Amnesia becomes daily

When Qiming opened his eyes, he found himself lying in a dark bedroom, and he could only vaguely see the surrounding objects through the light coming in from outside the curtains.

He got up unsteadily, walked out of the house with bare feet, just opened the door a crack, and saw two shadowy figures under the incandescent lamp whispering something, are they Cheng Jue and Senior Brother Luo?

Qiming opened the door a little wider, and the sound of their conversation came into his ears intermittently.

"Do you think this incident is the source of everything?"

"I don't know what he thinks"

"But you don't seem to want him to remember"

"...Maybe forgetting is not such a bad thing."

forget?What am I forgetting?Qiming was trying his best to straighten out what they said, when the lights outside suddenly dimmed, his eyes were completely dark, only the sound of light footsteps remained in his ears.They are approaching themselves.

For some reason, Qiming suddenly felt a sense of fear, something was wrong, the two people outside should be the ones he trusted the most.

"Boom! Boom! Boom!", the sounds of footsteps and heartbeats overlapped strangely.Fear, the blood flow caused by the beating of the heart spread to the whole body.

Wanting to escape, he found himself paralyzed and unable to move. Qiming was so scared that he closed his eyes, even though it was pitch black in front of him.

When he opened his eyes again, he found that the scene around him had changed. Although he could not see clearly because of the cloud and mist, the sound of the wind and the smell of the sea water let him know where he was.

It was the sound of the sea wind, and the sound of the wind was mixed with quarrels.

"You are really too much! Have you ever cared about his feelings?"

what?

The sound of ocean waves and noisy voices, someone shouted in his ear, "Calm down! Qiming, calm down, don't be afraid, I will take you out..."

take me out?Go out...where?

The sound of the waves continued, and the scene in front of me became more and more blurred.

It's so uncomfortable, I can't breathe, didn't you say you would take me out?

Why am I still stuck here, "Why..."

Bai Qiming opened his eyes, and tears flowed down from the corners of his eyes involuntarily.Zhang Chengjue was sitting by the bed, looking at him tenderly, and gently wiped away his tears with his hand, "Are you having a nightmare again?"

"Dream... just now was a dream?"

"Don't be afraid, I'll be with you." Cheng Jue gently patted his head.

not quite right...

"It's time for me to go to work." She was about to get up, but was stopped by Cheng Jue.

"You are sick, I have asked for leave for the company for you, don't worry."

"Ill? But I don't feel uncomfortable. We didn't have that yesterday...what?" Bai Qiming blushed and said in confusion, "And I haven't finished my work yet. How could the company agree to my sudden leave..."

"Don't tell me that I just fell asleep and got terminally ill or something..." Qiming deliberately joked, but found that the person in front of him still had the same expression as before, and he began to feel uneasy.

"Cheng Jue? Why don't you talk...don't just look at me like this, I'm scared..."

"Cheng Jue? Cheng Jue!"

……

Gasping for breath, Qiming didn't know how many times he woke up, the sun shone on the bed sheets, making him dazed for a while.

Zhang Chengjue came in with breakfast.

"Cheng Jue, what's wrong with me?"

Cheng Jue put the breakfast on the bedside table, and smiled softly, "You are sick, I asked the company for leave for you, don't worry."

sick?What a familiar word, I don't know how many times he has said it these days.

Qiming grabbed his hand and put it on his cheek, "Cheng Jue... I forgot again, right?"

Zhang Chengjue's eyes suddenly lit up, "You know?!"

"……I know?"

"Great, your condition is finally showing signs of improvement. Brother Luo Ming will come over this evening. Let's have dinner first, and we can discuss the details later."

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The most important thing in the treatment of amnesia is to encourage the patient to overcome the symptoms (that is, memories). Cheng Jue gave him a diary, which recorded Qiming's own records in the past few days.

Bai Qiming flipped through the diary, and found that half a month had been accumulated. Did I lose so many days of memory?

His memory stagnates 15 days ago, and every day that follows will be forgotten when he wakes up the next day. It is rare that today he has an understanding of his own situation.

The contents of the first few days of the diary are very brief, and the latter are more detailed.

【Indeed, I don't remember when I wrote the above sentence yesterday, and I can't recall what I did yesterday. Cheng Jue asked me to write it in more detail.I don't have much to say today. I didn't have to go out because I took a leave of absence from the company. I just watched a few old movies at home. 】

[Staying at home today is still nothing special, it is now 10 o'clock in the evening, I should go to bed after finishing today's diary, knowing that I will forget today when I wake up tomorrow, I feel that today is meaningless, if things go on like this, is it tomorrow , The Day After Tomorrow, The Day After Tomorrow... all have no meaning]

……

The next few articles are about the same content, and I can see my negative attitude towards life.

[I feel that something is wrong with me. I watched an ocean documentary today. When the TV screen was covered with a well-known liquid, a feeling of familiarity and fear came to my face. I was a little out of breath. Someone shouted something in my ear, shouted what?It's like "Don't be afraid, I'll take you out..." Weird, who is it?Take your eyes off the screen, and the previous discomfort disappears.I told Cheng Jue about it, and he said that I might have deep-sea phobia, but he never mentioned that voice******]

This diary has obvious blacked-out writing, but why is it blacked out?

Qiming flipped through the diary and found that there were 5 or 6 places that were blacked out with a black pen. Is this... I painted it?There are also a few missing page numbers that were ripped out by...?

Qiming couldn't help asking, "Cheng Jue... did you help read this diary?"

Cheng Jue, who was sitting by the side working, paused his typing hands, "Why do you ask such a question?"

Qiming was in a daze, the scene was so familiar, "I, have I asked you this before?"

Cheng Jue closed the notebook and put it aside, turned his head to face him, "Yes, you have asked me many times, I don't know what made you feel distrustful of me. But to be honest, your diary Ben, I watch it every day."

Qiming's heart tightened suddenly, "After all, I am still your attending doctor, and I need to understand your condition."

Qiming stretched his body and looked at him nervously, while Cheng Jue looked into his eyes for a long time, sighed, and returned to his usual gentle appearance, "What do you want to eat at noon?"

This topic changed so fast!Qiming originally wanted to ask about the blacked-out writing and missing pages in the diary, but now, he suddenly has no desire to speak.

"You haven't gone out for a few days, how about I take you out to eat? Just go to the Yuzhou restaurant you have always liked before?"

"Get out? I thought you didn't want to..." Don't want me to go out.

"Okay, you go and change your clothes and when we come back, senior brother just happened to come over."

What he avoided talking about was exactly what I wanted to know the most, whether it was my voluntary thing or him to stay at home, and whether he used some methods on me to make me not want to go out.

In his opinion, do I have more patients or more lovers?

Am I... am I being controlled?