Treading snow to find mud

Chen Yi stared blankly at the faint smile on Tang Yao's lips, this smile was rarely seen after he was injured, because Tang Yao spent most of his time in deep sleep and pain, and at this moment, this smile There is a familiar yet unfamiliar taste in the smile. What is familiar is that Tang Yao will smile at him the same way when we first met him. What is strange is that this smile seems to have another meaning, as if... just like... Tang Yao Yao thought of something interesting, but it seemed like something else, but he didn't say it, and Chen Yi didn't know it, but when this smile appeared, Chen Yi felt very missing, as if his beloved treasure was lost and found again In that way, Tang Yao experienced so many injuries, he almost thought that such a smile would no longer exist, and now seeing it again, Chen Yi only felt excited and moved in his heart.

"Come here..." Tang Yao suddenly said.

"...Huh?" Chen Yi was taken aback for a moment, not knowing what Tang Yao meant, so he didn't move for a while.

"Are you going to stand by the wall all the time?" Tang Yao asked.

"I……"

"Still think I will eat you, so stay so far away from me?"

"I'm not--"

Tang Yao suddenly thought of something, and asked again: "Or...your legs...can't sit down?"

"No, nothing."

"Then come here." Tang Yao said again.

Chen Yizhu picked up his crutches, leaned over carefully, and then sat down on the chair beside the bed. He put the crutches aside, and then went to look at Tang Yao. Seeing that the smile on Tang Yao's face had not disappeared, he couldn't help but Asked him in a low voice: "Tang... Yao, you... are you not angry with me?"

"I'm angry with you, will your injury heal?" Tang Yao asked back.

Chen Yi shook his head, and then realized that he couldn't see, so he immediately said: "Tang Yao, don't be angry with me, I will tell you everything in the future, and I will not hide anything from you." He was so angry that he felt extremely sad, even more sad than when he gave up learning the piano.

"That's what you said."

"En!" Chen Yi nodded firmly.

"Okay, then I will never be angry with you in the future." Tang Yao also said.

Hearing these words, Chen Yi's heart, which had been struggling since last night, was finally relieved. Then, thinking about the operation, he couldn't help asking Tang Yao: "You...have decided, what will happen? Surgery?"

Tang Yao didn't answer directly, but said: "If my fingers can recover, I don't have to worry about you blaming yourself again and again. You, you have done it, and you have done it. In fact, I have long been separated from you. It’s clear who owes more to whom, but you have to know that my mood now is more relaxed than the previous ten years. I should thank you, shouldn’t I? This is not a polite word, you have come to a life that I feel owed Among them, and helped me make up for the shortcomings. I, Tang Yao, have lived with a clear conscience for more than 20 years, but because of my own negligence, I made a big mistake. I think you should be able to understand my feelings now, and such feelings , I think only you in this world can understand."

After hearing these words, Chen Yi finally couldn't help stretching out his hand. He wanted to shake Tang Yao's wrist, but he stopped when he saw the glaring white plaster, and slowly retracted it, saying He said: "I know, I knew it after you thanked me that day, but it's one thing to know, it's another thing to really see you suffer, but no matter how much I blame myself and how guilty I am, I still have a vague feeling in my heart. A voice told me that it was 'no regrets'. Although I got to know you in this way, I think it's worth it to let me integrate into your life. If we were just casual friends, then it must be It is impossible to realize this level. I may only be your personal butler forever. In fact, I also thought a lot about myself last night. You are angry that I don’t care about myself, and that I hurt myself all over. Isn’t that Because you also care about me, care about me, worry about me? So now we are the same, you hurt, I will be sad, I am hurt, you will be angry, you tell me, if you do it, you do it, I I also know that whether I blame myself or feel indebted, it will not help, but who made you become my destined Tang Yao? To me, you are no longer as simple as others."

Tang Yao listened quietly to Chen Yi's words, and when he finished speaking, the smile on Tang Yao's lips had deepened several times, and he suddenly opened his mouth and said to Chen Yi:

"...Come on, let me touch you."