow old with you". Looking at Tang Yao's peaceful face, he suddenly felt that living like this is what he wanted. In my heart, I have no other extravagant wishes.

At night, Chen Yi was lying on the folding bed next to Tang Yao. Except for the few days when he was injured, Chen Yi had always slept in the same ward with Tang Yao. He tried not to turn over when he first lay down to sleep. Afraid of disturbing Tang Yao, he waited until Tang Yao fell asleep. If he hadn't fallen asleep, he would turn around to see Tang Yao's peaceful sleeping face. He couldn't get tired of that tranquility, because Tang Yao's tranquility It can always penetrate into my heart and make my heart calm down.

I have endured it for a long time, but I am used to it. I am afraid of being seen by others. If he and Tang Yao are left alone, it doesn't matter how focused his eyes are, but there are always nurses coming and going in and out of the ward, and there are also visiting patients. People come and go, Chen Yi has to be busy to restrain his mind from time to time, in fact, Chen Yi feels that his control is not bad, but it is Tang Yao who meets him, if he smiles, Chen Yi can't take his eyes off for a while , aware of this fact, once someone comes to Chen Yi, try not to see Tang Yao, so as not to make unnecessary mistakes.

Jiang Tianyue was the only person who knew about this matter. He was afraid that Jiang Tianyue would reveal it. Every time he came, Chen Yi deliberately stayed in the ward. Speaking of Chen Yi's head, Chen Yi could see Jiang Tianyue's evil taste clearly, but in order to conceal it, he could only talk about Le Jiaying again in front of the two of them. At this time, he found that Le Jiaying The position in his heart has disappeared without a trace, even when he said it, he felt numb, but when Jiang Tianyue left, Tang Yao said to him: "Chen Yi, if you still like For her, you might as well chase her back, since she still came back to look for you after ten years, she must still like you."