nostalgia

Before he could fully open his eyes, he was frowned by the smell of disinfectant, Li Suran turned over a little irritatedly, and a dull pain slowly came from the peripheral nerves on his wrist.Opening his eyes, it took him a while to realize that he was in the hospital.

Turning his head to the side, he saw Shen Yao sitting next to him and fell asleep, lightly asleep, with his head shaking.

Li Suran struggled to sit up with his left hand supporting his body, and was about to get out of bed to drink water, when a voice came from beside him, "What are you doing?"

"Sorry, did I disturb you, I'm just thirsty."

"Lie down, I'll come."

Li Suran lowered his head and said, "Mr. Shen... I seem to have screwed up the competition."

Shen Yao patted him on the shoulder comfortingly like an elder, expressing his understanding, but Li Suran continued on his own:

"I tried really hard to distract from the pain, but as soon as the exam questions came out, I couldn't think of anything like a brain short circuit. I just felt cold and my hands hurt... I I really want to keep going..."

Shen Yao hugged Li Suran and let his head rest on his waist.He knew that Li Suran needed a hug right now, a hug that could make him vulnerable.

"It's okay, the teacher will sign up for you next time, this time it's time to practice your hands and familiarize yourself with the environment." Shen Yao said as if comforting a child while patting him on the shoulder, "This is how the competition is supposed to be. There will always be one or another reason that leads to failure. It’s not that you are not good enough, it’s just that you were not lucky enough at that time. Setbacks are what make people grow and then gain momentum. A man should only be sad for one day, then stand up and continue to work hard, knowing ?"

The hairy head in his arms nodded heavily.

Shen Yao smiled and let go of Li Suran and said, "Then I'll help you pour water."

nod.

"You have been sleeping for most of the day, you must be very thirsty."

nod.

"Do you know that you fainted because you had a fever? Why didn't you tell me?"

Still nodding.

"You're just saying something, why are you doing this?"

"It's so embarrassing, just now." Li Suran lowered his head, "I feel very hypocritical."

Shen Yao smiled brightly: "What's the matter, am I not a teacher, I should take care of the students, not to mention I still regard you as a friend, so of course I should care about you."

Li Suran nodded, took Shen Yao's medicine and said:

"That group of people should be some examinee, or someone they called."

"I went to investigate. They were entrusted by some candidates. They may be dissatisfied. Those candidates went to the competition director to complain. Hmph, it just so happened that after you came back, we had I went to cancel the fake and apologized, so the person in charge 'educated' them a lot, maybe they were resentful and worried that you would win the championship."

Li Suran said in disbelief: "As for it, it's just a competition, can you go to heaven if you win?"

"Don't just talk about others, you are not the same yourself, if you persist with your illness to the end, can you go to heaven?"

With an embarrassing smile, Li Suran quickly changed the subject:

"Well, can I be discharged from the hospital? I don't like the atmosphere of the hospital."

"That can't be done. Your fever is gone now, but your hand is still not healed. You have been willful once, don't do it a second time."

"Okay then, can you call Zhong Jinxi for me, just say...just say that I think the scenery in City B is very good, and I want to stay here for a few more days."

"Why don't you fight yourself?"

"My fever has subsided, and my cold is still under control. Didn't you hear that I have a nasal voice?" Li Suran exaggerated to prove that he was not lying. After a while of silence, he continued, "I don't want Jinxi to Hear it out, save him from worrying."

He had thought about coming back with an award before, at least he could make up for the negligence of Jinxi those days, but it seemed completely impossible.Now that he has to worry about himself, Li Suran will never allow him to say anything.

"That's it... well, then you guys have fun." Zhong Jinxi hung up the phone a little disappointed, and when he looked up, he saw Lin Xu's look of knowing everything, and suddenly felt that he was really annoying.

He seemed to understand his depression and depression.Although he doesn't look like he's watching his own good show, it's really annoying to be seen through by others for such a small concern.

"He's not coming back, is he?" Lin Xu drank the water slowly.

"It's not that I won't come back, come back later, come back later."

"Don't be like this, Zhong Jinxi. Don't make yourself so embarrassed. This is just a very small thing in your love. If you have to bring out emotions about these, how can you last long?"

"I know, I know what you said, but you are not in this game, you don't understand."

"I only say this because I have experienced it." Zhong Jinxi looked at Lin Xu in astonishment, and Lin Xu continued, "I only persuade you like this because I have experienced it. Feelings are a gamble, and everyone has the same chips. You don't want to." Try your best to take other people's chips, and you can't easily let others take yours. It's not okay to blindly love or blindly want to be loved. Only when loving and being loved are equal can you not lose this bet."

After a while, Zhong Jinxi opened his mouth and said:

"I'm like, I'm not sure if Li Suran really loves me? It's been so long since we've been apart, and after the game, we have to play for a few days before coming back——I still asked Mr. Shen to call. Ordinary couples shouldn't want to make the most of it as soon as possible. Speed ​​back to your lover?"

"If you don't love, how can you be together? Same-sex love has to cross too big a gap, it's hard to accept if you don't really love."

"Sometimes I wonder if it's because he has been friends for too long and blurred the boundaries between friendship and love, so they are together speciously. After being a couple, I don't think there is much difference from being friends before."

Lin Xu smiled and patted Zhong Jinxi on the shoulder and said: "You just lack a sense of security. If he is not by your side, you feel uneasy, so you will think about finding a sense of existence. Believe me, everything will be fine when he comes back."

Zhong Jinxi suddenly grabbed Lin Xu's neck, and asked treacherously, "Hey, let me tell you, are you really gay?"

"You think I'm teasing you, among the same kind, I don't need to hide." In return, Zhong Jinxi almost pushed him off the chair.

"You've got to be pissed off." Zhong Jinxi looked rascal, "Strictly speaking, I just like to be aloof, and I don't like other boys. In this way, we are not exactly the same kind."

Lin Xu laughed at himself: "But I'm gay, a gay who is only interested in boys. Every one of my lovers is a boy, and I've been like this since I was a child."

"Are you afraid of strange eyes from others?"

"Of course not. I thought about it. If we recognize each other, I will go to a legal place to register our marriage with him, such as Switzerland." Lin Xu's lips curled into a faint smile, and there was a gleam of longing in his eyes , he looked at the somewhat quiet campus outside the window, and continued to outline a beautiful blueprint for the future: "You can go to Switzerland to register first, and honeymoon in Europe by the way. If our economic situation is good at that time, maybe we will immigrate there. Oh, far away .”

Zhong Jinxi seemed to be brought into that beautiful idea by him, even his eyes softened, and he smiled and said, "Tell me your story."

Lin Xu sighed and said, "I..."