nostalgia

The class reunion is actually just a large group of people looking for a reason to have a carnival.The booth was renewed again and again, and it was almost early morning when the song came to an end.

So each went back to each house, each looking for each mother.

Shen Yao had already drunk so much that he couldn't drive, so Li Suran sat beside him and took care of him, and Zhong Jinxi was driving.

It's a weird combination.

Lin Xu's music room summoned him temporarily. In fact, Zhong Jinxi could leave together at that time, but he just stayed there by accident. In the end, when Li Suran was supporting the drunken Shen Yao, he masochistically Said to take them back on the way.In fact, he just wanted to see him for a while longer, but he didn't want to admit it.

As expected, Shen Yao was speechless along the way, leaning on Li Suran's shoulder, sleeping unsteadily, the occasional muttering became the only sound in the car.

Real friends don't feel embarrassed even when they are silent. Nowadays, Zhong Jinxi and Li Suran are not even friends. In this small space, it is densely packed with embarrassment.

Say something, but I don't know what to say, so I just froze.

"Well, Li, Li Suran."

"Well, I'm here."

"Li Suran, I'm afraid...leave, don't leave."

The voice was very soft, like a whisper, even at such a volume, in the closed car, it still entered Zhong Jinxi's ears like magic.

Li Suran gritted his teeth and wanted to look at Zhong Jinxi through the rearview mirror, but he couldn't see anything at all with a hurried glance, and he responded with two random hums.But Shen Yao continued to ramble and ask questions as if he didn't hear the answer he wanted.

"Is it, retribution is coming... You shouldn't lie, if you know, the reason... Will it..."

Li Suran was startled, what did he want to say?It's not about the car accident, right? No!He turned sideways and hugged Shen Yao's shoulders, making Shen Yao get closer to him, and hugged him tightly before he uttered more nonsense.

"No," with a heavy stabbing heart, he whispered in his ear almost breathlessly, "I will never leave you."

It really was the right time to use this reassurance pill, Shen Yao answered vaguely, and fell into a deep sleep, Li Suran raised his eyes again to look in the rearview mirror, only Zhong Jinxi's hair was visible in it.

So, he missed Zhong Jinxi's reddened eyes.

Enough is enough.

It really took a lot of effort for Li Suran to hug Shen Yao to bed, the tall and thin man was actually so strong.

When he came out of the shower, he saw Shen Yao throwing the quilt open all the time, really, he's a grown-up person and still has this stinky problem.Li Suran approached him dumbfounded, and was grabbed by Shen Yao before his hand touched the corner of the quilt, why should he be so vigilant while sleeping.

Shen Yao had already opened his eyes, and leaped over Li Suran like a thunderbolt, and when Li Suran fell onto the bed, his body was pressed against him.

"Will you really never leave me?" The question was serious, if it wasn't for the blush on Shen Yao's cheeks, maybe Li Suran thought he wasn't drunk at all.

"what?"

"You just said that you will never leave me, is that true?"

"You all, did you hear that?"

"I have a little memory, I'm not sure. Tell me, your reactions at the class reunion before were just because you didn't get used to it, not because you still loved him. Tell me, I was thinking too much." He said, as if powerless He buried his head in Li Suran's neck.

"I······"

Before Li Suran finished speaking, Shen Yao interrupted him: "I know you loved him so deeply, now he is so close to others, you will feel unnatural, I can understand it, just - don't think about him anymore Okay, okay. You once persuaded me that since you lost it, don’t let yourself miss it. I know you haven’t fully fallen in love with me, it’s okay, we still have time, right? I will try my best to bring you back By my side! Perhaps, you still like me a little bit, right?"

Zhang Ailing once said that if you like someone, you will be humbled into the dust, and then flowers will bloom.Shen Yao's expression was clearly humble, telling him as if begging, don't end our relationship, don't leave.

His nose was a little sore, he hugged Shen Yao tremblingly, and said softly: "Yes..."

Shen Yao hugged Li Suran back tightly, raised his head, kissed his eyes, and said hesitantly after a long time: "Li Suran, I want you." Then he approached him tentatively.

Li Suran's somewhat erratic eyes slowly fixed on Shen Yao's face, and finally closed his eyes after a long while.Shen Yao's pupils were lit up in an instant, and he kissed his lips, his eyebrows, and his eyes.

He felt that he was about to boil, and he staggered his hands into Li Suran's clothes. As soon as he touched Li Suran's skin, he couldn't control his hands. He wanted more, wanted to touch him closer.

Li Suran was breathing unsteadily, and the light and heavy kiss went all the way down from his neck, making his breathing difficult for several times.

I have completely thought about it, and I can't hurt the people who should be cherished because of a bubble-like mirage. Yes, Zhong Jinxi is like a mirage, which is both illusion and reality, making people constantly guess.It's just that Li Suran didn't have any bargaining chips to gamble. Whether Zhong Jinxi was nostalgic or unintentional, Li Suran didn't want to make another mess, and he couldn't control it.

When he came back to his senses, he found that Shen Yao hadn't moved. He opened his eyes with a blushing face, and saw Shen Yao lying on his chest and fell asleep, and Li Suran had black lines all over his head.

This is also a bit unsightly.

Carefully covering Shen Yao with the quilt, turning off the lamp, Li Suran left Shen Yao's room.

Silently said: Shen Yao, I do like you a little bit, if I hadn't met Zhong Jinxi before, I think I would definitely love you like you love me.

It's just, how can there be so many ifs, if it is the best excuse, especially when comforting yourself, fool, if love can be controlled, then why stay together, why break up.

The clock on the wall was already going to 01:30, Zhong Jinxi was switching channels back and forth boredly, he couldn't fall asleep.He got up from the bed when he heard the sound of the door lock turning.

"came back."

"Well, there are a few songs that need to be revised urgently, so it's a bit late." Lin Xu had a tired look on his face.

"You don't always have fixed working hours. I'll help you fill the bath water."

When Lin Xu was taking a shower, Zhong Jinxi was lying on the sofa waiting for him to come out. He was very confused, and he needed someone to talk to him.

Between the two of them, apart from their relationship as a couple, there is a strange combination of firm friendship. Zhong Jinxi feels that there can be no secrets between them, and they can talk about any problems or dissatisfaction they encounter, exchanging feelings with each other like chatting.This kind of life is easy and happy, and perhaps this is the reason why Zhong Jinxi finally chooses to accept him.

Zhong Jinxi said that he is a selfish person, endless longing and long waiting have drained his energy, and this person beside him is like energy water that constantly fills the void in his heart.So when a voice in her heart shouted: It's better to be like this, it's better to live like this, he actually felt a little shaken.Having lived such a humble life enough, he doesn't want to go on like this anymore!

I waited too long, and I ran out of energy, so I was selfish once.Giving up, the excuse he made for Li Suran was no longer able to fool himself, so he drew a period with his own hand and said: Goodbye.

"Why haven't you slept yet?" Lin Xu had already come out.

"Wait for you. Come, come here." Zhong Jinxi got up from the sofa and waved to Lin Xu, "Let me hug you." Then he stepped forward and hugged the suspicious person.

"What's wrong with you today, something abnormal."

"Well, I'm very abnormal today." Zhong Jinxi replied honestly.

After being silent for a while, Lin Xu asked anxiously, "Is it because of Li Suran?"

"Lin Xu, do you think I am a person who has no concentration and no principles? I clearly hate him to death, but I still feel a heartache when I see him. The more indifferent my face is, the more it hurts. You say I What's the matter?" Zhong Jinxi told Lin Xu all his thoughts, and he didn't need to pretend in front of Lin Xu.

"It's normal to be like this. After all, you once loved him deeply. I also felt this way when I met Shen Yao again. When I saw him, I would put up my whole body to defend myself, because we were all afraid of getting hurt again, so I would Become extremely indifferent. Maybe you still feel reconciled, not reconciled to him leaving you, not reconciled to him not loving you anymore, not reconciled to him having a new relationship, so no matter what you do, or even your whole being It will become abnormal and awkward, all because you once loved. So stop thinking about it, I believe in you, and you also have to believe in yourself."

Zhong Jinxi hugged Lin Xu even tighter. Maybe Lin Xu was right. His mentality was just because he was unwilling. He smiled and said, "Thank you."

"Why say thank you, I'm not an outsider. But I'm glad you and I were honest about your uneasiness."

"Of course, you are my lover, you should know everything about me."

The person in front of him chuckled, and Zhong Jinxi asked inexplicably, "Why are you laughing? Is this sentence funny?"

"It's just that I'm not used to your sudden sensibility, so for a moment I felt that there was a halo behind you, poof."

Zhong Jinxi pushed him away: "You are going to die!"