nostalgia

When he arrived at the private room, except for the birthday star Xie Qi and two people from his class, Li Suran hardly knew anyone else.He leaned his body, approached Zhong Jinxi's ear, and said:

"Your family, Xie Qi, has a good network."

Zhong Jinxi stared at him sideways: "Whose family? Xie Qi is not from our family."

"Yes, yes, I belong to your family, I am."

Zhong Jinxi broke his power in a second.

Pointing to the crowd, Li Suran asked, "Do you know everyone?"

"Well... I know Yu Xi. He was there when I went to the police station to bring Xie Qi back last time. I don't think Xie Qi should study art. He has such a character of being brothers from all corners of the world. You can make money selling it."

So the two clapped tacitly and giggled.

Yi Yan felt that he had been left out in the cold, and those two chirping and crooked talkers didn't pick him up for a long time, and the three of them chatted happily on the way here, but fortunately he felt that the haze of this period of time began to slowly dissipate, thankfully He also seemed to think that the two people next to him were sunshine.Pooh!

Hey, no way——Yi Yan's eyes are getting abnormal, it's not his own rotten eyes looking at Renji, it feels like there is something between them!ask!question!

Just when I was about to make fun of it, I heard a familiar voice coming from behind.

"Brother, the cake is here!".

Xie Qi introduced to Li Suran and the others: "This is my cousin Jiang Luyu, who is also from our school. This is Zhong Jinxi, Lu Suran, and the friend Yi Yan he brought."

After being shocked for a while, Yi Yan adjusted his expression, pretending not to know him, and said indifferently to Jiang Luyu, hello.

There was a pain somewhere in his heart. Since the day Yi Yan moved out of the dormitory, he hadn't seen him again, and we were not in the same class. Jiang Luyu knew that he had no position to look for him, but he didn't expect to be here. encountered in this situation.Moreover, it was like meeting a stranger.

Jiang Luyu couldn't be infected by the laughing people around him. He couldn't smile even when he saw other people having fun.His eyes always followed that person, but he couldn't get a response.

He wanted to walk over, feeling that he should say something.After moving two steps, Yi Yan seemed to have discovered his intention, and pulled Li Suran who was closest to him, giggling, and turned around.

Fixed body, unable to step out again.

Li Suran finally couldn't laugh or cry, seeing Zhong Jinxi standing unsteadily but still talking nonsense with Yi Yan, twisting together and giggling after finishing speaking.

"Then we won't renew the stall, you see they are both so drunk." Li Suran said to Xie Qi.

Jiang Luyu walked over, supported Yi Yan, and said, "You can't take care of them both by yourself, let me help you."

"All right, you help me send Yi Yan back, and I'll send Zhong Jinxi." As he said that, Li Suran took out the key: "Here, this is the key to my house. He lives with me now."

He silently took the key from Li Suran's hand, his eyes blocked by Liu Hai revealed Jiang Luyu's disgust and jealousy at this time, but unfortunately no one noticed.

When everyone dispersed, Li Suran picked up Zhong Jinxi on his back and walked slowly at the intersection like a walk.It is said that drunk people are better not to ride in the car, they will vomit, although he knows that Zhong Jinxi usually does not, but he still likes to carry him on his back like this, walking back step by step.

It's as if they can go on forever, no one bothers them, and they are the only ones in the whole world.

"with distinction······"

"Ok?"

"Let me down, let me down, I want to go by myself..."

"Can I go by myself?"

"······Um."

Li Suran squatted down, Zhong Jinxi staggered and fell as soon as his feet touched the ground, Li Suran turned around and grabbed him as if he had been prepared.

"What's the matter, did you sprain your ankle?"

Shaking his head.

"I'll carry you on my back."

Still shaking his head, Zhong Jinxi drooped his head like a child who has done something wrong, and dared not speak.Li Suran had no choice but to hold him with one hand, and put the other on his shoulder to keep him balanced.

The two of them didn't speak a word along the way, they just walked quietly holding each other's hand, warming each other.When approaching the school, Zhong Jinxi suddenly stopped, let go of Li Suran's hand, and walked across to him.

"Do you like it?" Zhong Jinxi's voice was indistinct, with the special blurred tone after drinking.

"Ok?"

"like me?"

Li Suran chuckled, then seemed to nod his head. "like."

"Do you really like it?"

"Are you still not sure?"

Looking up, Zhong Jinxi met Shang Li's awe-inspiring eyes, and said in a tone that seemed wronged: "You never said it, what am I sure about..."

Li Suran hugged him distressedly, brushed his lips against his ear and said:

"Jinxi, I want to love you."

I heard a happy laugh, a child's happy laugh from the bottom of my heart.

Is it because I made him uneasy, this kind of uneasiness is suppressed in the bottom of my heart, and only after drinking can I dare to confide and doubt the authenticity of his liking.

For Zhong Jinxi, Li Suran always owes something, he can feel that Zhong Jinxi loves him far more than he loves Zhong Jinxi, those forbearing but strong love makes him feel so distressed that he wants to cry.If there is anything in this world that he wants to protect, it is Zhong Jinxi.

After Jiang Luyu cleaned up Yi Yan's vomit all over the floor, he picked up the hangover soup and prepared to wake him up.

He opened his mouth halfway, but couldn't cry out.

Sighing, Jiang Luyu decided to leave a note for Yi Yan.

The text was written and scratched, and scratched and written, but in the end it was impossible to write.

If he knew it was written by himself, would he still read it seriously?Would he thank himself for sending him back?

At this time, Yi Yan was already a little awake, and after seeing Jiang Luyu, he was completely awake.

"Why are you here?"

Jiang Luyu laughed at himself. Sure enough, he came faster than the hangover soup. He tried to keep his tone calm: "You are drunk, I brought you back."

"Where's Brother Su Ran?" Yi Yan's eyes still showed more trust in another person.

Jiang Luyu sneered: "Brother Su Ran? You called him affectionately. The brother Su Ran you were thinking of chose to send Zhong Jinxi back when you and Zhong Jinxi were drunk at the same time, and he didn't care about you! Is he worthy of your liking?"

Like... Brother Su Ran?Jiang Luyu's words stunned Yi Yan for a moment, when did he like Brother Su Ran? !Oh, I'm afraid it was his lie that day that made Jiang Luyu guess the wrong person.

A series of facial expressions were overly interpreted by Jiang Luyu as a triangle drama where he loves him and he loves him.

"Yes, even if he is like this, he is more worthy of my liking than you!"

Jiang Luyu was so angry that he let go and left, and he slammed the door shut to vent his anger.

Maybe love has really been wiped out, otherwise, after saying such hurtful words, I wouldn't even feel a little unbearable, only a little apologetic.Yi Yan saw the soup on the table, sighed, took it and drank it slowly.

It's hard to figure out who owes whom.

Chapter 7 Since you said that I took the initiative, then give it a solid seat while I am awake

There were scratches on Li Suran's lips, Zhong Jinxi touched his own lips, and there were similar wounds in the same place.Shouldn't it be last night...

"What happened to your lips?"

"Ah, this..." The person opposite was evasive.

"We... kissed?"

"...Hmm." His eyes continued to wander.

"It's so intense." Zhong Jinxi covered her lips with her fingertips, and didn't feel that there was anything wrong with her words.

One sentence made Li Suran almost bite his own tongue, what a mess!Do you want to tell him that the atmosphere was good, but Zhong Jinxi sneezed suddenly and broke the lips of the two of them?Doesn't this scenery go to the universe!

"Hey, don't look at me, but you took the initiative." Someone's proud eyebrows were about to go up to the sky.

"Is that possible?!" Zhong Jinxi hit him.

"I'm a victim. You really didn't see you yesterday—the pervert."

Zhong Jinxi turned his head and ignored Li Suran.

Seeing that there was no one beside him, Li Suran embraced him from behind, whispering in his ear: "Why, have you become angry from embarrassment?"

No one spoke.

"I'm joking with you. Why is Jinxi like this? He always keeps things in his heart and refuses to say anything. Do you think he is stupid?"

Zhong Jinxi turned around and hugged Li Suran, smelling his unique aura, he immediately felt relieved.

"Yesterday you said wrongly that I never said I liked you...don't move, listen to me. I never force myself to be with someone I don't like, can you understand? I might I am not a person who is good at expressing feelings, but after a long time, you will definitely feel my liking. Please believe me, I don’t want to give you a sense of security.”

That voice was very gentle, and Zhong Jinxi knew that it belonged only to him, and his chest was filled all at once.

"Understood, even if I don't believe in you, I still have to believe in my own charm, right, you must have come out of the closet because you fell in love with me badly." Zhong Jinxi said intentionally.

"Oh yes, you're absolutely right."

Zhong Jinxi slightly opened the distance between them, and exhaled like blue on Li Suran's lips:

"Awesome, yesterday was the first time we kissed, and I don't even remember it." Eyeballs rolled slyly, "Since you said that I took the initiative, then let me sit down while I am awake."

As he spoke, he leaned slightly, and his lips covered Li Suran's.

The kiss was very light and soft, like enjoying the beautiful sunshine in the afternoon.

Unfortunately.

The accident happened just like yesterday.

Shen Yao looked at the courseware that fell on the ground in a daze, and then looked at the sweet couple in front of him, they left all of a sudden and didn't stay or stay, they stayed where they were awkwardly.

"Cough...I came to see Li Suran for something." It was Shen Yao who pretended to be calm and said.

"Then, then I'll go first."

After Zhong Jinxi finished speaking, he hurried away, and Li Suran moved to Shen Yao's side little by little, thinking about how to make things right.

It was Shen Yao who said first: "I saw your painting that day and felt very spiritual. It happened that there was a competition recently, and the gold content was quite high, so I recommended you to the school."

After speaking, he handed Li Suran some competition materials.

"Ask me if you don't understand anything, I'll go first."

Never mention it?What if he said something, although Shen Yao didn't seem to be so gossip, but Li Suran felt that he still had to say something.

"Oh, Teacher Shen..."

Before walking in front of Shen Yao, Shen Yao took over the words clearly: "Don't worry, everyone has different views on love, I understand and respect it."

The wind blew his hair a little messy, completely revealing that open face.

Li Suran nodded vigorously and said, "Thank you, Teacher Shen."

—

Li Suran is one of the few people in the art department who can participate in the competition, and everyone has high hopes for him.

Zhong Jinxi also always likes to hold his hand and say, awe-inspiring, I am indeed your bole. You said that I had such a good eye at the time, and I immediately saw your artistic attainments.

In a word, I praised the two of them.

Shen Yao decided to give Li Suran guidance alone. The world in Li Suran's paintings is beyond ordinary people's thinking. Art requires the ability to conceive a different world. For such students, Shen Yao is partial.

The tutoring time is all when Li Suran has no classes, and the place is at Shen Yao's home not far from the school.Sometimes when he was so fascinated by the painting that he forgot the time of the dormitory access control, Shen Yao would leave Li Suran to sleep at his home for a night.

Most of the time was occupied by painting, Zhong Jinxi could only silently take Li Suran's hand and accompany him to the downstairs of Shen Yao's house.Not far away, but their whole day's happiness.

For Li Suran, Shen Yao has become an existence who is both a teacher and a friend. Originally, the age gap between them was not that big, and Shen Yao was willing to quarrel with his classmates no matter how big or small.And once he started teaching Li Suran, the magnetic field would surround him firmly like gravity, making it hard for people to look away.

On this day, when Li Suran came back to his senses rubbing his stiff waist, Shen Yao was leaning on the sofa and flipping through a certain master's painting album.

After knocking on the door, Li Suran looked at Shen Yao suspiciously, and the other party cast the same blank gaze.Li Suran was so sweaty, thinking that this is your home, this is my normal reaction, why are you so surprised.

The moment the door was opened, a black figure fell into Shen Yao's arms with an unsteady body reeking of alcohol.While Li Suran was stunned, Shen Yao closed the door while supporting the man, looking quite embarrassed.

"Wei Yi, Wei Yi! Why do you drink so much wine?"

Li Suran helped to help Shen Weiyi onto the sofa, but she was completely uncooperative as she was delirious, and Li Suran saw the eyebrows and eyes covered by the overly long buoyant sea while pushing and shoving.

What an indisputable face!Although there is no trace of make-up on the fair face, it is better than dressing up, and the facial features have faint shadows of Shen Yao, but Shen Yao's calmness is missing, and there is more flamboyance and fearlessness.

Li Suran admitted that he marveled at the injustice of the Creator for a moment, just like seeing the person named Yu Xi on Xie Qi's birthday party last time.

"This is?"

"She's my sister."

Suddenly, Shen Weiyi cried out like out of control, as if she didn't see Li Suran's existence at all: "Brother...I'm so uncomfortable, I can't go on like this, I, I seem to really like Bai Mu... Brother, I should do this, I think she is far away from me, why do I only realize that my heart hurts now..."

The incoherent Shen Weiyi sat paralyzed on the ground, took Shen Yao's hand, buried her head in her chest and cried a little bit heartbreakingly, such a childlike crying made people unbearably worried.

"Brother, tell me...the brother who was with you...how did you get together...have you ever felt so heartbroken...Brother .”

Shen Yao's body froze for a moment, it seemed that the past that was deeply buried in his heart was dug out, with an old breath, it plucked at his sealed heartstrings.

Is it forgotten?But why did that person's face flash before his eyes? If not, then why did he feel like a lifetime away.

When he was struggling out of his thoughts, the crying in his ears gradually died down. Li Suran had already helped Shen Weiyi onto the sofa. Shen Yao looked at the drowsy Shen Weiyi and sighed. With a wry smile, he opened the freezer and took out a few cans of beer. Say, "Two glasses?"

"it is good."

At eight o'clock, the sky was already dark, the moon could not be seen, and a few dim stars could be seen faintly. Tomorrow probably would not be a good weather.

Sitting on the balcony, if it weren't for the little lights in the distance, maybe I really felt that I would be swallowed by darkness.

"How did you get together with Zhong Jinxi?"

Just thinking of that person, Li Suran's whole body seemed to be coated with a layer of soft light.

"I have known Jinxi for many years. He knows what I like and dislike. He knows when I am unhappy. He knows how to comfort me. He knows what every look in my eyes expresses, and so do I. .”

Even if he wasn't smiling, Shen Yao could still feel the throbbing in his heart.

Li Suran took a sip of beer and continued: "It's just that I never knew his feelings for me, and I only realized my feelings for him beyond the scope of friendship only later. I'm glad that we have taken brave steps towards each other. After that step, now that we have started, we will definitely resist everyone's eyes together."

"Do you know, I have been with the same sex before, I am not sure whether I am completely gay, but I know that I have found a feeling in him that I have never felt before. I think that is love, nothing else." Shen Yao said.

"Separated?"

"...Well. Although he and I are in love, we have too many disagreements. We are both men, with a balanced style and strength. We don't want to see the result of head-to-head confrontation, so we broke up peacefully. This The rule of the world is that a man and a woman form a husband and wife, because they have different psychology and different perspectives, and they will be more complementary. Li Suran, this road is actually very difficult, and you and Zhong Jinxi must be mentally prepared if you want to go on."

"We will." Li Suran was firm.

Even though Shen Yao broke the secret between the two of them that day, he never talked about this topic when he got along with Li Suran later.On this day, on this balcony, two people who knew each other's secrets chatted freely, like old friends for many years.