Treading snow to find mud

Jiang Tianyue came and was chased away by Tang Yao. The excuse Tang Yao used was Chen Yi. Although Jiang Tianyue knew that Chen Yi was seriously injured, but according to Chen Yi's temperament, he might come to Tang Yao after the bandage was finished, so So he believed it and left. Of course he didn't know about Tang Yao being angry with Chen Yi, nor about Tang Yao driving Chen Yi away.

Maybe it's because Tang Yao didn't sleep all day and night. This time the attack was really violent. At first, he felt cold, and then his limbs and bones ached. This was obviously also because Tang Yao was seriously injured. The pain seemed to be tormented all over his body again. Tang Yao was used to enduring it recently, but it was different in the eyes of another person. This person was naturally Chen Yi who sneaked in.

He knew that Tang Yao had no time to care about other things at this time, but how could he stand by and watch?He ran away once because he couldn't bear to watch, and later he told himself that he must not escape. Tang Yao tried his best to face it, and he had to face it. Originally, all of this was caused by himself, but the words Tang Yao said to him before leaving just now still remain. The ear still made him very entangled, so he had to come here secretly. He knew that if he did this, he might make Tang Yao angry again, but he couldn't control that much. He leaned on a cane, tried his best to keep quiet, and came to Tang Yao. As expected, Tang Yao was unable to notice his arrival at this time. He was lying on his side, his body trembling slightly. Chen Yi looked at his back, but did not dare to reach out and grab his hand. In fact, he didn't have a good hand to use, so he quietly looked into the pain Tang Yao was suffering, and then couldn't help but start talking in a very low voice, as if he wanted to say to Tang Yao, but The voice is so soft that it seems to be just saying to yourself:

"...Tang Yao, don't blame me. When I think about all that you have suffered, I feel that my injury is not a big deal at all, so I didn't even think about it. It may sound like an excuse, but it is true. "

"Your brother is right, I'm damned, I've clearly seen my mother go through all this, I obviously hate those drugs that killed my mother, and in the end I put the blame on you At that time, I only looked at the things in front of me, and felt that if I didn't do it to you again, I would be sorry for them, and I didn't have the right to see them again, but since I knew that you used yourself to atone for the three of them, I saw it clearly That was all my mother's own choice. She chose to escape the pain and hide in the environment of drugs, but you were killed by me. You asked me how many injuries I suffered, but I don't know why. The worse the injury, the worse it made me Feel happier."

"When I was trapped in the sack, I only had one thought, which was that I couldn't leave you alone. I will never forget seeing you lying in the bedroom silently when I rushed home that day... Your brother is so Hate me, I'm afraid I won't be able to stay anymore, if I want to use my eyes in exchange, then I am willing, but you are right, without eyes, I am even less qualified to stay, you can no longer see Well, at least let me be your eyes..."

"Tang Yao...I..."

There was a lump in Chen Yi's throat, and he couldn't continue for a while, so he stopped, and after a long while, he said: "Tang Yao... don't be angry, it's all my fault..."

He only spoke halfway and didn't continue. He simply stopped. He looked at Tang Yao's body trembling all the time. He really hoped that he could hug him tightly, and even hoped that he could hurt him for him. It was an extravagant hope, not to mention that he himself was so injured that he couldn't hold him with both hands, Tang Yao's body injury might not be able to bear it either, but Tang Yao still had to endure the pain caused by the medicine.

He can't see Tang Yao's face now, because whenever Tang Yao is in pain, he will turn his head sideways, as if he wants to use this to resist the pain that is attacking him. After all, he can't even use his hands...

Chen Yi didn't say anything after that, but just stayed quietly like this. He wanted to wait for Tang Yao to fall asleep before leaving secretly, so as not to make him angry if he found out.