Hechun and Jingming

He Chun returned to his second-hand apartment after drinking a stomach full of cold wind, without turning on the lights, he entered the room with the light of the street lamp outside, threw himself on the bed, closed his eyes for a while, felt sleepy, and opened his eyelids, Eyes are tired and the brain is typically overactive, preventing sleep.

He has all the problems of modern young people. He repeatedly swipes the software on his mobile phone when he can't fall asleep. A Weibo is enough for him to do half an hour.When Weibo just started, he applied for one for the company. At that time, it was relatively easy to operate a Weibo account. He put in a little thought and money, and gradually became a big blue V with millions of fans. There are still a lot of fans, and there are endless comments every time I open it.Now that the account is managed by a dedicated person, he occasionally logs in and doesn't even bother to take a closer look at it. Right now, he really has nothing to do, so he browses.

Sure enough, after watching it for half an hour, my neck tilted and I was able to fall asleep.

But he didn't stop falling asleep, he dreamed of Qu Jingming without any accident, a dream within a dream where he couldn't distinguish between reality and dream, he even laughed at himself in the dream: I really dreamed of this guy.Then he looked at himself and Qu Jingming like a bystander.

Still in his car, still in traffic jam, he had some questions in his mind, he didn't ask them in reality at that time, and it wasn't so clear, but now when he looked at the dream, it became very clear.He asked Qu Jingming: "Are you coming back just for the exchange program? If there is no exchange program, when do you plan to come back? Do you plan to come back?"

"Why haven't you contacted me for so many years?"

"You said you carried it with me, why did you leave like that?"

"Jingming, you lied to me."

"Jingming, have you..."

But Qu Jingming just looked at him, his eyes were like the ones he saw today, hidden behind the gold-rimmed glasses, they were beautiful but hateful.He tried his best to think about what Qu Jingming was like when he was a child... cold, always very cold... No, he was very nice to people later on, chatting and laughing with his classmates, female classmates even said that Qu Jingming was gentle , but only he knows that Qu Jingming is not like that, he just treats people coldly, as if the whole world is not worthy of being friends with him, he can despise people...

——Qu Jingming despises people, and He Chun once thought of this person in his heart.

Contempt is not a compliment, but he has people in his heart, he looks good at everything, and thinks Qu Jingming looks down on all beings is very cool; especially when he looks down on all beings, he is the only one who is good to him, and wants to drag him by his side It's the best.

But he didn't know that this kind of "best" still doesn't count.

In his dream, he couldn't ask the last question in his heart. Qu Jingming's eyes cast from behind his glasses. At first they were gentle, but then they became a little cold. Suddenly, the surroundings were filled with the sound of trumpets one after another. He raised his head and looked into the distance. , I vaguely saw the traffic lights, but I couldn't see which one was flashing, which made people feel very anxious.

He woke up anxiously.

He opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling, and for a moment the world was spinning, and the question that was pressed in his heart in the dream rushed out, and it was also stuck in his heart at this moment, in reality.

"Have you ever thought about me?"

Thinking about this question, he took a deep breath and sat up from the bed.It was already past midnight, and the residential area near the commercial center was also quiet. He listened carefully, trying to stop the movement on the main road outside, but after a while, he didn't hear the sound of the car he imagined, which made him feel a little lost for no reason. .

The mobile phone was at hand, and he flipped through a few more Weibo posts. There was nothing to look at, and he quit. His fingers inadvertently touched the address book on the first screen, and his heart skipped a beat. A strong urge.Over the years, the first contact in the address book of each of his mobile phones is Qu Jingming's number back then. Although he knew that number had stopped, as long as he kept it like this, he felt a sense of security, so it gradually became a habit. .

He quickly sent a text message to this number: After all these years, have you ever thought about me?

If this number has already been used, this text message may cause a storm to its current owner and his lover.But Hechun didn't care about these things. After sending the message, he suddenly felt refreshed. He stood up and walked around the room twice, then turned on the light, picked up his pajamas, and went to take a hot bath.

He still knew that it was impossible, but he still harbored delusions: what if there is a reply?What if Qu Jingming replied?

It has been four or five hours since I saw Qu Jingming, and the behavior pattern that governs his normal dealings with people has weakened and collapsed. He was exposed from that protective gas-like behavior pattern, and finally accepted what happened in the past few hours. What happened: Qu Jingming is back.

When I was protected, I didn't realize the impact of this incident on myself. Now that my consciousness is clear, I feel shocked. There is an inexplicable excitement running around in my body, hot and sharp, sweeping everywhere I go. Like a tide, in the middle of the night, he savagely lifted his numbness that had been thickly piled up over the years, revealing his tightly wrapped old enthusiasm.

It's hard for him to describe and define this kind of shock. It feels fresh after a long time, and it's enough to support him to work all night.

After all, he didn't receive a reply to the text message, but he didn't care anymore. After taking a shower, he turned on the computer energetically, and he really worked on the two documents all night, and he didn't go to sleep until midnight. At seven o'clock in the morning, he was on time again. Woke up.

He works like this all the year round, but he doesn't feel very tired. After work, he holds a meeting that he thought about at night, and then goes to the office of some department leader to drink tea and talk about it, prepare for his next project, and return to the company near the end of work time. In the company, a little tiredness surfaced just now, and he planned to lie down in the office for a while before going to the hospital to pick up Qu Jingming.

Unexpectedly, when he opened the door and entered the office, there was Qu Jingming sitting inside.

"Hey, you..."

His female assistant came running from behind, holding the door and explaining: "This gentleman said that he made an appointment with you after work, and I think it's almost here, let him wait for you in the reception room of your office..."

The voice of the female assistant is getting lower and lower. She probably also feels that she is talking nonsense. She is so dazed by her own lust that she easily puts a person without any appointment certificate into the leader's office and is a little scared. She just asks the leader not to hold her accountable. This little mistake.

In fact, her leader didn't bother to pursue it.

Hechun waved her hand to let her go, and pretended to be warm and generous in receiving guests like a wolf with a big tail, closed the office door, and said with a smile on his face: "Why did you come here by yourself? , you contact my sister and give me a call, even if I'm not in the company, I can send someone to pick you up... Would you like some coffee?"

Qu Jingming pointed to the cup in front of him: "Your assistant made tea."

There is a fully automatic coffee machine in Hechun's office. He usually entertains people. He will grind coffee beans and make coffee by himself, making the atmosphere of the whole conversation relaxed and pleasant.This is his small means of communication, and the effect has been good, and he is quite proud of it.But today he ground himself a cup of coffee in front of Qu Jingming, and suddenly felt that this little trick was too cunning, which made him a little embarrassed.

"Your hospital gets off work very early, doesn't it?"

Qu Jingming pointed to the clock on his wall: "Fortunately, it's usually an hour earlier than the corporate unit. I just passed by today, and I'm not busy, so I'll come out early to do something."

He Chun said: "Do you need my help?"

He was just asking. Over there, Qu Jingming nodded very calmly: "If it's convenient, stop when you pass the telecommunications company later, and I'll go in and change a card."

Hearing this, Hechun had a strange premonition, and he fixed his eyes: "What card?"

Qu Jingming: "The previous card cannot be replaced abroad. It has been kept in an antique phone. I will go to the telecommunications company to change a small card in a while, and improve the user information by the way."

Hechun's scalp was numb: "What number?"

Qu Jingming raised the corners of his lips, with a half-smile: "It's just the old number. It was suspended for half a year when I first left. Later, when my father came over, he asked him to bring it to me. It was also activated. But it didn't work much. But, no use."

He Chun: "..."

The office fell into a brief silence, He Chun looked at him, and kept circling a fact in his mind: that is to say, that number was always connected, connected, connected... and it was connected in Qu Jingming's hands Go!In other words, he could see, see, and see the text message he sent out on impulse last night!In other words... I have now been exposed.

Between asking clearly and throwing people to death, Hechun fell into a situation where he didn't want to choose between left and right, and only felt that being hypocritical late at night was really unnecessary.

He looked at the smile that gradually bloomed on Qu Jingming's face, feeling ashamed and resentful. Look at it, it was this kind of smile, it looked natural, organic and harmless. It corrupted his shrewd and capable female assistant and let the wolf into the house.Now, this wolf's every move, every look, made him terrified. For a moment, he was a little like the fear that he always faced when he was a child, suspecting that Qu Jingming already knew his own thoughts.

Fortunately, Qu Jingming didn't torture him for too long, and gave him a good death by hanging for two seconds: "I saw the text message. I thought it's better to tell you in person, so I came here by myself."

He Chun thought, fortunately, I was leaning against the desk.

Otherwise, it would be really embarrassing if the legs slipped and slipped.

Qu Jingming said: "I thought about it, otherwise I wouldn't come back. Hechun."

He stood up, and now they are about the same height, separated by a tea table, looking at each other at the same level, He Chun's legs are not weak all of a sudden, and his heart is not so nervous, he has a premonition of what Qu Jingming is going to say, it should be said, Since he was at He Rong's house yesterday, this is what has made him irritated.

But this time Qu Jingming still poked his irritability and said: "I'm sorry."

After hearing this, He Chun didn't have the same resistance that he had to interrupt or block yesterday, but he was deeply disappointed in his heart.

He was simple-minded when he was a child. At first, he fell in love with Qu Jingming in a daze. He didn't have any distracting thoughts. He just thought he was good-looking and interesting. He wanted to be with him. When he was really lucky to have sex, touched, kissed, and kissed each other, he felt thick in his heart, his self-confidence swelled, and he blindly believed that it was a long-term relationship.

But later it turned out that his steadfastness and self-confidence were all vulnerable.No one even really came to "hit" him, He Rong, the old lady, Qu Yang, these people lightly kicked the bottom of the pot, and he was stunned, powerless to fight back.He hated that kind of powerlessness, hated that he could not dominate himself, hated that his self-esteem was trampled by the sense of powerlessness.

He hates it so much, so he has worked hard to be strong all these years, to own so many things, to have the right to speak.At this time, he didn't want to know how Qu Jingming dealt with the obstacles and blows they experienced together when he was on the other side.If he has struggled hard, then he will feel that he is of no help and very useless; if he gives in easily, leaves, and actively chooses to remain silent, then he will feel let down, very lonely, and very unwilling.

Right now, saying "I'm sorry" seems to confirm that Qu Jingming clearly had a way to keep in touch with him and maintain a relationship with him, but he gave up—abandoned him.

How is he not lost.

Qu Jingming seemed to be giving him time to digest, and after saying that, he stopped talking.He stood by the desk blankly, Qu Jingming went to the coffee machine and made his ground coffee, filled his cup, brought it over, and pushed it in front of him.The two faced each other in silence for a while, the clock pointed to the hour, and the sound of getting off work gradually sounded outside.

He Chun drank a couple of sips of the coffee that Qu Jingming poured for him, checked whether the car keys were on him, calmed down, looked at Qu Jingming again, and said, "Let's go, I'm off work by then."

Qu Jingming looked at him motionlessly: "I have one more sentence, I didn't finish telling you yesterday."

He Chun raised his chin, his eyes wandering: "You say."

Qu Jingming: "According to the hospital's plan, I can go back in half a year. But I can also have a personal plan, I mean," he paused, pursed his lips slightly, and showed a slight smile, "Can you give me a chance?"

Hechun felt a little dizzy.

The author has something to say:

small theater

Chun'er: Obviously, you are OOC!

Mingming: Where?

Chun'er: You actually chased me!

Mingming: Oh, then what are you doing now?

Chun'er: Pick you up for dinner!

Mingming: (smiling)