nostalgia

Zhong Jinxi gasped involuntarily when he was sober just now, the pain in his head is really not ordinary.Whenever I feel this way, it goes without saying that I must have drunk too much yesterday.Holding his head, which seemed to have been hit by a hammer, he walked towards the bathroom.

Wash your face so that you can be more awake.Suddenly, an inexplicable memory fragment emerged, the empty riverside, the unmoved back, anxious emotions, and...

dong dong dong-

"Here we come." Zhong Jinxi drove away the dreamlike fragments in his mind, and went to open the door.Once interrupted in this way, those fragments will be completely deleted in the mind in a very short time.

Li Suran lowered his head, not daring to speak.

"Hey, you're here."

"Let me see if you're sober."

Finally plucking up the courage to look up, Zhong Jinxi's collar was open at this time, his wheat-colored skin reflected his youthful look, and Li Suran glanced away in a panic.

"My head still hurts a bit, I think it will be fine later." Zhong Jinxi pressed his temples with his knuckles, "Hey, why is your face red? Is it hot?"

"Yes, yes, it's quite warm today." Li Suran looked at him suspiciously. Could it be that he doesn't remember what happened yesterday?

He tentatively asked, "Do you know when Xie Qi came back yesterday?"

"Didn't I get drunk yesterday? Did you still ask me? Didn't he come back when you left?" Zhong Jinxi looked blankly, and looked back into the dormitory, "What do you need from him?".

"It's okay, just ask."

Just treat him as an accident, and it might be better never to talk about it.

Li Suran smiled at Zhong Jinxi, no longer avoiding embarrassment, the sun was shining around them, there was an illusion called eternity.Warm and nice.

Just go on like this, with the subtle resonance of intercommunication in the chest, passing it back and forth, and there will never be a day when it will be blocked.

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Jiang Luyu took out the key to the dormitory and stroked the sawtooth on it. It was cold, smooth and tingling.Maybe now, Yi Yan has moved out.Did he know that he passed out and was admitted to the hospital waiting for him?

Opening the door, Jiang Luyu walked in.He thought about so many possibilities, but——Yi Yanan sat quietly at the desk and read a book.

"You..." Jiang Luyu was stunned. He didn't expect Yi Yan to leave. Does this mean that there is still a rescue between them?

"I've said what I have to say before. I hope we break up peacefully. If we can't be friends, it's better to be roommates who don't interfere with each other." Yi Yan got up and walked to his bedroom.

When passing by Yi Yan's side, Jiang Luyu grabbed his hand and pulled it into his arms, "Don't go, tell me, there is still room for maneuver between us, you are just joking with me."

He let Jiang Luyu hug him, the opponent's height and strength made him unable to move, "Only breaking up is the only possibility between us, do you understand?"

"That's not the case, we were good before, you still remember us..." Jiang Luyu hugged Yi Yan tightly, afraid that he would disappear from his side in the blink of an eye.

"Don't mention the past, we had countless good times in the past, but that's all in the past, I think - being with you is very tiring, maybe we are not suitable for each other, why not find a more suitable person ? Must you have to run out of time and tear yourself apart to end a relationship?"

Jiang Luyu couldn't listen to anything anymore, he just fell into the trap controlled by his subjective consciousness, neither seeing nor listening.I have always imposed what I think is good on you, and never asked you if you want it.In the end, I feel that I have given you a lot, but you are tired of receiving it.

Everything is not going the way we want it to be, it's off track, it's getting farther and farther away from each other, and we can all just watch...

No!You can't just watch the other person leave.Without warning, Jiang Luyu lowered his head and kissed Yi Yan urgently.

"Hmm..." Yi Yan struggled, pushed Jiang Luyu away, and said, "What are you doing?!"

He didn't want to do anything, but when Yi Yan pushed him away so clearly and resolutely, he suddenly understood how much the other party rejected the sweetness that he once had, and maybe he really couldn't go back to the past.

Yi Yan said: "Do you know why it is impossible for us to be together? Those inappropriateness cannot be changed..."

Jiang Luyu looked at him in surprise, his eyes seemed to be lit up, but after Yi Yan said the following words, they were completely extinguished.

"But what's the use of changing, I already like someone else."

After finishing speaking, he hurriedly fled the dormitory, leaving behind a completely lost soul.

Yes, he lied, there is no such a person, but there must be that person.

Only in this way, maybe it will be completely understood, there is no room for maneuver.

When Li Suran went to sketch on the roof of a certain teaching building, he saw Yi Yan was preoccupied there.

"Yi Yan?"

When the first call was made, Yi Yan was still in a daze and didn't hear it. Later, as if waking up from a dream, he saw Li Suran holding a painting tool in his hand and calling himself with an easel behind his back. Yi Yan greeted him:

"Brother Su Ran, come collect the wind."

Li Suran nodded, unloaded the tools, and said to Yi Yan while assembling:

"Your brother called me yesterday, and I said you're fine here, so don't worry."

"I'm more worried about him. Will I be lonely if I go abroad to study alone? Everything is fine here, and Brother Su Ran is covering me, so why worry about me." As he said, he hugged Li Suran's shoulder affectionately .

Yi Yan's elder brother, Yi Cheng, was Li Suran's playmate when he was a child. The two families lived close to each other, and they often mischievous together.After a few years, their family moved to other places, and the contact between the two was gradually broken, and it was only in high school that they slowly regained contact.

Some time ago, Yi Cheng went abroad to study, and he entrusted his younger brother Yi Yan to Li Suran, who was in the same school, hoping that his younger brother would be taken care of.Yi Yan liked Li Suran quite a lot, and he didn't remember how the "Brother Suran" he called and his own brother teamed up to bully him when he was a child, and he cried loudly.

After setting up the tools, Li Suran looked sideways at Yi Yan: "What, do you have something on your mind?"

"Me? Nothing on my mind." Yi Yan looked innocent.

"Nothing on your mind, why did you come to the roof so early in the morning?"

"I... meditate, meditate well, Brother Su Ran, let me tell you..."

"Okay, don't say it if you don't want to. I might tell your brother, right?"

"Brother Su Ran, I didn't mean that, I just... hey..."

"I'm just kidding, and you, if you really have troubles and want to tell me, I'm willing to listen. If you haven't figured out what to say, then think about it and come to me." Li Suran patted Yi Yan's shoulder, "You If brother is not here, treat me as your own brother, and I promised him to take more care of you."

These words suddenly gave Yi Yan the desire to talk, and he pulled Li Suran to sit on the ground.

"Brother Suran, you must not tell my brother what I want to tell you next." Li Suran was about to refute but was stopped by Yi Yan, "I know you are not someone who spreads rumors, let alone you and my brother Although we are friends, we haven't just met, you must be in the middle, right?"

After getting Li Suran's affirmative nod, Yi Yan spoke after deliberating.

"Actually, I just broke up with, um...boyfriend."

Li Su nodded his head clearly, he knew it could only be this matter, and then he realized, what, what, boyfriend?

Yi Yan looked at Li Suran's ever-changing face, and scratched his head in embarrassment: "Yes, I'm gay, I've been since childhood."

"Then does your brother know?"

"How can I? If he knows, he will break my skin straight. So brother Su Ran, you must not tell my brother."

Li Suran suddenly regretted knowing this, and suddenly wanted to slap the two of them, whether he said it or not, it was all over.

"Okay, I won't tell. But how long do you think you can keep it a secret, for a lifetime?"

"I don't know, maybe one day, I will meet someone who can make me have the courage to confess to my family. At that time, I don't have to hide it."

"Is there really no way to like the opposite sex anymore?"

Yi Yan shook his head and said, "You may not be able to realize that once a person like us touches a certain nerve and finds that he likes the same sex, he will basically never come back."

Li Suran thought of the almost kiss yesterday, and said in a panic: "What kind of point do you touch, like someone?"

"Not necessarily, if it's because you like someone, maybe it's just because this person is 'he', regardless of gender, it may be gay, or it may be anyone but 'him', such an accident may be Break it back. But I have never had any thoughts about girls. Sometimes when I see a certain boy, a male model in a certain magazine, or a certain good figure, I will... well, there will be some At that time, I realized that I might never like girls in this life."

"Then, how can it be so easy to distinguish that you like this boy? What if it's just a mutual affection between friends?"

With a chuckle, Yi Yan approached Li Suran unexpectedly. Li Suran was obviously unprepared, and he was startled and threw his head back.

"Look, if it's a brother doing this, you'll only think about what the hell is going on? But if it's someone you like, your heart will beat faster and you won't run away. If you unconsciously want to get close to him, want to kiss him He, wanting to be with him every minute and every second, that is definitely love has not escaped. This has nothing to do with gender, men and women are the same, it is easy to tell the difference."

Then, Li Suran fell into silence.Maybe it was an accident that he couldn't lie to himself anymore, this person named Zhong Jinxi was like a slut, he entered into every detail of his life bit by bit, from feeling disturbed to getting used to it, and now as long as he is by Zhong Jinxi's side, He likes everything, such a sex makes people addicted to happiness.

And then never quit again.

"Are you... suffering?"

"It's not bitter. As long as two people love each other, everything about the other party is their own armor. What's difficult is that it is too difficult and cruel to speak to them from the world's vision and prejudice, such as family members. We hide in our little In this world, I don’t care about anyone’s eyes, but the family behind me..." Only one sigh remains, "How can I not care about their thoughts? Sometimes I think fortunately, fortunately I have an older brother, If this is a one-child family, for those parents who want to have grandchildren and grandchildren, the phrase "Mom and Dad, I like boys, I may not have the next generation" is a bolt from the blue, but I What can I do, force myself to marry a girl, lie to her to give birth to a child and give an explanation to her parents, and then do things that are obsequious to others behind her back? How cruel to other girls. So I was lucky, my brother will do the same in the future There are his children, at least in the next generation, maybe my parents... Forget it, I don’t know, let’s take one step at a time.”

Then Yi Yan talked about his breakup, about the dopamine, and about the incongruity left after the feeling of heartbeat passed.While chatting, Yi Yan felt a lot better. He held Li Suran's hand and said that Brother Suran had a great time chatting with you, and I felt less depressed.Li Suran is crying in his heart, you are happy, but I am depressed, thank you...

Chapter 3 At least tell me whether you are dead or alive, and I will see if it is worth saving...

The spotlights in the bar made people feel a little vain, and the waves of sound seemed to be hitting the body.

Yu Xi was a little distressed, he really didn't like such an occasion.

After successfully winning the proposal, it is customary to celebrate, but obviously the colleagues in this company did not let him have the idea of ​​a deep friendship, but Yu Xi didn't want to be so out of place, so he wasted time here watching other people's ghosts Roar ghost laugh.

Looking around, a boy walked into Yu Xi's sight with a somewhat unsteady pace.He took out a pack of cigarettes from his jacket pocket, took out one, and lit it for a long time.

Before he had time to take a puff, the boy was bumped and staggered, and the smoke dropped from his hand in an instant. Yu Xi watched the smoke fall in an arc to the girl sitting not far away. It was a female colleague from their company. .

Then, the screams sounded.

The male colleague next to her couldn't sit still anymore, jumped up and grabbed the perpetrator by the collar, scolding viciously: "Damn, you don't have eyes?!"

Everyone in the company knew that he had been chasing this girl for a long time, but unfortunately the girl always liked to ignore her, probably because the boy was no different from a gorilla at first glance, very embarrassing.If you are not in front of the goddess at this time, when will you wait for a man?So the gorilla was very excited, and greeted him without saying a word or two.

Yu Xi didn't intend to step forward to stop him, there were many people with good relations with him, so why did he join in the fun.

Until another boy appeared to help the perpetrator, "What's going on, this is?"

"Who are you kid?" The gorilla said provocatively.

Before the other party could speak, the perpetrator gathered his strength and punched the gorilla in the face.

"You dare to hit me? I'm really impatient."

Soon the two were fighting again.

At the police station, Yu Xi sat on the ground depressed.

"It's none of my business. I didn't fight or try to persuade me to fight, so why drag me to the police station and just treat me like a passerby." Yu Xi muttered softly, and Xie Qi beside him looked at him, saying the same Very helplessly said: "That's right, I didn't fight."

Yu Xi glanced at Xie Qi and sighed: "You are the only one with your friend, you can't escape no matter what, but what about me, I and that

Not very familiar with the individual. "

"Not a classmate?"

Yu Xi shook her head: "Colleagues. Are you students?"

"I'm from the University of Science and Technology over there, and my friend—the one who fought—has already worked."

"Then how do you know each other?"

"The two live close together."

At this time, a small police officer approached them both and said, "Hey you two, come out, someone is here for bail."

"Us?" the two said at the same time.

"Nonsense, except for you, everyone else has been picked up here, not who you are."

Xie Qi and Yu Xi glanced at each other awkwardly, then walked out slowly.

"Jiang Luyu, why are you here?" Xie Qi approached Jiang Luyu.

"Cousin, how old are you, and you were locked up for fighting? You too..."

"Yes, yes, don't try to teach me a lesson just by taking advantage of me." Xie Qi pretended to shake his fist at him, but Jiang Luyu waved him away indifferently.

"Xie Qi?" Zhong Jinxi was a little dumbfounded, what's going on?

"Why are you here?"

"Come pick up my friend." He said, pointing to Yu Xi who came out later.

As soon as Yu Xi came out, he saw the guy standing next to Xie Qi, he couldn't help being startled, "Are you guys in the same group?"

Xie Qi didn't understand, so he said, "What group?"

"Ah, it's you with a loud voice." Jiang Luyu immediately recognized Yu Xi, who was the one who took him to the hospital that day when he passed out.

"What a loud voice, who is your name!" Yu Xi suddenly became angry.

Xie Qi interjected: "Do you know each other?"

Yu Xi walked up to Zhong Jinxi and said to him: "Let me tell you, I let you go because of him that day, so ah, good people can't be good!"

It was very cold that day.

The sky was all gray, as if it was about to be suppressed.The branches are also bare, with thick snow on them, making the chill look more dignified.

Yu Xi turned the steering wheel around the last bend and stopped, took out her mobile phone, and called Zhong Jinxi.

"I'm here, where are you... It's still half an hour longer? Zhong Jinxi, let me tell you, you will lose my friend like this... All right, then we'll be even, we'll wait Not good enough."

--boom.

what sound?Yu Xi looked up at the source of the voice.

It's that student...

Since Yu Xi arrived here, he has already seen him standing like a wooden stake, but now, he seems to have fainted. How long has he been in the cold wind?

Yu Xi walked towards him, and he fell down in the snow with his body bowed, his brows and eyes were wrinkled together, his lips seemed to have no color, his whole face was pale, and he looked very painful.

"Hey, hey! Wake up, are you still alive... Hey!" You must at least tell me whether you are dead or alive, and I will see if it is worth saving...

hospital.

"It's okay, the patient just stood in the cold wind for too long, and he fainted due to hypoglycemia because he didn't eat anything, just observe for two days, don't worry." The nurse said kindly to Yu Xi.

"I'm not worried..." Yu Xi muttered softly.

"what?"

"fine."

"Oh, then go through the hospitalization procedures quickly."

"Me? It's this kind of nurse. I don't know him before. I saw him passed out on the side of the school road. In the winter, I couldn't find him for a long time.

The person in charge sent him here kindly, and he had to go to his family to go through the formalities. "

"Really?" There was obvious distrust in the nurse's eyes. "Then find his family." After speaking, he left without even giving Yu Xi a chance to speak.

"Looking for it? Should I look for it? I don't know how to find him..." Yu Xi felt like she was going crazy.

Walking back to the ward, he took out the mobile phone from the student's pocket and said to himself, you really can't be a good person.

Yi Yan, Yi Yan, Yi Yan.There is no second person's name in the phone book or call log on the phone.

Yu Xi was too lazy to think deeply, he just wanted to find this guy's family quickly, so that he could be freed as soon as possible.

Not long after the call was made, the other party blocked it. After repeated several times, the other party turned off the phone.

What's the matter...

Forget about it, guessing that Zhong Jinxi should have arrived, Yu Xi was about to run away when a voice appeared behind him.

"Sir, are you trying to sneak away?"

Yu Xi trembled, and cursed in her heart, are all the people in this hospital so elusive?

"It's been said that I don't know him, and I can't contact his family. I have nothing to do."

"I'm sorry, we don't want people who are brave enough to be suspicious. The patient should be able to wake up soon. Can I trouble you for a moment? He may also want to thank you in person when he wakes up." The nurse smiled professionally at him explain.

"but······"

Just as he was about to speak, he was interrupted by the vibrating sound of the mobile phone. The nurse nodded to him and turned to leave.Yu Xi glared at the nurse's back before answering the phone.

"Zhong Jinxi, I missed my appointment. I still have some urgent matters here. I'll tell you later... It's okay to pay the bill first. I'll let you let me go next time."

Looking back at the person on the bed, he still didn't wake up.Yu Xi planned to spend the night in the corridor of the hospital. He hasn't had a good rest recently, and he can fall asleep anywhere.

After half the night, the people outside the door slipped back into the room trembling.

Ah, it's still warm in the ward!

Yu Xi sat on the small chair beside the bed and finally fell asleep comfortably.It was so warm that he didn't know how he slowly changed to lying on his stomach, then slowly squeezed half of the hospital bed, and fell asleep in a strange way...

Jiang Luyu stretched comfortably, hey, where is this?It looks a bit like a hospital.By the way, I remember that I quarreled with Yi Yan before, and then I stood downstairs for a whole day and he didn't come down. Then... did I faint?

He turned his head and saw a figure from behind, no wonder he always felt a little cramped when he was sleeping.Yi Yan, Yi Yan, you still care about me, and you will still take care of me when you see me faint.Jiang Luyu snickered, as proud as having found his favorite toy again, he hugged the person beside him from behind.

Feeling that someone hurt him, Yu Xi struggled a few times, but unexpectedly the other party's strength did not restrain at all. "What are you doing!" He turned around violently.

Time freezes, and the air is a little tense.Yu Xi was stunned, and Jiang Luyu was even more surprised.

It turns out that he opened his eyes like this, the sinking gray area between boys and men is just right on him, the depths of his eyes seem to be a mystery, clear but not easy to penetrate, it seems harmless, but And has the calmness of strategizing.

There is such a kind of person in the world, the contradictions in him are precisely the charm.Jiang Luyu had never met such a person before, with an indistinguishable silhouette and eerie phoenix eyes, he seemed feminine and beautiful, yet domineering.

Yu Xi rushed to Jiang Luyu: "Are you awake? Are you really awake? Hurry up, tell the doctor... Hahahaha, I'm free!!"

Jiang Luyu looked at the neurotic him suspiciously, and said, "Who are you?"

"A kind-hearted person who saw you faint and rescued you! In the end, he was still detained here!" Yu Xi pointed to the surroundings.

Huh?Something seemed wrong, his perspective was a little strange, he seemed to be a bit shorter, and why was he so close to this person?Yu Xi looked around——

The difference between men and women is that women will short-circuit their brains after encountering something, and their emotions will take over, and then scream and scream, while men are much calmer and more rational.

"Why am I in your bed?"

"how could I know······"

"You must know."

"..."

"You must have picked me up while I was sleeping!"

"I do not have."

"You have! You wanted to hug me just now!!" enmmm... In fact, men's brains can also be short-circuited.

"... I just admitted the wrong person."

"How can you······"

Before Yu Xi could finish her sentence, she saw the nurse from yesterday walking into the ward, expressing condolences to Jiang Luyu's condition, leaving Yu Xi to stare blankly.

After finally waiting for the nurse to catch her breath, he quickly asked, "Nurse, can I go now?"

The nurse turned her head slowly.

"Eh? You haven't left yet?"

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